gay and tired

|Documenting life and shit as a gay Finnish dude| |he/him| |🇫🇮🏳️‍🌈|

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I am gay and employed for the whole of pride month. This sucks ass and unfortunately not in a gay way.

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I love how children have no clue what my job is as I just play with them and get paid for it. I am too young to be a teacher so this one lovely boy tells his mother: "I am playing chess with this, looks at me, man. "

Good job dude but maybe don't make it sound like I'm a kidnapper lol. I pass really well to children tho and haven't gotten misgendered once. This is going way better than I thought, as my brain is constantly screaming about my voice and chest.

They did threaten to soak my dick with water guns tho. And asked me if I had a girlfriend.

Children are great lol.

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I am not that emotional of a person but there is this one plant in our house that I would probably cry if it died. I am extremely emotionally attached to its well-being.

It is like a jungle plant not sure what kind but it is fucking prospering. It is probably thousands of kilometers away from the right habitat in southern Finland but that plant grows like one leaf a week and has multiple side branches. We have donated parts of it to multiple people and it just keeps growing all year round. I love how it is so cool and resilient and the absolute best under shit conditions. My mom takes care of it cause I don't dare to. It has like doubled in size from the time we got it and just keeps on growing. We might have to trim it if it gets to big but the plant isn't hindered by such things.

I love you plant and I don't know how the hell are you surviving in the -2 months of sunlight Finland actually gets. No other plant can reach your might and glory and I hope you prosper for generations to come.

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Found out it is called a dumb cane which I think is highly offensive for such a great plant. Those scientists don't know of its glory

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I'm currently working with elementary students and it is kinda tiring but fun. I have beat their asses at football, uno and chess. Also I get paid a bit so it's great lol. I have passed 100% so along with my ego about chess skills my confidence is at an all-time high. Dysphoria do be screaming at my binding and body and I've been showering with shorts on but we do be balling.

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I am not that emotional of a person but there is this one plant in our house that I would probably cry if it died. I am extremely emotionally attached to its well-being.

It is like a jungle plant not sure what kind but it is fucking prospering. It is probably thousands of kilometers away from the right habitat in southern Finland but that plant grows like one leaf a week and has multiple side branches. We have donated parts of it to multiple people and it just keeps growing all year round. I love how it is so cool and resilient and the absolute best under shit conditions. My mom takes care of it cause I don't dare to. It has like doubled in size from the time we got it and just keeps on growing. We might have to trim it if it gets to big but the plant isn't hindered by such things.

I love you plant and I don't know how the hell are you surviving in the -2 months of sunlight Finland actually gets. No other plant can reach your might and glory and I hope you prosper for generations to come.

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I sure love getting medically discriminated against and waiting years for lifesaving healthcare :')

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Lmao out of the hundreds of other applicants to my summer job they managed to pair two trans dudes together lol. Like I ain't 100% but that man is trans af.

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I have a habit of every once in awhile just eating chocolate goop. It used to be a mug cake recipe but I was too lazy to microwave it deformed into goop. Honestly it's way better. It's recipe is

Like ½dl of sugar, flour and milk

Like ⅛dl oil and cocoa powder

And a splash of vanilla and salt if you want.

If you want it to bake ad some baking powder and microwave for like 1.5min

Chocolate goop is really great.

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I'm starting my first proper job in a few days as a children's summer counsellor. I basically with a few other people work to keep 1st-4th graders alive for the summer while their parents work.

My goal for the job is to not get asked by children that am I a boy or a girl and to be stealth for the whole job. Cause it ain't anybody's business and also generally for 99% of people there is no need to ever know bout me being trans. Also I'll try to not get heat stroke from binding.

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Tumblr really knows me huh

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I really want to have a cute guy to sit on my lap while I play video games and be as close to me as possible

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I have been for years struggling with showering because of severe dysphoria. I barely shower once a week and often wash my hair in the sink. But today my fam out of habit asked me to sauna and I just put on swimming shorts and went. It was the first time in months I have washed myself thoroughly. I still experienced dysphoria cause duh but I had the lights on and I went to the sauna with my family. It was quite nice. I struggle with hygiene and will continue to do so, but it felt really nice to be able to be clean and participate in our culture with my family. (Btw sauna is usually done naked so they made a few comments but they understood when I explained and were happy that I was able to shower) Just wearing shorts really made a huge difference and I should have done this sooner. I experience severe top and bottom dysphoria but stuff happening waist down definitely is wayyyyy worse. So go swim shorts I guess and maybe someday I'mma get bottom surgery. Being clean is really nice tho.

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Man I just had a dream where I had a body I will never truly have and fuck that felt so nice and hurt so bad

I wish I was born the way I was supposed to be. I wanna go back :(

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Bro my mom is currently meeting my sister's boyfriend and having a convo for the first time and she is holding a fucking knife. (It is for rhubarb harvesting but that's metal af)

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Allegiat hakkaa mua kovempaa kuin Mike Tyson. Oon fine ekat muutamat kuukaudet kun leppä tai koivu ei haittaa mut nyt kun heinä alkoi kukkii pari päivää sitten etelässä mun silmiä kutittaa niin helvetisti eikä lääkkeet tai tipat paljoo auta. Ja vartttuneessa iässäni en osaa kunnolla laittaa silmätippoja

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I have been thinking recently about 3 letter combinations. Finland has 3 letter and 3 numbers on most licence plates (some have 2 or 1) and I like to look at them when I drive. Most letter combinations seem familiar so I've been thinking.

Does there exist a widely used acronym for every 3 letter combination of the Latin alphabet? (Excluding ä, ö, ø and stuff like that)

Cause I usually drive and notice combinations like GOT and am like of Game of Thrones or MLM or JNE or XOX or CPU. Does every one of the 17 576 letter combos of the Finnish licence plate have a meanig either as an acronym like NHS or as a world like KUN. Do combos like MMY or XTK have a meaning of some obscure company or science term. I mean there are only 17 000 of them so there must exist a meaning for all of them right?

I really love patterns and stuff like this but am too lazy to google every combo to find out. I might someday compile a list of them all though if I get fixated enough though.

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I have an fear of ice breakers so I consciously keep on mind a list of fun facts about myself and always have a two truths and a lie answer prepped. So I'mma share a few fun facts

I once committed insurance fraud

I almost ran over the prime minister

A car hit me once and it was my fault and I have a sick scar

My name was inspired by game of thrones

I have a twin

I have serious beef with one doctor

My doctors did some cool magic stuff and made my leg longer by like 6cm

I can solve a Rubik's cube in like 15s

Idk if any of those are fun facts but it is 1am and I can't sleep.