How do I even start this without slapping my audience of 3 ppl in the face with sadness? My gramps passed away last night, so I've been feeling a little manic today. Oscillating between numb ok-ness, deep sadness, irritability, rinse and repeat. Trying to keep myself distracted
Today I got tattooed today by my darling partner (ty love @resinx ), left work early asf, went and hung out with my grandma for a little while, now I'm back home and feeling strange because I have so much more day than I usually have! I think ima work on a card for my cousin's wedding. I feel an intense need to focus on things I can control, like keeping myself sane and helping my alive family members with anything they need. I think it's a way to distract myself from the sads without feeling like I'm disconnecting myself from it
