﹫◟puppy / lukey /whatever you want, im yours

call me by he/him. tumblr is a new thing to me, please refrain judgement

[puppy-boy-twink]

i just despise being mentally ill, i hate the feelings and the thoughts. but at the same time i crave it. its a struggle, and i wish i was okay, but i also wish i was six feet under, because where im at isnt sick enough.

[queenofproendos]

shoutout to introjects who are so far from their source that they’re barely recognizable. you do not owe anyone “canon-like behavior”

[botanical-garden-system-deactiv]

Someone drowning in 6 feet of water is as equally dead as a person drowning in 20 feet of water.

Please stop comparing trauma and making it a challenge. It’s trauma. Not a competition or medal.

[ghostdoesstuffs]

REBLOG IF YOU LOVE YOUR HEADMATES!!!!

[debarked]

trauma so bad my coping mechanisms have names and pronouns

[oursystemblog]

well i guess that's fine

[puppy-boy-twink]

yay!!!!! we looove when this happens /j

[puppy-boy-twink]

Quick question, are you a minor or an adult? I didn't wanna ask specifically for your age because I'm aware some people find that too personal but we were curious to see if DMs would be okay?

(Alex again and you don't have to answer)

hi hi, yeah of course! ill dm you =]

[puppy-boy-twink]

Hey there!

Just want you to know that you're loved okay? Please try and take care of yourself. ❤️

Alex

aw thank you so much dude! this was a really nice message to wake up to =]

[puppy-boy-twink]

hi >.< harming another, such a strange, twisted act, something unthinkable, until it isnt. when its wanted. when its asked for, it becomes something else entirely in peoples eyes. thats what i want,for someone to take me, to break me apart, to press me into the edge of pain until there’s nothing left but their voice saying, "i love you," as they shatter me. something about that is ideal in a way, not for normal, loving relationships, but for those who have faced such horrors before. if they enjoy it, who am i to judge. we all have our ideals, our twisted fantasies and obsessions. to each their own, and so it goes.

[puppy-boy-twink]

hi >.< if you were to hurt me, there would be no room to pretend. no masks, no armor, just me, reduced to the truth of my own fragility. i would surrender my body to you, a giving over of myself to something I can’t name, something I trust even as it leaves marks. i like it. i like you.

[theantiendoking]

Fakers ("endos") is this ur girl? LMAO

[puppy-boy-twink]

heyo, sorry to bust your bubble but it's not worth sending another ask. im not a girl, please do not call me that, thank you!

[puppy-boy-twink]

hi >.< if you were to hurt me, there would be no room to pretend. no masks, no armor, just me, reduced to the truth of my own fragility. i would surrender my body to you, a giving over of myself to something I can’t name, something I trust even as it leaves marks. i like it. i like you.

[puppy-boy-twink]

hi >.< just saying that if i was just so fortunate to meet you on this site, and you wanted it so, id find my way to you. in real life. you could pull my strings like a puppet, bend me to your will, and id follow, not because i must, but because i would.

[puppy-boy-twink]

hi >.< let me say, if someone took my life, shaped it into something unrecognizable, if someone broke me in ways no one else would dream of breaking, id feel something like love, something raw and consuming, a surrender to your hands and your hands only, id never pull away from.

[puppy-boy-twink]

hi >.< quick psa i long to be programmed, let it blind me, let it twist and pull me to bits. let it teach me what pain means. someone, anyone, make me more than the sum of my cells. i will love you, my love will never drain unless specifically asked for. i love you forever.