peaceful the world lays us down

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[xphaiea]

B. de Souza, Forgotten Dream

[nobrashfestivity]

Rock painting from San Raphael Swell, c. 2000 - 1000 BCE

[thewindowofthesummerhouse]

Caroline Harrison

[pythiaproject]

Life is beautiful even though i'm really lazy right now and get drunk and read and cry on the books a lot. Working on it

[pythiaproject]

A in my Statistics class and 10 pounds gained because I. M munching Seroquel... my volunteering is going middling but I have zero energy...

Going to hang out with close friends and go on a little vacation to stay with someone i have now known for fifteen years. Friendship is probably top 5 inventions of all time.

Good stuff happening

[bakchantka]

Erika kohut summer

[aaaangel444]

[pythiaproject]

Being bipolar is so embarrassing and rude... really not a big fan deciding i dont have that disorder today nor any of its symptoms 🤓

[sivavakkiyar]

Jorge Luis Borges, “The Nothingness Of Personality”

[pythiaproject]

Its so crazy knowing people have psychiatrists and therapists that just bend to their every whim and do whatever they want. Mine are so hard on me and bossy. Must be nice to live in an echo chamber and not receive constructive criticism weekly and be pushed hard.

Pretty upset with them though because they're telling me to take a break from school and not do a summer class! Huge disagreement. They think i'm finally in a position to move out of the depression of losing my close cousin, being poor for years, and living with abusive people... so they want me to focus on relaxing with volunteering and trying new medication for two months so i can "finally come back"...

Hmmm I'm really not happy with being told to take a break from school when i have so much to do and i think i am far too old for it and been taking breaks for mental and physical health my whole life!

Huge arguments being had and I really don't want to drop the class. i'm really feeling pressured by everybody to do it.

[henstomper]

"ooouuugh the masculine urge to die poignantly on a medieval battlefield" You Are Getting Cholera On The March And Shitting Yourself To Death

[dozydawn]

“Theo, a four-year-old Pomeranian dog, takes cover from the rain under Meme, a 10-month-old Afghan Hound, at a photocall in central London for the Crufts dog show. The dog show was postponed due the foot-and-mouth disease outbreak.”

Photographed by Johnny Green.

15 May 2001.

[pythiaproject]

All I can think is. I might fail this test and tank my A grade but I can come home and rest and do better.

I'm starting another class i actually want to take during depression in three days so. Time to take it all on and do the hard work.

Biggest focuses for the next couple months:

1. Be a more attentive friend and actually hardcode the vacation plans I have loosely planned with friends

2. Actually create a good study routine again

3. Kick addiction and ptsd and bipolar out my ass just full on. Mess it up make a ruckus. I've become the lazy people I criticize.

4. Plan D's annual memorial out with his friends

5. Just hang out with family and friends frequently outside of vacations

6. Be a more loving partner because I've become so distant and sad and removed

7. Say fuck it and just contact all the ranches, shelters, and animal rehabilitation centers i want to volunteer at. At once. To see if anything even hits and I get to live a preview of my dream and practice at said dream

[pythiaproject]

Missing hot pot with friends because I almost kept throwing up. Pray for me my soul cannot stand missing a classic quad-group catch up.

Four symbolizes death and the four person friend group is the death of unhappiness and unease that releases light unforetold and fresh into the world

[misericordiia]

the eyes of someone who just vomited carry a vulnerable acceptance to grief only known in portraits of saints

[intheheatherbright]

Costume. Chitons.

[pythiaproject]

Feeling emotionally like that connor O'Malley video Top 10 Wisconsin dells haunted houses for pulled pork