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i hope you'll be listening... again... 26.06.26
- OG creator
be honest. if you saw my laptop would u come talk to me or would u just think i was a Loser
i have awful news guys…
moment of silence for the loss of my laptop stickers after i sent my laptop away to get repaired :(
i have a lot of spares but now that i’m looking at that photo…. a Lot were one offs… sigh
even if i did manage to take some off beyond i sent it away i doubt they would’ve been able to stick back on again so… what can you do
A NEW EMPIRE STARTS!!!!!!!!
rip so many of my OG stickers that i couldn’t get replacements for 💔💔 but at least i get to update some interests i guess
i miss my radio silence stickers </3
be honest. if you saw my laptop would u come talk to me or would u just think i was a Loser
i have awful news guys…
moment of silence for the loss of my laptop stickers after i sent my laptop away to get repaired :(
i have a lot of spares but now that i’m looking at that photo…. a Lot were one offs… sigh
even if i did manage to take some off beyond i sent it away i doubt they would’ve been able to stick back on again so… what can you do
i’ve been watching nightmare time and even though i’ve seen it before, i still got jumpscared
by ted spankoffski rattling off my exact birthday TO THE YEAR
STOP I DIDNT SEE THIS TIL NOW HAHAAH THANK U !!!!!! this is so funny im giggling
i love and miss season 3 of heartstopper! so proud of it and in love with it and happy it exists ❤️ it was a really stressful thing to make but i'd do it all again! thank you for all the love today (and always!) i'm sure there's not much more i can tell you, but if you did have any lingering questions about season 3, i will try to answer them in the replies!
i also love and miss heartstopper s3 like… a totally normal amount
happy birthday hstv s3 🙏🏻🙏🏻‼️‼️
booked my heartstopper tattoo!!!! is it leaves? is it a quote? No! it’s:
<3 jellyfish <3
HE’S HEREEEE!!!!!! so so happy with him he’s just a silly lil guy fr :(
tattoo update several months later:
got to show it to THE tobie donovan and he immediately gasped and so kindly asked to take a pic to send to @chronicintrovert haha
talked about why i decided to get it and what it meant to me and how special the lil jellyfish guy is
truly an honour to have finally shared this with mr isaac henderson himself :D!!
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EXCERPT #99:
Hello. I hope somebody is listening.
[…]
Alright, old sport. We’re just about ready to head out…
[Whispering] I’m trying not to sound too nervous, is it working…? I can’t tell if Zahar knows if I’m freaking out or not.
Oh! Actually, in interesting news… Zahar has this like a mobile radio… Fairly similar to what Thalia created when she began listening in.
Comes with a microphone and everything! He gave it to me so I can be on call throughout this whole ordeal… We’re just hoping that instead of the agency listening, it’s perhaps someone who can help. Like you, old sport! If you’re out there…
And, well… I never mentioned it to Zahar, but… Maybe if Thalia is still listening, then… But maybe I’m just hopeful.
Anyway, I’ve got to drive us over on the bike, so I won’t be back on call until we’ve arrived. Though… I’m not sure what to expect signal-wise, especially inside…
While I’m very familiar, of course, with most of the buildings in the City… I have certainly not been in this one!
I’ve talked about exploring the abandoned buildings in the City before, if you remember, old sport.
But this one… I remember it was locked when I visited.
Far from anything out of the ordinary, trust me, a lot of buildings seem abandoned, yet are locked up - I categorised these as buildings the governors seemingly didn’t want you to enter.
I guess, for some, I presumed wrong…
I do wonder if there are other buildings like that in the City…
Its exploration is locked behind a door for reasons much darker than just the governors’ regulations…
I won’t lie, old sport, the thought does frighten me.
If we manage to defeat the agency… What if that’s not the end? What if there’s more to it all?
I know this fight isn’t my ticket out of the City. Far from it. But what if it harms me more than I believe is possible?
I’m not talking about my possible demise, old sport. That may be one of the better outcomes.
But if they win. If they control the City. If they capture me…
What then will become of this?
Of my calls, of my work… Of you, old sport…
What version of me am I leaving behind?
Oh, I do hope you think it’s a good one.
The person I have become.
All the turmoil I have shared with you for so long, old sport.
I hope it didn’t ever make you think differently of me.
I think I’m getting a little too sentimental now…
Even a little too pessimistic for my taste…
I just feel it, old sport.
I feel this dread… And yet, at the same time, this confidence… A spark of optimism… Out of nowhere.
I see visions of a different life. A free life.
A version of me much different to the one in here.
Happier, kinder, warmer… A lot more accompanied.
They don’t seem real.
Fabricated by my own mind… Like a dream or a thought.
I just don’t think I know anything anymore, old sport. Not truly.
And that’s how I must go into this.
[Exhales]
Zahar is giving me the signal.
It’s time to go.
Switching over, old sport. Talk to you when we’ve arrived.
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EXCERPT #98:
Hello. I hope somebody is listening.
[…]
It’s nearly D-Day, old sport.
It hasn’t exactly been the most fun… Working with Zahar in particular.
While he has all these resources, he… Well, he really likes to flaunt them.
It’s funny, old sport, you know I dated him.
And even back then, he did this.
But clearly I was too caught up in feelings or… Something… Because, man, do I not remember it being this annoying.
Sure, having a ship is pretty cool - hell, if I had a ship, I’d flaunt it too.
But that’s the thing… He hasn’t finished rebuilding it yet.
Maybe that’s the real difference.
It was okay when he showed off all these things on his literal spaceship… But when the ship isn’t there, it’s… Well, it’s a bit more underwhelming.
Sorry, old sport, I know I’m going off topic.
Here’s what we’ve done so far in our efforts to fight against the agency:
Zahar has been prepping weapons, transport, nutrients… Essentially, everything we need to survive.
While their ship is still out of commission, I suggested we use my lunar bike as a form of transportation.
Well… He had one look at it… And in a single second, he decided it needed a massive upgrade.
Without even asking, Zahar sprang into action, adding spare parts, tightening screws… I swear, even just watching him move with such intensity caused some sparks. That, or he was just welding something.
Within minutes, my lunar bike now holds two people… And can shoot multiple different forms of ammo and has a rocket booster…
So, yeah… Not sure how much of that will come in handy.
I, on the other hand, have been a constant source of information for Zahar.
While he sees me as inadequate in helping in every other way, the one thing he sees as useful is letting him know what exactly we’re up against.
While I believe I know a lot about the agency, I… In the grand scheme of things, I haven’t exactly seen much of the people who are behind it.
In fact, I don’t know anything about them.
They may not even be people… As far as I’m aware.
When I tell Zahar this, he doesn’t exactly seem frightened. Or cautious. Or weary.
He just continued asking questions.
And with every answer I gave, he responded most often with one of two reactions:
A slight nod, with a light smirk on his face, or a twitch of a furrow in his brow.
…Besides physical matter, he really doesn’t give me much to work with.
Even though it was he who broke up with me, old sport, I’m starting to see why it was for the best for me after all.
While Zahar is giving final touches to his arsenal of equipment, I’m back at Solus’ place, once again reading through the various piles of data documents on the agency.
I just wanted to make sure I didn’t miss anything…
The location is here… All the people who were captured… Everything I need is here.
Some of it I knew all along.
But that doesn’t matter now.
It’s time for me to get them back.
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EXCERPT #97:
Hello. I hope somebody is listening.
[…]
Zahar has certainly been keeping me busy, old sport.
It feels a little silly to admit, but… I really do think we might be able to do it.
Defeat the agency, that is.
Defeat, free, dissolve… Whatever we end up doing…
I just have this feeling…
This underlying feeling that it will all be okay.
It does come with an equal feeling of unease, though.
Because when have I ever… Felt like things were going to be okay in the City?
It almost feels as though I am not in my own mind.
Almost like there is some kind of infiltrator in my thoughts.
Maybe this is just another typical side effect of being in the City.
Some kind of parasite that not only seemingly eats away at your memories, but also manipulates them now, too!
[Sigh] But that is simply just another thing to worry about once the agency is destroyed.
Gosh, I still have so much to do.
What do I even say to Thalia when she is free?
Oh, I should buy her hair dye! [Chuckles] That would be a cute gesture, I think.
I can’t wait to talk to her again… Freely.
No Morse code, no light… No burial setting.
I can say with confidence, old sport, that I still have plenty of original thoughts.
Maybe it’s a little embarrassing to admit, but… I haven’t stopped thinking about kissing her again. The idea of being with her, touching her, being close to her again…
She got taken from me so quickly, I just…
The idea of us, together… Free from the agency, free to just work together and find a way out in peace… That’s…
Well, it just sounds too good to be true…
It’s funny to think that only one thing stands in the way of that reality…
Just one thing… One establishment…
Did I say funny…? I… I wouldn’t say it’s funny at all…
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EXCERPT #96:
Hello. I hope somebody is listening.
[…]
One last time to talk, old sport.
One last time before it all goes down… I think.
I hate to admit how useful Zahar is to me…
I must tell you plainly now, old sport, that I have no plans to continue to be in contact with him after this mission.
Well, certainly not, when in theory I will be free.
If not free from the City, well, free from the agency.
I will have my contacts back. My agency back.
Thalia… Back.
[…]
I must say my last piece to you, February, before whatever chaos I will inevitably cause in the coming days.
If only I could not be so dramatic.
But I do not know another way of speaking.
So I guess I will share a story.
Speak of something you may not even know yourself, February.
There’s this superstition that I hear throughout the City.
And I believe it may just be like home, too.
Wherever home seems to be, that is.
Metal poles line the streets everywhere.
Street lights, abandoned phone poles ever since cells went out of circulation… Street signs.
It is said that if you are walking side by side, you must each never take two different sides of a pole.
It is said that it will divide you, split the relationship apart and distance you from each other.
Did you know this, February?
Did you know this when I would walk behind you to avoid the split?
Did you know this when you did the same?
Did you know this when you stopped?
I don’t know when, February, but something switched.
You stopped making the effort.
You would show no sign of moving.
Suddenly, I wasn’t always able to fight the split either.
I concluded for a while that this must be why you left, February.
The universe was simply doing its part. It was simply doing what it was expected to do.
It split us apart, no?
But I knew… I thought I understood that you left me here for a reason.
I never blamed you.
Why now must I be searching for reasons to?
No, I think I understand.
You always did know you were going to leave, February.
You just didn’t want to hurt me.
But that’s impossible.
Because how could I not be upset?
So you split the poles.
You let the universe come between us in hopes that fate would separate us before you did.
You tried.
You tried to make it better by making it worse.
I understand now.
For if I were to not love you anymore, your leaving would hurt less, right?
But the universe did nothing.
It sat in wait.
Just as I always do.
Knowing that our relationship would split, just like the metal pole between us did, but not because of fate.
Because you needed to leave.
And now my heart cannot be split by a metal pole.
[…]
EXCERPT #95:
Hello. I hope somebody is listening.
[…]
Zahar isn’t much of a talker.
It’s ironic, really, from someone with a specialised skill in impressions.
Though it never truly surprised me.
He hated when I would ‘therapise’ him (as he would call it) when we were together.
But I didn’t think I was exactly therapising him… Especially if I was telling the truth.
It was as if he were never comfortable in his own voice.
It’s why he mimicked people all of the time.
You never really ever heard him speak.
He was always putting on a voice… Putting on a mask…
Hiding behind someone else when I was talking to him.
And that’s exactly what he did when I met him in his hideout.
He avoided my blatant question and instead just started jabbering on about something related to his ship.
He was talking in his Dad’s voice.
A typical approach from him… Takes a voice of authority to him to feel more important. To assert a point.
But I had known him too long. I knew what he was doing.
It took me a while to get through to him.
I repeated his name, over and over, to try and get him out of this habit.
And then I heard it. His voice.
He was finally asking me why I was here.
It was finally him.
But before I could answer, he looked at me blankly. Almost reading the intent in my eyes.
He knew I wanted him to help me.
Well, perhaps not ‘wanted’... Needed.
He murmured something under his breath about doing something again, before turning his back to me.
My eyes were fixed on what he was approaching, a concealed button within a painting on the wall next to him.
With one click, he turns around to face me, with a smirk quickly crawling across his face, as the wall behind him lifts up to reveal what he has been working on.
The recreation of his ship.
Surrounding it were weapons beyond anything I had seen before. I could not begin to describe to you, old sport, what exactly each thing did. I didn’t know.
With me speechless, Zahar says one final thing. Not in his own voice. Not in his Dad’s.
I hear Solus. One last time. Saying, “let’s do this.”
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EXCERPT #94:
Hello. I hope somebody is listening.
[…]
I am exhausted, old sport.
I watched the live camera looking over the wreckage for hours, waiting for Zahar to return…
He never did.
Well, at least not from my perspective.
After a whole night of watching surveillance, it was a loud crash, probably a stray cyborg or animal, that startled me awake.
I quickly checked the footage to make sure I hadn’t missed anything… I didn’t see anything out of the ordinary.
Just in case, though, I went back to the crash site to make sure.
Old sport…
Everything was gone.
Sure, the crater remained, but the ship wreckage seemingly disappeared overnight.
Instead, all that was left was a sign, picketed in the middle of the crater.
I wrote down what it said for you, old sport. You’ll never believe it.
“Rebuilding my ship. Nothing mischievous, I swear. I know you crashed it. I don't have problems with you if you don’t have problems with me. Just let me get my ship back. - Zahar.”
[...]
I thought about it for a while, old sport.
I sat reading that sign, over and over.
It just wasn’t fair. It’s not fair. It was never fair. That isn’t a deal I could possibly agree to.
Zahar, he… He’s rebuilding his ship. He’s getting back what I destroyed.
I can’t get Solus back. I can’t rebuild Solus, they’re… They’re gone.
Now… This is where you might have to hear me out, old sport.
I went to his old hideout.
A place I swore to never return to.
I wasn’t even sure if he still had a place there. I didn’t know if he had moved; after all, we broke up a while ago. Though I can’t be certain when exactly…
When I got there, the place almost looked exactly as I remembered it.
He almost didn't look surprised to see me.
He was just sitting there… Polishing some random metal part in his hands…
I may have just seen him yesterday… But seeing him in person again… Seeing him truly… It was terrifying…
I didn’t know if I recognised him.
He was everything I knew before… In this light, I could just about make out the purple tint of his skin… It looked a little greyer than I remembered… At least, I think.
The clothing he always wore… It was more tattered than I remembered. He always kept to the same kind of ‘street style’... In Universe City, however, it might be different to what you’re imagining, old sport…
He looked tired. It reminded me of when I saw Thalia… At Solus’ burial.
I just stared at him. All I could say in the end was, “What happened…?”
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