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[gaming-is-all-i-have]

22

I’ve been 22 for two weeks now. And my mind is back at it again with the same bullshit. Yeah, you know what I’m talking about, and it’s always the same shit, but because of the nature of this thing, the longer time passes, the worst it is.

I’m 22 and I’ve never had a relationship, I don’t know how to kiss and I’m a virgin.

If there’s anything in which I agree with feminists (which is actually quite a few things), the one that hits me the most is about toxic masculinity.

FUCK IT. Fuck it for making me feel like a lesser person for not sticking my penis in a woman’s vagina. Like Jesus fucking Christ why in the hell does that bother me so much. It literally robs me from my sleep, it creates suicidal thoughts and the “need” for self harming.

I’m supposed to be sleeping right now, in about 10 hours I’ll be back at Uni after a 3 month strike and will have to function at 300%.

But I’m here, laying in my bed with a self induced headache after hitting myself so much. Just thinking about it. No matter how hard I try, I can’t get those thoughts out of my head. That I’m worthless, ugly, fat and unattractive. Why in the hell would someone want to be on a relationship with me. Why would anyone think of me as something more than a friend.

I hate myself, and as ridiculous it may sound, I hate myself for hating myself. “You’ll never be loved until you learn to love yourself”. That’s something I heard quite a few years ago, about 8 or 9 and it has stuck to me. My self esteem is so fucking low that in some way I’m repulsive. I don’t like hiding or putting on a mask, even though it is what I should be doing. I won’t dance around the fact that I’ve struggled with depression for years and would never ever lie about having friends that I don’t have, or having a girlfriend or any of that.

But hey, of course it is a reason for someone to just bail. I mean, as soon as sex appears in a conversation and I express that I just can’t participate since I have literally no experience, the looks… Oh my God the looks that I tend to get. Now I’m the weirdo in the room, I’m out of the conversation. It’s literally like being in a club of Marvel fans discussing Infinity War when you haven’t watched a single film.

You feel left out. That you don’t belong.

The chest pain grows stronger.

I haven’t cried in months, save from my birthday 2 weeks ago when my grandma fucked up everything. Again.

I’m just tired. I want to sleep. Wouldn’t mind not waking up …

[qcharlie]

please god watch this right now

[thenib]

Gemma Correll.

[pietriarchy]

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[journeymanfool]

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[goofballproximitysurveyor-deact]

[wilburian-deactivated20221116]

great job everyone lets hit the showers

[testosteronetwink]

[pinkthinkspalistineshouldbefree]

Not again

[cool-way-to-die-deactivated2022]

gentle reminder that you can’t get this kind of nonsense from any other site

[lady-byleth]

it always comes back to skyrim somehow.

[thenib]

Gemma Correll.

[bulbiedorf]

I made this so now all y'all have to look at it.

[bulbiedorf]

Every thousand notes I’ll make him thiccer.

[bulbiedorf]

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[heritageposts]

date of origin: 5th of january, 2017.

[queensparklekitten]

hold on i’m gonna add on to this

[queensparklekitten]

[fatherharlot]

I FUCKING KNEW IT

[aegisblaze]

[deceased-ufo]

[shinypenguinpizza]

I fucking love this post

[thisisnotmyhomeplanet]

[decuresmacanudo]

[ibakesouffles]

stop everything, this is bitty doing research for his thesis

there’s more lmao, unhinged bitty energy

[kirain]

I showed this tiktok to my grandma to make her laugh, but now she’s all excited and actually wants to make a chocolate potato cake. We’re gonna do it.

I’ll keep everyone posted.

[kirain]

It’s happening, folks!

[kirain]

Looks good, but we’re not done yet!

Our sweet, sweet child needs to cool before we add the finishing touches!

[kirain]

My creation is complete!

After dinner, we’ll give it a taste test!

I wonder how it’ll taste.

[kirain]

Oh…

My…

God.

It’s incredible!

This stupid cake, made with potatoes … is delicious! It’s so sweet, moist, and decadent, just like a brownie! And I don’t even like chocolate or potatoes!

The recipe from the tiktok was pretty much impossible to find. I looked high and low, but everyone posted recipes that I KNOW he didn’t use because the ingredients and methods were different. After some searching, my grandma and I came up with our own recipe.

For the Cake:

1 cup mashed potato

2 cups sour cream

1 ¾ cup flour

1 ¾ cup sugar

¾ cup unsweetened cocoa powder

½ cup softened butter

2 eggs

1 ½ tsp baking soda

1 tsp vanilla

Pinch of salt

For the Drizzle:

4 oz semi-sweet chocolate

½ cup sugar

3 tbsp corn syrup

2 tbsp water

A lot of recipes called for a mixer or a processor, but my grandma and I wanted to make an every-man kind of recipe, since we know not everyone has those things. Plus they’re heavy and a pain to clean anyway, so bowls it is!

Instructions:

1. Peel and boil the potato, then mash it. Set aside to cool. Go to the bathroom, do your homework, then come back. That should be enough time.

2. Set oven to 350°F.

3. Cream butter. This means putting the sugar and butter into a bowl and mashing it together with a fork until it’s thoroughly mixed.

3. Put everything else in the same bowl, including the mashed potato. Mix and stir well. Work those muscles!

4. Grease a pan (doesn’t matter what kind you use) and spatula batter into pan. Even out if necessary.

5. Bake in oven for 40 minutes.

6. Test cake with pick. If nothing sticks, it’s finished. If batter does stick to pick, let it bake a bit longer but make sure it doesn’t burn. Remove and set aside to cool.

For the Drizzle:

1. Cut chocolate into tiny squares.

2. In a small pot, mix sugar, corn syrup, and water.

3. On medium heat, wait for mixture to sizzle and stir it. Do NOT let it boil.

4. Remove from element and add chocolate.

5. Wait for squares to melt, then mix.

6. Drizzle or pour over cake.

Enjoy!

[ironwoman359]

I’m so glad there’s a recipe now, I really want to try this!

[keepcalmandcarriefischer]

Hey here is a thing that happened. We went for a simple ganache for the glaze. Heated 1 cup of cream till hot then poured over 1 cup of semisweet and 1 cup of milk chocolate chips. Whisk untill melted and pour over your chocolate mash potato cake

[thefringeperson]

Found the original recipe!  (Apparently it was listed as a caramel potato cake in the original recipe book???  Anyway, now there’s two CPC recipes!)

Chocolate Potato Cake

½ cup butter 1 cup sugar 2 eggs ½ cup milk ½ cup hot riced potatoes [just pure potato, mashed, no milk or butter or pepper or salt or whatever, just pure mashed potato] 1 cup flour 2 tsp baking powder ½ tsp cinnamon ½ tsp clove ½ tsp nutmeg ½ cup grated chocolate ½ cup chopped nut meats [optional, never ever feel pressured to add nuts to your chocolate cake, our guy here didn’t!]

Just… put everything into the mixing bowl in that order, with lots of mixing in between each addition.

Into a greased and/or lined tin, and then into a moderate oven for 55 minutes (or until cooked).

Frosting

2 Tbs butter 1 cup sugar ¼ cup milk 1 square unsweetened chocolate ½ tsp vanilla [also optional, since again, not mentioned by our maker here!]

Boil, but be careful it doesn’t burn. …Basically?  Stir constantly!  (also, apparently the vanilla only gets added after the mix is taken off the heat…)

[thefringeperson]

He did a long-form!  He explained the steps!

[overwatch-buds]

OW2 5v5 main tank mood

[relatablepicturesofoverwatch]

"Overwatch is now 5v5-″

[deep-dark-fears]

Lose your cookies. A fear submitted by Camila to Deep Dark Fears - thanks!

Only seven months til the holidays, why not pick up signed copies of my Deep Dark Fears books in my fancy Etsy store? Click here!

[phantomrose96]

The key shortcut of "windows key" and "." held together has changed my life

like

emoji access? supremely powerful 🙂💖

But

Kaomoji ?

The year is 2013 and I am unstoppable ヾ(•ω•`)o o(*￣▽￣*)ブo(*°▽°*)o

[phantomrose96]

[decuresmacanudo]

[dog-gerz]

I want to introduce you'all to Negro Matapacos, the most revolutionary dog in Chile

Due to the situation we are living right now in my country, i think he deserves to be remembered as the fighting dog he was. He is dearly missed by us that fill the streets fighting like him.

You see, he was a stray and lived in the strees of Santiago. He was fed and cared by a lady that lived there, but still he belonged in the streets and was loved by many

He never missed a protest. You always saw him running alongside the protesters, barking and even being reached by the powerul yet of the 'guanaco'

Even wet and tired, he fought and protected everyone near him

We loved him dearly because he never failed to growl and bark at the police officers opressing the protesters.

WE MISS YOU DEARLY MATAPACOS, WE WON'T LOOSE THIS FIGHT NOW, IN YOUR NAME AND IN THE NAME OF ALL OF THOSE WHO SUFFER DAILY IN THIS UNFAIR COUNTRY

[el-oxido-y-la-maquina]

Negro Matapacos deserves a Netflix Biographic Adaptation.

[e-f-i-m-e-r-0]

NEGRO MATAPACOS TE AMO😭🖤

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[esperhabasi]

Confused but still romantic

[lychdraws]

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