Teddie/Vulpine/Odyssey // 25 // any pronouns // art blog @ goldenteddie // icon drawn by me, header image made by smelly-welly69420 // check pinned post for more info!!
hii welcome to my main/default blog. i mostly go by Teddie and Bunny, but I have a few other names too. Im an adult, i go by any pronouns, and uhh idk I draw (can be mostly found @goldenteddie) and do other things. idk really what else to put here... #my blogging
I have a few pages for more info including an about, a byf page, and an interests list. my about also lists some of my side blogs and other sites I use. ALSO NOTE: I do reblog suggestive things from time to time. So I don't really want folks under 18 following me for my own comfort !
this'll be subject to change if I think of anything else to add... okay <3 yay <3
Hi. The blood tests came back positive and it is very likely that my unbearable, constant, full-body pain is due to an undiagnosed autoimmune disease. Coincidentally, I just got a job in food service.
My pain is quickly exacerbated by standing more than 5 minutes and/or being upright for more than 1.5 hours. Unfortunately, these are both necessities for my job. I can't be accommodated. My health is rapidly deteriorating, but I can't quit until I know I can pay next month's rent. My legs have been giving out on me. I won't be able to work that much next month anyway because I am going to be partially hospitalized for other health reasons.
TL;DR: Job is rapidily worsening my health, but I can't quit and find a better job because I have to pay rent and am going to be partially hospitalized next month.
Please help me take care of my body for this disability pride month. Thank you so much to anyone who donates or reblogs! I'll turn reblogs off when this post is no longer needed.
"when Kris walks Susie home she talks about wanting to include Noelle in the dark world stuff. She wants Noelle. Not Kris." Literally not what was said
She wants to include Noelle because shit is getting dangerous and she feels like Noelle deserves to know and be in on their adventures. Susie at some point in the chapter (I don't remember the exact moment) to make it a point that, no matter what happens between her and Noelle, that her and Kris are still friends and they aren't any less important to her. In the weird route she is so glad to be able to go to the festival with Kris even if the festival was basically over. And also this was the first and only time she has asked Kris to walk her home which shows that she trusts and wants to be around them. Just because Susie wants to be with and protect Noelle does not suddenly mean she doesn't want Kris and it doesn't mean she doesn't cherish them deeply.
the whole discourse behind the original post being dunked in water is so astronomically silly. “people are just making ocs for their own enjoyment and not doing anything Productive with them >:(” why are you mad about this. who cares. yelling at clouds
“if you’re making turnarounds and concept art and storyboards and plot outlines that don’t eventually become a finished polished story or ip then what’s the point :/” i think the act of creation is a beautiful thing that brings people joy even when it doesn’t ‘amount’ to anything marketable. also is it your first day on god’s earth
(past: cf1 cf2) dont ignore, leaving me to fend for myself in a dangerous & impossible situation. current goals: $40 July 20th. $871.82 & $41 July 24th. $70-$100 asap. INFO UNDER THE READ MORE. HELP ME IF YOU ARE ABLE.
ca vn kofi bmac gfm throne paylinks
goals are for debt repymts/credit card repayments. the asap goal is for litter, toiletries & any other necessities needed (including taxes/fees & tip for delivery).
past crowdfunds which are linked above have info & proof if u need as well as my carrd lists bills i have to cover.
im drowning, i don't know how else to cry out. i have debt & bills to pay. cultists to keep off my back. a cat thats so low on litter its a health hazard. dont assume ill magically be ok, if i dont get help in time things will get worse. the more my situation is ignored, the more likely i will eventually die &/or become homeless.
i cant catch up long enough to be able to do much of anything and every fucking day where i live is an abuse rollercoaster. no one's hiring me. ive been isolated away from public resources. im being pushed into more debt the longer it takes to pay everything back.
selling my own belongings is taking forever as i cant ship shit and must rely on lowballing locals around me. my disabilities & my situation make it nigh impossible to focus or create in terms of art/commissions because im not a statue and everything is affecting me as every day things escalate to life or death.
all meanwhile i have to be extra careful to not expose too much of any type of information online or i endanger myself further as stalkers and harassers are determined to have my head on a pike for the crime of being stuck under severe abuse my whole life without proper means to escape.
i appreciate my current friends mutuals and everyone else for helping when they can but im stuck bc when i show my appreciation in my posts Everytime outsiders decide that means im good on everything forever now! which is not ever true, at least thus far! i still massively need help i just like saying thank you!
sorry this is so disjointed im in tears and so stressed writing this trying to prepare myself for the hell i have to go through today especially. im so tired of struggling and nothing seems to work on my end i want out so bad but this cult and debt have me stuck while others try to paint me as deserving of all this bc they find me cringe or bc they cant understand my type of situation so to them it Must be fake.
im slowly but surely dying here and im so tired of ignoring that Fact while i continue to waste away for the sake of others. the harsh truth of the matter is this road leads to death when i can't get help, a job, use any disability aids, have to walk to get anywhere in blistering heat, dont get to eat constantly, barely have any privacy, cant say anything considered as the wrong thing or step out of line in the slightest. so i apologize when i dont know what to fucking do from here!
and i havent even mentioned in this post yet how they keep me coked up either.
so please, please. anything helps but i can't keep going days and days with only or mostly notes to show on these posts.
and Again im sorry this is deliriously cobbled together in a rush. contemplating suicide all fucking morning hasnt left me in the best headspace either.
please help todays really the last day i can be properly online b4 this is due until Friday. this bill is very urgent (all my bills r rly), anything helps especially since im going to also be braving this insane heat for awhile too (which means heatwave supplies r a need so i dont. die!) ty so far.
you'll get the urge as an artist or a writer to say out loud the things you're worried about "the proportions are off" "kind of out of character" "i'm not good at summaries" "didn't get as much detail as i wanted" "i made a mistake and here's how" and that's the self-conscious part of your brain telling you "it's bad and if you don't tell them you know it's bad then they'll think you're stupid" but you've got to ignore that little voice and pretend you think it's good or else that little voice is going to ruin your life
Some of the best advice I have ever gotten was from a creative writing professor. She said never apologize for your work. Never critic it before someone else does.
Her reasoning was you are the creator. You made your work from nothing and can see all the flaws and seems and holes. But your audience may not see any of it. Maybe they will; maybe they won't. But if you TELL them about the holes and the mistakes and the problems....they will 100% see them. So don't tell them. Don't sabotage yourself just because you think you're not good enough.
I know we make jokes about the proverbial asexual pervert who has written hundreds of thousands of words of smut on ao3, but also shoutout to the aces who aren’t perverts. to the aces who skip the sex scenes and wince at sex jokes and awkwardly leave the conversation when your friends start talking about sex. your boundaries aren’t childish and fuck anyone who says otherwise.
Hey, fat people deserve to have fun and get their needs met even if they’re the least healthy mf you know. Fat people deserve proper medical care, and carbs, and to wear shorts and so many more things! EVEN IF THEY ARE UNWELL AND ESPECIALLY IF THAT UNWELLNESS IS DUE TO THEIR WEIGHT!!! Fat people deserve the world and more. Not just the healthy fats or attractive fats or small fats or fats that are fat because of medication or disability.
incredibly bizarre and confusing seeing ppl call themselves "chuds" all the sudden b/c like
thats what we call neo nazis and shitty conservative bros? or at least its what we used to call them? why are ppl calling themselves "chuds" affectionately now
what is happening
yall know chud means fascist right like please tell me yall know that
im hoping this is a case of "younger folks on the internet adopting Silly Word b/c its Silly and not realizing it actually means something"
so here's me educating! you're calling yourselves fascists! thats what you're doing! maybe don't do that and use your head before you start using every goofy word you see!
One of my least favorite autistic experiences is probably putting in conscious effort to learn how to Behave Appropriately (not in the sense of Masking, just interacting with other people in general) and then watching a lot of other people, autistic or otherwise, simply not do that. Like oh we're just doing whatever now? You would have flayed me alive if I acted like that
At the function like oh sorry I didn't realize social skills were optional. Does this mean I can call you a fucking asshole? You're being an asshole rn. Just thought you should know
once again I am on the hunt for glasses for weird little freaks, but this time I've found some cool ones pretty easily! so in case anyone else is looking, I stumbled across some real weird and gay frames at all of these sites:
eyeshells aoolia zeelool lakoh vooglam lens alter
like, eyeshells in particular has a startlingly vast collection of asymmetric glasses:
(this isn't even all of them)
and also this steampunk nonsense that I love so fucking much and cannot justify spending any money on:
while aoolia has...tbh a lot of the frames the other sites have, but more expensive, but also, a collection of the gayest people you've ever seen:
though tbh not nearly as gay as whatever lens alter has going on:
and vooglam has uhhh...whatever this is!
huh.
(I can't vouch for any of these companies ofc, though I think I'll get something from at least one of them. ideally not the slime glasses, but hey!)
but honestly the absolute best thing I found in all of this is this site that makes vintage fashion, and which happened to have:
these replica victorian railway glasses like the bisexual guy in Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter had, AND WHICH
you can even buy with prescription lenses, jesus fucking christ you have no idea how hard it is to not immediately drop $180 on this shit, I'm having to physically restrain myself, I want them so fucking bad
and hey, if you don't need prescription lenses, y'know what else you can buy from this site?
the glasses from national treasure 😭😭
anyway, I'm having a gr8 time! and now I know I can definitely find glasses that are weird enough for my very high standards
