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Artist with DID || Gilded || any pronouns || 20+

[refractaling]

Welcome to the blog!

I’m Gilded. I’m a chronically ill diagnosed DID system with a slew of other disorders so posts are somewhat irregular. I’m also an artist and will post my own work from time to time.

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On this blog we talk about:

Our lived experiences

Art (both personal and community)

Info and resources

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Other side blogs we have:

@gildedbookshelf - our reading blog

@sunlitabyss - religion & witchcraft blog

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I block liberally. Anyone can interact, just don't be a dick.

[refractaling]

Happy Pride Month everyone! I'm a low income trans person trying to afford top surgery this winter and would appreciate and shares and donations you can spare <3

I also have an art website! I just added a bunch of new stuff :)

[electricheart]

a little reminder! by annalaura_art

[fruitblush]

becoming

[refractaling]

Happy Pride sticker I made for my work :]

[userfish]

this pride month we’re all going to be radically pro transgender. or else.

[userfish]

hey so this means radically pro ALL transgender. don’t put limitations on this. all trans people are radically accepted here.

[refractaling]

Nothing and Everything, on DID and being trans

The last time I stepped into femininity it was when I was surrounded by other women performing womanhood in the Godly way I thought I was meant to. The way I was raised to. I was on my own for the first time on a youth trip with my church group. I had been saving and fundraising for this trip for months. I was nervous being on my own, but a thrill also raced through me. I was on my own. I watched the older girls that shared my room with curiosity. They were so mature to me at the time. They talked about boys and high school and had a sense of identity that I wasn’t familiar with. I wanted to be like them. I shopped with them and tried on clothes to change my whole wardrobe. When I got home my sister didn’t recognize me because of my new look. My hair was in bows and braids. My shorts were the shortest I’ve ever worn them and I was sporting a crop top. Me, the girl that was so afraid of showing my skin, laying it bare. I find myself thinking about the girl I was again today as I sit in a cafe in a skirt and off the shoulder shirt. My voice is deep from testosterone and my legs are hairy. My face has the ghost of a mustache. The last time I wore femininity it was because it was something I thought I needed to wear. This time it slips on with ease and comfort. Testosterone has changed my body so much that it makes the pain of womanhood dull and able to be something I can wear for myself. Because it is something I am not, but also am. I am not a woman. I am also not a man. But I am also both. Across the system I’ve always had a connection to femininity. Sage, the one who held the memories of that church trip, is the most connected to womanhood but she is hardly the only connection. Carmen is a man, but prefers skirts and flowing shirts. His role is more like a mother, but he is disgusted by feminine terms. Sunday also preferred skirts and light colors, dangly earrings, and light makeup. He used he/she. Kaeya is our other strongest connections to womanhood. He also uses he/she. Just because we have all these connections to womanhood doesn’t mean we are a woman. D hates femininity and being called a woman. Robin spearheaded our plan to start testosterone. Since being on testosterone we’ve become so so happy. It truly feels like my body was meant to be this way. I can recognize myself in the mirror. I don’t cringe at my own voice or avoid talking like I used to. These dual feelings combine into a whole person. I take in all of my experiences to create a whole personality the way I am supposed to. I create a whole gender identity informed by the parts of me and those experiences. The way I am meant to. It feels complete? Like something I’ve been working towards for a long time. It’s nice to not have to fight with myself over what I want to be called or how people should refer to me. It’s nice to not have such conflicting and scary emotions and not have those emotions change every day. I can put together a cohesive wardrobe if I want now. I can have consistent pronouns. My name is the same no matter who I am because I am always me. I am always both a man and a woman and nothing and everything. And it feels amazing. 

[refractaling]

Hello Everyone!

My name is Sam (aka Gilded) and I’m an trans man. I'm low income and trying to raise the $7,000 needed to finally get top surgery.

Please share with others to help spread the word!

Donate to Sam's Top Surgery Fund: A Step to True Comfort, organized by Sam Foster

My name is Sam Foster and I’m an trans man. I'm low income and trying to rai… Sam Foster needs your support for Sam's Top Surgery Fund: A St

I appreciate any donation amount and if you’d like to support me in other ways I also have an art website where my paintings, prints, and stickers are for sale. So you can get something for your donation instead :)

I'm planning on adding more prints and new improved stickers soon!

[hideki-koga]

カケス（Eurasian jay）

[tonechasing]

Some bird, Charleston.

[vexheart]

This

[jadeblueafterglow]

more leftists should be vegan. veganism and leftism operate on the same beliefs. social justice, no exploitation of labor, autonomy, environmental concern, intersectionality, an equal and just living etc. leftist praxis should include veganism

[moniquill]

Indigenously: no.

Animal welfare and animal rights are different things; it is good and normal for humans to be slightly anthropocentric while acknowledging our role within the greater ecosystem. Factory farming should indeed be dismantled- I want all animals harvested for food/leather/fur/bones/organs to have full and rich lives with as little suffering as possible before they're harvested. But it is not anti-leftist to live as a predator within the ecosystem. It is not more wrong for humans to eat salmon than it is for bears and eagles to do so.

[trans-girl-nausicaa]

i used to work in a vegan restaurant and it had basically all the same labor and management problems as the other restaurants i worked at that served meat. obviously. because it was a business in a capitalist system so obviously theres an economic incentive to pay workers the bare minimum and charge customers the maximum you can get away with.

in fact, the restaurant used the vegan identity and environmentalism as fuel for their marketing in quite cynical ways. at the same time they had a deal with Whole Foods (implicated in prison labor allegations btw) to source ingredients, meaning that there were transcontinentally shipped produce lol. for example we used frozen blueberries that were product of Chile. for a restaurant in the pacific northwest region in the united states of america. there are blueberry farms in oregon, washington, etc. But it’s cheaper to exploit south american farms than get local blueberries i guess. (which still by and large exploit the labor of migrant farmworkers from mexico and south and central america, but i digress)

i was vegetarian at the time and i had a lot of deep conversations with my coworkers and manager and the conclusion i came away with is that veganism is merely a cultural practice and is not inherently “leftist” in any way. if you consider human lives equal to animal lives i think that is not compatible with a clear-sighted materialist analysis of the world we live in. its practically a religious belief. which, like, okay, you can be religious, you can have irrational beliefs, but that’s not what “”””leftism”””” is about. that’s not really what any socialist or communist theory is about. it could be syncretized with socialist theory, but it would always merely be an ill-fitting addendum.

[fanfckery]

I was going to put this in tags but no.

Cashews that make vegan cheese are extremely dangerous to harvest due to the fact they mist be harvested by hand and the fruit has corrosive enzymes. Most workers end up with scars from chemical burns.

Almond farms were linked to the declining bee population due to the number of bees needed to pollinate the plants. Most bee keepers were lucky to get half their hives back after farms rented them.

We all know about how much of the Amazon rainforest has been destroyed to make way for soy farms.

Agave is a main food source for many bats, but no, harvesting excess honey from bees that over produce it is the problem. If bees regularly have a large surplus of honey they swarm, the hive splits and some leave to start a new hive. Problem is that most bees don't survive this process because it makes them vulnerable to other environmental factors. So encouraging farming and over consumption of agave and stopping the consumption of honey, you're actually harming two different populations of pollinators.

"Vegan leather" is mostly plastic, which breaks down and sheds microplasics. Contributing to the ever growing landfill and contaminated water supply issues we have. Meanwhile cow hide is a natural byproduct from the meat industry, and real leather can last decades if taken care of. A single cow can feed 2 families of 4 for a year, and that leather can go towards making belts, boots, gloves and jackets that last decades.

If you want to actually support ethical food production and animal welfare do your research on where your food comes from. Look into local farms and their practices.

[littlestpersimmon]

Recent portraits of cats I painted for people :]

[refractaling]

Hello Everyone!

My name is Sam (aka Gilded) and I’m an trans man. I'm low income and trying to raise the $7,000 needed to finally get top surgery.

Please share with others to help spread the word!

Donate to Sam's Top Surgery Fund: A Step to True Comfort, organized by Sam Foster

My name is Sam Foster and I’m an trans man. I'm low income and trying to rai… Sam Foster needs your support for Sam's Top Surgery Fund: A St

I appreciate any donation amount and if you’d like to support me in other ways I also have an art website where my paintings, prints, and stickers are for sale. So you can get something for your donation instead :)

I'm planning on adding more prints and new improved stickers soon!

[alaskanay]

American Kestrel | Raptors of North America

[exxos-von-steamboldt]

[delicatefury]

I just googled this and… yes, it’s absolutely real.

And there are so many articles and videos and discussions. Like, the scientific community is buzzing about this.

So much research will have to be redone because the data was absolutely compromised, off by orders of magnitude, by using standard lab gloves.

The world is probably not horrifically contaminated by microplastics. Sterile laboratories, however, are contaminated by latex and nitrile gloves.

Thank God someone bothered to check.

[beardedmrbean]

>I just googled this and… yes, it’s absolutely real.

Sources beyond dude just trust me, for the skeptics.

Scientists shocked to find lab gloves may be skewing microplastics data

Scientists may have been unknowingly inflating microplastics pollution estimates, and the surprising source could be their own lab gloves. A

https://www.technologynetworks.com/applied-sciences/news/scientists-lab-gloves-may-be-causing-an-overestimation-of-microplastics-411138

Nitrile and latex gloves may cause overestimation of microplastics, U-M study reveals

Nitrile and latex gloves that scientists wear while they are measuring microplastics may lead to a potential overestimation of the tiny poll

Nitrile and latex gloves may cause overestimation of microplastics - Phys.org (it’s a pdf)

An Embarrassing Mistake May Have Skewed Microplastics Research All Along

Researchers discovered a standard piece of lab equipment has added thousands of microplastic ‘false positives’ per each square-millimeter un

Ordinary Lab Gloves May Have Skewed Microplastic Data

Ordinary Lab Gloves May Have Skewed Microplastic Data: That doesn’t mean microplastics aren’t a problem, though

That should be enough

[thorneduprose]

So you’re telling me that the world might not be going infertile??? What the absolute hell. People have been joking about this being the real cause for YEARS!

[novelconcepts]

Hey, man, c'mere. Listen. Get in real close, this is important.

You're gonna make stuff again. You're gonna make stuff you're proud of. You're gonna make stuff you're excited to share. You're going to feel that overwhelming drive to create, not just the frantic I want to want to you're stuck in now. You're going to have awesome ideas, and you're going to make them into reality. You're going to create again. You're still an artist. You're still a writer. You're still home to the same passion you had before. You'll find it again. It's not gone. It's just resting. Let it rest. You're going to make stuff again. I promise.