that's a lie, all the revenge, you better pray we never speak again because the shit I want to say to you.
yeah because of you I grew and I matured, and I can see the bullshit people are pulling. plus now that I'm in contact with bug again we're so much better than we were before, but that doesn't remove what you did
you lying, cheating, abusive piece of shit. you deserve hell for what you put me through.
went behind my back to talk to your ex who fucking abused you mentally and physically, then got mad when I was scared. not only that but we went on break because of it, and during that you fucked him!!! you had sex with him!!! while we were still together!!!
and you didn't tell me until a month later, a month of leading me on, telling me we would get back together, and that you just needed space. then you told me how you fucked him after I professed my love to you, telling you I didn't care what challenges we would facw, and that I loved you so much and I wanted to work through everything with you. and you had to drop that on me, after a month of it, after I poured my heart out to you.
you demonized bug, you made him seem like a horrible evil abusive piece of shit when in reality that was you. you were projecting onto the person I loved most.
you manipulated and gaslit me, you made me feel controlling, and crazy you convinced me I was in the wrong when I told you countless times I was uncomfortable with you speaking to your ex. I was scared he'd hurt you like he did before, I cried and begged you not to do this because I was terrified something would happen. and it did. you knew what you were doing
and to top it off you contacted me months later, found me in a server and gave me some half assed apology. you don't even realize what you did, and you're so lucky I'm not as shitty as you, you are so lucky I held myself back. I could have been meaner. but honestly, the biggest part why I did is because I knew you'd twist and turn me into the bad guy just like you did when we were together.
do your friends know what you did? do they know the truth? does your partner know? yeah don't act like I didn't see that date in your bio when you contacted me. but knowing you, you're probably not with them anymore.
I should have believed you when you said you weren't a good person, you told me, you warned me, you really are evil. you really are the scum of the earth. not even Satan himself would want you in hell. and not because you're so horrible, but because you're just not worth the energy. you deserve to be sent into an echo chamber and the only thing you hear are the cries of eveyrone you have hurt, you deserve to hear my sobbing, my begging, my pleading, the times I blamed myself because you convinced me I was wrong.
you genuinely fucked me up so bad, I can barely trust people now, you ripped me away from everyone and then drained me of my life. I felt so empty for months after you, I felt so alone and isolated because you made me drop all my friends, convincing me that they were bad for me. and I was so fucking weak, and you saw that.
"wow I'm just like lunar" yeah you are, and it makes me so happy you see yourself in your abuser. it makes me so fucking happy you saw, even for just a second, how truly shitty you are. you aren't someone who can grow, or change, I know that, I can see it.
I wish I was as low and shitty as you, I'd name drop you, but I won't, because unlike you I can contain myself
maybe you should do that, and maybe you should close your fucking legs.
"slut" and "whore" can't define you, because sluts are fun and whores get paid. you just break everyone around you.
if you somehow see this, or you recognize this, just know I don't forgive you, I never did and when I said I forgave you? that was bullshit, and you can't get mad at me for lying because well, look in a mirror. I only said that because I was hoping it'd help me let go, but "sorry" doesn't fix abuse now does it
this is going to sound really insensitive, I don't care, I already know I'm a shitty person
long ass rant / ramble because I'm irritated
but those "safe space" discord servers are fucking stupid and I actually hate them.
everyone is a sensitive cry baby bitch who's triggered by everything ever so there needs to be a black list with every slightly discomforting topic / media that exists
people have gotten so used to comfort that being slightly uncomfortable sends them into a fucking spiral, please for the love of god get used to being uncomfortable
and no I'm not talking about the people who don't wanna hear about sa or sh because those are reasonable things to not wanna hear about, or the servers that don't want political discussions, all reasonable
no, I'm talking about Billy Bob Joe who screams cries and throws up because you mentioned some media. like if it is in DMs or a personal friend server, yeah I understand avoiding certain topics/medias. but in a big community social server, I think it's the stupidest shit ever. if you ban everything because it makes someone slightly uncomfortable then what the fuck are you going to talk about!!!
stop forcing people to conform to your comforts, learn how to be uncomfortable. please learn how to regulate and handle your own emotions, people are not responsible for your discomforts and triggers.
syscord / safe space servers have been coddling everyone and they don't let anyone be uncomfortable ever and if someone does get uncomfortable it turns into a big thing and then there's tickets and blacklists and it drives me fucking insane
have you never been uncomfortable in your life??? can you just not handle it at all? how the fuck are you supposed to deal with the real world?
I feel so shitty thinking this way because I understand that people are traumatized and this is the one part about their lives they can control, and obviously I'll follow the boundaries they set in place, but I find it so stupid sometimes
second post soon because I'm mad about other shit but idk how to include it here
I keep remembering things I've trusted people with, things I am so ashamed about myself I want to kms over it. I got shamed in a server for these things, people I trusted with the most disgusting parts of myself told an entire server
it's not my fault I'm like this, it's not my fault I think those things, I don't want to, it's not like I asked for it
I'm genuinely just going to kill myself. I would have said why I was upset eventually but no I had to be fucking pressured into it.
you've seen people do that to me before, you've seen people use things I have trusted them with against me before. I don't understand why you would do that.
can't even talk my shit because then it's "baiting"
yeah well here's your bait!! because I know damn well you'll send people after me!!! just like people have done to me before
I love when people prove me right!
"just communicate" yeah because that's worked so well for me, actually, for us, so well in the past!!! hasn't it!!!
couldn't just fucking say sorry, no you had to go and throw my mistakes in my face. you had to go dig through my posts and get mad at me, instead of just listening to what I have to say. you cared more about the fact that I said something about you on my blog, than what I was upset and hurt over.
"you're directing your posts at me!!" yeah ykw I am, I am now, here are multiple posts just for you!!! just about you!!! all yours!!! isn't that great aren't you so happy I'm giving you what you want? oh my god more things you can use against me!!! more things you can point out instead of listening to why I'm upset!!!!
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