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Shatter

Any glazier worth their salt knows that a crack in the glass is never just a crack.

It starts small, unnoticeable to the untrained eye and the unfamiliar. A pebble kicked up by a passing carriage, or perhaps a bird, whose life is cut short by the inability to comprehend. The first whisper white streak appears, in the corners or the center, seen only in the right light.

It starts small, and so it is overlooked.

On the magnificent stained glasses full of stories what is one crack, one small imperfection with cause unknowable?

But it grows, as all things do. With time and age the single line splinters, cascading outwards and outwards, slivers turning to lines and lines turning to fractals.

It grows and grows and grows until there is no denying it. Until the pictures and sights that the glass once held are warped, damaged beyond repair, and near unrecognizable.

If treated early the glass can be saved, the story prolonging.

But this requires someone to notice, to speak up.

To not overlook and assume that someone else will fix it.

#my writing #word vomit #hi im not okay mentally #the more i think on shit the more i hate #just assume rambling for rhys

Better With Age: Rhys

20 - Is there a self-aware person who does not squirm when he remembers what he was like at twenty? ~Eric Hoffer, Reflections on the Human Condition, 1973 / Live as long as you may, the first twenty years are the longest half of your life. ~Robert Southey, The Doctor

40 - At 20 years of age the will reigns; at 30 the wit; at 40 the judgment. ~Benjamin Franklin, Poor Richard's Almanac, 1741 (June) / I'm not 40, I'm eighteen with 22 years experience. ~Author unknown | No one becomes forty without incredulity and a sense of outrage. ~Clifford Bax (1886–1962) [Written at age 39, in 1925. –tg]

60 - He who devotes sixteen hours a day to hard study may become at sixty as wise as he thought himself at twenty. ~Mary Wilson Little | The man who is happy is fulfilling the purpose of existence. ~Fyodor Dostoyevsky

#rhys pent #meme prompt #picture prompt #y'all figure it out

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RP Bar/Nightclub Asks

🍸 What is your character’s favorite drink?

🥨 What’s their favorite bar food?

🌇 What sort of bars does your character enjoy? Lowkey, party bars, nightclubs?

🍹 Is your character a lightweight or can they hold their liquor well?

😃 Do they like to go alone or with a friend to bars?

💖 Do they have a favorite bar or nightclub?

💿 If they enjoy nightclubs, do they have a favorite DJ?

🎶 What’s their favorite song to dance to at a nightclub?

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various starters

❛ you’re a weapon and weapons don’t weep. ❜

❛ hurt me once, I’ll kill you twice. ❜

❛ never trust a survivor until you learn what they did to stay alive. ❜

❛ death is the only god that comes when you call. ❜

❛ I am teeth. I am royal. you are nothing to me. ❜

❛ the sun will rise and we will try again. ❜

❛ we’re just kids. we aren’t supposed to be heroes. ❜

❛ I like my women like I like my Absinthe: bitter and intoxicating. ❜

❛ what doesn’t kill me better run. ❜

❛ she wasn’t looking for a knight. she was looking for a sword. ❜

❛ don’t dehumanize bad people, because it’s their humanity which makes what they’ve done so terrifying. ❜

❛ she isn’t just pretty. she is otherworldly and vaguely threatening. ❜

❛ magic is not good or evil. is a knife evil? only if the wielder is. ❜

❛ I don’t want your crown. see, I’ve come to burn your kingdom down. ❜

❛ they broke my wings. they forgot I have claws. ❜

❛ all that blood was never beautiful, it was just red. ❜

❛ what do you do when there’s no hero in the story? simple. you kill the monster and crown yourself. ❜

❛ how terrible it is, to love something that death can touch. ❜

❛ you may not be interested in war, but it is interested in you. ❜

❛ I feel divinity in my bones like aching. like fire. ❜

❛ you make me feel and I don’t like it. I want it to stop. now. ❜

❛ you are losing my interest and that is very dangerous. ❜

❛ she will burn your kingdoms down, herself with it, if it means your ruin. ❜

❛ it’s okay to be scared. it means your about to do something brave. ❜

❛ she looks like divine absolution. ❜

❛ I will not be another flower, picked for my beauty and left to die. I will be wild, difficult to find and impossible to forget. ❜

❛ be careful with words. they can be forgive, but never forgotten. ❜

❛ you not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself. ❜

❛ I’m tired of fighting. for once, I want to be fought for. ❜

❛ never run back to what broke you. ❜

❛ I was quite, but not blind. ❜

❛ your gut knows what’s up. trust that bitch. ❜

❛ we all eat lies when our hearts are hungry. ❜

❛ do not judge my story by the chapter you walked in on. ❜

❛ I’m just a girl, standing in front of a salad, wishing it was a donut. ❜

❛ you can miss something but not want it back. ❜

❛ you can’t save people, you can only love them. ❜

❛ I came, I saw, I made it awkward. ❜

❛ we buy shite we don’t need, with money we don’t have, to impress people we don’t like. ❜

❛ you’re always one decision away from a different life. ❜

❛ my brain has too many tabs open. ❜

❛ I’m not saying I hate you, just that you’re like the Monday of people. ❜

❛ there’s no ‘we’ in fries. ❜

❛ apology accepted, trust denied. ❜

❛ death and I have been scandalously intimate for some time now. ❜

❛ life happens. coffee helps. ❜

❛ I am mine before I am ever anyone else’s. ❜

❛ I rely a bit too heavily on alcohol and irony. ❜

❛ very early in my life it was already too late. ❜

❛ is that a threat or are you flirting with me. ❜

❛ was the use of force necessary in completing your objectives? ❜

❛ I’ll let you drag me to hell if it means you’ll hold my hand. ❜

❛ I do bad things, and I do them very well. ❜

❛ you drink too much, you cuss too much and you have questionable morals. you’re everything I ever wanted. ❜

❛ they will kill you, but first they will have to catch you. ❜

❛ drugs might kill you but they’ll never break your heart. ❜

❛ good girls are just bad girls that haven’t been caught. ❜

❛ a pretty face doesn’t guarantee a pretty heart. ❜

❛ no airbag, we die like men. ❜

❛ true evil is, above all, seductive. ❜

❛ it takes more courage to suffer than to die. ❜

❛ you must be lucky to avoid the wolf every time. but the wolf? he only needs enough luck to catch you once. ❜

❛ justice is vengeance in prettier packaging. ❜

#rp memery

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Excerpt from “Does Your Mother Know?” // Not to Be Reproduced by René Magritte

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“I am destroying myself so other people can’t,“ she said, ” and it’s the worst kind of control but it’s the only form I know.”

— S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #201

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oc asks that reveal more than you think

Do they sleep with a stuffed animal? If they have multiple, who’s the favorite?

Can they take care of a plant? What about a pet? What about a child?

Ask them to describe their love interest.

Do they look good in red?

Speech! Speech! Speech! Speech! Will they give one, and what about?

Who will they take advice from, no matter what it is? Who won’t they take advice from, no matter what it is?

Describe them in three words. Now let them describe themself in three words.

Do complex puzzles intrigue or frustrate them?

Do they empathize with non-sentient things (dolls, plants, books…)?

What age do they most want to be right now?

They’ve won the lottery. Spend, or save?

Do they like romance in the books they read (or in the book they’re in)?

Name one thing their parents taught them.

Would they agree with the term ‘guilty pleasure’? Do they have any?

What would they consider a waste of time– other than school or work?

If money wasn’t a limit, what would they wear?

Do they like children?

Kissing: tongue or no tongue?

Do they study before tests? Practice before job interviews?

What do they like that nobody else does?

What would it take for them to break up with someone? What would be the last straw?

Do they like being called pet names? Do they call other people pet names? What’s their go-to?

Stability or novelty?

Honesty or charity?

Safety or possibility?

Talent or effort?

Forgiveness or vengeance (or…)?

Would they date a fixer-upper?

What recurring dreams do they have?

What would they do if they knew it would be forgiven?

#rp memery

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“I want to talk about what happened without mentioning how much it hurt there has to be a way. To care for wounds without reopening them. To name the pain without inviting it back into me”

If there is a way out I’ll take it, Lora Mathis

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The “This character who is flawed, traumatized and hurting cannot be saved by love. But they can choose recovery because they are loved”-trope makes me just… I think I need to lay down.

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“saved by love” and “choose recovery because loved” look similar on the surface, perhaps because the end results look similar, but they’re so different really. It’s passive vs. active; a story is about the person who’s making choices, being proactive. If Character A is saved by love, then it’s not them the story is about, it’s about their savior, Character B. If Character A chooses recovery, then they’re the one the story is about. Character B is the side character this time.

One is the narrative of taking what is broken and fixing it. It is not about the ‘broken’ person, it’s about the ‘savior’ who ‘fixes’ them.

One is a tale of healing. It is not about one person ‘fixing’ the other, it’s about the person who makes a conscious decision to not let their pain define them.

In one, the story is about the person who loves the hurt person, and the hurt person’s pain is incidental to the main character’s arc. In the other, the story is about the hurt person themself, and the other person’s love is incidental to their arc.

I hope I’ve said this well enough. My words may not be coming out the right way to express what I’m trying to say. Sometimes they do that.

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comfort starters

WORDS:

“ i’ve got you. it’s okay. ” “ stay the night with me? ” “ i’m here. and i’m not going anywhere. ” “ shh, it’s okay. i’m here now. ” “ talk to me. ” “ i wish i knew how to talk about it, but every time i try i just— the words won’t come out. ” “ i’m afraid if i start crying, i just won’t stop. ” “ i don’t wanna be alone tonight. ” “ you don’t have to say anything. ” “ do you want me to stay with you? ” “ we’re okay— everything is gonna be okay. ” “ it’s over now. ” “ it’s okay if you need to cry. it’s just me. let it out. ” “ i don’t wanna have to do that ever again. ” “ i’m so fucking scared. ” “ i won’t let you go through anything like that again. ” “ you don’t have to deal with this alone. ” “ i just need to feel something. ” “ i don’t wanna talk about it. i don’t. i just need to forget. ” “ whatever you need, i’m here. ” “ please, just tell me what you need. ” “ lay back down, you need to rest. ” “ here, i made you some tea. ” “ drink this, it’ll help you relax. ” “ let’s go for a walk. sitting here all cooped up will only make it worse. ” “ i can’t breathe. i can’t— ” “ just breathe. breathe with me. ” “ look at me. hey— i’m right here. you’re not alone. ” ” i feel so sick. ” ” i’m just so fucking tired. ” “ what can i do? ” “ i need you. ” “ i’ll always be here when you need me. ” “ i was so worried— i thought i’d lose you. ” “ i’m really worried about you. ” “ actually i’m…i’m really not okay. ” “ i keep telling everyone everything is fine and each time someone else asks i get closer to just. breaking. ” “ you’re not fine. and you don’t have to pretend that you are with me. ” “ everything hurts and i want it to stop. ” “ i know it hurts now. but it gets better. with time. the pain gets a little less until it’s more of an ache rather than some big overwhelming lump in your throat. ” “ just tell me it’s gonna get better. ” “ i heard you crying— what’s wrong? ” “ everyone keeps asking how i’m doing but— you’re the only person i really feel like i can talk to. ” “ i can’t promise you it’ll get better. but i can promise you i’ll be here with you. ” “ i just needed to see you. ” “ i just need to know you’re okay. ” “ get some rest, i’ll be here the whole time. ” “ i’m afraid to go to sleep. ” “ i can’t stop seeing their faces every time i close my eyes. ” “ i sleep better in your bed. ” “ i won’t say sorry because that just, falls flat. but if i could change it. i would. ” “ as long as i have you, i think i’ll be okay again. ”

ACTIONS:

1. for our muses to cuddle after one of them has a nightmare 2. for one muse to invite the other to get under the covers with them 3. for one muse to come to the other in the middle of the night to crawl in bed with them 4. for one muse to hold the other while they cry 5. for our muses to spend the night together after a traumatic experience 6. for one muse to help the other clean blood off of themselves 7. for our muses to take a bath together to help one or both of them relax after something traumatic 8. for one muse to show up at the other’s doorstep in tears 9. for our muses to have sex as a means of comforting each other 10. for one muse to make the other’s favorite meal to help them feel better 11. for one muse to wipe the other’s tears away 12. for one muse to gently take the other’s chin to get their point across while comforting them 13. for one muse to fall asleep on the other after breaking down 14. for one muse to carry the other to bed and stay with them 15. for one muse to confess something traumatic to the other 16. for one muse to make the other finally open up about something 17. for one muse to stay the night with the other to keep them from hurting themselves 18. for one muse to take care of the other who is drunk 19. for our muses to drink together after a shared traumatic experience 20. for one muse to confess their love for the other after experiencing something traumatic

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