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   Heya! Iâm Vin, nice to meetcha. The short version is that Iâve always loved to write, but havenât posted fanfic since middle school. Iâve kept up with writing my own stuff, but no fandom-related content in 10 years god Iâm old. Itâs good to be back, but itâs strange, too.Â
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A/N: I wasnât procrastinating writing this, I was building hype. ...yeah, donât have any excuses, just enjoy!
Tagging: @devintrinidad // @dweeb-central
word count: 3.6k || warnings: n/a
Patience is a virtue.Â
Or so you kept telling yourself, as the day went on and your composure wore thin. But it really seemed that with every time that you repeated the phrase, the world seemed to test just how far you were willing to follow that ideal.Â
Patience is a virtue, you thought, as you woke up late due to your third round of Luciferâs confidence-training. More like confidence-lecturing, from your experience so far; not to mention he seemed to be keeping you later and later every time. Not that it mattered to Lucifer in the morning, he would expect you to be on time regardless. âIf Levi can be on time after an all-nighter, you can manage a late night or twoâ or some similar crap.
Patience is a virtue, you reminded yourself, smiling through gritted teeth as you agreed to help Asmo talk to his fanclub between classes. Who cared that you had been late for first period, and now were sprinting through the halls in an attempt to make it to second period on time? Certainly not you. Especially not when the door got slammed in your face, with an order to get a late slip from the office.
Patience is a virtue, you heard faintly, almost in someone elseâs voice when you dug through your backpack and found your calculator missing. It was a nice one too, a graphing calculator that cost a ridiculous amount of grimm but saved you a lot of time on tests and homework. You cursed yourself for forgetting it in your room, despite being sure that you grabbed it in the morning. As you were cleaning up after class, you noticed Belphie with a familiar piece of tech sitting on top of his textbook. Heâd been asleep through the entire class, he hadnât even touched the damn thing. When you ever-so-politely woke him and asked about it, he offered a confused âthanks,â then a shrug when you told him you hadnât given it to him. He told you to feel free to take it back, saying he didnât need it anymore. How kind of him.
Patience is a virtue, you chanted for the millionth time, returning to your room after a long day only to find that a tornado seemed to have passed through. Youâd just cleaned up last night, there was no reason for your room to look even worse than it had in the first place. Levi happened to pass by as you were practicing your deep breathing techniques, peeking over your shoulder and sighing something about seeing Mammon in there earlier. He rolled his eyes and continued on to his room, and you practiced shocking self-control in not wringing the nearest demon neck.Â
âPatience is a virtue,â you muttered to yourself, pinching the bridge of your nose upon finding Beel munching on the last of the food in the fridge. You didnât have to check and see if it was the snack youâd specifically saved-- with how this day was going, you knew exactly what he was eating.Â
ââM sorryâŚâ He mumbled through a full mouth, eyes downcast as soon as he saw the look on your face. âSatan said it would be okay âcause heâs going to the store, so I thought...âÂ
âItâs fine, Beel. Donât worry about it.â It didnât matter how angry you were, one kicked-puppy look from Beel and it was game over. Your shoulders slumped and you left the room, determined to take a walk and clear your head. There was no way you could get anything done with how tense you were. Plus your room was a mess, and being in there meant any of the brothers could find you easily-- too easily.
Patience is a virtue.
âMc!â Diavoloâs voice boomed down the hall. You suppressed a groan. Diavolo was always so upbeat and lively; it was usually infectious. But on a day like today, it would just be draining. Especially since you couldnât show it, and even more so since you probably couldnât get out of whatever this conversation was going to be about. âI was hoping Iâd run into you! I wanted to talk to you about the exchange program here, do you mind?â
Scratch that, you definitely couldnât get out of this conversation.Â
âOf course not, Lord Diavolo. What do you need?â Any ounce of casualty you may be able to enjoy with Diavolo in private was null and void here; Lucifer could walk up at any moment and overhear your conversation. And a tongue-lashing from Lucifer over your manners was not something you needed right now.
The forced niceties werenât lost on him, as was obvious from the amused expression on his face. That, or he was privy to something that you werenât. Both were viable options when it came to Diavolo.
âPerfect!â A genuine smile lit up his face, and the moment passed. Perhaps youâd imagined it, after all? âDo you feel at home here? Comfortable?â
âYes, itâs been going well.â It was rocky towards the beginning, sure, but youâd been in the Devildom for months now, you were more than used to it.
âAre you being treated well?â Diavolo asked, almost too quickly.
âYes, I think so.âÂ
âEven by the brothers?âÂ
âŚPerhaps your earlier suspicion was warranted after all. âIâm not sure what youâre asking of me, my Lord.â
Diavoloâs face gave nothing away. Not more than usual, at least. He had a jovial expression that didnât quite reach his eyes, and his arms were crossed over his chest loosely. He was seeking information in his own way, it seemed. âExactly what I said. I want to be sure youâre being treated with respect, especially from your hosts. I wouldnât want you to feel they were bad influences on you.âÂ
âBad influencesâ? It wasnât often you had to pick apart a demonâs words, they were typically very straightforward or very clearly up to something. Interactions like these, however, sent up red flags. Diavolo was choosing his words carefully, clearly wanting something particular. The only instance you could come up with was the family pet-project the brothers had all taken on at your expense, but surely he didnât know about that. Or if he did, he would at least have the decency to not bring it up in the middle of the hall, where anyone could hear⌠Right?
âTheyâre treating me well. There are no problems, if thatâs what youâre asking.â You gave him your most assuring smile. You didnât have time for this, whatever it was.Â
âTruly?â The corners of Diavoloâs mouth twitched, his smile threatening to shift to a smirk. âYou are aware of my ability to discern whether someone is telling the truth, arenât you?â
You felt a jolt of adrenaline, though it wasnât clear what exactly he was threatening you of. Sure, youâd had a rough day, but that didnât elicit unloading onto Diavolo at a simple question. He asked if you were being treated well, and you were. Today just happened to be an outlier. Well, this week. Month? âI wasnât lying, I just--â
âThere you are! Iâve been looking for you.â As if sent straight from the celestial realm, Satan rounded the corner. He smiled at you, then shifted his gaze to Diavolo. âLord Diavolo. I hope Iâm not interrupting?â
There was a palpable tension in the air, and it was clear Satan knew what he was doing. Neither of them shifted their expressions, a silent war to see whoâd break character first. Diavolo replied calmly, lightly patting your shoulder. âNo, we were just finishing up. I do hope youâll think over what I said, Mc. Perhaps we can revisit this discussion soon?â
âYes, my Lord.â Whether or not your uncertainty was portrayed by your voice, Diavolo didnât react, instead smiling at you and relenting. He retracted his hand, giving a small wave before retreating down the stairs with Barbatos trailing just a step behind. Was he always there?
You couldnât help but breathe a sigh of relief as he left, turning to your savior. âThank you for bailing me out, Satan.â
âI aim to please.â He allowed himself a moment to be proud of himself, then looked you up and down and his expression changed into one of amused curiosity. âYou seem put out. Is something the matter?â
âNo, no; just tired. Iâm going to get back to--â You remembered where youâd been heading, deciding in the moment to change your plans. Going on a walk to clear your head was clearly going to be impossible. âIâm going to the library to attempt some homework.âÂ
âOh, you misunderstand-- I really have been looking for you. Youâve been so busy all day, I only just managed to find you.â Satan chirped, either missing your tiredness or choosing to ignore it. âWant to go on a walk?â
You had to suppress the urge to reply with sarcasm. âI appreciate your help, but I really donât have time for--â
âThatâs alright, I understand.â
âSeriously, I canât-- wait, what?â You werenât prepared for someone to actually respect your time.
âI understand, youâre busy.â He nodded with a solemn expression, then smiled again. âWe can just go to my room instead. Itâs a shorter trip than wherever a walk may take us.â
â...Of course.â You forced a smile. Patience. Patience. Patience.
-
Satan wasnât one to invite people to his room without reason, so you werenât often in here without knowing exactly what it was for. He must need to talk to you pretty bad for him to bring you in here. That, or he wanted to ask about some random human world fact heâd read in his latest book. As of now, he was digging around his miscellaneous piles of text, seeming to have forgotten your presence altogether.Â
âSatan, is there a reason-- or, did you need something?â You asked, sounding strained. It wasnât your intention to be rude, but the fact that you were having to remember your patience chant while standing this close to the avatar of wrath wasnât comforting. You may have taught him to feel things other than anger, but that certainly didnât rob him of the emotion altogether. An argument between you two could have some dire consequences.Â
âHm?â Satanâs head popped back up, temporarily drawn away from his search. When he processed what you asked, he turned back to his task, waving the question off idly. âOh, nothing important. You seemed to need a chat, for a short break.â
âA break?â You echoed. For the love of-- he dragged you here for a break? How should he know? Heâs always buried in a book, studying probably is a break for him! And he had the audacity to try and step in? âHa, alright. Well, thanks for the break, but--â
You had barely managed to crack his door open before a hand hit the wood just above your head, slamming it shut in a single motion.Â
âPerhaps I didnât make myself clear. I want to talk.â His presence caged you against the door and made the hair on the back of your neck stand up. This was the second time within probably ten minutes that youâd been threatened by a demon, not to mention the past few days; this was clearly a new habit of yours.
The cold fear that ran through your veins wasnât quite enough to block out the sheer exhaustion from the day youâd just had, so before turning around to meet this new obstacle, your head fell against the door in front of you with a soft thunk. You took a deep breath. The fastest way out of this would be honesty, right?
Lifting your head off the wood in what was probably an even more defeated motion, you turned around to see Satan leaning close. You tried to be polite. âSorry, Iâve just had a long day. Can we talk another time?â
Look at that, practicing your greed. Being selfish with your time-- itâs what Mammon wanted, right?
âWhy are you so busy today?â Satan asked, looking almost as annoyed as you felt. Your kneejerk reaction was âbecause of you and your stupid brothers,â but you decided against it. There was no reason to start something. Patience.
âThereâs just beenâŚâ You took a deep breath, âa lot going on.â
âThatâs it?â Satan cocked an eyebrow, and when you didnât offer a better explanation he frowned. âIs there a reason you seem more agitated than normal?â
âIâm not!â You said, a little too fast. âIâm not.â You amended, less aggressive. âIâm sorry, I donât mean to snap, you didnât⌠itâs nothing.â
âHow much do I have to push before you tell me what happened?â He asked, clearly done beating around the bush.Â
 âI just had a rough day, thatâs all. Lots going on, lots of chaos. More than normal. Itâs nothing to snap at you over, itâs not your fault.â
âWhat if it was?âÂ
âWhat?â
âWhat if it was my fault? What then?â
You were at a loss. Was he asking you to get mad, as some kind of venting exercise? Or just trying to get a rise out of you? You wouldnât put it past him; Satan did like to see others get mad.
âWhat if I told Belphie to take your calculator? What if I told Asmo to make you late? What if I told Mammon to mess up your room, and I got Beel to eat your food? What would you do then?â He was still just watching you, slightly annoyed. No sense of triumph, no sense of smugness overâŚÂ
âYou did-- how did you-- wait, **you** did all that?â You sputtered, too thrown off to react in any significant way.
âI did.â He was curt, to the point. The ball was in your court, and he was making sure it stayed there. He was waiting for your response, for whatever reason.
âWhy--â Your hands curled into fists, nails digging into your palms. What was it you were chanting earlier? Something about patience? âNo, I donât care, itâs⌠whatever. Just donât do it again. Please.â
The âpleaseâ was tacked on, a way to avoid confrontation. You felt so incredibly far from being the rational one, and yet you knew what would happen if you started something. Getting mad wouldnât solve anything, the best thing to do was just to leave.
âYou donât care? You donât care!?â Satanâs eyes flashed and he slammed his fist into the wood above your head, rattling the door. You flinched at the sound, opening your eyes back to find he was in his demon form. âDoesnât it piss you off? Arenât you mad at me?â
You frowned, doing your best not to take the bait. âI donât want to argue with you. I just want to leave--â
âWhat if I donât let you? What then?â He brought his face closer to yours, eyes narrowed into a glare. âI can smell it on you, you know. Your wrath. Itâs apparent in your whole body; your accelerated pulse, your raised temperature, the tension in your muscles. You reek of adrenaline, why wonât you just admit it?â
Great, add Satan to the list of demons who was angrier at you than ever. Heâd gotten this mad before, sure, but usually you werenât on the receiving end-- and certainly not while this close.
âIt doesnât matter, Satan. My homework matters. So if youâll let me leave, I can go and deal with my priorities.â You hissed. It was the most youâd stood up to one of them in a while, and certainly the first time youâd stood up for a non-virtuous reason. It wasnât out of fear that you avoided it, it was generally just easier not to. You could argue with them on their choice of take-out any day, but it was a different story to call out their stupid shenanigans. It was often easier to brush it off and walk away-- not that Satan seemed to understand.
âTch.â Satan leaned back, though he didnât remove his hand from the door. His tail flicked angrily behind him, but he looked less mad than he had a moment ago. âDid you say anything? To a single one of them?â
âWhat are you talking about?â
âToday. Any of the people that annoyed you; did you confront a single one of them?âÂ
âNo. I donât want to, I just told you--â
âDid you talk to anyone about what happened?â He cut you off. âVent to anyone at all?â
âNo.â You grit your teeth.
âWhy?â He snapped, âAnd donât say âit doesnât matter,â your emotions matter. Try again.â
âI donât want to be like that, okay? I donât want to get angry at people, and blow up on them for something they canât help.â
âEverything that happened today couldâve been helped. Every single one was doing something they could have changed if you told them to.â He countered.Â
âIt wasnât their fault.â
âHow?â
âBeel canât help being hungry. Mammon canât help being greedy. Belphie probably needed the calculator, and Asmo wanted help, they didnât--â You remembered the whole plot that had apparently led to today. âThey normally donât have any bad intentions. Itâs just how they are, thereâs no point in getting mad about it, and thereâs no reason to unload all of that onto one of you. No reason to complain all the time.â
âSo instead of âcomplaining,â you keep it all bottled up, never let out your emotions, and let the feelings fester inside of you until you canât stand it anymore? Or do you think you can keep these things to yourself forever? How does this seem like a good idea?âÂ
âI donât keep it to myself forever! I just donât⌠bring it up.â It sounded worse aloud, but it was all you had. Satan was hard to debate with on a normal day, much less something he was passionate about, especially less when he was mad at the person he was arguing against. It was infuriating to be on the receiving end of that.
âAh, so you wait for other people to bring it up for you? Is that why you wouldnât answer when I asked what was wrong?â He couldnât even force a threatening smile, instead continuing to stare you down. âI donât make a habit of begging people for things. Yet, I did earlier regardless, and you wouldnât offer so much as an explanation as to why you were upset. Is it so hard to believe that there are people who want to listen? Change their behavior, even?â
âItâs hard to bring up things that I know will tick me off when I talk about it. Or things that I know will anger others by talking about it. I would rather enjoy my time with people.â You gave up on suppressing your emotions, letting the aggravation seep into your voice. Whether it was your tone or your words, it seemed to be what Satan wanted to hear.
âPeople would rather enjoy your time in being told âstopâ rather than anger you without knowing it. Surely you can see how letting anger build up will strain your relationships? Even if it wasnât them, refusing to vent or claiming things are fine while clearly upset-- can you see how it might go wrong?â Despite still berating you, Satanâs words were becoming softer, sounding less like an attack and more like chiding. Though that didnât mean he was suddenly acting cuddly by any stretch. âNot to mention that you should vent for your own wellbeing. You canât possibly argue that itâs healthy to keep your emotions bottled up?â
He paused, ready to pounce if you disagreed. When you stayed quiet, he continued.
âI donât think I need to explain to you the intricacies of putting on a mask around others. You know as well as I do what will happen if the one wearing it is pushed too far, and that mask shatters. Attempting to hide your emotions can only be done for so long, and when they are realized, the consequences can beâŚâ He frowned. There could be any number of instances he was thinking of, considering how often he was known to lose his composure in the past when pushed beyond a certain point. Satan had mentioned a number of times where it had gone catastrophically wrong, so you were sure he was a million miles away when he trailed off.
He shook his head after a bit, determined to explain. âTell me youâll do better. Vent to someone about today, better yet-- confront someone who took part. I wonât demand your time and attention every night, but I still want to see youâŚâÂ
Satan let his sentence trail off, the jab at Lucifer forgotten as he momentarily short-circuited at his desire to be around you. âI-I want to see you make progress. Talk to others, set boundaries; get mad, even.â
âI will.â
âWill you?â He looked serious again, ready to gauge if you sounded ingenuine.
âI will.â You said again, shoving him backwards suddenly. He stumbled back a step, surprised. âIâll start now: Iâm mad at you. You made my day a damn nightmare.â
Satan burst into laughter, pleasantly surprised. You couldnât help but smile back, though you werenât entirely kidding. His laughter was enough to rid him of his demon form, so by the time he spoke, he was back in his regular attire. âA good start. Would you like to explain what I did wrong?â
A/N: Surprise! Wasnât planning to have this out on Leviâs birthday, but also wasnât planning that hiatus. School, amirite? On the plus side, Iâll officially be free by May 1, at which point I can start updating this (semi-) regularly again, so look forward to it!
Tagging: @devintrinidad // @dweeb-central
word count: 2.7k || warnings: n/a
Listening to Leviathan rant was pretty much something that came with the territory of being his friend.
Whether about anime, his brothers, video games, anime, school, socializing, normies⌠oh, and donât forget anime. There was always something on his mind, and his severely limited social circle meant you were often the recipient of his rants. Today in particular, it spanned a lot of different topics. Your recent absence hadnât gone unnoticed, and the way he was going on made it seem like heâd bottled up every single emotion over the past few days and shoved them into a box labelled âre-open for Mc.âÂ
Not that you loved him any less for it, of course. Poor Levi really couldnât catch a break, and he was so excited to have someone like you who really cared about him-- well, who could blame him for wanting to open up?
Over the past week in particular, heâd been subjected to the usual trauma around the house. Apparently, heâd had Asmo and Satan gang up on him about never leaving the house, even the bookworm agreeing that Levi was too far gone. Mammon had âborrowedâ something of his, only for it to never return. Levi knew it was a bad idea every time, but he was too easily won over by promises of his investments being worth it. The last Akuzon delivery was supposed to be a limited edition maid-cafe-style Ruri-chan figurine, that smelled like her bean-cake best friend Azuki-tan-- which, of course, meant that Beel took a bite out of the package before Levi could get there to stop him. Lucifer had lectured him about grades, saying that he knew Levi could do better, if only he stopped playing video games so much-- âas if thatâs a compliment!âÂ
Levi finally stopped pacing, rolling his eyes at the mere memory of it. He glanced down to where you sat, perched on the side of his tub.Â
It wasnât the most comfortable seat in the house, but his room wasnât exactly made for visitors; you had to make do when you were there for a rant. Heâd generally start talking while playing a video game, then gradually pause it, turn around, and eventually stand up and act out his frustrations. It was better for you to just start off seated on the side of his tub, that way he would have an aquarium backdrop for when he inevitably paced in front of you. It gave you a nicer view from the start, and when he wanted to sit again, he could choose to pull up his gaming chair or, if he was feeling particularly bold, sit down next to you.
As if he heard your thoughts, Levi plopped down next to you with a frustrated sigh. âUgh, they totally donât deserve to have you helping them all the time.â He grumbled, almost as if talking to himself. âI mean, I donât either. I donât know why you spend so much time around some gross otaku. And listen to all my problems, and--â
Levi glanced at you from the corner of his eye, as if he didnât believe you. He shifted his gaze back to the fish tank in front of him and continued, âStill, I know Iâm always venting to you, andâŚâÂ
The lack of eye contact didnât prevent him from seizing up in your presence. You could practically see the buffering symbol in his brain, mouth wavering as he tried to force the words out. His face was getting red just from knowing your eyes were on him, somehow feeling as if every moment you waited politely for him to continue was a moment of pure torture.
âYou donât ever talk to me.â He mumbled. The words slurred together, as if he could barely convince himself to enunciate the syllables. He fumbled with the cord of his headphones and his stare shifted to the floor. Even eye contact with the fish mustâve been too much.
âWe talk all the time.â You sounded much less sure than you felt, probably more out of hurt than anything. Did your friendship not mean as much as you thought it did?Â
âThatâs not what I--!â Levi frowned harder, tugging more incessantly at his headphones. He huffed out a frustrated breath, knowing what he wanted to say but not how to say it. âYou do talk to me, but⌠you listen to me a lot moreâŚâÂ
âSo⌠you want me to talk more?â Levi was usually pretty easy to read. Sure, he didnât say his emotions outright, but they were often written all over his face. In times like this though, when he was stuttering and refusing to make eye contact even more than normal, he wasnât quite as transparent.
âNo! Well, I mean, yes, but not-- I meant-- why donât you ever ask?â Levi finally blurted out, surprising you both. â...for help? Why donât you ever ask for help?â
âUh⌠what?â Well, this was out of nowhere. You were supposed to be listening to his problems, but now he was upset that you hadnât brought up yours? Was there some part of his rant that you were supposed to cut into with your own?Â
âI notice, around the house, and RAD, and-- and everywhere. You never let people help you with things. You never ask for it yourself, even when you need it.â After a second, his eyes widened. âNot-- Not that I watch you! I-Itâs nothing weird like that! I-Iâm gross, and an otaku, and-- b-but-- I donât st-stalk you or anything!âÂ
It was funny, watching Levi dig his own grave deeper. On the one hand, it was amusing to hear Levi desperately try to explain away any potential misinterpretation, but it was mixed with a fair amount of confusion about what his point was supposed to be. Your face must have portrayed this in some way, or at least one of these two emotions, because a cursory glance from Levi had him forcing himself back on track before he could say anything worse.
âI mean, I get why you donât want my help. I-Iâm just some yucky otaku, whoâs anti-social and um, probably couldnât help with anything anyway.â Levi was really good at kicking himself while he was down. Given, he always seemed to be down, and he always seemed to be kicking himself.
âLevi, thatâs not why...â The words fell away halfway through your sentence, having caught yourself before admitting to anything.Â
âSo why?â You may have caught yourself before admitting anything too damning, but Levi caught it too. He was dense, not an idiot. âNo, you donât have to tell me. I mean, thereâs a lot of other reasons you might not ask for help, too. Maybe you donât want to feel weak, or admit that you need help from other people. Or maybe itâs because itâs hard to ask someone for something, when youâre already annoying them just by being around them. OrâŚÂ that last one is probably just me.â
âYouâre not annoy--â
âItâs not about that!â Levi cut you off, determined to make his point. âThe point is, you canât do everything by yourself. Even Henry has the seven lords to help him. And Ruri-chan has her friends. In fact, her friends are what make her so--â
Levi took a deep breath, for once stopping his own tirade about anime. âCan you just⌠tell me why, at least?â
Song references aside, it wasnât an easy question to answer, even if you wanted to. Levi didnât often ask for this kind of thing though, which made it hard to turn him down. âItâs a lot of things, like you said. I just want to show that I can. Do things on my own, I mean.â
Levi frowned, unsure how to combat you. He already wasnât exactly a pro on asking people for help, he holed up in his room too much for that. He had been, so far, basing it off the rare times he left his room. But now you were mentioning something that he could relate to on some level, except⌠âYou⌠want to prove yourself?â
âI guess.â Not how youâd phrase it, necessarily, but not entirely inaccurate. Or really, it was oversimplifying the issue by a long shot, but it was better to give Levi half credit rather than no credit. His self esteem could certainly use it.
âBut why!? Youâre-- youâre so cool! You made a pact with every demon in the House of Lamentation! You could make a pact with Diavolo if you tried! You taught Satan to control his anger, you got Asmo to care about someone other than himself, you stood up to Lucifer when he was going to kill Beel and Luke-- and you, too!--, you got Belphie to get along with everyone again, you even died and--â It couldâve been that he realized what he was saying, or it couldâve been that he saw your face when he brought it up; either way, Levi clamped his mouth shut mid-sentence.
âI-I mean, not everyone gets to respawn.â He mumbled, hoping a video game reference would make it less awkward again. After a moment of silence, he reiterated his original point. âYou donât need to prove yourself. You already have.âÂ
It was heartwarming, hearing Levi sing your praises as he did. But that wasnât exactly a quick fix for the fact that asking for help meant admitting you were bad at something. Or even just admitting to needing help at all. Lucifer said he had to teach you some pride, well here was a lesson you could skip. This one you knew well: donât want to swallow your pride and ask for help? Easy, just donât ever ask!
Levi seemed antsy to fill the silence, but managed to hit the nail on the head when he spoke again. âI know how it feels, when you see someone thatâs better than you at something. Itâs frustrating. And painful. Especially if youâre supposed to be the best, and then someone else knows more than you do, about a book series that they just read for the first time, and then spoil stuff about the one that hasnât even been released yet, even though youâre the number one TSL fan and they shouldnât even have that informa--â
âThat was one time!â You protested. Levi let out a puff of air that was somewhere in between a scoff and a snort, but he didnât seem to be legitimately angry. Then again, leave it to Levi to hold a grudge from the early days of the exchange program.
âSometimes though, you can use that jealousy. Being jealous of someone can drive you to get better at things, or to learn from them. Or just ask them for help, if you have to. Iâm never gonna work out like Beel, so if I need help lifting something Iâll just ask him for help doing it.â He deliberately didnât mention his past experiences in asking for Beelâs help in getting fit, hoping you didnât know about the devilgram posts Asmo made about it. You did, but decided to let it go. After a moment of consideration, he added, âI usually have to pay him with food, though.
âWe may not always get along, but at least my brothers and I know how to depend on each other. Lucifer may act-- well, be annoyed a lot, but thereâs a reason everyone goes to him for help. He helps the people he cares about⌠even if it comes with a lecture. Everyone knows to go to Satan if they need information, or help studying. Asmoâs so good with fashion that he works with Majolish, and still--â Leviâs chest puffed out a bit as he spoke-- âhe comes to me for help in design too, since he knows Iâm the best at cosplays.â
âThat almost sounded like you were complimenting yourself.â Levi deflated a bit at your teasing tone, both embarrassed and a bit self-conscious. You felt some guilt about the latter, but none from the former. Not when his embarrassment meant his face scrunched up like that, and he floundered to go back on his own claims.
âW-Well, I didnât mean-- of course Iâm good at otaku stuff! A normie wouldnât understand!â He floundered, clearly at a loss for what to say if he was falling back on calling you a normie. That was pretty much his version of sticking his tongue out when he lost.
âItâs hard to imagine Mammon ever gets asked for help.â You offered, trying to get him back on track. ...and maybe continue to push his buttons just a tad.
âThat idiot--â Levi took a deep breath, gritting his teeth as he sought a way to talk about Mammon without including some form of insult, âHe gets into trouble all the time, obviously. Heâs a moron because of the kind of trouble he gets into, not because he asks for help. At least he knows to come to us for help when he needs it.â
At that, Levi gave you a pointed look. Well, consider that the last time you ever try to help him get back on track.
âMc, none of us will think less of you. People usually consider it an ego-boost if someone comes to them for help. Especially if itâs y--â Levi fumbled, quick to brush past his near-slip. âIf anything, we want to help. If you asked for help with your work and school and things, youâd have more time to yourself; for watching anime and playing games.âÂ
Levi tried to make it sound like he was being benevolent, but the implied âwith meâ was hard to miss.
âSo, you could try asking for help some more, to lighten your load. If you want. It would make me-- um, make u-us feel better, too.â He seemed content in ending it there, and made an effort to end any potential continuation of the topic. Flipping on a dime, Levi was quick to talk over any potential response. âTh-Thatâs all, anyways! Uh, we can just-- go back to, you know. Playing devilcart, or um, we can watch some anime, or--â
âThank you, Levi.â You had to put a hand on his arm to make him listen, the simple action instantly sending the touch-starved demon into fight-or-flight mode. âIâll try.â
He swallowed back his nerves and nodded, surprised he had managed to make it through that whole talk. You were too, really, as soon as you realized that this was supposed to be his intervention for you.
As much as you might loathe to admit it, his talk made sense. Or at least it had some aspects of truth to it, and perhaps you felt marginally better about asking the bros for help. Levi made it very clear how he felt about wanting to help you, the least you could do was see if the others felt the same. And hey, maybe he had a point about people wanting you to ask them for help in general, too. Who wouldâve guessed it, but so far these demons seemed to know a thing or two about sinning.
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âIs something the matter, my Lord?â
âItâs been awfully quiet the past few days. I wonder what those brothers are up to?â Boredom generally caused Diavoloâs mind to wander to the Devildomâs most notorious troublemakers, but this week especially. His fellow members of the student council had been quieter than normal, without even a yelling match in days; much less something exciting enough to warrant Diavoloâs attention. Thus leaving the prince here, sighing as he pondered their goings on.
Barbatos poured Diavoloâs tea with a knowing smile. âThey have been quite busy this week.â
âOh?â
âIt seems theyâre corrupting Mc.â Barbatos spoke as if it were a common occurrence.Â
Diavolo chuckled. âShould we be worried?â
âQuite the opposite. Theyâre working together to get Mc to take better care of themself.â
âIs that so?â Lethargy had caused Diavolo to ignore his tea at first, but the new information made him forget about it altogether. Diavolo sat up straighter, excitement tugging his mouth into a smile. âPerhaps Iâll bring tomorrowâs meeting to Lucifer, and pay the house of lamentation a visit.â
A/N: I sat down to write last night, expecting a cohesive story, and this is what came out instead. But if you wanted a one-shot about Levi falling for an MC who only sees him as a friend, then boy howdy do I have some good news for you.Â
word count: 1.3k || warnings: brief suggestive language
There was something so sickeningly satisfying in the sheer irony behind it all. The avatar of envy being the one who had to watch everything play out.
From the start, Levi couldnât help liking you. He tried to push you away, but you were so damn persistent. Truth be told, he didnât even want to talk to you at first. He was only doing it because of what he could gain from it. At some point, things changed, and he found himself enjoying your company. Levi even found himself calling you a friend, down the line.
Well, to say âa friendâ would be to put it lightly. Levi tried not to lie to himself. You werenât just a friend, but his first friend. His only friend, really. He was fine with it that way, he didnât need anyone else. You were his Henry, and he was your⌠what?
Your friend? What did that even mean to you? All of his brothers were your friends. The angels and that shady sorcerer were your friends. The prince of the devildom and his butler, they were your friends too. Did being friends even mean anything to you? Not like it did to him, surely. You were his one and only friend. Didnât you understand that? He didnât have anyone else. If he had to choose between you and the rest of the world, it would be you. It would always be you. Didnât you see what you meant to him? Couldnât you feel the same?
No, of course not. He didnât let himself entertain the thought; it hurt too much. Levi knew who you were, and he knew who he was. You were Henry. His one and only Henry. And he was the third lord, one of several brothers who you could throw out at any time. You were too kind for that, of course. Youâd never throw him to the wayside, even if he did deserve it. The knowledge only made it worse. Heâd rather you just toss him out now, rather than drawing out this painful process of getting closer and closer to each of the other brothers in turn, slowly getting more and more distant from Levi.
His brothers didnât deserve you. No one deserved you, least of all him. He knew that well. Levi was a disgusting shut-in, an otaku. A social anxious, socially outcast, weakling of a demon. He was one of the seven rulers of the devildom, but he didnât hold a candle to his brothers. Every litter has a runt, and Levi knew where he stood in the pecking order. Being one of the older brothers just made all of his drawbacks that much more pathetic. If you were to choose a brother, for whatever reason, it wouldnât be him. It shouldnât be him. You deserved better than that.
It was as he knew well-- you were his one and only Henry, and he was just another friend to you. Levi wanted you to feel the same as he did; to be your one and only. Heâd settle for best friend, or whichever term you chose for the friend who was closest to you. But that wasnât the relationship you two had. Levi once confessed that you were his best friend, and you had said the same, not knowing the weight of those words. You may call him a friend, sometimes even your best, but it somehow hurt more to hear you say it and know you didnât mean it like he did. It didnât help that he didnât want to be your friend.Â
Levi wanted to be close to you, but he was beyond ready to move past the way you two did it. God, just your hugs were orgasmic. It was an excuse to hold you against him and breathe in your scent. His face always went red and betrayed his thoughts to some degree, but it was worth it to be able to feel you this close. So close, and yet still with such a wide gap between you as he thought of all the things he wished you were doing instead. Levi wanted to hold you, but he wanted it to mean something else. He liked when your fingers accidentally brushed his, but he wanted to lace them together before you pulled away, to take hold of your hand. He wanted you to lean in like you did, but he wanted you to lean in further for a kiss. He wanted you to rub his arm, but not that friendly touch; he wanted you to be sliding his shirt off when you did. He wanted you to touch his hair, but rather than some friendly ruffle, he wanted you to take a fistful of it, and-- well, it didnât really matter what he wanted, did it? Because you were friends. Best friends. And that was all you would ever be.
You were such close friends, in fact, that Levi got to watch the exact moment in which you fell in love.Â
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The various brothers had, in a general sense, some sort of reason as to why their demon forms looked as they did. The avatar of pride had peacock designs on his jacket, a tribute to natureâs token show-off. The avatar of gluttony had the wings of a fly, a creature known for flying around and feasting on anything it could find. The avatar of wrath had a skeletal tail, a tribute to his terrifying nature to bare claws, teeth, even bone when it came to a fight. So the avatar of envy, too, made sense.
Levi watched as you flitted from demon to demon, interacting with each of the brothers in turn, then the various angels, demons, and other nameless faces that spoke to you; lighting up the room as you made your rounds. It didnât matter what the occasion was that night, your presence would cause a commotion at any event. Whether or not you wanted to be the center of attention, you were the star around here. Everyone loved you, everyone wanted to see you, and everyone wanted to steal some of your time. You always let them too, at least to some degree.Â
That night, like many nights, Lucifer strode up to you. The cockiest of the brothers, for good reason. He was the strongest, the smartest, and had the respect of the most other demons. On that night, Lucifer held out his hand, smirked, and asked for a dance. His request wasnât something that you were allowed to refuse, but the look on your face made it clear that you wouldnât have turned him down either way.Â
The two of you danced, and Lucifer held you flush against him. No one could deny the chemistry between you two, or the magnetic pull that seemed to glue your bodies together. Neither you nor Lucifer cared about the rest of the room beyond each other. Your face was red, your smile wide, and your joy infectious. Even the demons who longed to be in Luciferâs place couldnât help but smile at the sight.
Levi watched this, and he came to realize why his demon form was serpentine. He felt the envy slither under his skin, coiling around his intestines and squeezing them until his fists curled into balls. He was shaking, practically hissing as he seethed; his quiet, jealousy-fueled rage such a drastic contrast to wrathâs loud outbursts. It was a hideous feeling, blood running cold just from watching the bastard swing you around in circles. In that moment, it didnât matter that Levi was some gross otaku who didnât deserve your love. It mattered that no one did, but Lucifer got it regardless. Levi wouldâve been the worst choice of all of them, but his sin didnât care. He deserved to watch this happen, but he still hated every second of it.
There was something so sickeningly satisfying in the sheer irony behind it all. The avatar of envy being the one who had to watch his soulmate fall in love with someone else.
Hey yâall, sorry for goin dark for so long. School and family life has been crazy, Iâve barely had any time to write (trust me, I hate it too). On the plus side, after a couple exams next week, I think my schedule will open up enough that I can actually work on vnv some more!
Just wanted to let yâall know whatâs goin on, promise Iâm not gone ^^â Will be postin again as soon as I can, thanks for bein patient in the meantime!
This just in: when you reply on a post on your secondary blog, it comes from your primary blog. Not that I just learned that the hard way or anything, just uh. Makin an observation. In general.
A/N: Man, this took a helluva lot longer than I thought it would. It also ended up being a helluva lot longer than I thought it would, despite what I said on the last chapter. Oops. Hope yâall like long fics ^^â
Tagging: @devintrinidad
word count: 3k || warnings: n/aâ
Since arriving in the Devildom, youâd been perpetually busy.Â
Whether baking with Luke or shopping with Asmo, reading with Satan or snacking with Beel, practicing magic with Solomon or playing body pillow for Belphie, going to class or doing mountains of homework-- it was always something, and it always added up to a very full schedule.
Today was no different. Lucifer had insisted on keeping you until you were practically asleep in his study last night, only relenting because you had class the next day. And it wasnât as if you could fall asleep when you got back to your room-- you had things due tomorrow, and a full schedule to try and get back on track of.
Youâd mostly succeeded on the homework front, even finishing with enough time for a solid 4 hours of sleep that night. The pre-class D.D.D. tutorial youâd promised to Simeon happened right on schedule, and you successfully stayed awake for your entire first and second periods. You snuck out of third period to help Asmo with his latest fashion emergency, then managed the rest of third and fourth period without a hitch. You spent lunch listening to the newest anime-oriented drama from Levi, then attended the last of your classes. A text popped up from Beel just thirty minutes before school was over that he made a mistake, and needed your advice. You went ahead and offered to help clean the kitchen, already guessing what had happened. Overall, it was a pretty standard day.
Well, standard or not, once youâd gotten back to your room-- and finished cleaning up the wreckage that Beel had severely understated in his messages-- it was late, with a lot left to do. You opened your door, mentally blocking out how much time it should take to complete everything. Your math left you confident that you could get 4 hours of sleep again tonight, maybe even 5 if you really focused. You set your backpack down, feeling better, and flopped into your desk chair. The second your butt hit the cushion, you felt your D.D.D. buzz from your pocket.
You groaned, head hitting the desk with a soft âthunkâ. Didnât your phone know that you were busy?
As if it could hear your thoughts, the device vibrated again, eliciting a sigh. Pity party successfully waylaid, you dug your D.D.D. out of your pocket and checked the notifications.
It was a string of texts, all from Mammon. First he asked what you were doing, then where you were. The next one said to forget both of those; he needed you to come help him with homework in his room. When you hadnât answered fast enough, he began to spam you with angry emojis.
He was acting like a brat, but that was his version of begging. He was always struggling in his classes, and your tutoring usually helped; you couldnât fault him for wanting to improve his grades. And so, ignoring everything you had to do, you decided to help him. After all, isnât that what being a good friend is all about?
You stood up, tossing your backpack on again. If you factored your study session into your schedule, that would put you at 4 hours of sleep tops. No, the likelihood it would only take an hour was slim; probably 3.5 hours of sleep. Another text-- make that two-- made your D.D.D. buzz again; both demanding you reply, the second saying you didnât have a choice in whether to help. ...Maybe 2.5 hours.
Your first knock on his door was met with silence, and you briefly considered leaving to do your own homework. But no-- you came to help, you should help.
âMammon?â You tried again, knocking louder.
âFinally! Get in here already!â He yelled through the door.
Mammon was on his couch, backpack tossed a good ways away from him. Though he had a textbook on his coffee table, and plenty of papers scattered across the surface, he didnât seem to be working on anything specific. It didnât help that he was upside-down on his couch; his legs thrown over the back cushion and head hanging off the front. It wasnât the typical doing-homework pose, but far be it from you to tell what Mammon was thinking.
âYou sure took your time!â He tossed his D.D.D. to the side, pointing an accusing finger in your direction.
âI walked straight here when I got your texts.â
âYeah, well, you should already know when I want ya here.â He huffed, then practically fell off the couch amidst his panicked backpedaling. âNot-- Not that I want ya here, I mean! The Great Mammon doesnât want some human around, crampinâ his style! I just--!â He rolled into a normal sitting position, the redness in his face no longer the result of being upside-down.Â
âYou wanted my help with homework, right?â You tried to throw him a life raft, but it went right over his head.
âWhat? Homework? We had homework!?â He asked, now looking frazzled for a different reason. You took a deep breath, briefly wondering how this scatterbrain remembered to put pants on every morning.
âMammon, why did you ask me to come over?â You finally asked, trying to get him back on track.
âI asked⌠oh! Yeah! I uhâŚâ He glanced at his table, a mess of papers that he hadnât looked at since dumping them out of his folder. He looked back up at you expectantly. âMc, do you have any money?â
...Oh, so thatâs what this was about. It was hard not to feel disappointed that he had lied to get you here, but at least he got right to the point. âYeah, sure, what happ-- ah, whatever. How much do you need?âÂ
You reached for your wallet, hoping to just fork over the grimm and go back to what you were doing. He hadnât asked in a while, so this was probably legit. Probably. He would promise to pay it back, with every intention of doing so, and then forget to, or run into more debt. It was a vicious cycle; you were happy to not be a part of it. Well, at least it was nice while it lasted.
âWhat? No, thatâs not-- ya shouldnât be handinâ out money like that!â Mammon nagged, effectively freezing your hand in midair. If he didnât want money, why was he asking? âYou donât needta give your stuff away to people just âcause they ask, thatâs how people take advantage of ya!â
At first, his behavior didnât make sense, but the gears started turning on what was going on. You shoved your wallet back into place, trying not to sound as exhausted as you felt. âIs this because of Lucifer?â
âLucifer?â He echoed, confused.
âYou know, his whole idea of giving you guys a week toâŚâ You gestured vaguely, not wanting to say âteach me to sinâ for multiple reasons; âuh, talk to me?â
âWhaddya mean Lucifer?â He sounded affronted at the thought. âIt was MY idea!â He huffed, crossing his arms.
âYou thought of this?â It was surprising, but you felt inclined to believe him. He didnât like to admit that he cared; he wouldnât suddenly lie about being worried enough to bring it up to his brothers. Either way, as sweet as it was, good intentions wouldnât save your grades. But maybe if he had gotten you into this mess, he could get you out of it. At the very least, he might be able to get you out of todayâs lecture. âMammon, I really appreciate it, but I donât have time to--â
âExactly! Ya never have time!â He launched up off the couch, flinging his arms out dramatically as he spoke. âYouâre always givinâ it away to everybody else! Just like your stuff, and your grimm! Do ya ever even spend anythinâ on yourself?âÂ
âOf course I do.â You replied easily. He made it seem as if you were emptying your pockets for anyone who asked. You werenât some human piggy bank, you bought yourself stuff all the time.
âOh yeah? Whenâs the last time ya bought somethinâ for yourself, then? And food doesnât count! Neither does stuff ya need for school, or takinâ care of yourself. Whenâs the last time ya bought something just âcause ya wanted it?â He asked, hands on his hips.
âI, uhâŚâ That was a lot of rules. You tried to flip back in your mind. You werenât exactly a big spender; certainly not since youâd arrived in the Devildom with so little time to work for extra cash. To Mammonâs point, you could only think of things you bought out of necessity. A snack when you didnât have time for lunch. A new pair of shoes when yours were falling apart. Some toiletries when you needed them. A new uniform when your jacket was torn beyond repair, and you didnât want to bother anyone about it.
âBut youâre always buyinâ stuff for others!â Mammon let your thoughts wander enough to make his point, but he had to cut in eventually. âRemember how I usedta ask for money all the time?âÂ
âI mean-- itâs been a while.â It was a meager attempt at defense, but it was true. You couldnât remember the last time he came to your door, brown-nosing his way into your pockets.
âYeah, well, when ya first got here, you gave your grimm away freely, always buyinâ stuff for people-- so I thought ya had a buncha money. Then I heard Lucifer sayinâ ya donât have much, and you were sayinâ ya wanted to save some, so I stopped askinâ! But nobody else knows, so they keep askinâ, and you keep givinâ it to âem! I know you donât have stuff to be givinâ away either, Iâve been through--â He caught himself before he admitted it out loud, but you were well aware of the fact that Mammon had rooted through your stuff at the beginning. He had stopped at this point⌠you hoped. âNo one here wants to take advantage of ya, but they donât know theyâre doinâ it. Ya gotta tell people not to ask for so much-- I mean, Iâm the avatar of greed, and I feel bad takinâ your stuff! I bet the others would feel the same!âÂ
It was hard to tell whether he cared more about your financial situation or about making his brothers feel guilty. âI think--â
âDonât even get me started about your time!â Mammon didnât let you get a word in edgewise, advancing towards you as he ranted. He didnât realize he was doing it; the action a subconscious result of his rising emotions. You took a few steps back, but soon bumped into furniture and had to stop. âYouâre always busy, and ya got tonsâa homework, but ya never say no when people ask for help! Do ya even have time to be here right now? Or do ya have somethinâ you could be doinâ instead?âÂ
It was a fair point, but hard to take from the one whoâd brought you here. âItâs fine, I like to help out.â
âHelp yourself out!â This was the second time within 24 hours that youâd gotten chewed out for not taking proper care of yourself. There was a familiar churning in your gut-- a leaden mixture of guilt and anxiety. Not to mention a dash of adrenaline from being within range of an angry demon. That last one happened a lot around here, though. âTry sayinâ no to people once in awhile! You stretch yourself too thin and eventually thereâs gonna be nothinâ left!â
Mammon finally took a breath, letting his shoulders slump as he exhaled. He averted his eyes, his voice much softer when he next spoke. âBesides⌠I miss ya, Mc. You keep givinâ away your time, and overworkinâ yourself, and all of a sudden⌠I never see ya anymore.âÂ
His gaze flitted back to your face, and it finally dawned on him just how close heâd gotten. He was nearly pinning you against his pool table at this point. His face turned bright red, and he leapt backwards, crossing his arms to maintain his pride. âA-Anyway! You donât owe anyone anything. So stop acting like it.â
âI donât act like--â
âOi, and donât interrupt the Great Mammon!â
You rolled your eyes, but conceded. He had been difficult from his very first text tonight, it was probably easier to just humor him at this point.
âYa play therapist for the house all the time. Ya mediate fights, listen to peopleâs problems, give out advice when youâre asked-- even when ya donât know what to say. Maybe itâs about time ya let us know when ya arenât up to it. I mean, no one's gonna fault ya for takinâ a vacation day.â It wasnât a perfect metaphor, but it conveyed his point well enough. âThe house has been a lot calmer since ya got here. Everybody knows it-- you do too, dontcha?âÂ
It was true that youâd been complimented on your demon-wrangling skills by many people before. ...Including the brothers, oftentimes. âWell, yeah, but you guys should always be able to come to me. I want to be there for you.â
âWell I wanna be there for you, too!â Mammon blurted, looking desperate. Well, until he realized what he said, his expression then switching to panic as he frantically backpedaled. âI mean-- we do! T-They do! Or-- everyone else does, but I-Iâve got better stuff to⌠Ah, what am I sayinâ? We all wanna be there for ya, Mc. But that means when ya have a hard day, and we ask if ya have time... ya gotta say no. How would you feel, if ya learned that we all forced ourselves to be around ya?â
A pang of guilt shot through your chest. âIt isnât like that; you guys arenât a burden. I want to help--â
âYeah, and I wanna sell Leviâs expensive shut-in stuff for extra cash, but sometimes ya gotta think about what ya wanna do versus what ya can do. Iâm not very⌠I mean, I dunno about uh, emotions and... all that, butâŚâ Suddenly Mammonâs tsundere thing made a lot of sense; he was a lot better at denial than candor. âWell, ya canât help us if ya canât help yourself!â
Again, he had a point. This time he wasnât being a hypocrite, so it made it harder to come up with a rebuttal. âEveryone has bad days, I donât have to shut people out whenever Iâm not at one hundred percent.â
âMan, you sure are lucky Lucifer has a soft spot for ya. All this back talk would get me in hot water.â Mammon sighed. âJust listen to me for once, wouldja?â
You crossed your arms, unimpressed. He chose to interpret it as a yes.
âI know ya wanna have some free time. And I know ya wanna keep some of your money saved up, whatever itâs for. Well⌠If sayinâ no is hard for ya, maybe we can start ya off with a test drive.â
âA⌠test drive...?â Nope, he lost you.
âYâsee, Iâll take the fall tonight. Iâm gonna say weâre studyinâ. Or that Iâm still givinâ ya my peace. But⌠go back to your room, do whatcha want. Donât matter what-- homework, sleepinâ, whatever. Just donât let anyone take it from ya. Matterâa fact, if someone asks for ya: practice sayinâ no. If ya gotta give âem a reason, tell âem itâs my fault.âÂ
âYou sure?â He was essentially offering to be your guard dog for the night, which was quite a monumental task-- especially since people already assumed Mammon was at fault for things in general, and wouldnât hesitate to take their anger out on him.
âYeah, yeah; just donât go and think Iâm gonna keep doinâ this forever! Ya gotta learn to say no on your own, without me havinâ to do it for you all the time! I got goldie to worry about, I donât need another credit card overspendinâ itself and-- w-well, I just donât wanna haveta deal with it if ya run outta money and come cryinâ to-- oi!â You wrapped him in a hug, able to feel the shock run up his spine at your sign of gratitude.Â
âI-I toldja, I ainât doinâ it for you!â Mammon protested, but near instantly caved; stealing the chance to hug you back. He puffed out a defeated breath, adding, âIâm gonna watch out for ya human, I mean it. I wanna make sure you can keep gettinâ better, so⌠If ya ever gotta turn someone down in the future, or tell âem no for any reason, and ya canât bring yourself to do it⌠You can always tell âem itâs on me. Iâm your first man, you can always depend on me to help ya out.â
âThank you, really.â He held you for just a beat longer before he relented, switching back to his brusque demeanor the moment he let go.Â
âYeah, yeah, keep thankinâ me and youâre gonna waste all your free time before it even starts. Get outta here already! I got stuff to do too, yâknow.â He waved you off, but he was refusing eye contact for a reason.
Leaving Mammonâs room, your steps felt light, and a rush of warmth flooded your chest as you recalled his praise. Sure, it was followed by nagging, or saying it wasnât always good for you-- but it was definitely nice to hear that the brothers really did think of you as their confidant.Â
You stood a little taller; almost as if you felt a sense of pride.
Hello again! Sorry for a second announcement instead of a VnV update; as you may have noticed from my writing, I have a tendency to overexplain go into detail-- chapter 2 may be taking longer than expected because Iâm trying to judge whether itâs too long-- so, suffice to say, I like making announcements to give a full explanation of whatâs goin on.
First of all: Iâm so glad you guys are enjoying my stuff! Every time someone leaves a like I get so hyped; if you go so far as to reblog or reply to one of the things I post, well, know that I love you forever and would do anything for you. Anything. The law is just a suggestion.
Now, with the mushy stuff outta the way-- I wanted to address @devintrinidadâs comment on the prologue for Vices, not Virtues in a post, so more people can see it. First, thank you so much for the compliment I would kill for you; second, for your question about whether or not I tag people for VnV updates: Frankly, I didnât expect people to interact with my stuff much (if any), much less want to be tagged in it. That being said, Iâm more than happy to start a tag list, I just havenât put a system into place. I figure Iâll make a more coherent system when I post a masterlist, but since thatâs likely going to wait until after I finish more of VnV (at the very least, after I post Chapter 2), Iâll go ahead and keep a list in my notes to use in the meantime.
All that being said: if anyone wants to be added to the tag list for VnV, reblog or reply to this post (or send an ask with your url, whatever floats your boat) and let me know! Iâm so glad people like my stuff, filling requests like this are no problem at all!! Thanks again yâall, I really appreciate the support!
As for an update on timing for the next chapter: Iâll have it out by the end of the weekend. Iâm hoping for tomorrow night, but weâll see about that one. Look forward to it!
Hey all, just a little update about tags and things.
If you see my tagging system changing around a lot for the next little while, bear with meâ as Iâve mentioned, itâs my first blog like this and tumblrâs tagging system is... well, tumblr.
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Iâm still working on VnV, but itâs 1 am, Beelâs song came out today, and Iâm thirsty as hell; so have a massive thirst post I work on Mammonâs chapter. Unless youâre only here for the fluff, which is valid too. For the rest of ya, well, I hope you enjoy my first public thirst post~
warnings: nsfw, oral, gn!mc but mentions both afab and amab anatomy
His kisses would always come with tongue. Beel would do his best to be polite in public, or if you hadnât yet given an indication that these were to go beyond light pecks-- but the avatar of gluttony wouldnât be one to hold back. Heâd soon be lapping at your lips, using his movements to ask what his words didnât. If you granted his request, be prepared to have Beelâs tongue become as much a resident of your mouth as your own. Heâd want to taste everything, and when it still wasnât enough, heâd pull away to kiss you everywhere else. Heâd be the type to pull away and leave a line of spit still connecting you.Â
Heâd kiss all down your body, tongue following every place his lips went. His mouth would go to your ears first, lapping at the shell and nipping at your cartilage, quickly moving to your jaw, then neck. Heâd lick and kiss down the side, starting to bite as he reached your collar. His bites would be gentle, careful-- if he didnât keep himself in check, he could very well take a chunk out of you. Then again, Beel can be absent minded, and as he got further down, working himself up more as he reached your chest, he may bite a little harder than he meant to. Heâd apologize in an instant, kissing the sore spot to make it better. And who could fault him when he gave you those puppy dog eyes?
Heâd absolutely beg you to ride his face, craving your taste more than any food. Once you climbed on, heâd waste no time teasing you, only drawing out the foreplay if he was somehow patient enough to really savour his meal. Heâd watch your face those times, enjoying your expressions and the noises that you made. But heâd grow tired of holding back soon enough, and suddenly his tongue would be deeper than you remembered him ever being able to reach before. He would hear your moans, and heâd feel your fingers tangle in his hair, but the real pleasure would come from tasting you. If he was really enjoying himself, he would squeeze his eyes shut, focusing solely on what he sensed with his tongue; then seeing how he could move his lips or tilt his head to elicit even more reactions from you. From the first moment you arched your back, heâd circle his arms around your thighs, pinning you to his face. Heâd keep up his pace through your first orgasm without even meaning to do so. He was just so hungry, and you tasted so good⌠Needless to say, heâd stop if you really asked him to; all mumbled apologies and downcast eyes, hoping to be forgiven just enough that youâd let him do it again. If you didnât stop him though, and instead let him bring you to a second, or a third, or⌠Well, suffice to say, he would keep eating until he was made to stop.
Or alternatively, imagine how heâd suck you off; so eager no matter what your size. We all know heâs never heard of a gag reflex. Heâd get on his knees before you even asked him to, looking to your face for permission-- taking your entire length into his mouth the moment he got it. Your praises would be well received, and heâd swirl his tongue around every inch of skin, wanting to taste all of you. He wouldnât be able to keep all his drool in his mouth, the poor boyâs chin completely coated in saliva before you even got close to finishing. He wouldnât pull back to swallow his spit, instead letting you feel his throat tighten around you when he tried to keep from salivating too much. Once you got closer to the edge, tugging on his hair as warning, he would take you all the way into his mouth; holding you against him if he was in a good position to do so. And of course he would swallow every drop-- he could never get enough of your taste. Anything he mightâve initially missed would be swept up by his fingers, a low moan in his throat as he licked them clean. Heâd want to lap up anything left on you as well, whether on your legs, stomach, or still-sensitive groin-- and he wouldnât wait for you to come down before he tried to clean it up. Youâd have to tug him off of you before he realized that it might be too much. Heâd apologize in much the same way as mentioned before; red in the face, regretting his actions only so far as hoping heâd be allowed to do it again in the near future. If you didnât pull him off though, whether by gritting your teeth through it or recovering quickly, he would happily start his pace up again. Heâd glance to your face as he realized he was passing what might be considered âcleaning up,â but he would never question an opportunity for an extra meal.
That would only be the beginning of how all he wanted to use his mouth on you, though. Heâd be an absolute mess if you thanked him, considering it to be more of a favor to himself than something for you. Thatâs not to mention if you went so far as to offer to do the same for himâŚ
A/N: Iâm leaving it vague as to whether Mc is in a relationship with any of the brothers, similar to the lessons; thereâs innuendos and flirting, but no explicit romance on Mcâs behalf. I didnât intend for this chapter to be so long, it just sort of happened... whoops. The other parts will probably be shorter, but Iâm not worrying about it too much. Feel free to read: please reblog or reply; I love knowing what people think of my stuff!
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âWe need to talkâ was never a good thing.
Being summoned to Luciferâs study was fairly common. He regularly checked on you through private meetings to discuss grades, his brothers, and all manner of things related to your life in the devildom. He also made his fair share of requests for your time as a de-stressor, when he eventually admitted that your presence comforted him.Â
He gave out punishments too though, and despite his soft spot for you, he wouldnât hesitate to call you into his office to remind you of the rules. It was no secret when he was upset, and he would make it very clear what-- or rather, who-- the cause was.
That being said, Lucifer was always straightforward in why he was asking for you. He may not be specific, but heâd at least give some sort of warning. Some mention of grades, his brothers, or your chores. You would at least know whether to prepare an apology or not.
Today though, there was no reason. Well, there clearly was; he wouldnât call you for no reason. But you only got two texts: âCome to my study after class,â and âwe need to talk.â
Anxiety gnawed at your gut. What could he want to talk about? The recent humanities test? You did okay on it-- despite the class meaning something slightly different in the devildom than it did in the human realm-- so it shouldnât be that. Had you forgotten to do chores? You almost forgot that you were on cooking duty the other night, was he upset about that? Was it how busy you were, not making enough time for him? Or maybe--
Suffice to say, by the time you knocked on his door, youâd already started your mental packing list. If it was serious enough that he wouldnât even say it over text, you may as well prepare yourself for the trip back home. It would be the best case scenario, even.
âMc? Come in.â Opening the door revealed Lucifer to be sitting at his desk, the glasses on his face showing that he was doing paperwork before you arrived. At a glance, it didnât seem like Diavolo was in there, but maybe you didnât deserve his presence at your exit ceremony.Â
âShut the door behind you.â Lucifer was skilled at conveying a lot in just a few words. It was an unspoken rule that when invited in, you were to enter the room and close the door, then wait for him to tell you what to do next. He knew you were aware of this rule-- rather, he was pointing out your hesitation, and telling you to hurry up.
Lucifer crossed his arms as you carried out his request, watching your movements with an unamused expression. He was impossible to read, but you could tell when you were on your way to the chopping block.
âCome, you may set your things in the chair.â It wasnât an offer. You tracked the distance using the grain of the floor as you approached, shoulders remaining tense even as you pulled a chair out and dropped your backpack into it.Â
Only when the silence felt suffocating did you force your eyes up; they crawled up the desk, over his arms and his chest, until you finally met his gaze. He seemed to tower over you, glaring down his nose, despite being reclined in his leather chair an entire tableâs length away. He narrowed his eyes, brows furrowing. Quick to look away again, you decided eye contact was a bad idea.
âYou had a humanities test last week.â You flinched, but he continued on, âI know you already got the results back. I recall asking to see your grades from that class in the past. Why havenât you shown it to me?â Lucifer was a student council member, not to mention had many strings he could pull among the staff-- he could easily get access to your grades if he wanted them. Heâd done so in the past, when you dodged his questions about grades one too many times. He was asking you directly because he wanted to see you squirm.
âIâm sorry, Iâve been busy lately, and--â
âItâs alright,â He said, a smile gracing his features. Your eyebrows shot up in surprise, but the relief was short-lived as his smile turned ice-cold. He leaned forwards onto the desk, clasping his hands in front of him. âYou can show me now.â
Another command, masquerading as a suggestion. You knew better than to lie about not having it, so you dug the paper out of your backpack and handed it over. He looked down at the test, then up at you, peering over his glasses as if he were a professor himself.
âColor me impressed.â
âI got lucky, it wasnât anything special. I guessed for at least half of that.â You crossed your arms, though it looked more pitiful than defensive. As if you were trying to give yourself a hug, though the sleeves of your uniform tightened under your anxious grip.
âMc, you got the highest score in the class. Ninety-five percent is not the result of âhalf-guessingâ.â He replied, deadpan. Heâd seen the grades beforehand after all.
âI mean, itâs just human studies, it makes sense that I know a little more about it than other subjects. I have an unfair advantage, is all.â Your reasoning mustâve tired him, because it earned you a sigh. He took off his glasses and set them on the desk, appearing less stern when he looked at you again.Â
âDo you know why I asked you to bring me your grades from humanities?âÂ
You chanced a glance at him, but his face gave nothing away. If seeing your grade wasnât enough to sate him, what did he want from this? You shook your head.
âBecause I wanted to give you something to brag about.â Luciferâs statement brought your train of thought to an abrupt halt. You blinked back at him, confused. âYour grades have been improving lately, especially in that class. Iâve seen how hard you work to make that happen, and yet you refuse to share your successes with me. I first believed it to be fear of failure, or perhaps of disappointment, but even in your best classes, you didnât dare to broach the topic. You donât to this day, despite being expressly asked to!â He gestured at the exam on his desk, exasperated. âWhy?â
âIâŚâ It was a lot of things, of course, but none were easy to explain. Lucifer gave you a moment to figure out what to say, surprisingly patient-- until you said, âItâs not worth your time. Itâs not that impressive.â
Luciferâs expression dropped from exasperated concern back into one of irritation. âAre you trying to insult me?â
âNo.â You answered meekly.
âThen why would you bother to say you arenât worth my time? I believe I have made it exceedingly clear that I wish to spend time with you. I ask for your free time and you have none. I ask for your grades and you hide them. I give you my praise and you refuse it.â He stood from his chair, working himself up again. Guilt weighed on you heavily, and though you couldnât place exactly why-- it was definitely about more than your grades.
âIâm sorry.âÂ
âWhy?â He spoke so quickly that he almost talked over you, leaving you floundering for a reply.
âI⌠donât know.â
âDonât apologize if you donât know what youâre sorry for.âÂ
âOkay, Iâm sorry.â You replied, earning your second sigh from Lucifer. He pinched the bridge of his nose. He was going to need to find a different approach.Â
âMc, I know the lesser demons talk about you behind your back.â The sudden change of direction was shocking enough, but this was a touchy subject. You fought to keep a neutral expression, retreating to your original plan of avoiding eye contact. Lucifer walked around his desk, sliding himself between you and his work area. He somehow managed to find a position that both encroached on your personal space and allowed him to lean against a portion of the surface that wasnât covered in papers. âI know it happens when youâre around, too. I know you donât say anything about it, and you certainly donât correct them. âŚI know you agree with them.â The accusations were true, but it didnât make them any less painful.
âMc, look at me.â You didnât want to get into any more trouble, this whole experience was already painful enough. But you doubted your ability to hold it together if he delivered any kind of finishing blow while making eye contact.
A gloved hand gripped your chin, surprisingly delicate, and tilted your face up to look at his. You couldnât imagine what kind of expression you were making, but it mustâve been pitiful; as soon as you met his eyes he softened his gaze, and his grip on your chin shifted so that he could gently stroke your cheek with his thumb. âIâm not mad at you.â
Well, that wouldâve been nice to hear before you walked in the door.
âIâm worried about you.â His already low-pitched voice was soft as he said it, words laced with concern. Your heart broke, and you instantly changed your mind-- this was worse.Â
âLucifer, IâŚâ You struggled to find the words, caught off-guard by his sudden change in demeanor. âIâm fine, I promise.â It wasnât a matter of lying to him, it was a matter of doing anything you could to keep that expression off his face. It didnât suit him, and it just made you feel worse.Â
âI donât like when you lie to me.â He called your bluff immediately. âBesides, itâs been this way for a long time, hasnât it?â His hand fell away from your face, landing on your shoulder. He didnât need to ask, he knew the answer. âWhen did you lose your sense of pride?â
It was hard to ignore the stinging from behind your eyes; the best you could hope for was that Lucifer wouldnât notice. It was a worthless hope to have, but he at least had the decency to refrain from commenting on it.
âYouâre allowed to be proud of your accomplishments, Mc. Big or small. Even if it comes easily, you can always be proud of a job well done. It applies all the more if you work hard to achieve it. You are allowed to accept that your effort paid off, and you can brag about it. I should know.â He smirked a bit, but the moment passed quickly. âMoreover, you can be proud of yourself. Who you are, how far youâve come. You arenât the same person you were a year ago, thatâs a sign of progress. And⌠you can be proud of the way you look.â At his last sentence, he stood up off the desk, stepping further into your bubble.Â
Your pulse quickened, but the flurry of emotions you were dealing with made it impossible to tell which one was responsible.
âTurn this way.â Lucifer used your shoulders to guide you towards a corner of the room. Your movements were stiff, but he maintained his grace, easily leading you to a full-length mirror against the wall that you hadnât noticed until now. He sought to meet your eyes through the reflection, but you averted your gaze.Â
âIâve seen the way you act around mirrors. I sometimes wonder how you brush your hair in the morning.â He mused, briefly combing his fingers through your locks. âWhy donât you ever look?â
âI donât like to.â It was barely a whisper, but he didnât have to hear you. He knew the answer.
âLook again.â It was hard, but you did as he instructed. He brought his head down, breath tickling your ear when he spoke again. âYouâre looking at the most attractive human in the three realms.â
Your heart swelled at the compliment, but it wasnât exactly easy to believe. âIâm not-- I mean, I think thatâs an exaggerationâŚâ You amended, careful to avoid going against what he said.
Lucifer snorted. âDo you really think seven of the most powerful demons in the devildom would fall for you at once if you werenât attractive?â
You couldnât fight the blush that rose to your face from that one, though it was comforting to see that Lucifer was affected too. He had the slightest tinge of pink on his cheeks; even the brief mention of his true feelings was a momentous occasion for him. He wasnât exactly the warm and fuzzy type.
âLucifer, I-â You attempted to turn and face him, but his grip on your shoulders tightened and he prevented you from moving.
âWe arenât done, human.â The switch had flipped again, and he was back to bottling up whatever emotion had temporarily risen to the surface. You were back to âhumanâ rather than âMcâ, which was another sign. âLook back into that mirror, and listen to me.â
You did as he asked, your eyes drawn to his. You caught him looking you up and down, like he was sizing up his next victim.
âYou did not come all the way to the devildom to spend a year being virtuous to a fault. We are going to teach you to sin.â He chuckled at your expression, but cut you some slack; he leaned back slightly, though still held you in place by your shoulders. âRather, you are going to learn how to enjoy life, from demons. Iâve entrusted my brothers with assisting you in their own ways; they will each get one day to teach you how to better take care of yourself. Iâve elected to go first, for a lesson in humility.âÂ
You could swear youâd just finished your first lesson. This entire meeting had been torture, and now he was saying it wasnât done yet? No, not even-- he was saying that it had yet to begin.
âDonât expect me to let you off easy, either. As weâve established, you have a long way to go. I may only have one day, but Iâll be assigning homework. If I donât think youâre keeping up, I will require you to attend study sessions. We can start with something simple: find five things you like about yourself-- no, Iâll even let you start with one-- and tell me about it.â Despite suggesting such a basic self-confidence booster, Lucifer beamed-- well, he wore his favorite smile at least, the one that terrified demons and mortals alike. âYou canât repeat anything Iâve told you today, and you have to believe it. Prove to me that you believe it.â
Your head was spinning. He had just bombarded you with compliments-- albeit oddly threatening ones-- for far longer than you could take, and now he was expecting you to keep the work up on your own? Starting now, and lasting until⌠when? Did you need to add this to your list of assignments for class?Â
A/N: This idea definitely not just a 7-part self-callout has been rattling around in my brain for a while, and I decided that I may as well share the wealth with my fellow exchange students, considering anyone whoâs been a student anywhere can confirm-- none of us take proper care of ourselves. We could all probably use these talks. That being said, this is only the prologue, and each brother will eventually get a chapter of his own.
It wasnât so much that they all noticed it at once. It was more about the little things that built up over time. Little things that got worse as time went on and stress built up.
For Lucifer, it was your humility. That isnât to say he wanted your pride to rival his own, but he saw how you deflected compliments and avoided mirrors. The way you were sure that you were in no way good enough. It was bad enough that you let the lesser demons at RAD talked about you behind your back- no, oftentimes right in front of your face- it was worse that you didnât disagree with anything they said. You did everything you could to hide your grades from Lucifer, even the good ones. When he brought them up, youâd claim it was just luck, and that you still needed to work harder. There was modesty, and then there was ignoring reality.
For Mammon, it was your charity. Or maybe âsacrificeâ would be a better term. It was how you were so willing to give up anything you had to anyone who needed it, or even just wanted it. At first, Mammon was happy to take advantage of this, assuming you were generous because you had a lot to give. But he soon realized you werenât exactly rolling in grimm yourself-- as an exchange student, you barely had enough to get by in the first place. It wasnât limited to material possessions either- you would give up all your free time to those who wanted it, even when you had none to give. If someone asked a favor of you, or even just to spend time with you, you would. No matter what other obligations you had, or how little down time you had in between, you were willing to give away your time and self to benefit others.
For Leviathan, it was your kindness. Your earnest nature was refreshing; you listened to him, genuinely cared and always wanted to help. He got jealous when he noticed you helping others in the same way, but begrudgingly accepted it on account of knowing that you were (unfortunately) a very nice person. Though despite your concern for everyone else, you never looked out for yourself or asked for help. Someone would have to notice your struggles and offer, oftentimes having to practically force their help on you in order for you to accept it at all. God knows you played therapist for the brothers all the time, the least they could do was help you when you needed it. Levi just wished youâd ask.
For Satan, it was your patience. Your endless, senseless patience. It started with little things, like when Mammon slipped and splattered his dinner all over your uniform, and you didnât say a word. Or when you came to study in the library, but Leviâs screaming at a game from down the hall made it impossible to focus. You simply closed your book and moved on. You didnât even make a fuss when you bombed the test later, instead blaming a lack of effort on your part. At first Satan thought maybe he was overreacting and should learn to be more like you, but as the instances got more and more severe, he realized you werenât just patient, you were passive.
For Asmodeus, it was your chastity. Well, yes, it was your overall abstinence, but the chastity was what clued him in. He first thought you were simply uninterested in sex, since it was unfathomable for someone to be unattracted to him. It wasnât that though- or at least, there was more to it. When he teased you, or tried to touch you, youâd reel back or change the topic. He was disappointed, but it was more than that. You didnât just avoid pleasure from him, you avoided pleasure from anyone. Or any...thing, really. He rarely ever saw you enjoying yourself, unless someone had invited you to hang out, and you happened to be enjoying yourself too. He burst into your room unannounced many times for many reasons- but at some point he began to do it to try and catch you taking a break. He never could. You were always doing schoolwork, or doing someone a favor, or⌠Well, you get the idea.
For Beelzebub, it was your temperance. There was nothing wrong with dieting, or having a small appetite, but there were one too many meals where you just⌠didnât eat. When you first started to eat less, he was happy to take the leftovers you offered, but eventually the food came with a side of guilt. Then came the meals where you simply wouldnât show up, either claiming you didnât have time or just flat out forgetting to eat altogether. Sure, it wouldnât kill you to skip a meal once in a while, but he missed seeing you at the dinner table. Even more so, he worried about your health. How could you possibly be getting proper nutrition if you constantly forgot to eat?
For Belphegor, it was your diligence. Belphie didnât understand how someone could put so much effort into anything, especially something dull like school or housework. You claimed to not enjoy it, but any time he saw you, you were at your desk, or in the library, or doing something productive. The rare times you werenât doing those things, you were spending with someone else, either helping them to be productive or trying to maintain a bond. The more time he spent around you, the more he realized you worked yourself to the bone. He invited you to take naps with him a lot, only ever getting you to accept when he claimed to really need it. Eventually his invitations were more out of concern than a desire to see you- he had to wonder if the times you two slept together were the only times you slept at all.
Each of the brothers noticed a severe lack of their respective vices in your actions, to the point where you could use a bit less virtue- to put it bluntly. Too much of a good thing, as they say. So when one of them finally broke the silence about it while you were away, the brothers collectively decided to talk to you. And that was how your week-long intervention began.
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