life in grey.

Miya |23🩶| just for gags •Currently obsessed with 90s movies,Avengers and Anything Vintage•

[purplexedd]

All my life I thought I knew what I want, what i should do, what my ideals are... Then I talked to people and it made me realise I really had no clue about anything.. All I did was exist and survive not live.. I questioned myself so much I have no idea who I am or what I what anymore..I think I have been into " going with the flow" too much that I don't know how things will end up for me...I wanna be better , i wanna be a person I am proud of but I can't do anything about it... All I do is motivate people and never do anything for myself.. i helped people now I am the one being helpless..

[vroomvroomwee-deactivated202508]

Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

[cassandrabookss-deactivated2025]

[purplexedd]

Everything feels foreign to me now..for someone who would have given up her self to save a bond is dead i guess..I really don't know if i should be happy or sad about that

[oppygooopy27-deactivated2026040]

"My usual energy feels gone. I don't talk much, prefer being alone, and feel distant from people. It's not anger, just a lack of energy to be my old self. Maybe I just stopped caring about things for a while, and unintentionally drifted away from people, finding comfort in being quiet. This may be a time to heal, or I'm just tired or down. But I realise that sometimes, pulling away helps you find yourself again."

[a-fucking-tornado]

what are we

God's least favorite dolls

[reader-twisted]

“It was an act of self-preservation — however misguided it was”.

[vexheart]

[asvpfrenchy]

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[purplexedd]

And at some point you just feel a certain kind of unexplainable emptiness that consumes you ...

[feelingsoftheday]

Respectfully, I don’t go above and beyond for people anymore. I meet you as far as you meet me. I speak to you as much as you speak to me. I include you as much as you include me.

[purplexedd]

24' was all about this ..

[junglejim4322]

Life became so much easier when I stopped feeling the need to justify or explain my existence

[andyswarhol]

[perfectfeelings]

“It all begins and ends in your mind. What you give power to, has power over you, if you allow it.”

— Unknown

[catchymemes]

[purplexedd]

Clowning around fr! 🥂🤡

[stay-close]

“Please stop destroying what is left of your heart by constantly thinking about things that have broken you.”

— Unknown

[remanence-of-love]

[catchymemes]

[aaashleyyyyy-deactivated2024102]

I just want to rot in my bed all day. But this stupid fucking competitive world won't let me rest in peace.