a feminist outsider

Final Cause: Radical Feminism, the Cause of causes. My personal diary.

[guy4progress]

how does this make sense?

[lesbianseparatist]

Dykes-Loving-Dykes, Battleaxe. 1990.

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I've got short hair like her now. :)

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"Conclusion Though women have suffered from many types of illnesses throughout the years, the common trends persist: women's madness stems from man's attempts to maintain power, and the mental illnesses of today are a result of years of oppression. Women are thus not naturally the weaker sex- man has made her so."^^

[radfeminist-blog]

I believe that most heterosexual intercourse i.e. PIV or penis in vagina sex, under patriarchy, is effectively rape. This sounds a controversial and extreme position. However, it perhaps appears less so when we consider the evidence.

Most women are educated into the idea that sex with a man = PIV. So sex without Penis in Vagina, is not full sex or not really sex. I, along with many women, was taught that I could choose whether or not to have sex with a man, but if I did, that would involve PIV.

I was taught that sex = PIV, through sex education classes, Hollywood films and the idea of virginity. All 3 present PIV as real sex, and everything else as foreplay or extras.

In addition, we have the existence of compulsory heterosexuality. This phrase describes how all of us are educated, forced or cajoled as children and teenagers into being heterosexual. At the extreme end there is forced marriage and child brides. But even when we think we have chosen heterosexuality, the reality is that our whole upbringing constantly told us as girls that we are heterosexual and that we will have a relationship with a man.

This is done by asking us as young girls if we have a boyfriend in a teasing manner, our mothers giving us advice about boyfriends before we are dating, books and films aimed at children where a girl or woman has a boyfriend, playing at weddings, etc. Girls are constantly told they are heterosexual and that they will have boyfriends.

So as women we have been often been educated or cajoled into being heterosexual. We are taught that we must have a male partner. And when we have, we are told that if we want sex, we must have PIV. 

So can women really be said to consent under patriarchy to PIV sex? And if they don’t meaningfully consent, would you call that rape?

I think this is true.

I was never interested in becoming heterosexual as a girl. :) I only imagined having cats. Not being with a man (or woman). I wanted to have a relationship with a man once. but he didn't want to. Now I'm decidedly lesbian. But I don't think I'll be in a lesbian relationship. I won't have sex with any man anymore. For political reasons.

[lesbianseparatist]

‘Lesbian Incest Survivors: A Particular Courage,’ Sareh Allisen. Lesbian Ethics, spring 1992.

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Awesome! :D

[unichrome]

“I don’t hate men” is probably one of the most common phrases a feminist utters, regardless of what they actually feel about it. Not saying those words would otherwise lead to a chain of abuse from men. So let me start with the mandatory “I don’t hate men…”-introduction:

I don’t hate men, but I totally understand those who do. But stating that you hate men is one of the worst thing to say, if you do, your opinions suddenly mean nothing, your worth as a human being decreases (even more), you are deemed irrational, mean, angry, bitch, exaggerating, evil, etc. etc.

It doesn’t matter if you have been assaulted, abused, raped, tortured, demeaned, devalued, underestimated, used and/or had your family/friends murdered by men through your whole life. Even implying that you dislike or distrust men is so over the top bad, because “not every man did that to you”. Not every fire has burned me either, but everything that has burned me has been fire. The correct response to that is fearing, avoiding and distrusting fire, which is what most people do.

But that doesn’t go for men obviously. Patriarchy demands 100% love and dedication to men, for they are the gods of the earth. Hearing someone say they hate them is a severe blow to the male ego, and must be fixed. Regardless of whatever reason for hating them was.

My own life has been (so far) relatively free from the worst sides of men, that is why I don’t feel a high level of distrust, fear or hate towards them. But I know that I’m just one of the lucky few women who haven’t.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that hating men is a perfectly logical thing to do, if your life has been ruined by them.

[lesbianseparatist]

Gutter Dyke Collective, East Bay Queers. Dykes and Gorgons, may-june 1973

[lesbianseparatist]

‘The Mystery of Lesbians III,’ Julia Penelope in Lesbian Ethics, fall 1985.

[pulsekraft]

I'm just scared of choosing anyone ;) I mean,...we all know that (pseudo-)lesbians can be misogynistic. therefore, I'm sceptical. Very. And I can understand these women. Because other women can hurt you more than men often. right?

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friend-less

I really try to be a grown up. I mean I am one. But still. I want and need a mommy. Because I am a human being. It's natural. But I don't know what I can do about it.

I also want a female friend. I told the psychotherapist that I had my last female friend when I was 11 years old.

What is the opposite of a funfem? A loserfem (me) ;D I was wondering about "Women's Studies". If it exists somewhere. I intended to study it.

What I don't like about feminism: it's dead. It's absolutely natural that I am an unhappy woman. Why do I even have to explain myself to anyone. It's obvious.

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random personal links from summer = surprise box ;D

http://www.lauras-playground.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=17889

http://voices.yahoo.com/topic/17747/emotional_abuse.html?cat=25

http://www.plim.org/Male%20and%20Female%20Androgyny.htm

http://www.nephilim.nl/

http://public.onelook.com/

http://www.couriermail.com.au/lifestyle/left-brain-v-right-brain-test/story-e6frer4f-1111114604318?sv=cf6fcaf2deb7f400b7d3b2c5e4a6c3dc

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and this was from...my 'mary daly research day' (TM) ;)

http://www.boston.com/news/local/breaking_news/2010/01/mary_daly_pione.html

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/bostonglobe/obituary.aspx?pid=138262217

http://www.legacy.com/guestbook/bostonglobe/guestbook.aspx?n=mary-daly&pid=138207379&cid=full

http://www.legacy.com/memorial-sites/poets/profile-search.aspx?beginswith=All

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/bostonglobe/obituary.aspx?pid=138207379

http://insightscoop.typepad.com/2004/2010/01/mary-daly-radical-elemental-feminist-godhater-manbasher-selfdescribed.html

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2010/jan/27/mary-daly-obituary

http://www.newyorker.com/archive/1996/02/26/1996_02_26_076_TNY_CARDS_000374159

http://www.truewoman.com/?id=944

http://www.stephen-hand.net/2011/06/mary-daly-witch-of-boston-college-note.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wikipedia:List_of_online_newspaper_archives#Massachusetts

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1f spiritualität 15./16.17.8. /Tagebuch

Jedenfalls sind die meisten Anruferinnen aus Bayern und fast keine aus Hamburg.Und auch die Beraterinnen sind häufig aus Bayern. #Astrologie

"Hamburgerinnen glauben nicht an die Astrologie. Die spirtuellsten Frauen wohnen in Bayern." - Deshalb kann ich Hamburg nicht ab. :/

Ich bin am falschen Ort zur falschen Zeit und überhaupt. ;) Was ich mag: diese beiden Wörter: "spirituell begabt" ;D Bayerinnen haben… meinen größten Respekt.

Hamburgerinnen wurden wahrscheinlich so schlecht erzogen, dass sie nicht bei der Astrohotline anrufen. Sie wurden verdorben. :S

Wie ist wohl der (Hamburger) Durchschnitt für Astrologieberatungen? Ich habe 3 Mal bei Astrologen angefragt. Und jetzt hätte ich wieder… gerne eine Beratung :)

"Deshalb bieten viele auch "Lebensberatung" an, weil sie gute Gesprächspartner sind." #Astrologie

Deshalb meine ich, dass Astrologen beides übernehmen sollten. Das Wissen sollte in einer Person liegen. So geht es am besten. :) Dafür… müsste die Astrologie anerkannt und entwickelt werden.

Frauen vertrauen ja wohl irgendwie der Astrologie. Also muss sie ernst genommen werden und entwickelt werden... Astrologie müsste auch zur… Allgemeinbildung gehören.

Ich habe es selbst festgestellt, dass sich Astrologie und Psychologie gegenseitig sehr gut befruchten können. Ich weiß gar nicht, wie das… überhaupt zu trennen ist. o.O Sie kann den Menschen auf verschiedenste Arten von größtem Nutzen sein.

Heute habe ich gedacht: ich bin der "Meta-Mensch". Ich suche zu allem die Distanz und ich muss es aus einer "Vogelperspektive" betrachten...

I've been reading about personality disorders once more. Also a good preparation for my appointment tomorrow. :)

There are three Clusters of personality disorders and now I think I've got one of every cluster. lol

-_- I think I'm a total jerk in the real world. I talked to a psychologist. I didn't mention Feminism or Astrology. Would she understand it?

I'm exhausted. I don't like to talk about my 'problems'. The woman was okay but I feel like a worthless idiot now, a poor helpless thing.^^

I'm actually not sure if "therapy" is a good thing for me. It might take my joy of life away. It could depress me. Is it normal? :(

es ist mir sehr wichtig, als Frau anerkannt zu sein. Und Teil einer Frauengemeinschaft zu sein. Da bin ich empfindlich..

meine Identität als Frau wurde mir weggenommen. Durch die Gesellschaft,meine Mutter und jetzt gerade wieder durch andere Frauen.

ja, früher hatte ich eine "pseudo-männliche" Identität. Deshalb war ich krank.

erst seit ich den radikalen Feminismus kenne, schäme ich micht nicht mehr so, eine Frau zu sein. Wenig bis gar nicht.

deshalb mach mich "girl power"-feminismus-verblödung so wütend. Weil es in meinen Augen sinnloser Selbstbetrug is.

wegen der misogynie wurde ich eine "gespaltene Persönlichkeit".Das ist meine Überzeugung.Deshalb bin ich so "widersprüchlich" :/

Mary Daly hat das ganz klar erkannt als sie sagte alle Frauen sind multipel. :) Und es passt alles zusammen.

I think I am a wonderful human being. When I told the psychologist about alcohol I couldn't stop laughing. Yeah, it felt intimate. She said: "it is just sad."

du bist nicht spirituell, Christian. Du bist eine aussterbende Art. Wir tragen in uns das Potenzial in Zukunft zu bestehen.

Ich glaube, ich habe ein "Lebensmotto" für mich gefunden: "Alles zu seiner Zeit". Ist das gut? ;) Ich hatte bisher kein Lebensmotto.

Manuela Schmidt beschäftigt neben bspw Kartenlegern ausgebildete Astrologen. Sie sagt, sie beschäftige auch Menschen ohne Ausbildung.

"Wir glauben daran, dass sie andere Dinge sehen und fühlen als wir. .. Das sind oft "hellsichtige" Frauen, die einen Schicksalsschlag… erlebt haben und deswegen feinfühliger geworden sind."

Hm. Das fand ich interessant. Wäre es gut wenn alle Menschen feinfühliger sind?

One feature of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is disturbed gender/sexual identity. That's why I can relate to transgenders. :)

Borderliners are more frequently homosexual or bisexual than non-borderliners. Interesting :) I don't know if I have BPD. ;)

I just know that my identity is disturbed. I need a good and stable identity.

I've found sth. interesting: '13 - The Borderline Bi-Sexuality Of Many Mystics' I tweeted that non-heterosexuality was a priest-thing! :)

It means IF WE ALL BECOME BI-SEXUAL WE WILL ALL BE SHAMANS! :DD lol

That's what #feminism is about <3 the integration of the sexes xD as I said: to become whole and quintessential. Like Mary Daly said... ;D

I have this theory that feminism exists to improve the human race. And that patriarchy was/is needed to push womankind onto that next level.

To realize the Aquarian Age actually. People need to change to achieve this blessed state. ;) Like the second coming as Mary Daly named it.

something like that. Mary Daly said women of the future will all have/use ESP = Extra Sensory Perception.

AQUARIUS is this "androgynous" being. And it is intelligent.

Of course I prefer the non-masculine men. But I also dislike "effeminate" men as they display patriarchal femininity. Needs differentiation.

I also prefer the non-feminine women in case you did not know. xD And they are of course the "lesbian feminist" types.

'I just did a count of my tarot collection. Not counting duplicates and not counting non-tarot oracles, I have … 677 decks. Sweet.' - xD

This is from the woman who also loved the feminist book "The First Sex" by Elizabeth Gould Davis. :)

ok. I'm a pwBPD. I hadn't know much about BPD. But now it's perfectly obvious. e.g. Dissociation/conversion disorder is part of it. Nice :)

Spiritual Traits v Bipolar/Borderline Symptoms (Hypomania). http://wp.me/pJdM1-1J  via @rachel8125 - I could've written this text o.O

"It would be interesting to know how many other BD/BPD sufferers also have had spiritual experiences." - me. ;)

I've found out I'm an INFP personality type, a 'Healer', idealist. Lady Di was an INFP, too. So were Orwell and Huxley. :)

I'm really addicted to the "Requiem". I don't know what it means. It scares me a bit. It just sounds so good. ;) But I feel I shouldn't…listen to it for many hours every day....Because when I do I feel very lonely. Like I'm the only person in the world. I've realized that this psychiatric hospital isn't the right thing. I distrust women who make loud noises while walking. And then thesecretary was half-naked on Thursday. Looked very obscene. Disgusting! :S It makes me angry. And it's also a rather small place.

Omg there was a visitor from the UK in the shop with another woman. Hearing her talk made me instantly feel good! :) Later she was before…me at the checkout. She bought a sandwich etc What a surprise! It reminded me that I could actually feel good if I was somewhere else. Maybe. It reminded me of a nice place.

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testosterone/madness 1e

http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hysterie

http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissoziative_St%C3%B6rung

http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wahnsinn

clitoridectomy: 1866, from Gk. klitorid- (see clitoris) + -ectomy. Originally in reference to a proposed cure for hysteria.

-ectomy: "surgical removal," from Gk. -ektomia "a cutting out of," from ektemnein "to cut out," from ek "out" (see ex-) + temnein "to cut"

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Female_hysteria

I wrote: I want to be a nun. I'm kind of a nun :)

"One biographer suggested Diana suffered from borderline personality disorder." #INFP http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INFP

INFPs are one of the rarer types, accounting for about 4-5% of the population http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Healer_%28Role_Variant%29

Healers are prone to errors of fact as they follow their feelings more than they follow logical analysis. However, following their feelings also means that Healers seldom make errors of feeling.

I could tell her: I'm sensitized: I read abt MPD when I was 13 & was informed abt ritual abuse at 16. Last year I learned abt "Mind conrol".

INFP (Introverted feeling with intuiting): 'You find them in psychology, architecture & religion but never in business' http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/pttemp.html

Don't get me wrong. ;) I'm atypical borderline. I do enjoy being alone but it's unhealthy to be alone all the time. I also don't feel emptiness or boredom (rarely). I'm too curious to be bored. And I'm usually full of thoughts so there's no room for any void (mostly). My… curiosity is actually the source of my joy. I don't need to have ppl always close to me. I have internet. :D I can be close from adistance... I have an intimacy problem. That's true

I'm kind of an autistic borderline and a borderline feminist. I also think "hysteria" is connected to patriarchy.

Now 1% of the population are supposed to be borderliners. What does it mean?

@allesevolution Ich habe bemerkt, dass ich mit mir selbst spreche wenn ich dir antworte. Ich möchte meinen inneren Christian überwinden.

O_o I thought I was a normal female somehow but it is now evident that I have a hormonal imbalance. Too much testosterone. It causes… everything I experience.

I experienced hypomania. Testosterone tends to enhance dopamine in the medial tracts of the RIGHT BRAIN. xD It is responsible for… creativity, aggressiveness, impulsivity and autistic traits.

I knew it was something in the right brain. But I thought that was the 'FEMALE' hemisphere of the brain.^^ The 'inner child' side. So it's… probably the female side but my female side tends to be 'masculinized'. lol It's this whole 'schizotypal'/Asperger thing. -_- #testosterone

I think that's kind of the reason why borderliners tend to be non-heterosexual... O.O I have a dominant right side of the brain. In case your forgot. ;)

So finally that's why I connected feminism to being aggressive and dominant and controlling. xD

I'm not quite sure but I've been feeling that a change in my brain took place. Maybe my left side was dominant before. It could be.

Women with 'hysteria'/dissociation or personality disorders just might be less feminine than average women. And women with eating disorders as well. They often overlap. I've read that Aspergers tend to over-eat. And it's caused by a lower level of estrogen or by an "extreme male brain". Or they tend to be anorectic

Feminism to me means that I maintain a firm belief system which is an autistic trait.

However, "intuitive leaps of logic" are supposed to be happening in a dopaminergic right brain (Previc). #testosterone

Testosterone is also given in treatment of depression. But why am I also depressed? It's the right side as well. Creativity and depression… are linked. And people with autistic traits/Asperger also frequently suffer from depression or ADHS.

Whereas FTMs show more autistic traits than typical heterosexual men and women I've read. That's after hormone therapy. Only Aspergers show… more autistic traits.

I also know now that I'm creative. Before I doubted it but recently had the intuition that I am. Dissociation is a form of creativity of… the psyche. The creativity can be absorbed by it. So if many women dissociate it means they have no creativity left and it doesn't become apparent. I guess.

Mary Daly said ;D that women under patriarchy must dissociate at least to a low degree to survive. It's where their creativity goes

Maybe men are more often left-handed because they... "Obama" is left-handed. He's liberal and Aquarius, progressive. I think he:.. I don't… know! XD Aquarius is right brain that's for sure. Right brain women are the future lol It's what "androgyny" or "bi-sexuality" means.… Autistic traits will increase among the population. Depression is like the dark side of creativity?

"The dissonance between external reality and ourselves becomes manifest in creativity." So creativity is kind of a "pain process"?

"Creativity/humour as compensation for low self-esteem and social isolation."

This means the more dissonance between the external and internal reality exists the more creative/depressed will one become.

So that seems like a struggle. ;) like bipolar ;) It's caused by eccentricity somehow. You are different.

If many people/women become depressed. It means something with the external reality is wrong.

The external reality needs eventually to adapt. Creativity is a means to change it I suppose or a try. It's what madness is about. Like… …"DESPAIR", the Fassbinder adaption of the book. ;) Fassbinder said it's either madness or death for him.

Interesting. Suddenly I know what Saturn and Mars in Scorpio in the 6th House means. I felt forced and put all my strenght and power into… adjusting to my environment. I have a Sun - Saturn opposition. It's like paralysis.

It's what an astrologer had told me years ago. But I didn't understand anything then and I didn't know my birth chart. He also suggested… trauma healing. Oh well, and Pluto is in that house, too. Opposite Venus. It makes sense.

With the Saturn Return I've been experiencing things change. The changes will continue until I'm about 30. ;) 27 - 30. I like the idea of… this big planet moving somewhere and having some influence on my life. haha

Mars. You could substitute it for testosterone, couldn't you? It's a male planet. I have Cancer in Moon in the 1st House. It means I'mpretty sensitive. I'm kind of the child who clings to its mother for nurture. It could be that as I was especially sensitive I needed much…

protection from the bad environment. So Mars/testosterone needed to be there/supplied to produce much creativity to protect me. It's a… protection mechanism for painful experience.

And now this is what Alice Miller said. Childhood trauma causes creativity. And the more sensitive a child is or severe the trauma is the… more it is needed. Way too much testosterone might lead to schizophrenia.

Therefore, I think it's okay to relate 'bi-sexuality' to childhood "trauma". It can be a mild form though. ;) Maybe 'bi-sexuals' are just…more sensitive people on average.

It simply means that the environment you grew up in couldn't meet your special needs.

Interesting: "Dissociative Identity Disorder may be quite difficult to detect, since in both this case and the previously reported case the… alters wishing surgery were very dominant and intent on keeping the others away in order to have the surgery." #FTM

"If not required integration of alters before gender reassignment surgery is done, at the very least there should be informed consent or… consensus of all (known) alters before GRS surgery." #Transgenderism

I think that Monarch Programming is very very real. Don't be fooled. I was kind of re-traumatized last May. When I learned about it. When a… youtube video informed me that Rihanna was 'raped' in the 'Umbrella' video etc. Maybe then my body started to produce even more… testosterone. Later I started to get into feminism. It encouraged me to be less feminine which caused hypomania. The last days I've had… some pseudo-hallucinations again. I'm puzzled. Now I have anxiety and I'm feeling derealization. Maybe it's all made up.

"Women with schizophrenia also have lower estrogen levels than healthy women." - I don't know if I'm schizophrenic.

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identity struggles pt. 1d

The Disadvantages of Intrapersonal Intelligence http://www.ehow.com/info_8728319_disadvantages-intrapersonal-intelligence.html

I'm an advocate for "hermaphroditism" I guess. But I think "trans" has been exploited and transgenders aren't always honest or they don't… look into their psyche. Surgery is also self-mutilation

I dreamed I was watching old footage of Depeche Mode and I was surprised at discovering that Martin L. Gore had breasts.^^

The day hospital called me. They accept me for a "2 weeks trial treatment". O.o How ridiculous. Should I agree? Normally it's 8 weeks.

"Ehemänner und Väter gaben "liederliche" Frauen in die Hände von Gynäkologen zur Kastration oder für andere Formen radikaler Behandlung."

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identity struggles pt. 1c (delusions or a clear sight? ;)

dazu empfehle ich dirt's Blog. da musst du uns vertrauen. ;) trans soll das gender straight jacket auftrechterhalten.ich bin für bi-sexualität und gegen verstümmelung und selbsthass. das geht oft mit transsexualität einher. ich wollte früher ein schwuler mann sein. ich kenne das. dabei war ich im grunde schon längst ein "schwuler mann". = bi-sexuell bloß dass ich dachte alles Weibliche sei minderwertig. Frauen die das kennen können auch "trans" richtig einschätzen, denke ich. ich dachte frau heißt langweilig und ich wollte das nicht. ich wollte frei sein. früher dachte ich, ich sei trans. aber im grunde lag es daran, dass es keine frauen gab, die vorbilder sein konnten. nicht-feminine, denen ich vertrauen konnte also nicht-feminine frauen, dei frausein anders definieren. die es mit stärke und intelligenz usw verbinden. und die einen überzeugen, das weiblichkeit eigentlich ziemlich cool ist, so dass man die patriarchalen lügen nicht mehr glaubt. "trans" heißt "bi-sexuell". das wird aber durch geschlechtsumwandlung zerstört. es gibt nur noch entweder/oder. und oftmals trauen sich frauen nur so zu sein wie sie sind nach einer "geschlechtsumwandlung". dann sind sie halt queer/schwul. dann leben sie die weiblichen eigenschaften. oder sie sind männlich, dann geht es nur wenn sie als mann gesehen werden.

"Ich machte früher Tranceinduktion, schamanische Reisen nach Art der mongloischen Jurtenheiler, um jemand zu unterstützen"

Ja, weil du psychisch bi-sexuell bist. Bi-sexualität ist der schlüssel zu allem. DER Schlüssel. Das ist Aquarius. Deshalb muss transsexualität = geschlechtsumwandlung verhindert werden. Sonst wärst du nämlich jetzt ein Mann ;) Shamanen sind immer bi-sexuell. Sie sind Propheten. Ohne sie kommt keine gesellschaft voran. Deshalb versucht man visionäre auszulöschen durch psychiatrie/medizin Und potenzielle visionäre/revolutionskräfte im keim schon zu ersticken Alle menschen sind leicht bi-sexuell, aber einige sind besonders ausgeprägt bi-sexuell und daher gefährdet, opfer des transmythos zu werden.

Dagegen kämpfen feministinnen. Meistens, da sie selbst ausgeprägter bi-sexuell als die norm sind :) sie waren als erste pro-"androgynität".

Sie sind natürliche priesterinnen, aber das patriarchat verwehrt es uns. Auch das inspirieren von anderen frauen soll durch transmänner.. ..unterbunden werden.Transmänner sollen für ausgeprägt bi-sexuelle Mädchen das einzige vorbild sein So können sie nicht zu Rebellen werden;) Dazu bräuchten sie nämlich auch ihre weibliche energie, aber die wird durch transitioning und frauenhass ausgelöscht. Sie werden kastriert.

Ich halte operationen und hormonbehandlungen für gefährlich, ja. Und das geschlechtsbild welches damit zementiert wird.

Intersex sollten nicht operiert werden wenn sie nicht krank sind. Ist doch toll, wenn leute außergewöhnlich sind.

Ich habe hysterie. Früher hätten sie mich lobotomisiert, hysterektomie etc. Heute lassen sich viele freiwillig behandeln.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Creativity_and_mental_illness

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eccentricity_%28behavior%29

http://dirtywhiteboi67.blogspot.de/2012/08/psychiatrys-illegitimacy.html?spref=tw

"Mental illness was a misplaced metaphor, a socially constructed way of permitting an ever-wider selection of behaviors..."to be forcibly controlled under the guise of helping people." New York psychiatrists diagnosed nearly 62% of their patients as schizophrenic, while in London only 34% received this diagnosis

the epidemic of autism, a formerly rare condition afflicting less than one in five hundred children in 1990,.." ..which has now mushroomed into a disease found in one in every ninety children.." Display any six out of ten symptoms, and voilà, a schizophrenic." nice ;) okay, I've believed in the dopamine theory. what else could it be? it just seems logical to me. "Many people have been fighting the farce and assault that is psychiatry since its inception." "Nowadays, in many countries, political prisoners are sometimes confined and abused in mental institutions." 'Psychiatry possesses a built-in capacity for abuse that is greater than in other areas of medicine.' - :) .the term "Martha Mitchell effect" was coined to describe mental health misdiagnoses when accurate claims are dismissed as delusional."

"Angels and Faeries too, are usually perceived as androgynous beings. The reflections of Transgender Spirit are ancient and deep."

 "a number of people have noted a higher incidence of existential depression, which is depression due to seemingly highly abstract concerns" http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intellectual_giftedness

..such as the finality of death, the ultimate unimportance of individual people, and the meaning (or lack thereof) of life." "Gifted individuals are also more likely to feel existential anxiety."

2. Welle möchte radikale veränderung des systems, die anderen wollen gleichstellung innerhalb d systems,es höchstens reformieren

Now I really know why radical feminist are opposed to the medical system which promotes transsexuality and its diagnosis. Or why radical feminists should be against transsexuality? O.o

ja, ich verstehe es jetzt ganz genau. Sie können einen töten: mein Ego und meine Wahrheit.

ich glaube ich werde die 3. Welle. Die verbesserte version. Fit für die zukunft. xD

wir kommen auf keinen zweig. Du verstehst nicht, dass transmedizin Kastration ist. Wie früher bei den hysterischen frauen.

es ist die selbe medizin, die alles abweichende ausmerzen will.

femininität wird künstlich hergestellt, die differenz wird verstärkt dadurch. Femininität hindert uns daran bi-sexuell zu sein.

Why have transgendered males always scared me? Because they demonstrate & promote a form of femaleness which existentially threatens me.

But as I said before I have always appreciated non-masculine men. So there's definitely a big difference. #transgender

je mehr ftms es gibt desto weniger Lesben gibt es. Das ist eine ganz einfache gleichung :)

Mentors: "It appears that highly creative people know how to foster creativity in others."

durch Daly bin ich Feministin geworden. Sie hat mich inspiriert. Wenn es trans damals gegeben hätte, wäre sie ftm geworden.. um theologie und philosophie zu studieren. Sie wäre keine feministin geworden. Wie traurig. und sie wäre dann natürlich auch nicht die erste Amerikanerin mit einem Doktor in "sacred theology" geworden.^^

Inspiration: ca. 1300: immediate influence of God or a god; from O.Fr. inspiracion "inhaling, breathing in; inspiration", from in- "in";… spirare "to breathe" (see 'spirit') -- spirit: from L. spiritus "soul, courage, vigor, breath". Plural form 'spirits' "volatile substance"is an alchemical idea, first attested in 1610; sense narrowed in "strong alcoholic liquor" by 1670s. I meant to watch this Simone de Beauvoir documentary. -.- But I don't really like to watch tv anymore. Watching tv disturbs me lol xD I've read a couple of articles. :) "Gifted women: Identity and Expression", "Misdiagnosis of the Gifted" etc. I've always wanted to be… gifted...to be intelligent, mentally ill, gay, abused, left-handed etc. It was an obsession. Now I got internet. I can indulge in this obsession. I can find links. I'm not sure if it's normal to want to be mentally ill etc. or if it's a mental illness I haven't heard of yet I think perception is a very subjective thing. Therefore, it can change. e.g. the face of another person can change because you change. Now… I can see it's possible to believe that somebody looks like you while they don't. Like Hermann in #Despair. :) You can never know what somebody 'really' looks like. lol It's a bit scary. You only see what you're able to see. What you need to see. I've got a serious identity problem. :/

"I'm going to seek professional help. And then it's all better, right?"

You are wonderful! :) Read about ppl with disorders. They're just very sensitive and naturally have low self-esteem.

read about 'personality disorders'. It might improve ur sense of self-worth. Or maybe face the fact no one loves u right now i mean to get over that feeling. Imagine staying alone forever and try to say: life would still be worth living.

that you are worthy independently from what other people think or how they relate to you. You are your own god. ;)

i feel hurt when ppl unfollow me and when nobody understands me. Nobody shares my views. :( It makes me hate myself.

as long as I have hope i want to live.

[pulsekraft]

identity struggles pt. 1b

Für @hourof13 sind feminine Frauen also nicht stark und intelligent. Immer diese Alt-Lesben/Feministinnen. Fördern auch noch Sexismus. #wtf

Interessant. Ich bin Frauenhasser, Sexist, Sexistin, Alt-Lesbe, Feministin. Danke dafür, dass ihr mir alle eine Identität gebt. :)

Every woman in the world hates/doesn't understand me. Is it in any way surprising that I become insane?

"Alt-Lesbe/Feministin" ist natürlich abwertend gemeint. Ein Schimpfwort. Diese Menschen sollte es gar nicht geben. Sie sind Störenfriede.

Nein, ihr Arschlöcher. Es gibt mich. Und ich störe solange ich lebe.

Igitt, eine alte Frau! Und dann noch ehrlich feministisch! :O Lieber bleibe ich für immer Mädchen. Ich bin aber ein ganz böses Mädchen. :P

I'm opposed to transsexuality. Since I became a feminist.

Being a feminist to me it doesn't mean I stick to a certain ideology. It means I'll try to find truths. It means inspired thinking.

It's not even been one year since I became a feminist. I've read a lot but it needs more time to get it. It's not even been a year.

But I started with radical feminism which I suppose is a good sign. I can expect further development.

Hm, the difference is I don't want to be a slut. I prefer nuns and priests. xD I was never a girl and I'd like to become a wise woman.

#reading Chapter II: Varieties of Female Friendship: The Nun As Loose Woman (Janice G. Raymond) ;)

Schon @depry hatte festgestellt, dass mein inneres Kind nicht gerade feminin aussieht ;) und ich hatte gesagt,dass es geschlechtsneutral ist

Hm, maybe priesthood is really the original profession of gays and bi-sexuals. :) That's why many priests are gay.

In German there's one word "geistig" and it translates as "mental", "intellectual", "spiritual". When I was young I was told that I belong… to Germany's future intellectual leaders. Yeah, it's what the teacher told us ;D So yeah I think these convents were kind of anintellectual place and the women in them were supposed to be mentally ill, right? They were kind of the elite, right? If I want to be a… nun it proves I'm bi-sexual. I should be part of the world's intellectual and therefore spiritual elite.^^ I'm worthy of education hahaha I think bi-sexuals are supposed to be the world's leaders. Many are already. Yes. Like the pope. And.. Illuminati? :) Hm, that's why I've become a member of this philosophical society. It's a place for bi-sexuals. So that's really the connection between #esotericism and #feminism. One wouldn't work without the other. That's why I became a feminist… after getting into esotericism. I had to become more intellectual/bi-sexual first and then I got more spiritual in return. And in the… process I also became more mentally ill of course. That's the story. :) Aquarius is Uranus and Uranus is bi-sexual. I believe in Aquarius because of my birth chart I guess. ;D I just like Aquarius. Call it a… personal preference. But I also believe in the Age of Aquarius <3

I wrote on two sheets about transsexuality yesterday. I really understood what Julie Bindel said in that interview with Paris Lees.And I do agree with Julie Bindel. In future hopefully the term "lesbian" isn't needed anymore.

FrauHupfdohle ich glaube du bist ein wenig offener als die meisten. das gibt mir hoffnung. nee, bi-sexuell geht über lesbisch hinaus. :)

außerdem schließt bi-sexuell Männer ein. Bi-sexuell können auch Leute mit hetero/bi-Orientierung sein. :)