My Life

"To live would be an awfully big adventure"

[rebekahrainbow]

“You never want to make a permanent decision based on a temporary situation”

This has been my motto my whole life, and lately I just can’t seem to find myself anymore. Life was good in fact it was great; had a baby, married my bestfriend, was expecting another baby, lost all my weight. I felt fantastic. But after losing Olivia in July I started wanting more for me, for my son, for my family. Grief weight sucks and I’m trying so hard to get back to the beginning because I currently can’t even look in a mirror.

What if I am meant for something else, what if where I’m at is not where I am supposed to be. This can’t be it right? My life can’t remain on autopilot for forever.

[rebekahrainbow]

Having some trouble lately with the way I look, never in my wildest dreams would I ever think that I would be less confident now at 229 lbs than I was at 332 lbs. I find myself lacking motivation and wishing I was smaller. I need support in getting back to the basics and getting over this stall HW:332 SW:325 CW:229 GW:200

[all-lovely-ladies]

Lovely Lady

[rebekahrainbow]

Today

Today.... today I took a blade to my skin for the first time in 4 years. I searched frantically in my house until I found the cold metal, I cried in the bathroom as stood there with the shine in my hand and my newborn in the next room. Two red lines, small beads of blood only two. I feel worse than before, this is all just entirely too much. I feel so alone

[feministism]

[rebekahrainbow]

Two years, 120 pounds, One baby and a whole hell of a lot of happiness!

[all-lovely-ladies]

Beautiful girls

[lilpieceofmyworld]

[the-perfect-aesthetic]

[indieteen]

[darling-with-no-probs]

[to-far-gone-to-care]

[thinspo-chaya]

[prologueofchaos]

I’d rather listen “That’s all you having?” than “Are you having all that?”

[un-supersizeme]

Reblog this if you're a fitblr with a SW over 200 lbs and you are still in the middle of your journey. I love following inspirational people who have done it, but I want to help and be helped by those still doing it.

[thepersonalquotes]

[impunkrockiswear]