Queen Solstice

Writing is like meditation to me. It calms my anxious heart and cleanses my spirit

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You are worthy, regardless of how hard you try to convince yourself that you're not.

Queen Solstice

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This is a simple piece, but people seem to like this one way more than complex pieces I’ve written so...here you go! 

Every time we link up I enter heaven's gates

How can I feel like I'm dreaming when I'm still awake 

Inhaling your sincerity with every breath I take 

Fantasizing about the explosive love we'll make 

Entering new dimensions with this transfer of energy 

I need you bad, this is an impending emergency 

Don't understand how anyone could be so good to me

Could it be that God saved you just for me? 

Tucked you away, and nurtured you each and every day

Preparing you for someone that could love you in every way

I tell you my flaws, expecting you to walk away

But when I look in your eyes there's no signs of dismay 

You kiss my hand and open all my doors 

I tell you about my insecurities but you just love me more 

Thank God my anger and heavy baggage has been resolved 

You're such an immaculate person, you make me break out in song 

When I think of your regal brawn and this glow you'be caused 

Baby I'm so excited I can't wait to see 

What our ancestors and the universe has in store for me

You're so beautiful, you got my heart racin 

No more forlorn anticipations or frustrated elations 

Emancipation palpitating through me, such a pure sensation 

I can't believe that this is true 

Do I really deserve this the way you say I do 

Feeling like Monica baby for you I will 

The electricity between us feels so surreal 

I love everything about you, you're so discrete 

From the way that you think to the fly kicks on your feet

That melanin poppin like the moonlight at midnight, you enlighten me 

It's amazing how quickly you deciphered me

And while we never know how life might pan out, I believe in manifestation baby we got that clout

That indigenous power, like Moorish meditation 

Our bond is ancient, we're the perfect equation of everlasting life, we can be the original holy trinity

I promise I'll love you infinitely, we're such a divine design 

Please give me the honor and privilege of calling you mine 

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Keep your Holiday Happy

Make sure that you guard your energy for the remainder of the year. Do not allow anyone to make you feel guilty. Be with those that love and appreciate you. You don't owe anyone anything but yourself. It's ok to put yourself first!

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Hiii Winter Solstice!!!

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I just wanna go home and write!

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Fall Leave Eaves Ease

Leaves Fall On

Tea Chai Love

Orange Pathway

Talked To Me

Yes, Ter, Day

One Day I Pave My Way

And Say

Breeze Freeze

Leave Me, Eaves Thee

Ease Trees, Fall Brings

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I want to follow more black people who are beautiful, woke, and funny. You reblog this and I follow you.

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The Evolution Of Pain

If I ever get the honor and privilege of calling you mine

If you ever realize you got confused in this specific space in time 

Understand that I love you because 

In your presence I transformed completely 

mind body and soul

Open and enlightened, brilliant, exhilarating 

The most significant evolution of my life, by far

you feel me, literally

you tolerate me

Flaws and all, marred and torn with a powerful facade

Meticulous, often frivolous  outrageous, sometimes courageous  

Withstanding the test of time, over standing that I need you

allowing our spirits to collide 

Allowing fate to flawlessly unfold 

While you hesitate with every breath, but still allowing our stars to align

Over stand that you forced me to forgive and helped me to blossom 

Nurtured my pain like rain over a mother's spring garden 

And you were oblivious 

Maybe I should have been more patient

I knew I shouldn't have wasted my time with another 

Or maybe you're frightened of me, and all that we could be

How beautiful it is that transformations stem from pain 

And there's a song for every dreary emotion we could ever witness 

When the clouds disperse, and dawn appears

 my anger subsides

And my heart grows wiser

Realizing it is more painful to hate you, and loving you is natural 

Although you disappointed me, and the thought of losing you taunts my initial thoughts

In your presence, I am calm, I am safe, I am perfectly secure  

I am free to be me without judgement or speculation 

With you I am the best part of me

And without you I am miserable 

An impoverished soul

These intangible spiritual endeavors are undeniable 

 I'm constantly counting the moments till you return to me

For these reasons, know that I love you

Wholeheartedly and genuinely 

And it will continue through each and every season God grants me life

And my spirit will adore you for all eternity 

 -Queen Solstice

  June 21st 2016

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Thank you to everyone that ventured to my page, liked a post, and followed me! You guys are so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I appreciate all of you!!!!!

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so let’s try this again lol.

after stressing about this book cover I’ve finally got it right. BIG thank you to my sis @xxgold for taking the time to draw/design this illustration for me, she really saved me A LOT of trouble & stress, I owe her big time!

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thank you again to everyone who’s so supportive & encouraging, it’s really helped while I was trying to get everything right

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Calamity

The air was still, dim, and quiet

He was tall, resplendent, benevolent

A powerful soul

Effortless seduction 

In fact he was more attractive when he showed emotion

Pulled me in and I came pouring out

Like the sweet nectar of a honey suckle blossom

A dark enchantment 

I was hesitant to embark 

Young, unjust lust and frail trust

Heart on my sleeve 

Love bursting from my being

Too overwhelming to be received by just one entity

He is such a soulful calamity 

Are you a part of my destiny? 

Tyranny, with a spiritual symmetry

Unknowingly consenting to my own disparity 

A lonely Soliloquy of tangled epiphanies 

Each time he declined my desire to be invited

Raced away after every embrace

Dismissed my kisses

Thought maybe I could be Mrs.

but he relentlessly resisted

Discreetly treated me like a whore

But he always wanted more  

Praying away the memories

As I yearn for higher learning 

But there's no escaping a desperate mistake 

Some soul ties last forever

Bilking my matter

A slow death, smooth as silk

A forbidden addiction 

Toxic, but I'm forced into submission 

Flowing through my veins until every inch of my existence is devoured

Until I'm deflowered 

My conscious scours as the conversation lingers for hours

Morally, taboo 

But fuel for my soul

My weakness, we're so reckless

A war of the hearts 

I can feel you thinking of me when we're apart 

The chaotic calamity of our remedy

Zealotry erupts as we satisfy our immense gluttony 

Presently your revelry is a pleasantry 

How I long for our endless ecstasy

- Queen Solstice

August 8th, 2016

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Corporate America

So I am at work this morning, and I have become increasingly sad with each passing day. I work hard, I don't call out and I hardly take any days off. I do my job and what is expected of me, and so much more. I have given this specific company my youngest and best adult years. Aside from the fact that I am over worked, and under appreciated, this is not what I want to do with the rest of my life! And it's putting me in an extremely dark place.

It was never a dream of mine to be so dedicated and loyal to a company that they are able to hang my livelihood over my head, and in turn treat me like a child. Being surrounded by brainwashed co-workers and micro managing supervisors is enough to depress anyone. But when upper management takes it upon themselves to withhold funds from you, that's a different ballgame. That is that absolute last straw.

I am not happy here, I am TIRED of clocking in for someone else, plus I am mentally and emotionally exhausted once my shift is over. How can I be the best mom I can be? Or the best daughter, sister, aunt, friend or girlfriend? I can't if at the end of the day I have nothing left to give, because I've given it all to my job.

I was completely at the end of my rope this morning. I thought about walking out, telling them I was done and in that moment I didn't care about the consequences. Too far? Maybe, considering that I have bills to pay, and apparently less money to do so now. So I turn to the computer, and one of the FEW social sites that haven't been blocked yet is this one. I dabbled in blogging a couple of years back, and I became super discouraged thinking that because there were so many bloggers that were way more talented than me, that it was a waste of time. Well, how can that be when this morning, the one and only thing that made me feel better was the thought of writing? My first and most beautiful true love.

I thought that at this age, I would be much further along than I am now. I thought I'd be rolling in money, I'd have a huge house, my dream car....the American dream I suppose. As I grew older and my life changed, I learned that everyone's path is their own, and should not be compared to anyone else's timeline of lessons or blessings. I have also learned, that the American dream is indeed a dream. The amount and price of the things you have is not a testament to how successful you have become. So Although there are many things that I would like, I just want to be able to look nice, travel, and enjoy my life. I haven't been in a position to do all three at the same time, ever in my life. But I would like to, so I declare that today is day one, and that "one day" is no longer an option. Writing my truth and sharing it is step one. Step two....not so sure yet. Maybe I'll do a YouTube video that relays this message as well. After that...I'll continue to write and share about my experiences, hoping that it helps someone. I'll dedicate my spare time to working on my book ideas, and actually turning them into books that can be published. Who knows where this thing may actually go.

People tell me that I am talented and that I should open up and share more. I am typically super guarded because I haven't known many healthy relationships of any kind. But here I am, attempting to find the path that I abandoned so long ago. I have no idea where any of this may lead me. I don't know what the steps look like nor the timeline of my path. I just know that I have to stick with what makes me happy. Hopefully someone will be touched by this, and will find encouragement to do what they love. Take it one day at a time, one step at a time. Do what your heart leads you to do, and trust in the process. Things may look up for you sooner, or later, but trust in the fact that as long as you put in the work you can do whatever the hell you want. You do not have to be confined to the restrictions of another company. You can have your own and make  the rules.    

As for me, the first thing I'm going to do once this is posted is take a break, talk to God, and try to stay positive so that I am not completely depleted at the end of this work day. My job will be a little easier to handle today, because I know that I have taken the first step in a process that is sure to be amazing. Take your first step today. It can be a huge step, or a baby step. But please, do not allow your talents to sit while you make someone else rich. It's not fair, and you deserve so much more! We all do!

- Queen Solstice

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Forgiveness

What does it mean to truly forgive someone? I have struggled with this concept my entire life. I used to be so angry, holding on to things that were done to me, feeling like I didn't deserve any of it. It's heartbreaking, especially when you know you'd never do such things to those you care about.

It wasn't until I reached my late twenties that I understood how important it is to let things go. I am a natural introvert. I am trying to be more social and trustworthy but it has proven to be difficult for me. It takes a lot of me to finally trust someone, so when I do and they betray me anyway it makes me want to crawl in a hole and unplug from the world. I had to realize that perhaps my encounters with people are more special to me because of the type of personality I have. An extrovert may not be phased by betrayal the way an introvert would be, because they may fall out with people all the time...I mean they have more encounters with them don't they?  

I tend to overthink everything, so my analysis of hurt and heartbreak is not going to be the same as someone else. So how am I supposed to forgive when I hardly ever let anyone see the most intimate form of my being? I have to keep in mind that people may not even be aware that my feelings run as deep as they do. You cannot expect anyone to think like you or to treat you the way you want to be treated. No one owes you anything, even when if you feel like you owe them the world.

Some people I am able to explain my pain to, others...not so much. When I finally stopped being afraid of expressing how people have made me feel, I found that some were open to the conversation and didn't realize what they had done had an effect on me. Others, when you feel the energy tense around them, understand that certain things you will not be able to speak with them about. Learn who is truly on your side, who truly cares about you, whose relationship is more important to you. When you are able to come to a common ground, forgiveness is much easier. And although you may not be able to obtain closure with some, it still pays to be kind to them. Being a good person to someone you used to be good friends with does not involve telling your business or being extremely close. It's about rising above the negativity and not allowing it to change your heart. Being angry and constantly going over the hurtful scenario in your head only damages you while others are moving on with their lives. Smile, be positive, try to remain in good spirits. Forgiveness is for you, and vengeance belongs to God. It doesn't pay to try and understand everything, it's impossible. Pray about it. Give your frustrations to God and let him work it out. Many of us are fighting battles that we have no business being concerned with. While we are preparing to go to war, God may already have it set up to be worked out that same day. Don't waste your energy. Take a deep breath and a step back and tell God what you need. He will show you the bigger picture in due time.

- Queen Solstice