Cutting Corners, Shaving Off Pounds

I'm learning how to deal with the mess that is myself and losing weight at the same time, HW: 245 lbs, CW:226.8 lbs G1W: 200 lbs UGW: 135 lbs

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Breakfast is served!

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Snack? 5/15/18:

Wendy’s is the closest to my work, so I tend to have them a lot. Today, I planned on just eating a granola bar, but forgot it on my kitchen counter, so I got a small snack here: a four piece nugget with honey mustard and a large water.

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Breakfast 5/15/18 This and a bottle and a half of water. I’m feeling pretty damn good so far.

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Lunch was pretty similar to breakfast. No corn though.

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Breakfast this morning. Not what I originally planned, but my aunt made us two heaping pans of food.

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5/13/2018 Breakfast My first step Breakfast. All of this and a bottle of water! Yummy and filling!

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So, I graduated college yesterday (5/13/2018) and needless to say, I was nowhere near the weight I wanted to be. If anything I’ve gained weight from all the crap I’ve been eating in burgers and whatnot. But, now I’m out, looking for a job at least casually related to my field and I’m recommitting.

 I want to lose weight.

I need to lose weight.

I am going to lose weight

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Vacation

I’ve been bad this week. Really bad. My boyfriend and I have been alone at home, his family on vacation, leaving us to our own holiday at home. We ate so much this week, bad food with high calorie and fat contents that were delicious on my lips but now I fear linger on my body, cancelling out the first goal that I met. 

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Family Matters

I’ve never really been all that close to most of my family, a little too different from them and a bit too unwilling to bend. But, today, I talked to my paternal grandmother who neatly described herself as having “a touch of the Alzheimer’s.” I’m not proud to admit it, but in that moment, I was struck by fear for myself.

My mom died a few years ago after a protracted battle with Diabetes and just about every complication possibly attributed to it. I was there for her last moments, promising that I didn’t want to die in the same way.

Now, I’m again faced with the ticking timebomb inside of my genetic composition, cursing the ill-fortune that made my sick mother love a man with complications of his own. 

Honestly, I’m scared, no, I’m terrified that I won’t be able to change enough of myself for it to matter, that I’ll lose chunks of my body and then my brain until I become worthless. 

[gymra]

This full body dumbbell workout focuses on the use of compound exercises and enables you to maximize muscle gains. Combine plyometrics with weighted moves that tone even more muscles and deliver full body results. Use a light set of weights (3-5 lb.)

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Low Cal Snacks

🖤 All these snacks are under 50 calories 🖤

🖤 1 green apple

(50 cal)

🖤 1 kiwi

(42 cal)

🖤 1 babybel lite cheese

(50 cal)

🖤 1 half a cucumber or a few dill pickles

(0 cal)

🖤 1 cup of Watermelon cubes

(46 cal)

🖤 ½ a cup of carrots

(27 cal)

🖤 ½ a cup of sweet peppers

(green 9 cal) (red 14 cal)

🖤 ½ a cup of broccoli

(26 cal)

🖤 ½ a cup of sliced mushrooms

(8 cal)

🖤1 ½ cups of salted air popped pop corn

(46 cal)

🖤 16 cherry tomatoes

(49 cal)

🖤 14 seedless red grapes frozen

(48 cal)

🖤 12 cherries

(48 cal)

🖤 5 stalks of raw Celery

(50 cal or 10 each)

🖤 2 fried eggs whites

(Made with butter flavored cooking spray )(34 cal)

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Sometimes I wonder if I’m truly as fat as I think I am.

Then I exercise and realize I’m fatter than I thought.

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Me: excuse me, have you seen my hipbones? I seem to have lost them under my fat somewhere

[gymra]

These lower abs exercises are challenging & seriously effective. They’ll get your entire midsection burning so you tone up in no time!

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Weight Loss Goals

Current weight: 232.4

Goal 1- 230

Goal 2- 215

Goal 3- 200!!!

Goal 4- 185

Goal 5- 170

Goal 6- 155

Goal 7- 150!!!

Goal 8- 140

Goal 9 (UGW)- 135!!!

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I’m at 226.8! You know what that means. First Weight loss goal Hit!

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4/23/2018 Weekly Weigh-in:

Bust- 42.0′

Waist- 36.5′

Hips- 48.2′

Weight- 226.8 lb (3.8lb difference since last weigh-in)

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It’s been a weird few weeks. I knew I had overeaten over the past few weeks and was too scared to weigh in. I made at least ten different excuses, so I wouldn’t have to deal with the number on the scale showing me how badly I failed at this. But, this week something changed. My boyfriend joined me, saying that he wanted to lose weight too, so we needed a baseline. Ten minutes later and I had my new weight, and I was pleasantly surprised. I’d actually lost weight 3.8 lbs. And while some part of me thinks that my scale must be broken, I’m proud that I haven’t completely ruined all of my previous work.