Hey! I'm open for a long-term roleplay partner. I recently switched to the Gachiakuta fandom and have been obsessed. I'm in between roleplays and honestly just crave writing and making aus with other similarly obsessed people again.
Im looking specifically to do Janka roleplays.
More info below line:
Hard 18+ only (with a preference for 21+). I'm 23.
I have limited triggers, mostly pertaining to main character deaths and very oddly specific kinks. Feel free to ask and we can discuss!
I like most aus except for modern. I have a couple ideas, tho I also like coming up with and working on them together!
Unless its a canon adjacent/ compliant au, I would prefer to age up characters.
I have the most experience writing Zanka and would probably do better with his characterization.
I am literate- advanced lit. (Though will occasionally write less if given little to work with/ if irl is being weird).
I really like long, detailed plots! I enjoy lots of character exploration. I typically write slow-burns with heavy angst.
Examples of some of my writing:
Fic I wrote. Hadestown au, Zanka-centric
Snippet of WIP I'm working on, Jabber-centric:
The endless alley ways and shaded overhangs provided little reprieve from the torturous temperatures. Jabber was sure the blood loss wasn’t helping. Not that he wasn’t used to the feeling, he’d been at death's door plenty of times, it was practically a past time for him, evading death.
Between the poisons he consistently tested on himself or the missions that ended in bloody brawls, Jabber was no stranger to pain.
This felt different though. It wasn’t quite a physical pain, despite his injuries. It was something that was settling in deeper, nestling itself beneath his ribs and making it hard to power on. He’d felt it before, the same hollowing ache that had consumed him years prior when he hadn’t had a purpose in life. Jabber supposed he didn’t really have a purpose now either.
His foot gave out and Jabber stumbled forward, hands coming up to brace himself against a brick wall. He should have let himself fall into it. He already had a broken nose, but the pain might have felt better. Might have given him a little bit of euphoria in the pit of despair he was floating through.
There was a trail of blood behind him.
Standing still, Jabber could hear the droplets platter against the dirt below. He looked down, crimson splattering against tanned soil. It was pretty. He wished he was bleeding more, but his body was already struggling with how much it had already lost.
He wondered, vaguely, in the back of his mind, if he’d been followed. He’d made it obvious where he’d limped off to, with the blood trail and all. But even as Jabber leaned against the wall for longer, as the seconds turned to minutes, nobody came.
Were they leaving him for dead? Just as they had done to Fu?
His teeth creaked as he clamped them shut, struggling to swallow past the swell of emotion in his throat. Usually Cthoni was always there to help patch him up. She’d always had a stoic care about her, it almost felt sisterly, maybe, if he looked at it through the right lens.
But this was different. Orders were orders and Zodyl’s word trumped whatever miniscule bond the two had formed.
Why did you delete your bitter medicine fic? It was so good
Im sorry, there were a couple factors that leas to that decision.. it just felt a little extreme for my main account and I regretted not initially posting it over on spicy.
Then on top of that, I have shifted fandoms and realized I likely wasnt going to commit properly to finish it. I still love the au. Maybe I'll revisit it.. but I took it down until then.
I do have the PDF still if you'd like to still read it. And a good portion of the next chapter was already written out.
I also just felt it wasn't anything many people were particularly invested in, Im sorry 😔💔
Does this mean your other fics like pretty little things will be incomplete? No pressure, ofc, I'm only wondering since I loved both of them!
Pretty Little Things is a gift for Loyal so I will absolutely finish it. Just perhaps slower updates... I want to try and get chapter two out by their birthday ;-;
Ain't No Love in Oklahoma was discontinued in favor of pursuing the story with ocs.
Bitter Medicine is still a story I adore but I didn't know if it was something I'd continue after the new hyper-fixation came in. I am considering altering it to suit janka.
I also have several janka aus already and have started on a recovery/ Jabber becomes a cleaner fic that Im hoping to start posting soon..
for context this was an earlier stage of the artwork, I had no idea what I was doing and just didn't know what direction I wanted to go in. I just spent weeks just overworking and then fixing the bottom part until I finally gave up, although I can spot some mistakes of it now.
Anyway it's 3am and I should probably sleep but I was reading @robinthinkstoomuch fic "White noise" (user is robinthinkstooloudly on ao3) I'm too energetic from the fact that I kept having to put down the phone and pull my hair at how much I loved it and how there's this sense of uneasiness even as Dream and Punz grow closer.
