Queen Of Hurt

Welcome to a place where we learn that we share the same pain.

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I’m so tired of adding wood to a fire in the rain

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“You’ll end up really disappointed if you think people will do for you as you will do for them. Not everyone has the same heart as you”

— Fuckology

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Movie Review: The Voyeurs

April 19th. 2025

Review: ‘The Voyeurs’ 2021 

Another plot twist, we all know I love these. 

There is just something about a movie that has you thinking it is going to end one way and then completely goes in another direction. 

There will be spoilers (this isn’t a plot twist for me, we love spoilers) 

In this 2021 erotic thriller, a couple, Pippa and Thomas, move into their first apartment together when they realise they can see right into the apartment across the street. Let's all be honest here, we watch people. There is just a natural curiosity when we can see someone but they can’t see us, the only difference between us and someone who continues to watch day after day is that we are able to stop. 

Voyeur: a person who gains sexual pleasure from watching others when they are naked or engaged in sexual activity. 

They start off by innocently looking, but you can tell right off the bat that Pippa is way more intrigued by watching their sultry neighbors than Thomas is, in a way that is deeper than how he sees them. Thomas sees looking into another apartment as a joke, and Pippa is on the fence, but then things take a turn. 

One night, their neighbors are starting to have sex, and of course, Thomas and Pippa are watching, but then Pippa goes behind Thomas and tells him to keep watching, and while he's watching, she starts to touch him. This is when watching becomes a kink, this is where she becomes a Voyeur. This is the one and only time this takes place, but watching becomes an obsession. Pippa and Thomas learn things that they shouldn’t. Here becomes the big question: If you know something about someone that you yourself would like to know, is it your responsibility to let that other person know? 

This question is what starts all of the problems. You think you are watching a movie about a couple who like to watch other people, but instead, you are taken on this moral dilemma of wanting to tell the truth, wanting to watch, and not being able to stop. 

When the truth becomes too much to bear, Pippa comes right out with it, causing a ripple effect that she had no idea would happen. This causes Thomas to break up with Pippa and put her in a depression. One night she decides to look again and this time to goes into action when she sees the neighbor across the street go into a bar. They make eye contact, and he comes right over. One thing leads to another, and now she is in the apartment that she has been looking at. We can all guess what happens next, and can guess even more. (Girl has sex with boy, ex-boy comes back home to apologize and sees this) The unthinkable happens, but it's not unbelievable because it happened earlier in the movie, but I don’t want to tell you that part, that you have to see for yourself. When this happens, you think that the movie is over because honestly, right there is a good ending and yes, predictable in my opinion, still very good, but no, the movie continues, and this is where things really get interesting. 

Pippa is starting to get back on her feet, and she decides to go see this neighbor at his opening. When she does, she is in for a real shock and one of the most surprising plot twists that I have seen. It was a genuine plot twist that you didn't see coming. 

Thus, this is where I must leave you because if I say anymore than you will be confused because there is one part of this movie that I refuse to spoil. It’s been out for a while, but if you haven't had the chance to watch it yet, then do yourself a favor and watch this movie. May I suggest to your partner?

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The story of the triangle

She’s pretty

But so am I

She’s smart

But so am I

She likes him

But so do I

the only thing is, I liked him first

From the moment I saw him I didn’t stop thinking about him.

I told you how I felt, I trusted my feelings with my friend.

But then again, I’ve always been too trustworthy.

I wonder if I didn’t tell you how I felt if you would’ve liked him too.

“I remember you saying how you thought he was cute, and I was looking at him and was like yeah, she’s right, he is cute”

You stole him, you’re supposed to be my friend and you stole him.

He’s a person, not property so you didn’t steal him, you stole my feelings for him, you stole what can’t be replaced, you stole my love.

And what hurts isn’t that I know he likes you too, what hurts is that

You took his heart, you stole his gaze, and you didn’t even know it .

And you broke my heart and I was the last to know.

You kept it a secret and you didn’t want to tell me, you knew you were wrong, but what to do?

Rip my heart out and place it a box, look at all my feelings and mimic them.

But, I am not mad, have my love so that you can feel the same way I feel about him, have my love so that he can be loved the way that I wanted to love him, love him the way that I love you.

My friend.

I am pretty

But so are you

I am smart

But so are you

I like him

But so do you

I am broken

But are you?

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Fall

Review ‘Fall 2022’

Don’t we all love a plot twist? 

P.S. There will be spoilers so if you haven't seen it yet, you shouldn't keep reading. 

Have you seen 47 meters down? That’s essentially the same plot twist that happens here, except, in my opinion, they do it better. 

If the movie did get spoiled for you as it did for me then you probably would've missed the signs but if you pay attention then the plot twist was obvious. 

The first sign was that it took Becky way too long to look over the edge to see if Hunter was okay, enough time to change the story so we would think it was still going in the direction that we wanted it to go in. The wanting is a happy ending.

The second sign is how Hunter just let the bag fall to the ground like she legit just watched it plummet to the ground, not even attempting to grab it, and then when asked about it, she couldn’t answer the question. 

I feel the best part of the movie is the way they showed the plot twist. Becky needed Hunter's shoe and she essentially was like “What shoe?” and it's like ‘Omg she died and that's why you can't have the shoe’ and then they show it and it all clicks. 

I liked this movie, I wouldnt watch it again because it's one of those movies that you only watch once. I would give it a solid 6.8 out of 10 or 3 stars. 

Watch it and see how you feel, it's a solid movie and a good plot twist if only it wasn't so foreseen. 

Review of ‘Fall 2022’ 

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I am a Romantic

I am a romantic.

Which to this generation you would definitely need to add “hopeless” in front of the word romantic to make me sound sane. 

To be a romantic in this generation is to want pain.

To be a romantic in this generation is too long for a type of brokenness that can only be healed over time.

I am a romantic. 

I have loved time and time again. 

My family, my friends, my crushes, and even my enemies. 

Time and time again I am in pain, time and time again I am broken, but, when I saw your face for the first time it was different. 

I was driving on a curvy road, not drifting over my lines even once. Then here you come, driving towards me and I am so stuck in my ways I am unable to move. You were the car crash I tried to avoid, but you blindsided me. You hit my car and we tumbled down the side of the mountain, hitting every tree, every crack, and knocking down every rock on our way down. But then we stop, and we take a moment to realize what just happened and all we can do is be grateful for being alive, and in this case, grateful for finding each other. 

There was storm the night we meet if you didn’t know. You probably didn’t notice because it was clear outside, a bit of a chill but, a good night. I was fighting to get into my storm shelter when our mutual friend dragged me out and made me walk though the swirling darkness of the world outside. Then I saw you, and you caused lighting and now my feet are barely toughing the ground. I cling to a chair in the bar we have arrived in for shelter. I take back drink after drink trying to see some sort of ray of light in this rain. I walk over, and you are there, and just as I am about to turn away trying to find somewhere else to wait this out, you pull out your umbrella, and protect me. 

This wasn’t my intention, you weren’t my intention, but here we are, I can’t see a way out. All I can do is get on this ride down this long highway, in a shit storm, and try and to brace myself. 

This seems like a lot, and it seems like it’s not worth it, but in the end it always is. 

I am a romantic. I see the rainbow at the end of a storm, but I love the storm even more. 

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It's What's Inside

Movie Review: 2024

Warning: This is full of spoilers so if you haven't seen it don’t read this unless you’re the type that likes to spoil before watching. Then, in that case, read on. 

It's What's Inside is a 2024 movie that came out on Netflix.

This movie is a nice trip into a world of guess who. If you're paying attention the entire time then you can easily follow who's who based off who is revealed and who isnt. At the same time, the switches can be confusing when people start to lie about who they are. Let's break it down. This movie is about a group of friends who are together now to have one last fun time for one person who is getting married the next day. The back story is that it is a revenge plot but, that’s not revealed until the end. I love a good twist that I didn't see coming, or at least a twist I saw coming but not in the way that it did. There are three rounds, the first one is a basic switch. In this round whoever's body you are in that person is in your body. The second round is a tricker, everyone switches randomly and it's not that easy to guess, they give us some clues but in this round one clue in particular made me choose the wrong person. The third and final round is the final switch in which they are not playing anymore but just want to switch back to normal.

There are 7 people playing the game: Cyrus, Shelby, Maya, Brooke, Ruben, Dennis, Nikki, and Forbes.

Round 1: 

Cyrus -- Ruben

Shelby -- Brooke

Maya -- Nikki

Brooke --

Ruben -- Cyrus

Dennis -- Forbes

Nikki --

Forbes -- Dennis

In this round, these are the people who were revealed. 

A lot of mess happens each round but here is what happened in this round. 

Two major things happen in this round, the first thing is that Forbes lies about whose body he is in, he says that he is Cyrus even though Cyrus is in Ruben's body and Forbes is in Dennis’s body. This starts to make Cyrus question this game and starts making him think that they shouldn't be playing (he should have stuck with that thought). The second major thing to happen in this round is the kiss that happens between Nikki and Ruben but, this kiss is Maya and Cyrus. Maya thinks she's making out with Forbes but is making out with Cyrus because of the lie that Forbes told. Cyrus cheats on Shelby who is his girlfriend to make out with Maya because she looks like Nikki. Maya wants to make out with “Forbes” who is Cyrus who is in the body of Ruben because of their past together but she doesn't want Ruben to know so she makes out with him but not him. Things start to get more interesting after this. 

By the end of this round pretty much everyone is revealed except Dennis, Brooke, and Nikki, which aren't revealed until later on. Only Dennis is revealed by going up to Forbes and talking about how it felt to be in his body but Brooke and Nikki are revealed based on the facts of the basic switch.

Round 2: 

Cyrus -- Forbes

Shelby -- Nikki

Maya -- Shelby

Brooke -- Maya

Ruben -- Dennis

Dennis -- Cyrus

Nikki -- Brooke

Forbes -- Ruben

In this round things get crazy because this is where the twist comes and the plot thickens. 

Cyrus is not feeling the game at all and doesn't want to play but he feels pushed into paying so he comes up with a signal to share with Shelby so that they know who they are. The first person revealed to us is Cyrus because he automatically does his signal so now we know he’s in Forbes's body and he finds out that Shelby is Nikki’s body because of her fear of spiders, but we first find out it Shelby in Nikki’s body because she automatically goes to Instagram to post and says “oh, hey cutie”. (To guess correctly you have to pay attention to each character before they switch) .They go into the tree house and Shelby decides so wants to test drive her body she wants to have a fun time with Cyrus and he's into it at first of course because he likes Nikki but then it switches and she starts saying Forbes's name and all of a sudden Cyrus is no longer into it (men.) Anyway, they get into a fight and then the next crazy thing happens. The bodies of Maya and Dennis go to the balcony but earlier it's revealed that Ruben is in Dennis's body based on something that happened to him previously and it’s never revealed to Ruben but it's Brooke out on the balcony with him. Pause, so in the first round Nikki and Ruben kiss who is Maya and Cyrus, and in this round, it's Maya and Dennis but it’s Ruben and Brooke. They kiss and at this point, it is obvious that Ruben should get married and Maya and Ruben should just be together because they both did the same thing, which is to take advantage of the opportunity to be with the other person without them knowing. They start getting into it and then the unthinkable happens, the balcony breaks and they fall to their deaths, which is not good because they aren’t in their correct bodies so basically they killed someone else. Ruben and Brooke are dead but Maya and Dennis’s bodies are dead. 

The death of Maya and Dennis’s bodies leaves the question, “Who will Dennis and Maya switch back to?” This is where all of the b.s starts to happen. This is a simple answer, everyone goes back to their original bodies and Dennis and Maya will just have to jump into whose left over because at this point Dennis and Maya are in Shelly and Cyrus’s bodies. Not super fair to them because they weren't the ones doing the forbidden dance on the balcony but life was not fair and they got the short end of the stick. Dennis isn’t happy though and he and Maya don't want to switch back and a lot more stuff happens which causes Shelby to not want to switch back which isnt good for Nikki because she's in her body and Nikki is in Brooke’s.

With everything happening the third and final switch was going to be tricky and there was some planning going on by two people, Shelby and Nikki. Shelby wants to stay in Nikki’s body but obviously Nikki can't have that because then she will be stuck in Brooke’s body so they both have to come up with plans. Here they are: 

Nikki’s Plan  (The best plan considering this is the money where mostly everyone goes back to their original bodies besides the ones who can’t)

Cyrus — Cyrus

Shelby — Shelby

Maya — Brooke

Dennis — Ruben

Nikki — Nikki

Forbes — Forbes 

Shelby’s Plan  (A selfish plan in my opinion because she’s doing what she wants to do in order to stay in the body but in the end, it's not what she wanted to do because she got her answer from Cyrus which was not the right answer.) 

Cyrus — Ruben 

Shelby — Nikki

Maya — Shelby

Dennis — Cyrus

Nikki — Brooke

Forbes — Forbes

Nikki’s Real Plan (This plan isnt the worst but she does screw over Forbes in order to get Dennis on her side) 

Cyrus — Cyrus

Shelby — Shelby

Maya — Brooke

Dennis — Forbes

Nikki — Nikki

Forbes — Ruben

Round 3: 

Cyrus -- Cyrus

Shelby -- Shelby

Maya -- Brooke

Dennis -- Forbes

Nikki -- Rubben

Forbes/ Beatrice -- Nikki

You may be confused by the added name next to Forbes, Beatrice is mentioned earlier in the movie for the reason of the beef between Forbes and Dennis and she is Forbes's little sister. Beatrice and Dennis had a thing while Dennis and Nikki were together and it blew up and affected Forbes in a way that he gets expelled from school. Also, this movie takes place 8 years later. Beatrice's name is up on the board because in the end it is revealed that the entire time this is a revenge plot planned by Beatrice to get back at everyone for that night. Forbes was never really there and when it is revealed who is in who everyone gets put back correctly except Nikki who is in Ruben’s body and again Nikki whose body got stolen by Beatrice who is crazy apparently.

So in my opinion the movie wasn't confusing but you just had to pay attention to the details and remember who is who. When the movie finished I was about to be so mad because I was like “How are they going to have a final switch and no reveal but then it continued and that show we learn that Beatrice had this plan the whole night. 

I’m giving this movie a 10/10 for the twist at the end, they didn't hint enough at it for you to guess it was her and they gave you clever ways to figure out who was who without a basic ‘oo caught you’ or ‘I am’ you had time to figure it out before they revealed. Definitely recommend watching especially if you like to figure things out before the end but if this review/major spoiler is enough for you then good for you. 

Note: I didn't mention everything that happens just mostly what happens but not why it happens you should definitely just watch it. 

Review: ‘It’s What’s Inside’ 2024 

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 50 likes!

I really appreciate all that love, it’s not much but it’s a start and nice recognition

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A Simple Favor

I know, I know, this movie has been out for a hot minute and I’m just now getting to it, but in my defense, I always plan to go to the film and see things but if it isnt a dying, itching, life importance like “I have to see this” movie then I usually forget. Now it is on Netflix so I had to watch it. 

Don’t you love a good thriller? I know I do and if Im being sincere I forgot what the movie was about. I just saw the title and Blake Lively and was like “I’m watching this today” and I liked it. This movie held my attention captively, and I’ll have to be honest, I thought she just ran away and was like I don’t feel like being a mother anymore when the life insurance policy was brought up I just knew she was crazy enough to fake her death. 

In all truthfulness, the ending was kind of disappointing but the comedy of it all fit the movie itself. The movie was funny because the actors made it funny but it wasn't a funny movie which I liked honestly.  

I love it when a movie says the title in the movie too “I just need ‘A Simple Favor’” just amazing like wow and it was just a simple favor that turned into this crazy out-of-proportion thing. 

But, if you want to watch a movie that will keep your attention, a little funny, and has you wanting to know what happened then I would suggest watching this movie, or even if you just need something random to watch. 

Do it for me, as a simple favor. 

Review of ‘A Simple Favor’ 2018 

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Millers Girl

You know that feeling when you feel something. The feeling that makes you stop for a moment and your body starts to sink into the earth grounding you to it, making you one with the essential being that is this universe. 

This is how I feel when I watch a good movie or read a good book. I am not talking about something that you say “That was awesome” or “I’d watch, read, or do it again” Im talking about when you stop for a moment, and breathe in what you just ingested with the pupils of your eyes and what has reached into your soul. Im talking about that “wow” factor, the moment that it takes your breath away. 

Only a few movies and books have done this to me. Where I literally couldn’t peel my eyes off the screen or force my fingers to stop turning the page. 

Miller’s girl has done this to me. Miller’s Girl has inspired me. Miller’s girl has taken, my breath, away. 

When I saw the trailers in brief moments and thought I had an understanding of what the movie was about I was intrigued. I thought it was a movie about a student-teacher affair, a “teacher's pet” moment if you will. But, within the first 5 minutes of the movie I was hooked on another plot, dragged into another story that I was completely oblivious about.

The story of a writer. That's why it hits home.

The sheer poeticness of this entire movie is astonishing, to say the least. It's so beautiful that the shots from a filmmaker's perspective were inspiring. 

The way she spoke made you feel every word she was saying as if you were a writer yourself. Making poems in your head of the tragedy of love and loss and you maybe have never felt either. 

I can’t speak for everyone. Some may just find it sexy with a dark turn, some may have found it sad, and some may have found it enlightening. Especially for women when the girls talk about sex in a way that it should be talked about. The wanting of a man who's older because he would care. Caring to take his time, get the juices flowing, and making sure that at the end, you would be begging for more. 

I found it to be the pinnacle of a writer's fantasy. The beauty in the way power shifts, the anguish behind the words they write. It is beauty and pain, it is love and hate, it is war in one's mind of turning reality into a story that you want to keep reading.

In this movie over and over I heard things that I would want to quote. Love is anguish and I am in love with this movie. The pain I feel when she longs to love someone the way he writes about loving his wife. In the end, all I could think was “Tis better to have love and loss than to never love at all.” Longing for love but not knowing what comes with it. Indeed she did turn down the road that would inevitably lead to nothing but hurt and pain but, at least she felt something. She no longer has this hole in her heart that she felt would never be filled. Writing was her love and she chose to get inspired. I wonder if she regrets her choice. At the end, they look at one another, and tears fall down her cheek. Then, her tears turn to justice, she chooses to not be the victim in her story but the villain. You know what they say about villains, they’re made, not born. 

“Human ruins of a madman's love”

Review of Miller's Girl 2024 

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Writing is beauty and pain, it is love and hate, it is war in one's mind of turning reality into a story that you want to keep reading.

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“Some people have been hurt in their past. So don’t just tell them you love them, show them why they should believe.”

— Charles Orlando

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Going MAD in OZ

Nothing hurts more than being with the right person but everything around you is telling you it's just not the right time. What hurts even more is seeing the future and knowing you're with the right person but it is just not the right time. Do you go for it? Do you continue going through a tornado storm of emotions just to end up with a house falling on your head banging you with the undeniable truth that, right now, it's just not your time. Do you follow the yellow brick road? Do you go on this journey that you know that in the end will hurt you? But hey, at least getting there will be quite the ride.

The journey starts at the beginning, and both are open to the thought of something new, but there are no expectations. You talk, get to know one another, and even share some laughs. Then, you get a feeling of something more, and you lean close, and then they lean close.

Next, the two of you hang out a lot, it's a fun "getting to know each other" but when you add intimacy so quickly it can cloud your judgment. You start to get scared because now there are feelings that you didn't expect to come up. Now both of you are trying to fool yourself into thinking that your feelings are less than what they are.

Then, the cycle begins, the tea cups keep spinning and the filling knowledge of the truth spills over when the jealousy starts to set in. The cycle of having the same conversation over and over again is spun into full effect. "I like you but, I'm not ready for a relationship right now" "I feel the same way". Little did you both know you were really feeling the exact same way. You had just both been hurt, you met on a site thinking you were ready to start being happy again only to be stopped in your tracks by the painful reminder that when you give someone your heart, you are allowing yourself to be hurt.

Finally, the fear sets in, the fear that this might be real, that this could be the person for you. Sadly, were too hurt to allow ourselves to give one another a shot. So, you pick fights that lead back to the same fight that you both keep screaming at the top of your lungs that you are okay with not being in a relationship. News flash, you're in one, The way you are feeling right now, all these emotions swirling around coming to the surface and you are faced with the undeniable truth.

Do you follow the yellow brick road or do you stay in OZ?

Stay with the fantasy that allows you to not face the fact that one day you are going to have to let someone hurt you again, and stay in a place that keeps you safe, by avoiding getting into deep with anyone.

Or

Go down the yellow brick road; go on your journey just to add another chapter to your book. Eventually ending up back home, but at least now you'll have a story to tell. The thoughts of them will stain every inch of your mind, body, and soul forever. Something to remember, because at least if you take the skip down that lane you can say you gave it a try, but almost is never enough.

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have you ever had to force yourself to cry and you can't cry because you know something hurts and is killing you inside but you are so tired of feeling pain that you can't feel anymore.

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Running Water

I can't say that this isn't the first time that I've done this.

This is the first time that I've turned off my emotions.

It's a mechanism that I have used for a long time to protect my feelings.

It's more of a placebo effect than anything.

Grabbing the bottle of numbing, popping open the top, and swallowing as many pills as I can until I don't feel anymore.

It's sad really, that so many of us turn our emotions off to protect ourselves. We meet someone, we start to feel, and the overwhelming thoughts that it could possibly hurt us in the future stop us from trying.

Turning on the faucet and allowing all of the emotions to flow out and when it keeps turning, and turning, and the emotions start coming out at such a high pressure it becomes too much.

Soon it becomes the default, pop that bottle open again, and take another handful. Don't feel.

The only way to stay safe and feel happy is to not feel.

But....

That isn't true. It hurts more when emotions are turned off. I acknowledge my feelings without feeling them and that hurts.

Knowing how I feel, knowing how they feel, and not knowing if it's real is way too scary for me.

I want to love and happiness, I know I most likely won't find it in the first person I try to connect with but I have to try. I have to try and be happy and try to move along.

In life, we're all going to have ups and downs, especially in relationships. All we can do is try and succeed, try and fail, just try.

For now, I can't stop taking the pills but, hopefully, I'll put them back on the shelf soon.

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[queenofhurt]

Him: “You seem upset with me”

Me: “Why would I be upset with you”

Maybe it’s because you don’t communicate in all the ways that you should

Maybe it’s because you keep telling me how I feel

Maybe it’s because you want me to fall when you haven’t shown me that you are willing to fall for

I have been hurt, broken, and bruised. I am not ready to be hurt again so please stop pressing the issue.

You are showing me things that in the past I would allow to happen to me and I just can’t let you slide.

I will not be played again, I will not be hurt, I will be okay after this.

Let me take my time.

Let me learn.

Let me breathe.

Him: “I don’t know you tell me”

Me: “I’m not upset with you”

- don’t tell me how to feel