Fire Thief

18, a poet and a sinner

[rimbaudmania]

i've got a sunset in my veins

and i need to take a pill to make this town feel okay

[rimbaudmania]

08-03-2026

call me a fool, you are the most beautiful boy i have ever known.

what drives me mad is you probably don't even know it. you call yourself boring and i didn't even know anything about you. i still don't know you.

what if things were different? i was born at the worst time in the worst of places.

[rimbaudmania]

16-09-25

i feel so alienated i can barely stand up. i'd crawl like a roach or like a beast, i'm completely dehumanised. the thick hair on my body hides and covers me, beneath it i imagine my skin to be purple and swollen

[rimbaudmania]

15/08/25

pinned to a chair 8 hours a day, not really doing anything, not even breathing. this human condition is an inefficient joke. i'm turning into a cinic, feeling the need to wipe out society. maybe i am anti-social, but i have friends, i am kind, i hang out every day. but i can't ignore the dagger that's pointed at my throat... i am anti-society, which is a synonym of "corporation" nowadays. "people" is a subjective word, you can be a person (owner), a consumer or a slave. keep consuming if you don't want to be a slave. just consume, consume, consume! encourage consumption! C O N S U M E !

[rimbaudmania]

You're not like the other stars

I can tell by the way you touch the dark

"Stop it", I said, I don't deserve this

I collect the dark inside of me while others try to push it away

I collect the dark inside of me while others try to push it away

It's easier that way

I don't deserve this, I don't deserve this

Misunderstand me, mistake my vices for virtues

Misunderstand me, the only way you'll ever respect mе

Misunderstand me, mistake my vicеs for virtues

Misunderstand me, the only way you'll ever respect me

I am a star, but I don't shine

I am a star, but I don't shine

I am a star, but I don't shine

I am a star, but I don't shine

I am a star, I am a star

I am a star, I am a star

[rimbaudmania]

maybe you just called to hear my voice

maybe i was just missing you

maybe you were too drunk to escape me

maybe i should just forget you

(drink with me, darlin')

[rimbaudmania]

19/04/25

my friend said my perfume is very nice. it's something i never thought anyone would notice; and it's my favourite compliment i've ever gotten.

she also said, talking to another friend about me "when i'll visit (her) in greece i'll look around at the airport and fail to recognise (her)" god i wish that were true. she saw right through me in a way.

it made me want to tell her about myself, the one i hate. but i made a pause too long and the words wouldn't come out. i held her tight when she left, it's small things but i'm never so intimate

[rimbaudmania]

17/04/25

time passes so slowly yet i can never catch up.

do i have the strength to wait for the day or will my heart just give up?

i've come to hate myself so much i'm awful to be around, so i just shut myself in, hiding how hideous this body is making me with each passing day, week, month.

the earliest appointment i could get is in 22 days. part of me silently accepted it as a surrender, or like a russian roulette game. make it out of 22 rounds only slightly damaged. put a bullet where the noise is coming from. i think i have tinnitus from screaming in my brain too often

[rimbaudmania]

if he asked me to stay i would've gone nowhere. it kills me that i would've died for him and he didn't even care

[rimbaudmania]

15/04/25

lately i've been extra careful when i drink to avoid your number, but i still slipped up. you know i'm messed up because i miss you

[rimbaudmania]

Touch The Wings of An Angel... Doesn't Mean You Can fly

Paper white slips of paper

turned scarlet 'round my finger

Pulled my heart like the trigger

on your gun made of silver

[rimbaudmania]

But nothing seems important anymore

We’re just protecting ourselves from our self

[rimbaudmania]

i wonder if moths ever fly towards the sun like icarus or if its light is too distant for them to notice that's the source of everything

[rimbaudmania]

4-02-25

love does exist. love is singular. it's said "i love you" "you love me" and they mean different things. you can either love someone or be loved by someone, both doesn't exist. or well, something /similar/ exists but it's not love.

"love has to be reinvented"

[rimbaudmania]

7/04/25

so many things are changing in days but i can't tell the difference. if i told all that is happening to my 6 months past-self he wouldn't understand a word. but all i do is the same, except that i read less, drink less and write less, and i don't have you to keep me warm at night. i still play videogames, listen to music before i fall asleep, but don't go out with those friends anymore (it's a crushing relief). i'm "hopelessly hopeful" about the future and i can't wait to move to another country, i really can't

[chllyt-deactivated20250917]

I WILL PAY FOR THIS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE / Iteration: Woman Dreams Her Enemy / Iteration: “What is she dreaming?”; pencil, digital (mar. 29, ’25)

[pasdechevals]