My Star Romance @rubbish78 - Tumblr Blog

my blogs

@rubbish78 - Main Blog (obsessions vary with mood)

@medievalfashion78 - Medieval/Fantasy sideblog

@girlygoth78 - all other fashion can vary from the HELLA girly to HARDCORE goth i have conflicting aesthetics

@mcflythrills78 - McFly sideblog

@doyelcosplay - my IG if you like cosplay and personal posts from MEEeeeee

#if you wanna follow #i just kept the 78 for consistency #it means nothing

witchrealms

(x)

I hate these random mood swings I have

Sad to super sad

I feel too dejected to continue writing/updating my fanfics tbh

CHAPPELL ROAN Photographed by Inez & Vinoodh for Viva Glam

#chappell roan

dindjarism

Naboo (Chommell sector of the Mid Rim; Trailing Sectors) STAR WARS: EPISODE I – THE PHANTOM MENACE 1999 | dir. George Lucas

#naboo

solriart

you’re perfect, my wolfkiller

wheww it’s been a while since i drew anything for iwtv/tvl! i’ve wanted to illustrate lestat’s wolf hunt scene from the book for ages now, but i knew it’d be really difficult so i put it off. honestly i’m still not at the skill level required to execute it the way i see it in my head…but i tried my best! :))

#lestat de lioncourt #interview with the vampire #the vampire lestat

nomeusstuff

going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi

it really is crazy that women's clothes don't fit anybody. fat women can't find clothes, skinny women can't find clothes, tall women can't find clothes, short women can't find clothes, big chested women can't find clothes, small chested women can't find clothes. who the fuck are these being made for

going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi

we all really resonated with this one huh

cattraine

As near as I can tell they’re all just designed to hang on hangers.

fleebites

junicorn

day 06

‘tattoonicorn’

fleebites

prints are in my shop!

two sizes available

l1nk 1n b1o

#art

overthinkingao3

We write for ourselves, but we post for others.

(this came out of a conversation in the comments on a previous post about an author threatening to stop updating a fic because of lack of engagement)

So there’s this idea that fic writers should write for themselves and not care too much about stats or engagement,

and i totally get the sentiment behind that. if writing becomes entirely about stats and external validation, something important does get lost - creative freedom and joy, conviction in your own writing

but i also think:

“i write for myself, but i post for others.”

because posting fic is not only self-expression. it’s social. ao3 is called an archive, but emotionally it often functions as a community space.

people post for connection, for participation, for others to bear witness to their pain and trauma and grief,

and i don’t think most people are asking to be admired so much as acknowledged. there’s something deeply human about wanting another person to encounter something that mattered to you and go:

“ok, yeah, I see what you were trying to say. I see you.”

especially because fanfic is often people processing very real feelings through fictional characters at a safe distance, one step removed,

and then uploading that deeply personal thing into a shared archive and hoping somebody else might connect with it.

And i think that’s why it hurts so much when you summon up the courage and post a fic into the void and you get nothing back,

and then it’s like,

does anyone see me? does anyone even care?