The lyrics to this song are absolutely fantastic and the attention to audio detail is just exquisite.Â

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The lyrics to this song are absolutely fantastic and the attention to audio detail is just exquisite.Â
(I cried buckets yesterday Iâm so so so so proud of him)
Produced by Slow Rabbit Composed by Jimin, Slow Rabbit Lyrics by Jimin, RM
Original lyrics are transcribed.
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íŒì ìŁŒì ìì Sitting on the ground alone,
ìê°ë§ ì»€ì žê° I get taken over by ever-growing thoughts
ìžì ë¶í° ë ë ìíêČ íëê° âSince when have you been hurting meâ
ëìĄ°ì°šë ëȘšë„Žìì Even you donât know
ëë ìíìì âCause youâre mine Youâre hurting too, âcause youâre mine
I just wanna blow your mind
ìŽë êČ ë ë ë©ìŽì žë§ ê°ëë° Again, Youâre moving further away like this
ì돎ë ì§ ììë° âIâm alrightâ
ê·žë êČ ë§íëë° Though I say so,
ìŹì€ì ëŽê° ê·žêČ ìëê°ëŽ maybe the truth is that Iâm not
I want you to be your light, baby
You should be your light
ëë ìíì§ ìêČ So that you are not hurt anymore
ëê° ìì ì ìêČ So that you can smile
I want you to be your night, baby
You could be your night
ìŽ ë°€ìŽ ëìêČ ìì§í ì ìêČ So that this night can be honest with you
ëë ìíìì âCause youâre mine Youâre hurting too, âcause youâre mine
I just wanna blow your mind
ìŽë êČ ë ë ë©ìŽì žë§ ê°ëë° Again, Youâre moving further away like this
ì돎ë ì§ ììë° âIâm alrightâ
ê·žë êČ ë§íëë° Though I say so,
ìŹì€ì ëŽê° ê·žêČ ìëê°ëŽ maybe the truth is that Iâm not
I want you to be your light, baby
You should be your light
ëë ìíì§ ìêČ So that you are not hurt anymore
ëê° ìì ì ìêČ So that you can smile
I want you to be your night, baby
You could be your night
ìŽ ë°€ìŽ ëìêČ ìì§í ì ìêČ So that this night can be honest with you
ìŽì ëŽêČ ìœìíŽ Promise me now
í룚ì ëȘëČì© íŒìëŒ ë껎ë Even if you feel alone many times a day,
ë ëČ늏ì§ë ë§ donât throw away yourself
ìŹêž° ì êč ë©ì¶°ì Pause for a moment right here,
ìëŒìê°ëœ ê±žêł hook your pinky with mine,
ìŽì ëŽêČ ìœìíŽ and promise me now
Translation credits: doolsetbangtan
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(BTS) I cried a lot.Â
How did @finch-and-jay even find my post i literally tagged it with the bare minimum out of fear.
If you see this, love you â
(Really enjoy your posts, especially dance and fandom analyses. Looking foward to the waiting list!)
GCF in Saipan- A Rant as of August 2018 (Posted December)
(Out in December since I wanted to get a more objective view on things and to edit it slightly. This is just as a memory record anyways so)
When I made this blog, it was meant to be a blog to rant about anything Bangtan that interested me. However, I recently encountered one of the most frustrating, interesting, and baffling two days of my life and I needed to address the cause of this with a rant (that I doubt people will read). The cause: Jungkookâs GCF in Saipan.
WARNING: THIS IS ALL IN GOOD FUN. I claim no rights to what is true or not. Donât take this too seriously please. Will have Koomin/Jikook references.
My Thoughts/Story on BTS Shipping
Before I begin this, here is a post on what exactly shipping is, as well as the difference between it and supporting. The second part is a good explanation of Shipping and RPS, in case you do not know the background behind the term. To give a basic premise on what the beginning is, the main difference between shipping and supporting is that:
Shipping:Â
Personal desire for a pair to be together.
Supporting:Â
Outlook on a pair possibly being together.
There are overlapping actions they both perform, such as enjoying the pair in general. I definitely suggest looking into the link. Of course, it is slightly biased (in terms of the rest of this ramble, as it is going to be about Bangtan of course) due to the mention of KM, but the information there is something I do agree with. I do think that Shipping and Supporters both âsupportâ the pair, but for different reasons. I think the easiest way to think of it is this: shippers (tend to) look at the end result of them being together, while supporters (tend to) look at what builds the body of the relationship. Again, they overlap a bit, but these are where tendencies lie for the two.
For this ramble, as it is purely opinions and personal experience, take everything with a grain of salt. Comparatively to others who have been here longer, I am much less experienced with the history of Bangtan. I am on the international side, with no knowledge of the Korean (nor Japanese, as a lot of content seems to be there as well) language. Of course, there are translations, of which I rely on multiple sources in hopes of negating misleading or mistranslated words, or cultural barriers in understanding (just for reference, my favorite translator may be peachboy on twitter. There are a few others as well).
That being said letâs begin.Â
Before BTSÂ
I had no interest in celebrities, famous figures, etc., much less Real People Shipping. In fact, I found the notion of it to be incredibly awkward. Why push romantic framing on people who could be directly affected by the public? Fictional characters can be manipulated to explore possibilities without affecting the canon universe, and people could make up parts of their backstories and thoughts to suit their own little universe parallel to the canon. With real people, it felt incredibly distasteful to make assumptions about them, added with the fact I knew none of them personally.Â
To be fair, I still think that. Hence why I am still not a RPS. Even with fictional characters, I wasnât much of a shipper. I was still more of a supporter even then, distinguishing very clearly what is âcanonâ and what is âhead canonâ without disrupting the original universe. I had no real need to see the pairs I liked be together. Instead, I enjoyed the possibilities of their dynamics separately to what may or may not be true. Then again, I enjoyed comedy and adventure manga generally a little more than romance-oriented. Might be why.
Meeting BTS
I first heard of BTS in 2016 from a friend. Then I promptly forgot about them and k-pop entirely until May 2018. If asked, I could tell you the long story of the strange coincidences I had concerning the group within those two years, but, long story turned short, I didnât like the song she showed me in 2016, but I did like the song I happened upon purely by coincidence in 2018. I donât keep up with the news, with social media, anything. So it really was serendipitous (wink) that I stumbled upon them once again (there was a chain of events that led to it), and was reintroduced with a more open musical mind to rap (that occurred within the two years I forgot about them).Â
(I know I keep referencing the two years, but because this ramble isnât focused on it. I will go into detail separately if anyone is curious)
I liked their music, but upon searching for more content, I was surprised by the frankly overwhelming material concerning the boys themselves. Keep in mind that I have never cared for celebrities before, so I was skeptical. There are a few that I remember being early non-music related videos Iâve seen, but one of the earliest was a âJikook momentsâ video. So, my first exposure into BTS ships was Jimin and Jungkook. I donât remember its contents, but my reaction was pretty neutral. At this point, I hardly know the boys themselves, so it wasnât really appealing to me. Jungkook perhaps I noticed as an individual first (though Jimin was the musical introduction for me into the group, and later, the emotional introduction) but mostly in a neutral way as well, without any real connection yet. To be honest, he is perhaps also the last person I began understanding well out of the group, though it is true that heâs easier to understand after getting to know him (Hoseok, on the other hand became more of an enigma the deeper I got into his personality. Thatâs for another day as well).
To give a better perspective on what I mean by Jimin being my emotional introduction, I was lead to getting to know the other members through their interaction with Jimin. This was back in the days where I was still trying to figure out who was who in BTS considering their roles, and a video called âJiminâs secret role in BTSâ mislead me to the right place. But really, a compilation him doing nice things, being thoughtful and supportive, etc. was what made me like him and made me curious about BTS as people. His actions to each of the members and their individual dynamics made me curious about the other members because of how good-natured they all were. Now, I have different reasons I like each of the members individually of course, but you could say Jimin is my catalyst into becoming a fan of more than just their music.
It was only after somewhat gaining more perspective on the boys where I became curious about the ships. I saw Taekook, Sope, Namjin, obviously Jikook, Jihope, and more. I saw a couple videos concerning popular ships. YoonMin is the first that I became more knowledgeable about and I enjoyed their dynamic, though itâs not currently my favorite. They have a supportive relationship, and I could see why they were popular with many people, given that many people view of their personalities as opposites. However, I didn't really see the need to view them as romantic, but I do still enjoy their dynamic quite a lot and I like that their closeness. (On a different note, I dislike the overtly polarized view some more radical shippers have of them within this relationship, with their personalities becoming one dimensional and sometimes downright unlikable. Non-applicable to every shipper, of course).
Current
I feel like I should say here that I donât really see any of the members as romantic. This is a personal problem I have. Iâm very bad at reading social-behaviors. Similar in a way some people may be bad at reading moods and atmospheres, Iâm just not good at reading obscure behaviors, such as tone of voice, gaze, some body language, etc. Hence why I donât trust myself to read into anything too much myself (nor am I really aware unless itâs pointed out to me, usually). Sure, it is interesting to read other peopleâs views on romantic inclinations, but I donât really analyze anything myself. A lot of times when I watch what they analyzed, it really doesnât mean much to me, which I still attribute to my personal problem. Of course, I could tell there is love, itâs more just that I donât really care about what sort of love it has to be. It could be anything, and I donât really find it within my desires to pick and choose. Not to say that doing so is bad, just that I donât feel the need to right now. Maybe that will change in the future, who knows.
I also never quite understood why people have to so strongly advocate a romantic relationship to the point of madness. This does not mean I donât understand people seeing something romantic between a pair, and wanting them to be happy. Itâs when a shipperâs belief begins to heavily warp their reality beyond comprehension and harming those around them that makes me concerned. I had a very immediate contact with this behavior after just the first few weeks on twitter, when I was still trying to know more about who BTS were. If you want to know more, ask and I will post.Â
So right now, I donât actively/strongly support anything romantic because a) Iâm not very good at reading peopleâs behaviors and emotions to begin with and b) I donât feel any real need to. My favorite relationships within the group are probably Vmin, Jinmin, and Jinkook, the former being very important and sentimental to me, the latter two just very fun bonds to appreciate. Recently, I do enjoy reading Jikook or KM stuff, as their dynamic has become more interesting after I dug into it. As I said before, they were the first ship Iâve heard of, but I hadnât payed much attention to them until four months after getting into BTS and watched all of the GCFs. After reading some very insightful analysis on their dynamic from actual KM stuff, I can appreciate why people do see them as romantic. Personally I couldnât really say anything either way, just the same for other ships that I donât care as much for. Just glad that they love and care for each other. That being said, will I reblog support/ship things? Probably yes, since some of them have actually very interesting content.
Iâm ending this on the note that there are some pairings I personally like more than others, but I see all of them as valid pairs to support, platonically or romantically if wanted, because I do think their dynamic as a group is very strong. In the end, whether any of them are romantically involved or not, if they choose to be open about it, I will gladly welcome and accept them, and if that never happens, it really isnât any of our business anyway. I urge everyone to not become so entangled with a pairing that you begin to make baseless assumptions that could hurt others, and to know that Bangtan, no matter where their bond as a group will go in the future (cynical nihilistic world view coming through), that they do all care for each other.Â
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Updates to Tumblrâs Community Guidelines
Today we announced some big updates to our Community Guidelines and what kind of content is permitted on Tumblr. Adult content will no longer be allowed here. While we do not judge anyone for their desire to post, engage with, or view this stuff, it is time for us to change our relationship with it.
We expect you may have some questions on how this will affect you, and weâre here to make sure those questions get answered.
When does the new policy take effect?
Our new Community Guidelines will go into effect on December 17, 2018.
Newly uploaded content flagged as adult will no longer be allowed on Tumblr. Weâll also begin flagging and removing existing adult content with the ultimate goal of removing as much of it as we can.
What is considered adult content?
Adult content primarily includes photos, videos, or GIFs that show real-life human genitals or female-presenting nipples, and any contentâincluding photos, videos, GIFs and illustrationsâthat depicts sex acts.
What is still permitted?
Examples of exceptions that are still permitted are exposed female-presenting nipples in connection with breastfeeding, birth or after-birth moments, and health-related situations, such as post-mastectomy or gender confirmation surgery. Written content such as erotica, nudity related to political or newsworthy speech, and nudity found in art, such as sculptures and illustrations, are also stuff that can be freely posted on Tumblr.
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yall full of shit
Youâre fucking ridiculous if you think tumblrâs porn/nudity ban actually has to do with child pornography. Literally every other site can effectively moderate this issue and tumblr has been actively closing in further on their anti-NSFW move. Many sex workers and NSFW artists were removed starting last month after the iOS app was removed from the App Store. Look at FOSTA/SESTA, look at the moves throughout the year to push sex workers and NSFW artists away, look at the way Patreon, Paypal, Craigslist, credit card companies, etc. have over-policed this issue and forced sex workers away. This is all so obvious.Â
Also, explicitly banning and calling out âfemale-presenting nipplesâ - note thereâs an exception if itâs after giving birth or during breastfeeding because OBVIOUSLY the only way breasts and nipples are okay is when youâre fulfilling your goddamn job of being an incubator and not just posting nipples wilfully or for (gasp) money. Because obviously, when weâre talking about the banning of child pornopraphy we must target âfemale-presenting nipplesâ and let everyone know that those are the real problem. Nipples are only okay when theyâre âmale-presentingâ and in the proximity of a newborn that is confirmed yours.Â
Like câmon⊠FOSTA/SESTA has been presented under the guise of fighting human trafficking just like these moves are no different. If they wanted to go after these very real issues then they would and they definitely wouldnât be (dangerously) conflating the issues. Also why can I still look up violent pro-Nazi, antisemitic imagery but not a goddamn nipple??
BTW read into how Apple has been forcefully pushing for this move & how easily they can go after other NSFW-content websites and force them to comply.Â
âcuz in the rain people are busy minding themselvesâÂ
forever rain (2018)
LGBT Kpop Music Videos
*Disclaimer: some of these are just implied and have not been confirmed by the company or artist*
Holland - Iâm Not AfraidÂ
Drag Queens, Lesbians, and a 10-second gay makeout scene. Need I say more?
Sistar - One More Day ft Giorgio Moroder
Girls Like Girls by Hayley Kiyoko dark version
Suran - Sad Pain
Cute story with a blind girl and a girl with PTSD and their relationship with each other
K.Will - Please Donât
The iconic gay mv
Holland - Neverland
Koreaâs first openly gay idolâs debut song
Glam - Party (XXO)
Bighitâs first and only girl group, the song explicitly talk about kissing girls and it not mattering if theyâre a girl or guy
Chuu (LOONA) - Heart Attack
Cute crush story between two girls
Khan - Iâm Your Girl?
They skipped the girl crush concept and went straight to the girlfriend concept
Red Velvet - Bad Boy
Besides the strong sapphic vibes, a lot of the imagery used points to the story being gay
Monsta X - All In
Minhyuk and Hyungwonâs characters are strongly implied to be in a relationship along with Kihyun and I.Mâs characters
 Tenny - 159 cm
One of the few Korean mvs to explicitly show some the struggles of being LGBT
Twice - What Is Love?
The girls recreate movie scenes, some from romance movies. Instead of using a guy for those parts, they just use another memberÂ
10cm - Help
This mv features people of several different groups that deal with different kinds of hardship in Korea, one of which is a gay couple
Mad Clown - Love Is A Dog From Hell ft Suran
The story of a trans girl and her girlfriend
Justice for TheEastLight.
I want to help amplify this story.
TheEastLight is a Kpop group, designed as a rock band of sorts. They debuted very young and are very talented kids. You may have already seen the story circulating about the abuse they have suffered by a producer in their company and their CEO. Everyone complicit at Media Line Entertainment needs to be held accountable and responsible for this abject cruelty.
The eldest and leader of TheEastLight, Seokcheol (still only 18), had the extraordinary courage to bring this to public attention. The Kpop subreddit has a comprehensive translation of his words from the press conference. Much of it is highly disturbing detail of the treatment his band endured. LINK HERE
Itâs plenty bad enough that any person would experience this abuse, but keep in mind that a few of them were 11 and 12 years old when this started. They were little kids with zero power in their position or ability to protect themselves.
Itâs heinous.
Many of us who have been Kpop fans for a long time are well aware of the darkest parts of this industry. There is corruption. There is abuse. There is exploitation. Investing in this form of entertainment with this knowledge is a matter of hoping the system will improve and cautiously trusting that our favorite artists are being treated with respect and dignity. When that trust is broken, we must be loud about it. We must do what we can for those who are brave enough to reach out and seek help.
Fans of TheEastLight. created a petition to the Blue House, which must be responded to if it receives 200,000 signatures. Theyâre about halfway there currently. Please help by participating in this petition. Instructions are in the Twitter thread.
LINK to @TEL_Base instructions
#JusticeForTheEastLight
Keep the conversation up. Engage with news sites around the web whenever you see an article about this. Upvote, like, comment, retweet, whatever you can do. Letâs shine a huge light on these boys and show our support.
THE EAST LIGHT ABUSE:
Warning: Article contains descriptions of violence.
The East Lightâs leader and member Lee Seok Cheol recently opened up about the physical and verbal abuse from their agencyâs producer and CEO.
On October 19, along with a lawyer named Jung Ji Seok, Lee Seok Cheol attended the planned press conference and spoke on the recent reports of abuse. Previously, it was reported that the members of The East Light suffered from physical and verbal abuse from producer âAâ as well as Media Line Entertainmentâs CEO Kim Chang Hwan starting from before their debut until last year. During the press conference, Lee Seok Cheol stated, âAs the leader of The East Light and as one of the K-pop artists who lead Korean culture, I could no longer tolerate the pain that our members were going through. We decided to hold a press conference in hopes of eliminating child abuse and violation of human rights in the K-pop industry.â He shared, âFrom 2015 to 2017, the producer repeatedly made us get on the floor as he hit our buttocks with baseball bats and iron bars in the practice room or in the recording studio. He even threatened to kill us if we ever told our parents.â Lee Seok Cheol also mentioned his little brother Lee Seung Hyun, who is in the same group. âMy brother was locked in the recording studio and the producer hit his head, thighs, arms, and buttocks so many times. His head had bloody wounds and bruises. Heâs been traumatized after all the threats and violence, and he is currently getting psychotherapy treatment.â The groupâs lawyer Jung Ji Suk also revealed that Lee Seung Hyun was forced to leave the group after protesting to the CEO about the return of producer âAâ to the agency. Jung Ji Suk stated, âLee Seung Hyun and Lee Seok Cheolâs parents did not know about this until the agency promised them that violence towards the members would never happen again. They did not know that the violence happened repeatedly. They only knew about one incident. They found out about the whole situation after they pleaded with their sons to tell them everything when Lee Seung Hyun got removed from the group.â He added, âNot only Lee Seung Hyun but also Lee Seok Cheol decided that they cannot stay with this inhumane agency any longer. We have decided to take legal action against both producer âAâ and CEO Kim Chang Hwan.â The East Lightâs agency previously released an official statement regarding producer âAâ as well as the CEO. October 19, following repeated denials by Media Line Entertainmentâs CEO Kim Chang Hwanthat he ever abused or ignored violence against members of The East Light, JTBCâs âNews Roomâ released an audio recording from The East Lightâs Lee Seok Cheol of the CEO speaking to him after he made it known that he was going to go public about the abuse. In the recording, Kim Chang Hwan says, âIf youâve entrusted [someone] with something, than you need to leave it alone even if they beat you to death. If you make the paper as a celebrity, you wonât have any ground to stand on, you **. Whoâs going to ** take in a kid with problems? You canât make a big deal out of this, you canât. Your parents will just be more upset. Ten times more upset than they are now.â Regarding the audio file, Media Line claimed that while the conversation between Kim Chang Hwan and Lee Seok Cheol did get heated, â[Kim Chang Hwan] just wanted to help all the members continue to do music.â
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this shit fucked up hyuna wrote this letter on October 4th after being promised to get a response and just being fed with excuses. she said she was gonna hold a press conference if they didnât respond by October 15th and they literally announced her contract termination the day before that to keep their image.Â
baby :( fuk them you will be the queen of the universe one day anyway bye
When you read the comments online, itâs pathetic, itâs not a surprise that our word is so messed up. People are blaming her? Do they really think that itâs how human beings are supposed to behave, âshe had a contractâ they sayâŠSc**** the contract, they punished her, locked her out, kept her in the dark on purpose. She is not a newbie, she was part of their company for so long. I donât care what was on her contract, SHE DESERVED BETTER from her employer, she deserved better as a human being.Â
I donât understand how anyone can just side blindly with CubeâŠSometimes I donât understand the world we live in.
She is a woman of course she is going to be more severely punishedâŠ.
BTSăFAKE LOVE - Japanese ver.-ăDigital Booklet
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIMINÂ đ
The BTS Live Show Is a Glowing, Self-Affirming Safe Haven
For fans of the Korean boyband, like myself, their âlove yourselfâ mantra swells in size in a live setting like Londonâs O2 Arena.
Do you know BTS? In case you donât, or have chosen to willfully ignore them so far, hereâs a quick rundown: theyâre a seven-member K-pop group from South Korea, whose music treads the line between multiple musical genres, from EDM to hip-hop. The band is composed of Kim Namjoon (RM), Kim Seokjin (Jin), Min Yoongi (SUGA), Jung Hoseok (J-Hope), Park Jimin (Jimin), Kim Taehyung (V) and Jeon Jungkook (Jungkook). They write, produce, and are directly involved in the creative process of all their albums, having won multiple awards, both in their home country and internationally. They were the first K-pop group to win a major American award and to speak at the United Nations. They have more than once been directly tweeted by the president of South Korea. And although they have been actively performing since 2013, this Tuesday marked their first-ever performance in the UK.
Approaching the O2 Arena, on an otherwise quiet sunny day, I see flocks of the bandâs fansâlike, what looks like a crowd of thousandsâgathering around posters of the boys, sitting in circles with bluetooth speakers blasting songs from their discography or queueing up to buy merchandise. In a few hours, theyâll be inside, forming a galaxy that can be seen from the stage by holding up a shining light stick device called the ARMY bomb. The swarm of their glow will symbolize each fanâs place in the stands, extending as far as my eyes can see and flickering, sometimes blue, sometimes multicolor, sometimes purple. Each person in that arena will soon be hanging on to every word spoken, in English and Korean, by the seven young men currently hailed by many as the worldâs biggest boyband.
These fans sitting around, known as ARMY, are almost as famous as the band itself. Fiercely devoted, theyâre able to mobilize themselves en masse and sell out stadiums like no one elseâas well as being often misrepresented by media outlets as insane screaming teenage girls with no substance, who âdonât even understand the lyrics.â Because, of course, for some critics young women are not allowed to be passionate about anything without being submitted to ridicule.
âItâs so sad that some people think that music doesnât have the same meaning just because itâs in another languageâit can be just as beautiful and meaningfulâ, says Rachel, 15. âThey think weâre just fanning over some good-looking guys, and thatâs not it. Yes, they are pretty, but thatâs not all. They work so, so hard, and theyâve made it so far, and the fact they did that makes you feel like you can do anything you want, too.â
But despite the misguided claims of superficiality, ARMY, standing alongside BTS (as the group always remember to point out), are currently leading a radical self-love movement, propelled by the bandâs latest series of albums, Love Yourself: Her, Tear and Answer. Each album openly follows the bandâs own collective and individual journey towards self-love, going from a youthful, naive perspective of searching for love in others to coming to love and accept themselves, despite flaws or previous mishaps.
The Love Yourself album series also included a collaborative campaign with UNICEF, LOVE MYSELF, which started in November 2017, raising more than $1 million for the UN agencyâs #EndViolence campaign and culminating in RMâs much-blogged, touching speech at the UN. There, he coined a new mantra of acceptance: âSpeak yourselfâ.
âLoving yourself is so importantâBTS really made me realize a lot of thingsâ, says Hannah, 17, a BTS fan since 2013. âWhen I watched RM at the UNâI thought it was funny at the beginning, not going to lie, but it really hit me: heâs right. He was talking about how he didnât accept some things about himself â so I realised I need to accept where Iâm from, because I used to be embarrassed about it â since I used to be bullied for being Somalian and all that. Now I just embrace it. And itâs cool.â
âLoving yourself is so importantâBTS really made me realize a lot of things.â
Personally, I stumbled upon my first BTS video three years agoâduring the height of my depression, back in my parentsâ house, while recovering from a major mental breakdown. The seven members, in their sailor outfits dancing along in perfect sync to a mash-up of âRollinââ by Limp Bizkit and becoming a human-made machine gun, were the first people to make me feel anything other than the dread and tiredness Iâd become so familiar with for the previous two years. Today, sitting here at the concert, at nearly 25 and with my multiple tattoos, Iâm wearing a self-made âGoths love Jinâ lapel pin and keeping a sign with SUGAâs face on it inside of my bag. I have watched thousands of hoursâ worth of BTS videos and interviews and yes, I have them as the background on my phone.
Like me, there are many others around at the O2 arena tonight waiting for the performance. A noticeably diverse group of peopleâwith a distinct young feminine majority, but including all genders and agesâwho have found a haven of safety not only in BTSâs music, but their distinct personalities, intense work ethos, amazing chemistry and, above all, openness in their communication with fans. And that feels like something rare, not only when it comes to a K-Pop group, but in the world of celebrities in general.
âI read this tweet that said âBTS comes into your life when you need them the mostâ, and I couldnât stress that more,â says Charlie, 30, who has been a BTS fan for a year. âWhen me [and my friend Em] started getting into them, we were in a slumpâgoing through a quarter-life crisis, and it just put so much positivity into our lives. I think thereâs something really nice about focusing your time and energy into something like music, like BTS, that doesnât make you feel bad about your appearance, it doesnât make you feel bad about how much stuff you need buy. And I think for young people today, thatâs really important too.â
When the concert is about to start, it is announced that Jungkook has hurt his foot and will not be able to follow choreography, which is promptly followed by a crowd chant of âItâs OKâ and his name, echoing before they take to the stageâthe fansâ way of reassuring the youngest member. As they reach the end of the performance, he bursts into tears twice, and at Jiminâs command, the whole arena screams, âI LOVE YOU JUNGKOOK.â Being there, it feels a lot like a conversation between an enormous group of friends looking out for each other.
The show begins, and itâs as if all in attendance are in a tranceâcheering at every comment, every video, every âletâs get it,â every detail of the intricately built stage. Showmanship and talent aside, itâs insanely hard to ignore the power that comes with a crowd of nearly 20,000 people screaming âYou canât stop me loving myselfâ at the top of their lungs as the chorus of âIDOL,â the star single ofLove Yourself: Answer is performed by the boys in their prince-like jackets following furious choreography.
The same effect happens during Jinâs solo performanceâthe vocalist brought on stage in a suit dripping with roses, playing the piano and softly singing the melancholic ballad of self-love âEpiphany,â a highlight of their latest album. Be it in a tone of unabashed celebration or soft, caring words like Jiminâs âSerendipity,â self-love and staying true to yourself have always been a continuous theme in BTSâs ethos, which cannot be ignored.
Classic songs like âDOPE (ì©ìŽ),â âBaebsae (ë±ì),â âFIRE (ë¶íì€ë„Žë€),â and âAttack on Bangtan (ì§êČ©ì ë°©í)â are performed in succession, whipping the crowd into a singalong frenzy. But something that stands out: the mix of âSAVE MEâ, from 2016âs The Most Beautiful Moment in Life: Young Forever, with âIâm Fine,â its direct response song released this year. Yes, the one from that âturn it upside down for a surpriseâ image that graced so many angsty Tumblrs in about 2010.
This mix fulfills a storyline that the band has been weaving together, either intentionally or unintentionally, since way before the Love Yourself series was even announced to the publicâa story of youth, trying your best at what you love and of finding yourself despite all the pressures that might come with life, something which clearly transcends boundaries like location and language.
As BTS approach the end of the concert, the chorus of âAnswer: Love Myselfâ rings particularly true. When the members sing, âyouâve shown me I have reasons I should love myself,â showered in confetti and looking every bit as ethereal as they do on the internet, thousands of voices echo in loving response. A sea of blue flickering lights greet the band head on, each of them a âstar in their galaxyâ as they are affectionately called by V, representing just how many people found a connection to their words. And so, now you know.
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