Hello everyone! It's been a while, hasn't it? I hope everyone here is doing well.
After months of inactivity on all my tss fan accounts (here, Instagram, Twitter, and Wattpad), I have finally mustered up the courage to speak up on my absence.
I'm sure that if you followed me on Twitter, you'd know that I tweeted a little update about why I wasn't so active in the fandom anymore.
It was because my love for Sanders Sides (and Thomas in general) has slowly been dissipating since the middle of last year. And honestly? I'm surprised I've held on to this fandom for so long. My fixations usually last for about 2-3 years, and I officially joined the TSS Fandom around early February of 2019. So 4 years! That's certainly a new record. I never thought I'd get so attached to these characters and the people I've met and befriended, but man am I feeling quite emotional now.
Because other than updating you all on my inactivity, I'm also here to inform you that I will officially be leaving the fandom.
I've been thinking it through for months now, and only yesterday did I finally make up my mind.
It's time.
I'm ready to move on now.
I can't continue feeling bad that I am no longer able to create anything for this fandom or enjoy the content Thomas has been putting out. I can't allow my passion for writing and editing to deteriorate because of it. I have felt so ashamed and disappointed in myself for that very reason alone.
But I know I can't force myself to stay.
I'm upset that I've left a few of you hanging on some of my stories that I know I'll never finish now. I'm sad that I can't find joy in what used to bring me so much happiness.
So I really, truly hope that I was at least able to contribute good content for this fandom.
And hey, I know that my absence won't be such a big deal, but if anyone on Instagram or Twitter were wondering what happened to me, you can show them this post. I would have posted this same message myself on those platforms, but I've unfortunately already deactivated them.
Seriously though, thank you all so much for sticking around and being ever so supportive of my written works and edits.
Thank you all for welcoming me and accepting me into this fandom. I'm forever grateful that I got to learn my identity here and experience so much joy amongst this wonderful community. You lot have never failed to show me so much love and acceptance that I would have never gotten from my own home. So thank you, thank you, thank you.
Take it easy now, FamILY 💖
- Zenpai
