Anyone else just feeling like their behavior mimics an animal? My friends call it autism or adhd but I don't want to label myself with something I can't prove
My family wont put me on the long list to get tested nor do it privately.
As I get older all these things wrong with me grow more obvious. Like for instance, feeling like I act like an animal, it is not on purpose just often I catch myself doing it anyways.
Id done all these tests online like raad-r or whatever its called but I cant trust online tests!
Im glad ive never been in school but that also meant I didnt socialise with anyone until I was 8 that was online and only really 10 when I meant my first and only friend until this year.
Ive never been able to know im not normal until now and i feel so wrong and out of place.
Anyways, I appreciate anyone who read this through or even read a little bit, everyone cares for someone and someone is always cared for by another. Even if it seems like a lie
Please keep interacting with this post because when I come to tumblr to procrastinate, this shows up again in my notifications and guilts me into writing again
I think about Rin finding a sense of balance/peace in having his demonic side unlocked and then instantly feeling guilty for it. Because when it feels Right to have his demonic features/powers, then it just solidifies the fact that he Is a demon, that Shirou lied when he said Rin was just a normal boy. Sure, it was to help him. But when you’re 15 you don’t always understand the true meaning of what your parents say and do and the care they carry for you.
That, and. Rin getting feverish during certain festivals or holidays because of the holy energy and those are some of the times he truly hates his demonic side because for everyone else it’s a time of reprieve and bonding and he’s stuck at home thwarting off a sickness that won’t go away until the festival ends and he just can’t be a normal boy even for a day. :c
The trio for My Hero should've been Izuku, Shoto, and Tenya. I will die on this hill if needed, it makes narrative sense to have Tenya as a major focus and rival instead of shitty Bakahoe who spends the entire story abusing Izuku.
Tenya Ida sees Izuku and immediately looks down on him and yes, we get to know him and know he's not like this - but it comes off like he's picking on Izuku because he's an easy target (IE, like Bakahoe who knows he can abuse Izuku and no one will do shit about it).
Tenya then sees Izuku cowering and runs past him only to then witness Izuku push through his fear to save Uraraka. And how does he react? Like a rival - "I would've done the same" while looking genuinely upset with himself, not Izuku (like shitty Bakuhoe who turns every moment of self reflection into hatred for Izuku). He becomes determined to be a hero that can rival Izuku and that is so much better than having an abusive bully with a one-sided "rivalry" as such a main character.
That one moment should've established a friendly rivalry, a HEALTHY one that would've given major character growth. And not just for Izuku, but also for Shoto - because where Tenya and Izuku could be foils, Tenya and Shoto are mirrors (legacy with high expectations on them, but one came from a healthier environment and is willingly trying to live up to the legacy he was born to).
Contrast that with Bakahoe who is legit just Endeavor with no PR training, an abusive asshole incapable of seeing his own flaws until it benefits him, he offers nothing in that aspect of character dynamics and I do not like how people/Hori inflate his character like that. Seriously, Bakugo Katsuki was narratively part of Izuku's BACKSTORY. His only major role after that should've been an ACKNOWLEDGED villain (because you can't change my mind, the asshole who actively tries to kill someone during class is a villain and no apology makes up for that).
It's genuinely so funny that all the "we have to work work work at Voxtek ❤️" come from emails from Ethan, and Baxter - another employee who works there - was perfectly fine fucking with Vox and only lamented losing his benefits as the only consequence to doing so.
Guys I think the toxic work culture is from Ethan, actually. I don't think Vox has anything to do with it.
Vox, during new employee on-boarding: If you look here, this is the list of your employee benefits-
Ethan, during training: The only EMPLOYEE BENEFIT is BEING EMPLOYED!
Vox: And here are your work hours and PTO, and please don't come into work ill, no one wants our infrastructure to get viruses-
Ethan: If you want to SURVIVE here at Voxtek you better be clocking in 100hour/weeks! You need to eat, sleep, and breathe Voxtek! Getting sick is an excuse, if you were at work you wouldn't have had TIME to catch anything!
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Ethan never even applied to be Vox's assistant, he just showed up one day and never left and Vox just assumed he forgot he hired him.
So, correct me if im wrong but, if Satan and Yuri had intercourse when Satan was possessing 005 aka Shirous brother. Would that not make Shiro Rin and Yukios uncle?
So that whole thing in season 1 ep 2(?) And obviously season5 ep 12(but that's just the same thing in a different pov/ep) about Rin not actually being related to Shiro be an invalid argument i know neither really knew or processed at the time that it was a false statement but makes you wonder.
An au where Angel Trains Rin around the same time Yukio starts training to become an excorist and neither party realises that one Angel's teaching Satan's child/the paladins adopted child and two that one of the excorists batting for Shirous position is training his adopted son to help him achieve that goal and inevitably be his successor.
Rin and Angel may seem a little occ? But i dont think i did too bad
Anyways this is like over 1k words
Story below
The Paladin had gotten himself injured and now Angel had been sent out to protect his superior's domain.
Upon finding the demon who'd been detected in town He found a small feral dark haired child running and occasionally attacking the demon who was trying its hardest not to harm the child.
How odd.
While the demon was distracted with the child he ran his blade through the creature's body quickly dispatching it.
After dusting himself off he sees Rin staring at him with stars in his eyes. Angel raises an eyebrow.
Rin starts rattling off about how cool that was boosting Angel's ego astronomically. Angel explains he was an exorcist and how it was his job to dispatch demons, which makes Rin beg to be trained by him.
See Angel was not the type to take on apprentices/successors, about to deny this tiny Ferocious Child staring up at him like he hung the stars in the sky.
That was of course until he spotted the child's fangs, teeth far sharper than humans should ever have. And remembering how the child fought he saw potential. And in his mind a clearly half demon child should always grow up to be an exorcist. Sins of a parent and all
He does not believe children should repent for their parents sins but he does believe without enough guidance children will follow their parents sins.
So forever wanting less demons in the world he agrees taking this child under his angelic wing.
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He discovered originally that this child was verv blunt in the brain. Until one of his tutoring sessions had been taught in a rush. In the middle of a battle, shouting questions at his student while said pupil runs laps around the demon keeping him distracted, he had no clue why every demon wanted to target this child but he used it to his advantage.
But after the battle, throwing a pop quiz as always at his pupil to fill out, he discovered that a lot more than usual questions were correct.
Which made his teachings easier since he didn't need to put aside time when he did have his student. for verbal teachings. He could just multitask and teach both intellect and battle experience at the same time.
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Shirou knew something bad was going to happen, He knew it in his gut. So admittedly stalking his son likely wasn't the best option but he was forever glad he had. When he saw in the night a flash of bright blue light in the alley..
Running towards the light he stopped at the edge of the alley. Rin was stalking above a recently excorised boy. Small flickers of blue flame still dancing along his arms.
He was calling someone.
"Uhhhh sensei we may have a problem.'
…
" well this guy cornered me in the alley, and afte almost fucking burning me, I found out he was possessed by a demon.”
'Yeah, he's dealt with, we have a slightly different problem on our hands. You may need to be here though, it's a uh, bit of a difficult situation Yeah, yeah i know you're busy. Uh huh, you're always busy just meet me by the monastery once vou're done.-"
the call cuts off followed by a groan from rin "facing a fucking life crisis and he still complains that he's too busy,"' he makes a talking motion with his hands.
He then turns the flames immediately extinguishing as he spots shirou.
"Hey old man, you- you didn't see any of that right?"
Shirou snapped out of his temporary shock by immediately grabbing Rin's hand while leading him out the alley.
'We need to get out of here now!"
"Uh? Wait. You know what these things are??"
Shirou mentally facepalmed that his son was never the brightest "Rin I'm a priest. You never connected the pieces? As it seems even after keeping you so sheltered you figured out about it all. with a mentor...?"
"Uh yeah, haha, I'Il tell you later when you tell me what's actually going on, old man!"
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Arthur was in the middle of a demons nest slicing his way through with little to no issue When his phone rang, normally he'd ignore it but the ringtone he had set specifically for his pupil(as he was a danger magnet and NOT because he cared for the boy) he groaned internally and reached for his phone settling it on his shoulder head tilted to keep it steady.
"Uhhhh sensei we may have a problem.
"
Oh god above.
"what have you got into now, I'm busy”.
" well this guy cornered me in the alley, and after almost fucking burning me, I found out he was possessed by a demon."
"Are you fine dealing with it, I'm in the middle of a nest."
Yeah, he's dealt with, we have a slightly different problem on our hands. You may need to be here though, it's a uh, bit of a difficult situation. Yeah, yeah I know you're busy. Uh huh, you're always busy just meet me by the monastery once vou're done.-"
"Yeah, won't be long," his tone changed immediately, Rin sounded serious. For once in his life.
Taking care of the rest of the demons took longer than he wanted it to. immediatelv after he was cleared he rushed to the nearest door pulling out the key the demon(mephisto) had made him which transported him close to his pupils home.
His heart sunk at the state of the monastery,(not that he cared or anything) racing inside he saw a bright blue flame consuming the... Paladin.
Kicking into gear he readied his sword. He was about to guard his pupil before he finally actually took everything in and saw the gehenna gate starting to swallow both the paladin and his student. His heart constricted. (not that he'd ever admit it.)
Then his student drew the sword he was holding. More blue flame erupted around him which is when it fully clicked. His pupil was the spawn of Satan.
Judging by how the flame didn't seem to hurt him in the slightest.
His pupil looked so... demonic.
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The gehenna gate and Satan were gone, leaving behind the husk of a body of the paladin.
Pushing his whole instinctual need to run or put the demon- his pupil down he couldn't bear himself to do it.
Maybe it was because he put so might time and patient in this boy to become his successor, or maybe it was because he had grown to care and knew better then to judge his pupil for his heritage when he had seen that the boy wore his heart on his sleeve
He walked forward. sorrowful that he had not arrived sooner. And put his hand on his pupils shoulder as the half demon's body was racked with sobs.
Rin stared up at Angel eyes glassy and red
'Sensei, I won't blame you, ' he says, voice cracking.
Angel clues in immediately what he means
I've put far too much time in to kill you now, the son of Satan is a useful tool to cull the impure, 'I'll continue training you to reach vour full potential, but at any moment vour instinctual nature comes out I will not hesitate.”
