Ridiculousness

A journal-blog of my life as an artist.

[restlessfrommyroots]

Work today

"Do you have any allergies the kitchen should be aware of?"

"The far right"

[nonbinarysasquatch]

If there’s one thing I’ll give 2017 over 2016, it’s that it’s kind of stunning that the year is mostly over? 

2016 felt like the year that would never die. 

2017 is a hectic nightmare that never slows down enough for you to be aware of the passage of time.

[taraljc]

accurate.

[funnypicsdept]

[restlessfrommyroots]

Quick! Before I forget my password again...

Damn it's been a long time since I've been on Tumblr, and I've kind of missed the rambling despite the fact that only a couple people I actually know in real life read it. Since I got all my electronics stolen three months ago I've had to recover all my passwords on my new iPad (still no laptop yet) which is okay because I guess I don't actually need one. Still miss all my pictures though. Financially living here is extremely tough. Especially after the break-in, losing my deposit, having to replace stolen items and cover moving costs THREE times... finally I'm at a place where I can stay for at least six months. Everything is so expensive here it's hard to not completely lose my mind. And you know it's bad when you have to quit therapy (and the anti-depressants it comes with) because you simply can't afford it. My credit card debt has reached a record-breaking high that I haven't even been able to pay my bills in two months, let alone even think about student loans. So it's safe to say money has been a huge source of my anxiety as of late, it's hard to keep your head above water when you really can't even afford to not move back to the west coast to live with mommy. But, I'm determined to stick it out. I'm determined to make my life better. I'm determined to stop the self-pity. On another note, I've been having a great time living a casual sex life!! Ha... ha. I think I'm a late bloomer in this department, while most people I know went sex crazy in college, my time is now single in NYC. I'm also enjoying being super open about it because DAMN if nothing else is right in the world, at least there is good sex. And also I guess it's nice to finally be comfortable in my own body for once in my life. I've been making some amazing friends with my co-workers we go out almost as much as I did in Prague, which is really special to me because so far I have been lucky to find a friend-family everywhere I've moved to (and keep in touch with). I'm trying to get back to Europe to visit and be nostalgic with my buds over there, yet money once again stands in my way. My goal is to get there by March/April 2018... I NEED something to look forward to ALWAYS, I've learned. Otherwise I spend ten hours at the bar playing pool and contemplating my purpose in life. I have a clearer idea on what makes me happy, I know what kind of friend and lover I want to be, I know what kind of friend and lover I want in my life. I'm learning that healthy foods are everything, but I actively choose to eat chips & salsa... Progress is slow, Life is hard, But at some point something's gotta give. I suppose I'm realizing nothing's gonna happen if I don't get off my ass and ask for what I want. Peace and love to you all who are still here, I enjoy reading about your lives and see pictures you post to personify it <3

[theemotionmachine]

I don’t know where I’m going from here, but I promise it won’t be boring.

David Bowie (via theemotionmachine)

[triwizarded]

who here was on tumblr 4+ years ago

[jee-q]

I’m mature enough to admit that I’m the reason for some failed friendships/relationships. I apologize 

[restlessfrommyroots]

When the nice lady who does your nails pours you a glass of wine and you have a girl talk about how awesome sex is and how guys can be shitty.

[shxrika]

[kimbleefucker]

[no-chill-at-all]

[drxgonfly]

Flora (by Kristina Manchenko)

[ka039]

ATTENTION ALL GIRLS AND LADIES: if you walk from home, school, office or anywhere and you are alone and you come across a little boy crying holding a piece of paper with an address on it, DO NOT TAKE HIM THERE! take him straight to the police station for this is the new 'gang' way of rape. The incident is getting worse. Warn your families. Reblog this so this message can get accross to everyone.

[something-spectacular]

I will always reblog things like this, it won’t ruin your blog or the look of it, and this could potentially save a life.

PLEASE reblog this.

[nogistuneobrien-deactivated2016]

I have reblogged this about three times now and I will never not reblog it

[eyeslikeonyx]

i actually heard of this happening in atlanta not that long ago. that shit is terrifying as hell.

[nici-reads-deactivated20190926]

idc if it may ruin my blog look or whatever, if it means word gets out about these bastards then imma reblog x1000

[sunflower-flow]

reposting on my friends account

[scarliestralls]

[weirdbutinareallycuteway-deacti]

Me

[thehauntingofjulia]

I just looked this up and it turned out it was about a production of “cat on a hot tin roof”, a play which famously features a closeted gay lead character. a member of the audience was catcalling female actresses and shouting homophobic abuse when actor john lacy, who played the character big daddy, paused his performance and called him out. the heckler replied “what are you going to do about it?” to which lacy responded by leaping down into the audience and knocking him to the ground.

[goldenaltar]

#its what tennessee williams would have wanted

[moxis]

job interview: we need HAPPY, MOTIVATED people!!

my depressed ass:

[restlessfrommyroots]

Gone

Damn. Yesterday when all of my roommates and I were at work someone got into our apartment and took all our laptops (3 MacBook pros), jewelry, and my iPad. They tore apart my roommates room looking for electronics. All my pictures from Europe were on those devices, all my pictures of my dad from when I was 15, all my music, everything. I was able to track my iPad to behind our building because it was still connected to OUR wifi but it went offline soon after. Forensics and cops have been here since last night because we found out the intruder had a key given to him by our LANDLORD because he works for our landlord and is squatting in the basement. He took my change jar and the cops found it in his closet downstairs by the washer/dryer unit. Our new neighbor SAW the guy leave our apartment with a full backpack and asked if he lived next door and he said yes. So now we are all leaving and are going to take our super to tenants court if he doesn't give us our deposit back. No one feels safe. It's kind of a nightmare... But it could totally be worse because I switched shifts with someone yesterday morning to have Thursday off instead of Wednesday. And thank god i did because I would have been here for the burglary. New York fucking sucks 90% of the time but the 10% is so amazing that I STILL can't imagine leaving even after I get all my shit and identity stolen within five months of each other.

[heartseekerashe]

just in case you need to be reminded

dont check up on your ex partner

dont check up on your ex friend

dont do it

it is not productive

you are better than that