kinda still am purecamp on artificialqueens and ao3. just trying to live another day on this hellscape. reminder that i’m a human being and i deserve respect like anyone else! rude asks can suck a necrotic dick. otherwise, i’m pretty nice usually 💗 she/her
i find these so hard to write, but i don’t like leaving things unsaid when i have a lot of thoughts. so much happened last year that was so severe and intense that i completely understand people who decided to just check out and not keep up. i did it myself for a while, when i was in too much pain to do anything else. but i feel like now maybe i should say something more.
i think most people will know by now that sharon has been performing again, that she’d been doing online shows for a while, that she’s involved in the SERV vodka campaign. and i know a lot of people were angry about some of it, asking why her career hasn’t been ruined, her title stripped, etc.
i’m somewhat closer to the situation than the average fan might be, which has given me a unique perspective and insight that the casual observer might not have, though for privacy reasons i won’t go into detail about how/why this is the case. i don’t expect this to change the minds of people who have decided their opinions on sharon, because she’s been hated for years regardless. and that’s fine, i respect that and always have. i don’t know what i want this to achieve but i want to say it anyway.
i want to re-emphasise what i wrote last time, first of all.
“the document has since been deleted. a few things i know are that sharon has been in contact with lawyers, understandably, and this is why she hasn’t made a statement as so many people are demanding of her. if you think having a lawyer makes you guilty... i don’t know what to say, other than that’s a weird view to have. i don’t know if the deletion is to do with the lawyers, or if it was their own decision. i also know that they have gone on to accuse lists and lists of people - some that i can remember including morgan mcmichaels, jinkx monsoon, alaska, alaska’s brother cory, detox, bendelacreme - of inappropriately touching them while they were a minor, as well as (proven falsely) claiming that aquaria was also abused by sharon, and sent underage nudes to her. again, this was not true, and at least for me, casts doubt on the credibility of the idea of sharon as an evil person and determined abuser.
i’m not saying that sharon didn’t act inappropriately, because she 100% did, and i find this very upsetting. i’m just saying that i don’t believe there was deliberate ill-intention or harm behind any of what happened, besides a fucked up situation between some fucked up people.”
i still believe this to be true. i personally find it very suspicious that someone claiming to want justice would make up false claims about others and expand their accusations in such a way for seemingly no reason - it smacks of just wanting controversy, or the desire to try and ruin what she has from the remains of a problematic and broken friendship.
i also want to admit that i have kept up with sharon’s life. partly out of curiosity, partly from nostalgia and how deep her impact on my life has been. i saw a few of her online shows during lockdown, pre-june, and also watched her halloween and valentine specials. her art remains incredibly close to my heart and whether u love her or hate her, she is a talented and engaging performer.
i know that she’s still working, and that in spite of everything she’s been through, she’s slowly getting better. i’m genuinely glad about this. i understand that this might upset some people.
it’s difficult to reconcile a lot of these feelings. it’s important to always believe the victim primarily, which is what i did until i had reason otherwise. and i know better than to gloss over sharon’s problematic past, though again i can say from being somewhat closer than average that i know of many ways she’s worked to undo these wrongs as much as possible. she’s not a public person, as much as she should be, and tends to go for actions over words that fly under the radar a little more. she supports a wide range of charities for marginalised members of the community and POC. i know i’m in no position to speak on it beyond that, nor to decide whether or not she should be forgiven, so i won’t. instead i will say that i find it particularly touching in my case how hard sharon fights for women’s rights, the inclusion/validation of AFAB performers, and her quiet activism.
i totally understand anyone who chooses to not forgive and not forget. i understand anyone who thinks she doesn’t deserve it. i just personally think that there are worse people out there than someone who is earnestly trying, and our energy should be diverted.
i honestly just wish everyone involved in this mess the best. i hope that ann*cy receives the help they need, i hope that sharon continues to work to fix her mistakes and i hope we can one day move past the idea of “cancelling” someone in the vicious, hateful way that the internet/particularly rpdr spaces do. i don’t hold any hate or pain in my heart like i did last summer.
i welcome any polite questions in my inbox but any harassment like i received last year will not be tolerated.
Ao3 version that lets you open the 'director's cut' where I, the author, explain every detail in excruciating detail to you and what it is in reference to.
I just wanna say when I was 12 I was obsessed with your acc and I read all your fanfics but one day I couldn’t find ur blog anywhere until 6 years later when I randomly remembered you existed lol
i suddenly feel incredibly old but omg thank u lmao, i hope they can still bring u some joy or at least fond memories of life being easier
