[rivierlied]

trouble is, it’s all back to front -

low activity riv.er song by seashell. sideblog, follows back from isbrilliant. same rules apply. some canon divergence. best way to interact is through memes.

[rivierlied]

do you think the universe has plans for us? / clara

"yes. no." what is she if not a riddle wrapped in another riddle? does the world have plans for her? maybe. "clara, my future has always been the past of the lives of the people i love. i don't know if that's the universe planning something, but i wouldn't change it."

she can't. to change it would mean rewriting everything, and despite the pain, she doesn't want that.

"do you have a simpler question?"

[ngatwa]

It really feels like we've joined forces, and together we are a force of nature. Pond girls.

[soulprompts]

the happiest of holidays !! (a list of wintry prompts!)

as requested by a lovely follower, here's a list of prompts set around this time of year! i'll probably add to them as time passes, but i hope you enjoy them, and i hope you all have a peaceful and restful december and a fruitful new year! much love to all! as always, DO NOT ADD TO THIS LIST! bon appetit!

[ SKATE ]: the sender invites the receiver to go ice-skating with them.

[ COOKIES ]: the sender and the receiver spend the night in the kitchen decorating cookies together.

[ LAST-MINUTE ]: the sender and receiver head out together to try and find some gifts for their family and friends.

[ FROZEN ]: sender and receiver wrap up warm and head out into a fresh blanket of snow to make a snowman together.

[ CHOCOLATE ]: the sender and receiver set up a fully decked-out hot chocolate bar and get to work making the perfect hot cocoa.

[ COLD ]: while walking with the receiver, the sender secretly makes a snowball and throws it at them, initiating a full-on snowball fight.

[ TOGETHER ]: the sender attends a highly popular winter party with the receiver.

[ ROAD ]: the sender and receiver end up driving home together for the holidays on a lengthy road trip.

[ LIGHT ]: the sender and/or the receiver light the menorah together.

[ BALL ]: the sender and the receiver attend a highly prestigious winter gala together.

[ STUCK ]: the sender and receiver are snowed in together at the same building, and must spend the evening together until they can find a way out.

[ EXCHANGE ]: the sender meets up with the receiver in order to exchange gifts with one another.

[ ESCAPE ]: as a surprise to the overworked receiver, the sender treats them to a weekend away after renting a winter cabin.

[ KITCHEN ]: the sender and receiver work together to make a huge holiday meal in the kitchen, to varying degrees of success.

[ CRAFTY ]: the sender and receiver spend an evening together designing and creating winter decorations.

[ SPIN ]: the sender and the receiver engage in a game of spinning the dreidel together.

[ CHOICE ]: the sender and receiver embark on a mission: getting the perfect christmas tree.

[ COZY ]: the sender and receiver enjoy a cozy evening in front of a fire, watching a movie together.

[ COVER ]: the sender attends a family event with the receiver, but there's a twist: they're pretending to be the receiver's partner.

[ FRIGHTFUL ]: the sender and receiver attempt to decorate the exterior of the sender/receiver's home together.

[ DELIGHTFUL ]: the sender and receiver work together to decorate the interior of the sender/receiver's home.

[ SMOOCH ]: the sender and receiver end up under the mistletoe together during an evening of celebrations.

[ SWEET ]: the sender and receiver enjoy an evening of baking treats together, again, to varying degrees of success.

[ SPARK? ]: the receiver walks into the living room to find the sender trying to light a fire and struggling with the process.

[ SLOPES ]: the sender and receiver enjoy a day of hitting the slopes and skiing together.

[ CHEESE! ]: the sender and receiver try to orchestrate the perfect, most stress-free photography session for the festive photo.

[ CUTE? ]: the sender and receiver participate in the ancient tradition of wearing ugly/itchy sweaters during the holiday period.

[rivierlied]

"i do love a blizzard on a christmas," she says, eyes fixed on the scene outside the window. especially when it's real snow. not created by some clever trick of men, either. a real blizzard, with real snow. "shame that it drives down business." @espercr / holiday starter call

[rivierlied]

"don't tell the old man you travel with, he'll be ever so cross that i've stolen you for a holiday." she knows how much the doctor likes christmas, but well - he can't be there for every one of hers. that's not the way the world works, especially not when you've had about one hundred and fifty of them. holidays, that is. christmases in particular. minus a few she thinks it's possible the silence stole from her.

but with the help of a vortex manipulator and some well thought out timing, she can have christmas adventures of her own. no time machine help needed. yet. @ravenbraved / holiday starter call

[rivierlied]

"tiny noble. catch." there is something flying through the air at the teenage girl. it's a little wrapped box. "i'd say don't tell your mother, but personally, i'm not a fan of secrets between mothers and daughters, and when she finds out she'll throw me off a cliff regardless." @notthatrose / holiday starters

[rivierlied]

holiday starter call.

[rivierlied]

HOW ARE YOU COLOUR CODED?

PINK CODED

pink, the color of femininity, believing in yourself, and embracing the side of you that you used to reject. you aren't someone who likes to hide, but you do all the time. you don't like yourself nearly as much as you may present, one way or another. you think of yourself as a hollow castaway of someone's little matryoshka doll, or worse, something broken and thrown away. you want to believe that there's more to life, to you, than this broken frame of something you have long forgotten the name of... but what are you supposed to do, after all this time?

tagged by: stole it from myself tagging: you

[rivierlied]

❛ i don't wear old man clothes. you don't like the way i dress? ❜ ( from 20th doctor? )

"the clothes you wear are fine," she says, with a little shrug, an eyebrow raised. "they're also old man clothes. if you go into a thrift shop, on any universe, on any planet, you will find these clothes there as old man clothes, and they've probably been donated by an old man."

[rivierlied]

❛ how did you get this scar? ❜ ( from amy )

she looks down, sees the scar just above her collarbone that amy is mentioning. she has plenty of scars, of course. it is unavoidable, with the way she was raised, and with the life she leads now.

sometimes it bothers her, that she doesn't have the scars from her childhood. they are gone, vanished, erased and wiped away where the memories are not.

so much of her life has been taken. her skin should have been her own.

and it wasn't, of course it wasn't. not a thing has ever been. certainly not her own body, her own mind.

"some things are gone," she says, after a moments pause. "in here," a tap of her finger to her temple. "the silence. if they were with me as much as i think they were," and she thinks it was often, and she can't explain it, doesn't have the marks or the recordings anymore, "there are some days, leading up to his death, that i lost time from."

she lost days, occasionally.

"i think it was sometime when i was studying. sometime after i was dropped off with the sisters." she offers her mother a smile here. "it was nothing. i mean, literally, amy, it was nothing - i don't remember it."

[mcflymemes]

ASPIRATIONAL "I WANT" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for yearning, hoping, and dreaming, adjust as necessary

i want more than this.

i shouldn't be ashamed of wanting more for myself.

you don't understand. this is what i've wanted all along.

have you ever dreamed of more than this?

what is it you want?

your passion is inspiring.

what if you can't get what you want all the time?

i want to be more than what i am.

i want to be free.

i'm proud to say i've finally achieved my dreams.

don't you want me to be happy?

"want" and "need are two very different things.

i was hoping there'd be more than this.

this isn't what i wanted for my life.

could you ever want me?

this is the life i've been fighting to have for all these years.

if this is what you want, go and fight for it.

what do you yearn for?

i feel so burdened by the life i have.

i wanted to make a life for myself.

i've wanted you since the day i met you.

is this what you want?

i want for nothing.

what do you want from me?

i can't help you achieve your dreams. you need to do that by yourself.

this is never what i envisioned my life would look like.

you can't want what you don't have.

tell me you've dreamed of bigger things than this.

that's not what i wanted at all.

i never said i wanted to be with you.

your dreams are within reach.

i can't just sit here and wait for my life to change.

there's so much i want to see, so much i want to do.

did you mean it when you said you wanted me?

i dream of a better life for my family and i.

whatever you do, don't give up on your dreams.

hopefully there's something waiting for us.

do you think the universe has plans for us?

do you want to see what i can do?

i was never allowed to ask for things.

wait, stop. is that what you really want?

i'm not asking for their opinion. i'm asking for yours. what do you want?

how long have you been dreaming of a day like this?

do you dream of me?

i can be better than this.

do you want me to come with you?

if you want it, just say the word. it's yours.

you've never asked for anything in your life.

you never told me what it is you wanted.

there's got to be more out there for me than this.

i want adventure. i want passion. i want excitement.

you can't possibly want that.

i've been dreaming about it my whole life.

i'm sick and tired of living a life for someone else.

it's time i live my life for me.

do you ever get what you ask for?

where do you hope to be in ten years?

there's something more for me out there. i can feel it.

[b4didea]

a relieved breath escapes , the best bit of a comforting smile that she can manage towards @rivierlied. she deserved better than this. they all did. why did it have to be this way? so confusing. conflicting.

brows furrow as the smile slowly falters , ❛ it's not every day a daughter gets to see her mother in her wedding dress , eh? ❜ questions asked , hues blurring over with tears before her smile returns.

❛ too bad such a beautiful day was ruined by his rubbish moves. ❜ she states , a giggle from deep within her chest. ❛ -should've known he'd overshadow everything. even on my wedding day. i never let him forget it. ❜ it's said , a moment of silence passing. the door was still open , a cold chill sent up her spine to knock her out of the brief trance she'd fell into.

another breath is exhaled before forcing the door shut & in the same swift movement , pulling her daughter into a hug. ❛ i'm so proud of you , you know that- . . . don't you? ❜

[rivierlied]

"no, it's not. but you looked beautiful."

river was married. her mother and father were there. it wasn't like any wedding story she grew up watching, nothing like the christmas movies she would wait for every year, or the reality television that seemed so far from any reality river had ever been a part of. it had been like something from a different world. wedding dresses. bouquets. a walk down the aisle.

something old, something new -

"he gets better. a little bit."

it's a spoiler, but not too big of one, considering he doesn't get much better. she watches amy close the door, and nearly jolts. it's not every day she gets hugged by her mother, either - but it should be. for other people, it gets to be.

it's possible she will live the entirety of her life filled with jealousy.

it takes half a second for her arms to come up around her mother in return, and then her face is pressed into her shoulder.

"i do." her voice is muffled. a little strained. she knows it, of course she does. that doesn't make it any easier. so many times now, when she sees her out with the doctor, it's like river is the mother.

she doesn't mind. how could she? neither of them have ever had a choice.

"i could stay for a bit. if you and dad don't mind."

[munchmemes]

new girl quotes but it's just nick ( part one )

❛  do you have any pets?  ❜

❛  wait, did you just make up a theme song for yourself?  ❜

❛  i don't think you know what motorboating is.  ❜

❛  why are you friends with those guys?  ❜

❛  you're not ready to let them go. i think you know deep down, once you get your stuff back, you know, it's over over. ❜

❛  oh, hey, you guys wanna see a grown man cry? no? then get out!  ❜

❛  the fact is that i was a mean person and i'm sorry, okay?  ❜

❛  oh, hey [NAME], i live in the photo booth now.  ❜

❛  i just got off three back-to-back shifts. i just wanna sit here all weekend in silence, playing this game, then i wanna go in my room and do weird stuff on my computer. ❜

❛  this is the opposite of being alone. this is the opposite of what i wanted this weekend.  ❜

❛  no, i don't dance. i'm from the town in Footloose.  ❜

❛  i don't need you to ... i don't know, take care of me. just stop being so nice.  ❜

❛  did you just call me 'bro'?  ❜

❛  i'm saying stop trying to take care of everyone.  ❜

❛  i don't wear old man clothes. you don't like the way i dress?  ❜

❛  that's a great plan, [NAME]. be the one that replaces their dead nana.  ❜

❛  i'm surprised you haven't made a game of it.  ❜

❛  and with that statement, you never had sex again.  ❜

❛  my nanny is dead! i'm not looking to make money off of her!  ❜

❛  ugh, would you listen to yourself?  ❜

❛  you know what sucks about getting older? your friends have known you for way too long. they've got too much on you. i want friends who still lie to me 'cause they don't want to hurt my feelings. ❜

❛  i don't need to seem any less cool than i already do.  ❜

❛  please! this is my nightmare!  ❜

❛  hey, [NAME], how you doing? i can't talk right now. i'm in a real weird situation.  ❜

❛  last month i went to a party called 'Bros before Hos on the moon'. what does that even mean? the dress code was yacht flair. ❜

❛  before you, there was like nothing. i've got, like, no one on the horizon. in a hot way.  ❜

❛  you're not my friend right now. you're my enemy, [NAME]. my enemy.  ❜

❛  you don't have to say that. they're my friends, you can tease them. i tease them all the time.  ❜

❛  somehow, [NAME], you've outdone yourself this time.  ❜

❛  this is not gonna be attractive.  ❜

❛  when i work out, which isn't often, i listen to Huey Lewis because it pumps me up. not ironically. ❜

❛  i don't believe dinosaurs existed. i've seen the science. i don't believe it.  ❜

❛  i don't think you have stuff. you're just perfect.  ❜

❛  what, are you like The Bourne Identity person?  ❜

❛  i hate that i'm so turned on by your craziness but i'm ... i'm going with it.  ❜

❛  i'm not good at being in a relationship. i'm good at being that person that you find yourself spending more and more time with until you meet the one.  ❜

❛  no, no. i'm seeing other people too. i'm having sex all the time. i'm like a mailman. except instead of mail, it's hot sex that i deliver. ❜

❛  no, i'm pretty sure it's a 'leatherman' jacket. the leather sleeves the football guys wear?  ❜

❛  no, i don't wash the towel, the towel washes me. who washes a towel? what am i gonna do? wash the shower next? wash a bar of soap? you gotta think here! i get out of the damn shower, i'm clean as a damn baby and i use the towel. ❜

❛  you guys don't wear each other's underpants? you're lying. we all wear each other's underwear.  ❜

❛  he has a gun. he has a gun. stay down. do you still think he's a nice guy, [NAME]?  ❜

❛  i can't believe that worked. you out-crazied a man with a gun.  ❜

❛  a smile is a sign of weakness.  ❜

❛  that's it. people stink.  ❜

❛  i changed my mind. i'll be there. just watching you.  ❜

❛  oh, i'm okay. somebody needs to stay sober to fight them later.  ❜

❛  how have you lived this long on your own?  ❜

❛  we're about to have a ménage a trois 'cause you won't admit you're wrong.  ❜

❛  say that you're wrong and it's over. [NAME], you can't do this but i can.  ❜

❛  first of all, you're gonna need a map of Arizona. and a container that you're comfortable getting urine in.  ❜

❛  yeah, i'm gonna act like you didn't just say that, [NAME].  ❜

❛  you know what, [NAME]? i'm sorry, i'm just feeling very romantic and i have nowhere else to put it so happy Valentine's Day, good-looking.  ❜

❛  well, i got my heart broken and then everything got weird. i started playing guitar in an alt-country-ska band. gambling a lot. there was a really weird week where i wore a long blonde wig an i made everybody call me Sandy Ferguson. then i drove to Mexico and i tried to enter a cockfight. yes, [NAME], as a person. ❜

❛  [NAME], i am so sorry. i just told them a story about when i got arrested in Mexico.  ❜

❛  i wasn't gonna tell you until after you got knocked up and were stuck with me.  ❜

[b4didea]

❛ i didn’t know where else to go. ❜

❛ come in . . . ❜ it's said delicately & without hesitation , stepping out of the way to allow room for @rivierlied. an exhaled breath leaves part lips as hues , that try to mask the worry worn within them , scan for any sign of injury. you worry too much , pond. the doctor would say. she could hear it now & of course she'd have some sort of snarky response back at him , accompanied with an eye roll or glare.

❛ are you okay? ❜ she finally asks after realizing how she probably looked , how she was just standing there in silence , just staring. hand fidgeting with the knob , door still ajar.

❛ 's something wrong? ❜ the second question holds more weight , more worry , behind it. eyes flaring before body shifts restlessly. ❛ is it the doctor? is he okay? ❜

[rivierlied]

it's with a relieved breath that she steps inside.

there are times in her life she has to wonder.

she does a lot of that. wondering. has done all her life, for one reason or another. at one point she was trained to. at another she took it upon herself. diary entries, noticing details, the lines of someone's face and the minute shift of a brow. it's saved her, over and over.

and she analyzes now. wonders. knows she got the dates right and has a mother that knows her by the look in her eyes, at how long she stares at her. ( it is always easier to find a mother that knows her when she goes to her instead of out there in the wilds, and for that, at least, she's grateful. )

she doesn't have an answer for the question about herself. she rarely ever does, if she wants to be truthful.

"he's alright. he will be." amy will be, too. so will rory. because river is standing in front of her, and that is proof. "bit of a rough day, is all." aren't they all? she shrugs off her coat and hangs it, a little tentatively, on the coatrack. "resetting time is a nasty business. but you did look lovely on your wedding day. most girls don't get to crash their own parent's wedding, but i've always been a special case."

she's trying to be flippant about it - silly, even - but recently, whenever she sees the doctor, he knows her less and less. he doesn't know who she is anymore. it aches.

so does standing on the outside of her parents wedding.

the truth of it is that it wasn't that she didn't know where to go. there was no where else she wanted to go.

'he really is an awful dancer, isn't he?"

[fiftccnth]

river's  touch  reaffirmed  the  REALITY  of  her.  this  wasn't  some  dream,  hallucination  or  a  hologram.  that  soft  hand...  it  could  only  be  her. 

❛  you're  the  first  person  to  call  this  face  old.  "  he  joked,  a  slight  grin  forming  in  the  corner  of  his  mouth.  the  doctor  had  such  a  faint  memory  of  his  first  meeting  with  river,  that  same  way  she  looked  into  his  eyes,  with  completely  opposite  conclusions.  'this  is  the  youngest  i  have  ever  seen  you',  the  doctor  scoffed  at  her  at  the  time,  the  time  war  still  weighing  on  the  soul.  there  was  no  world  the  doctor  could've  ever  thought  he  was  (  young  ). but  river  was  right.  he  was  old  now.  the  years  were  impossible  to  count,  memories  once  so  impactful  were  now  fading  away.  seeing  river  again...  maybe  this  was  a  reminder  the  doctor  needed.

the  doctor  shook  his  head  at  the  question.  ❛  everyone  has  moved  on.  THINGS  GOT  CONFUSING.  ❜  he  recalled  back  to  his  previous  incarnation.  ❛  very  confusing  actually...  but  it's  just  me  and  the  tardis.  the  one  who  never  leaves  my  side.  ❜  the  smile  following  his  answer  was  pained,  a  yearning  for  another  friend  by  him  again.

[rivierlied]

"then i suppose i'm the first person to have even an ounce of sense around you." she hasn't let go of his face, because he's smiling, and it's such a kind look that her heart aches. she knows - despite the way that amy had screamed, despite having laid him to rest - that he is not gone.

there's proof here. there's proof everywhere. there are plenty of things river likes to not think about - how every time she sees him past his eleventh, she knows her parents must be gone. how she can't even ask.

but she can go home. there is a vortex manipulator in her bag, and she can go home. see her mother and father whenever she wants. the mother and father who know who she is.

it doesn't work like that with him - but he knows who she is now.

"that's never been good for you." it hasn't. being alone isn't good. not for anyone. certainly not for him, more so than most. "you need people. you always have. and you've always been good at finding them."

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐯𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  a  mix  of  angst,  fluff,  and  plot  focused  dialogue  prompts  in  the  form  of  questions.  feel  free  to  change  how  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ what are you listening to? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ how did you get this scar? ❜

❛ are you sure this is a good idea? ❜

❛ do you mind if i sleep here tonight? ❜

❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜

❛ are you wearing my shirt? ❜

❛ don’t you know what you mean to me? ❜

❛ will i see you again? ❜

❛ are you comfortable? ❜

❛ are you trying to get us in trouble? ❜

❛ do you enjoy playing with people’s hearts? ❜

❛ don’t we deserve to be happy? ❜

❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜

❛ are you here to kill me? ❜

❛ you think i’m jealous? ❜

❛ do you want to share this? ❜

❛ is that blood? is it yours? ❜

❛ how do you know my name? ❜

❛ you’re an asshole, you know that? ❜

❛ like what you see? ❜

❛ was that your first kiss? ❜

❛ are you happy here with me? ❜

❛ sorry, did you want to be alone? ❜

❛ do you want my jacket? ❜

❛ how are you still alive? ❜

❛ you’re beautiful, you know that? ❜

❛ what are you so afraid of? ❜

❛ today isn’t your day, is it? ❜

❛ how does it feel to be in love? ❜

❛ you’ve been crying, what’s wrong? ❜

❛ do you remember when we first met? ❜

❛ isn’t this amazing? ❜

❛ did you miss me? ❜

❛ alright, who am i beating up? ❜

❛ that was a close call, wasn’t it? ❜

❛ am i worth so little to you? ❜

❛ how is it you’re never scared? ❜

❛ do you ever think about the future? ❜

❛ can you look at me? please? ❜

❛ you got me flowers? ❜

❛ well, how do i look? ❜

❛ what aren’t you telling me? ❜

❛ how about a kiss before i go? ❜

❛ you don’t know who i am, do you? ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜

❛ who’s going to stop us, huh? ❜

❛ wait, you’re leaving already? ❜

❛ it’s my fault, isn’t it? ❜

❛ have you ever lost someone? ❜

❛ do you think i’m a good person? ❜

❛ what are you thinking about? ❜

❛ is it really you? ❜

❛ what if i hurt you? ❜

❛ if you won’t take care of yourself, then who will? ❜

❛ have you come to laugh at me? ❜

❛ will you still look at me like you do now? ❜