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voydhymn

having many trinkets and books is so cool and fun until you realize you have to dust them

whyenn-reader

''what if you regret it'' then you will expirience regret - a normal and unavoidable part of the human expirience.

dead end

no, i haven't heard back from them. have you?

niidsch

Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Sky (2009)

aurorafromspace

if you are a virgo moon...

to have a moon in virgo is to carry a very specific kind of quiet exhaustion in your bones. you probably learned to read the air in the room before you even learned to read a book. you were the child who noticed when the voices in the house shifted a semi tone lower. you noticed the dust on the shelf and the slight tension in your mother’s jaw and you decided very early on that it was your job to fix it all. you became the "good" child and the "helpful" one because you realized that being useful was the only way to earn your right to take up space. you were praised for being responsible and neat but no one saw the shivering child behind all that competence. now you are an adult walking around with a nervous system that feels like a factory that never closes. you live in your mind because the world outside feels too chaotic to handle. you examine every detail of your life as if it were a crime scene. you think that if you can just optimize your habits and fix your flaws and reach a certain level of perfection then you will finally be safe. you treat your own heart like a broken machine instead of a living thing. even when you feel sadness your first instinct is to find the cause and figure out a solution. you try to make your grief efficient. you try to think your way out of your anger. you are so terrified of your own mess because you think that if you make one mistake you will be rejected. you carry a quiet loneliness because you don't think you are allowed to be small or messy or loud. you think you have to earn your rest through constant labor and change. but the hard truth is that no one else knows the paths within your inner landscape and no one else is coming to save that child you left behind. this guide is about the end of waiting for an apology that will never come. it is about learning to stay in your body when your mind wants to point out everything that is wrong. it is about giving yourself the grace to be unfinished. you are allowed to have a heartbeat that isn't tied to a deadline. you are allowed to be tired without an explanation. healing for you isn't about bubble baths or positive vibes. it is about the gritty reality of sitting in the middle of the mess and realizing you are still worthy of love. it is about moving from the racing thoughts in your head down into your gut where all your hidden worry lives. it is about the radical act of leaving one dish in the sink and realizing the world didn't end. you are the healer of your own heart. the checklist is gone and you can finally put down the weights you were never meant to carry. you are no longer a project to be finished. you are a person to be loved.