Rexreadsx

She/her| 19🌻|discovering/struggling💫

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“Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest, as long as I am living! You said I killed you — haunt me, then! The murdered do haunt their murderers. I believe — I know that ghosts have wandered on earth. Be with me always — take any form — drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!”

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“He had never found a way to reconcile the meanness of his physical existence with the purity and immensity of his literary yearnings.”

-Anita Desai, In Custody.

[ancientsstudies]

I Have No Better Plan.

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Sometimes I don’t feel enough, not for anyone else but for me. I don’t feel complete. Not enough to call myself cool and not knowledgeable enough for nerdy kids. Why do i exist with 0 talents.

I always tell myself that it’s gonna be okay and one day I’ll figure it out but for how long will I keep myself in this delusion is the question.

The picture is no way related to the caption, but I liked it so there it goes.

[literaryhistories]

a literature student in her natural habitat

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I am legit gonna start posting shit and stuff. I WILL PUT MYSELF OUT THERE (figuratively). Fuck everyone tbh

[virtuosicstudyblr]

05.02.2022 || Meeting with my linguistics study group, drinking hot chocolate and romanticizing studying.

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One day.

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God knew that I’d be too powerful and take over the world if he gave me confidence. He saved y’all at my expense.

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Once I stop procrastinating, it’s over for y’all.

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We always tell people that time is going to fix things. It’s okay. It’ll be okay. Give it some time. But what we don’t realise is the bloody damn fact that time is something we don’t have! LIFE IS SO SHORT.

[azraelazalea]

Letter from Patroclus to Achilles

Achilles, 

Philtatos. That’s you. In our final mortal days together, I saw you lose the man you once had been. I barely recognized the man you were. But now I am understanding that you were never truly lost whilst we were together. We have known each other for most of our lifetimes, though this must have been more than the first reincarnation during which we have known each other. Achilles, I was a fool, and you were even more a fool. I was an exile, a forgotten boy who would never be the man you were. You were supposed to be the greatest warrior and hero known to mankind. But you gave it up in grief over losing me. You could have found another someone to love. But again and again, you chose me. Why is that? You have the blood of a god, and I was not meant to be more than your slave. Yet, we found each other to be so much more.  Achilles, I am buried in your grave. Our ashes are mingled in the same urn, as I know was your final request. But I remain a nobody in my death, whilst you are still well-known, regarded a hero. As long as I am here, nothing shall taint your fame. I promise you. I believe my soul will wander this Earth for a long while, but I will never leave our grave. I will never leave you. 

Only yours, 

Patroclus

[anonymouse-the-asian-deactivate]

Petition to change 'Patrochilles' into 'Achiclus'. The 'Achi-' from Achilles' name means 'grievous', and '-clus' from Patroclus' name means 'victory'. 'Grievous victory', how poetic and absolutely fitting would that be?!

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POV : you’re reading The song of Achilles.

There will forever be a void in my heart.

Yes, those are my tears. bye.

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“ We reached for each other, and I thought of how many nights I had lain awake in this room, loving him in silence.”

Madeline Miller, The song of Achilles.

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“I will never leave him. It will be this, always, for as long as he will let me.”

Madeline Miller, The song of Achilles.

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4 Jan,2022

I don’t believe in new year’s resolutions anymore (gave up long time ago) but idk this year feels different.

Woke up at 7 and went for cycling, attended online classes for my English major, went for driving lessons,read a book, binged rewatched Brooklyn nine-nine. It’s been a good day.

Definitely gonna start posting more. I NEED CONFIDENCE IN MY LIFE.

Happy New Year Cuties. I hope things work out for us <3

[ashstfu]

so many books so little time but not in a poetic quirky way just in a very anxious and very overwhelmed way