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why didn’t you make me good enough, so that you could have loved me?

1. Rien ne va plus, Margarita Karapanou  2. Matthew 27:46, The Bible  3. Saw (2004) dir. James Wan  4. The Diary of Franz Kafka  5. unknown  6. I Guess the Old You is a Ghost, 2014  7. The next time we talk on facebook, Clementine Von Radics  8. From the Hours, Michael Cunningham  9. & 13.Bungou Stray Dogs  10. Sometimes I still feel the bruise by Trembling Blue Stars  11. Wishbone, Richard Siken  12. Aishite Aishite Aishite by Will Steston and ReeK  14. Caitlin Conlon  15. DNA by Lia Marie Johnson  16. Olivia Laing  17. The End of the Fucking World

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From Dazai's POV : On Death & Ideation

1. Richard Siken 2. Neon Genesis Evangelion 3. An interview with Hanya Yanagihara by Adalena Kavanagh 4. fake your death, My Chemical Romance 5. Waiting by Marya Hornbacher 6. girl is asked about herself for the first time by spencer wollan 7. ICU, Phoebe Bridgers 8. SUN GOES DOWN, Lil Nas X 9. Narcissus by Julia Bezshtanko (2020) 10, 12 & 16. Unknown 11, 15& 19. Bungou Stray Dogs 13. Death Watch dir. Bertrand Tavernier (1980) 14. No Longer Human, Dazai Osamu 17. BLUE by Miriam Cahn (2017) 18. Richard Siken 20. Clarice Lispector 21. Serial Experiments Lain

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Is anybody listening?

1. Radio Silence, Alice Oseman 2. No reply at all, Genesis 3. The last scene in the movie by Eleanor Hsieh 4. meme template 5. While listening to rock & roll, The Maine 6. tilthat on tumblr 7. Rick and Morty 8. Holly Warburton 9. Honey girl, Morgan Rogers

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please don't leave me here

1. Star wars: episode 3, Revenge of the sith 2. Frozen 2 3. Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood 4. Critical role 5. Morning, Frank O Hara 6. the two towers, J.R.R Tolkein 7. Francis Forever, Mitski 8. Find my way back, Eric Arjes

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Best of Electra by Sophocles (translated by Anne Carson)

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Belladonna of Sadness (1973) dir. Eiichi Yamamoto | Movie Posters

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Who the hell am I ?

1. Drag me, Tiny Little Houses  2. & 11. intro: persona, BTS  3. lost in time and space, Lord Huron  4. Body of Land, Alexandra Levasseur  5. alejandra pizarnik  6. jorge luis borges  7. pinterest  8. two evils, Bastille  9. The book of disquiet, Fernando Pessoa  10. fear and loathing, MARINA  12. Essam Maroif  13. Angel Ploetner  14. A breath of life, Clarice Lispector  15. my soul was being destroyed, Naomi Watts  16. valley of the dolls, MARINA  17. Mirror, Ider  18. Paprika (2006) dir. Satoshi Kon  19. Claude Cahun  20. Feminine stereotypes by Romina Bassu  21. Andrés Cerpa  22. Idol, BTS  23. Perfect Blue (1997) dir. Satoshi Kon

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All the things I did just so I could call you mine

1. corpus christi 2. i killed my mother (2009) dir. xavier dolan 3. The Vampire Diaries S5E16 4. Sea of love by the national 5. A primer for the small weird loves, Richard Siken 6. unknown 7. Fear of the water by SYML 8. The last days of Judas Iscariot 9. Succession S2E10 10. Cruel Summer by taylor swift 11. Jesus Christ Superstar 12. Wishbone, Richard Siken

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digital immortality | virtual e-morality

1. blueskies-bluescreens on tumblr 2. death, virtual grief and your digital footprint 3. online status of a steam community user 4. my journal dot com 5. & 7. hacked-wtsdz on tumblr 6. STurner4077 on twitter 8. the new forms of mourning by julie alev dilmaç 9. all the ghosts in the machine: illusions of immortality in the digital age 10. unknown 11. fairycosmos on tumblr 12. researching death online

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this is the true essence of parallelism

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On sickness and self-suffering

1. Guilty, Georges Bataille  2. The unabridged journals of Sylvia Plath  3. quote from an article about Munchausen Syndrome  4. Orson Scott Card  5. Supernatural S7E1 and Sharp Objects 6. Henry and June, Anaïs Nin  7. The Garden of Eden, Ernest Hemingway  8. Juansen Dizon  9. Heather Havrilesky  10. Ana Teresa Barboza  11. Electra, Sophocles  12. The Caged Owl, Gregory Orr  13. Wolf Hall by Hilary Mantel  14. Geloy Concepcion  15. The princess diarist, Carrie Fisher  16. Chelsea Hodson, from Tonight I'm Someone Else: Essays; The End of Longing  17. The Dream of a Ridiculous Man, Fyodor Dostoevsky 

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Please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh i could recognize anywhere

1. Spring Day by BTS 2. Motion Sickness by Phoebe Bridgers 3. Game shows touch our lives by The Mountain Goats 4. Sue Zhao 5. Fated by Ariana Reines 6. Doctor who, quote by Steven Moffat 7. Spirit Hold, part two by Holly Warburton 8. Spiritual Underpinning by Dean Gioia 9. Black Sheep by Karen Finley 10. & 21. Dear My Friend by Agust-D 11. I still forget we're not even friends by Trista Mateer 12. The Ghost of Us by KiravieshiaArt 13. The truth has three sides by Sabrina Benaim 14. One last poem for Richard by Sandra Cisneros 15. Letters from Medea by Salma Deera 16. How do you sleep? by LCD soundsystem 17. People you know by Selena Gomez 18. 5oil on tumblr 19. Dearly Departed by BROCKHAMPTON 20. Jujutsu Kaisen 22. Chapter 10, Bungou Stray Dogs 23. beetlejuices on tumblr 24. Caleb Carr 25. The Final Empire, Brandon Sanderson 26. How I Survived Bobby Mackey's Personal Hell by Lincoln

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I am inside you - I am you, and you are me

1. Stay alive, Jung kook 2. Intro: Serendipity, BTS 3. Illustration by Daniel Horowitz 4. My Universe, Coldplay X BTS 5. I am you You are me, ZICO 6. With you, Jimin and Ha Sung Woon 7. Metamorphosis by Titian (2012) 8. Maria Amaral (1950) 9. To the desert, Benjamin Alire Sáenz 10. Self-recognition through the other 11. A self portrait in letters by Anne Saxton 12. The Castle by Franz Kafka 13. Belle Fiamme by Denholm Berry 14. ratsandlilies.art (Ilaria Ratti) on Instagram 15. I am You, You are my by 6 Day Riot.

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mother, mother

1. & 3. unknown 2. succession S3E8 4. writer in the dark, lorde 5. 'to the detriment of daughters' kelsey lansgaard 6. susan sontag 7. joan tierney 8. sharp objects (dir. jean-marc vallée) 9. 'sylvia plath taught me how to disappear' hannah green 10. 'please look after mom' kyung sook shin 11. 'mother and daughter' bobbie russon 12. geloy concepcion 13. mother's daughter, miley cyrus 14. cristin gomez 15. sharp objects 16. 'poplar street' chen chen 17. a letter to my younger self, ambar lucid 18. all hail me, veruca salt 19. 'turtles all the way down' john green 20. dorie van stone 21. my mother wants me dead, carolesdaughter 22. hel717 23. sharp objects, gillian flynn