searching ~ wandering

to find the truth within the universe

[pyun-a]

It's my 8 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[thoughtstherapy]

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[humansofnewyork]

“Picture it, okay? Mardi Gras. New Orleans. Bourbon Street. I’m on college break with my three best childhood friends. Zak is there with his parents. He’s got his mom and dad with him. So it’s two different vibes, but somehow we all end up on the balcony of the same bar. Everyone’s got beads in their hands. We’re all yelling to see boobs. Well, I’m yelling to see boobs. That was just me. But Zak had a perfect mustache. He used to grow it much longer and curl it with wax. And I normally don’t approach people, I’m not that person. But his whole family seemed cute. They didn’t seem like normal New Orleans vacation people. So I was like: ‘Can I take a picture with you?’ Then we ended up adding each other on Snapchat, because that was the thing back then. And we agreed to meet up the next day after his family was done with their gator cruise and I was finished visiting the strip club. That night we walked along the river until the sun came up. I remember doing handstands on the levees. Then at the end we kissed. It was just a kiss because I was leaving early the next morning, and honestly I thought that would be the end of it. I thought for sure I was never going to see this kid again. But we kept talking, and two weeks later I’m taking his virginity in a Las Vegas hotel room. There was something going on with his stomach that day. Right when we finished he went to the bathroom and started throwing up. I called my girlfriend and said: ‘I don’t think he likes me.’ But it’s been love ever since.”

[pyun-a]

#funnylove

[goodreadss]

500 Years of Female Portraits in Western Art, movie

[incidentalcomics]

The Stream of Consciousness

https://linktr.ee/grantdraws

[poetaprohibido]

Me encanta rondar lo suficiente por la vida de las personas, me demuestra quienes son. Verán, nadie puede ocultar su verdadera cara por tanto tiempo, todos, siempre, demuestran su verdadera naturaleza. Sería tan fácil apuntar el arma, disparar y arrastrar a mi infierno a todos los falsos. Pero voy a dejarlos ahí, en la cúspide de sus mentira. La caída les romperá hasta el alma.

@poetaprohibido

[michellepsychologist]

“I didn’t know that I could love myself. I didn’t know I could give myself the love that I needed. I thought I had to look for it on the outside and I could never find it. When you are stuck in that perception and you’re just looping that same perception loop over and over, you have the same experiences over and over and you’re stuck looping because you can’t see outside of your own perception, to see there is something greater on the outside of it. If you tell yourself that you suck and nobody is going to love you. That is what you’re going to believe and all you’re ever going to see.”

-Steph Purpura, co-founder of Powerful U

[pyun-a]

[pyun-a]

Queer eye: we're in Japan it's sooo good

I just want to say first of all I cried so much in all the episodes, every single hero had an amazing story and they were so open to the help of the guys that really surprised me (Japanese people being so reserved and all).

Truly this was even better than the last season (in my opinion) such deep feelings and warm and fuzzy completions of each episode.

The need we have to connect to each other is so big and yet we fight and put up so many unnecessary walls.... I'm just so glad that this kind of show exist and to be an example that if we help one another and work together we can have such an amazing world to live in ❤️

PS: Bobby and his designs are just getting better and better!!!

[mirayama]

“There are days I light myself on fire just to worship something glittering.”

— Claire Schwartz, “Distance Is the Primal Fact”

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[pyun-a]

Affairs, an understanding

After listening to a song, it got me like oh woah! I really get a way why people have affairs... And to me it's a pretty big deal because I have suffered all my life because of that kind of situation in my family.

I was in a trance like state of mind, really enjoying the song... This is the one:

And after the 20th time playing it, I really got it and remembered a passage of the book Love In Time Of Cholera (I'm not going to spoil anything) where one of the main characters was having an affair... It got discovered and it had to end but if it was for that person it would have lasted all the rest of his existence. That hit me hard.

I was in my teens when I read it, so full of romanticism and pain because of that kind of situations, I stopped reading the book for like 3 days and cried after reading that part because I couldn't understand why a person could do that to a person they "loved".

But as I grow older I try to get the why of things, and our emotions and ways of thinking are much much more complex, complicated and deep than some give credit.

And affairs are much more than I just simply did it because I wanted to (to many that's the only reason) but with the understanding really understand the feelings of emptiness, desire, escape, excitement, love and sooo many more that are involved in this delicate issue is really liberating for me.

I understand not because I have those feelings or that I am in kind of situation, it was just like I said just hit me and I'm grateful for that.

[hellothisisangle]

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[pyun-a]

Love this webtoon!! I highly recommend it! ❤️

[iomomoi]

[pyun-a]

Sooo cute and such wisdom

[uptional]

[pyun-a]

We always end up melting in each other's arms

[pyun-a]

Just be free, don't think about it

[spoonofconsciousness]

#SelfLoveSunday

5 Signs You’re Healing From The Past

1. Presence - living in the now. We release resistance to thoughts & memories associated with the past and allow them to come & go instead of attaching ourselves to them by identifying them as negative.

2. Purpose - having a mission. When we heal from our own pain we can then begin focusing on serving the world in a purpose larger than ourselves. Overcoming the suffering we are tasked with allows us to help others through theirs.

3. Fulfillment - the highest priority. Suffering in the past helps us to place greater importance on enjoying life and value experiences & the way we feel over the accumulation of material wealth.

4. Relationships - meaningful interactions with positive people. The time we spend with loved ones is meaningful because we’re not projecting the pain we feel from the past onto those around us.

5. Self-love - removing everything that no longer serves us. Refusing to tolerate people, places & things that do not add value to our lives comes as a result of learning from our past mistakes and wanting to create a life we’re excited to live.

Yesterday has gone, tomorrow hasn’t happened yet - do something with today.

Peace & positive vibes.

Follow me on Instagram for daily positive affirmations <3

[pyun-a]

Amén to all that is written

[reydarcy]

self love

Today it hit me: I’m finally at a point where I can honestly say that I love myself. Every aspect of myself.

It took me quite a while.. and I’m sure I still have a bit of room for improvement, but I’m really proud of myself nevertheless.

I’m in a healthy relationship (not only with my partner) but also with myself.

I’m working on archiving a long term goal. My life is better than I ever could have imagined it would turn out to be. And I’m truly grateful for everything.

I don’t have perfect skin - but I still don’t feel the need to wear makeup on a daily basis, like I used to. 

But at the same time I have the confidence to experiment with bold lipstick whenever I feel like it.

I wear makeup because I want to - not because I feel like I need to.

Although fortunately I’ve never struggled with an eating dissorder, I most certainly never had a good relationship with food either. I can’t count the times I’ve tried out a new diet, only to give It up a few weeks (or sometimes days) in. Discipline was never one of my strong suits. But now I’m finally at a place, where I do eat healthy most of the time (because loving your body also means nourishing your body and taking good care of it), but I still treat myself from time to time - and don’t feel guilty afterwards.

I work out, because I like to work out. Not because I want to loose weight, or look a certain way. I just want to do something nice for my body, something that is good for me - and something that I thoroughly enjoy.

I have hairy legs and I couldn’t care less.

And for the first time in my whole life, I actually like my body. I like my curves. I like looking into a mirror. I don’t mind my chubby legs. I don’t mind the little bump on my belly (I actually think it’s quite cute as it is) and I wear whatever the fuck I want to wear. No more “that doesn’t suit your body type” and no more “maybe wear this, because it hides that”.

Realize that the fashion and beauty industry benefits from your misery. They don’t want you to love yourself. That way they won’t be able to sell you skin care, makeup, cellulite products and diet tea anymore.

Magazines and social media try to make us believe that there is such thing as an ideal shape. Ideal face shape, ideal body shape… But here’s the deal: We come in all shapes and sizes for a reason. It would be so damn boring if we all looked the same way.

And there is no point in trying to archive this so called “ideal” - because you can’t keep up with the trends anyways. Ideals change. So there really is no point in trying to keep up with it.

Now you might be saying, “well.. that’s easier said then done.” And trust me, I get it. And I also know that there will always be that day where you feel insecure about something. You might stand in the fitting rooms of an H&M and try on one of their tiny devils pants, and you’ll look in the mirror and hate what you see. But that doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t try to like yourself at least 98% of the time.

Take it from one of my all time favorite characters Rae (and if you haven’t seen My Mad Fat Diary - I highly recommend it):

Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

[pyun-a]

Love love this one, sooo true ❤️

[goodreadss]

“Everything has changed and yet, I am more me than I’ve ever been.”

— Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You

[pyun-a]

So beautifully true ❤