CW: GORE POSTS WILL PROBABLY BE COMMON (LIKE ACTUALLY FAKE THO IT'S SFX I USED TO HAVE HORROR OBSESSION /GEN /SRS)
So major blog rebranding
I'm in an abusive relationship and I'm doing horrible (not physical abuse I'm ok that aspect) and I want to romanticize it
I don't want to accept that we aren't meant for each other and that what he does isn't okay so I'm going to glorify it
I love him and he loves me and that's all that should matter
stuff happened and I'm not allowed to have a lot of my old interests so I am still knowledgeable about them and I might interact with posts related to them but do NOT talk to me about them or any interest of mine that is on this blog unless it's in my bio or posted after jan 5th 2025 (excluding mlp or gorillaz I'm still into that currently esp mlp) anything in my bio or posted after that date id be happy to talk abt with people
Soo this account is basically gonna be a vent(?) account I'm not gonna post here much but if I do most likely gonna be a major tw
won't ever show real cvts bc my boyfriend won't let me cvt anymore :( ik objectively that's good but I really want to cvt or be cvt so bad
hes mean to me about it so I don't cvt anymore but he's only doing what's best for me he threatens to have me admitted to a hospital or tell my parents but ik he wouldn't do that bc he wouldn't be able to handle me not being there
he loves me and I love him too I love him so much and ik he loves me too he cares about me
I don't have any friends anymore he says he's all I should need and that he wants me to make friends but everyone's a shitbag and he thinks my old friends we're gross and weird (they aren't tho)
we're both rlly mentally ill I wish he would get better I hate he's hurting so much
I'm currently trying to get off a nicotine addiction (mm vapes and cigarettes yummy) I don't wanna quit (lol he doesn't even know about the cigarettes and I wont tell him bc he'd get mad at me for doing it and bc I made him quit cigarettes when we first got together) but he's making me which is also objectively good but I don't wanna it's okay tho I'll steal my mom's spare vapes/step dads cigarettes bc my vape that was supposed to be my last burnt a week or so ago
And I smoke a lot of weed I'll go thru a 2g dispo in 2 weeks ๐ shit gets me through the roooof live laugh love the penjamin
he's transphobic but it's okay I became a pretty girl for him ๐ฉท i was a fat and ugly girl before then I transitioned and then I detransitioned and was still a fat and ugly girl so I starved myself and now I'm less fat and prettier :3 he didn't ask or even know I was doing that but I think he's grateful I did ik he found me ugly when we first got together, he hasn't told me and won't admit it when I ask but ik he did so I'm happy to be prettier for him
I may be less fat but it's not enough and I've been eating too much lately so I gotta starve again plus workout
I wanna hurt myself and him a lot I think about it a lot but he doesn't let me hurt myself and he doesn't know I want to hurt him but I also want him to hurt me but he won't even when I asked :( it's okay tho
currently I'm rlly into mlp (as always), junji ito's works, tyler the creator, robot chicken, smile 2
I'm just gonna post emo shit here if I ever post tw probably
refer to me as psych0 t3ddy, teddy, teds, or gor3 slvt
if you knew or remember any past names I've gone by on this blog no you don't
if yk me irl no you don't
anyway thanks 4 reading bye bye!!! (no ones gonna read this ๐๐)
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oh and I play fortnite
