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we've got it all in our hands now / so can you handle what we're all about? / we're so tough, not scared to show you up / can you feel the rush now?rp blog for bobo of rivalzhq

[rvbobo]

boyoung swallowed hard to get past the lump that was steadily forming in her throat. it wasn’t often that she got like this -- sad, disappointed in herself, embarrassed -- but there was one thing that always managed to pull her out of it: her girls. brushing her hair out of her face, she pulled herself out of bed and trudged the short distance to the living room in search of her members. “can we go out tonight? i need a drink.” after a moment’s pause: “or four.” || @rvsunny​ @rvsookie​ @rvdoah​ @rvevie​ @rvvia​

[leenagyung]

yes you!!

[rvdoah]

“Leather pants may make my ass look great, but that doesn’t mean they’re as comfortable as everyone says they are.“ She hums, manicured nails running through brown tinted locks, “I’m going to have to talk to Bobo about this because i feel like I need to waddle around the damn building so my thighs don’t sound like spongebob’s new shoes in that one episode.”

[rvbobo]

at the sound of her name, boyoung looked over at doah, jaw gradually dropping as she heard what was said about her stylistic choices. without a second thought, she came up behind doah, settling with her arms crossed over her chest. “excuse you, are you bad-mouthing my outfit? do i need to start sketching patterns for, say, pea green bootcut overalls?"

[rvbobo]

rvevie·:

swallowing her deep rooted need to sigh, her eye twitched ever so slightly. “do you know how much i love you? i love you so much, boyoung. you beautiful, talented, adept, wonderful woman.” xinyi’s tone was pinched, even though her words were completely true. she’d never been good at getting mad at her friends. “because i do. i love you. so much i could just smother you in your sleep sometimes.”

boyoung finally laughed then, finishing the line of stitches and setting her fabric on the table next to her. “xinyi,” she began, a hand over her heart. “i absolutely adore you, too. my ride or die, number one bitch.” getting up, she crossed the room and placed herself in xinyi’s lap rather obnoxiously and clumsily. “it would be a privilege to be murdered by you.”

[rvbobo]

rvsolhee·:

“is it really hyperbole? i have a phone, boyoung. as much as people tell me not to, i keep an eye on dispatch,” solhee countered. “the reason you got cut is stupid, but you’re not the only person who got cut for that reason. and it’s not my fault that you did. so be bitter all you want, but stop treating me like i personally ruined your life. because, clearly, i didn’t– and even if i had had a personal hand in you not being in iris, by your own words, you’re fine without it and happy where you are. it’s been five years. get over it.”

“how many comebacks have you had in the last five years, solhee?” she continued without waiting for an answer. “and how many times have i rolled my eyes? once. and the camera just happened to catch it. but that’s not even the fucking point.” she stepped closer to solhee and lowered her voice. “contrary to what you’ve somehow managed to make yourself believe, i don’t blame you for what happened. i knew dating was against the contract and i chose to be with you anyway. what upsets me --” she struggled, swallowing hard before continuing. “what upsets me is that i got cut and it’s like you fucking disappeared. not even a text or a goodbye. tell me, did you block my number right away or did you actually read my messages and choose to ignore them?” she held up a hand. “don’t answer that.”

[rvevie]

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@rvsookie @srvnyi @rvbobo @rvdoah @rvvia

[rvbobo]

rvjulie·:

sunjoo frowned, a little embarrassed about snapping, as a hand went to play with her hair. she was too proud to apologize, but boyoung probably knew that it had just been a knee-jerk reaction, right? “no, but i’ve been spending lots of time outside since the weather started getting warmer. i think maybe the sun is making it lighter.”

boyoung grinned, reaching forward and toying with the ends of sunjoo’s hair for just a moment. she’d never been very good at recognizing whether or not people were okay with her touching them, but she figured sunjoo would let her know either way. “have you ever thought about going orange? kind of like sangsuk’s during our promotions for lion.” 

[rvbobo]

rvsolhee·:

“don’t patronize me,” solhee answered with a tight frown. “i understand. but i also understand optics better than you do.” maybe now wasn’t the time and place to get into this, but if not now, when? she didn’t have the energy for a real fight, but boyoung needed to know how things came across. “sangsuk has issues with us, and she came for luri the other day, but she keeps it there. sunyi has issues with us, but every time i see her, she tries to be kind and encouraging. bia still treats us all like friends. you, on the other hand, are openly and publicly pitted against us. which is your prerogative, but if a dispatch article comes out about you being petty every time we put out a song, it’s going to call more attention to it. you’re the most brazenly and outspoken against us– people are going to think that you’re upset you got cut.” she raised her chin slightly. she knew why boyoung hated her. but honestly, it wasn’t her fault, and that was clearly something boyoung was never going to get over. “i understand. i don’t think you do.”

boyoung started shaking her head before solhee even finished making her point. she rolled her eyes, arms crossed over her chest in a defensive pose. the way solhee was talking to her made her feel like a small child, like she couldn’t be trusted to understand even the most basic concepts or the complexities of relationships. “try to rein in the hyperbole, solhee, it’s not cute on you.” she had no doubt in her mind solhee couldn’t give two shits less if boyoung still thought she was cute, but the dig helped her gain her footing a little more. “i was petty once. how many songs have you guys released without me making even a peep?” she quirked an eyebrow. “i honestly don’t care if all of korea thinks i’m bitter i got cut from iris. as long as they don’t know the real reason, right?”  it didn't matter to her if people knew she was queer anymore. after all, bia was the first openly bisexual idol and rejectz was still going strong.

[rvbobo]

rvevie·:

“boyoung. baby,” she emphasized, leaning in ever closer. there was no doubt whose doing it was. and, not that she’d ever admit it, xinyi did find it a little funny. just a little. “write them in your journal and burn them in the parking lot.” her voice dropped to an exaggerated whisper, “i almost sent out one that said ‘spotlight can suck our dicks’ this morning.”

boyoung’s hand didn’t falter for even a moment as she deftly worked on a line of backstitching for a custom piece, the corners of her mouth climbing as she fought to hold back her laughter. “it’s a really good thing everyone knows you handle our social media, then, huh?” she shot xinyi an innocent look. “otherwise, everyone would assume it was me and there’d be another dispatch article.” it was growing increasingly difficult for boyoung to avoid laughing.

[rvevie]

@rvbobo​

“boyoung. bobo. baby. darling. love.” xinyi sits down on the couch next to her, resting her chin on her friend’s shoulder. “can you please stop leaving nasty tweets in the drafts? i keep deleting them and they keep multiplying. please.”

[rvbobo]

boyoung didn’t immediately look up from the sewing project she was working on when she heard xinyi’s voice, but a grin did make its way to her lips. her eyebrows rose as she shrugged a shoulder -- not the one xinyi’s chin was on, of course -- and hummed. “i have no idea what you’re talking about, sweetie.” 

[rvbobo]

rvroxie·:

ripley’s brow furrowed. “what’s the catch? cuz i don’t have any money right now. it’s in a savings fund– i can’t pay you right now.”

boyoung rolled her eyes. “did i ask for money?” she waited a moment before answering her own question. “no, i didn’t. honestly, i’m bored. and i know my version will be ten times better than that shitty dollskill ‘fit they put you in.” she winced. “no offense.”

[rvjulie]

“yeah, i get it. my ears stick out,” sunjoo snapped before the other could say anything. maybe it was a bit premature, but she was used to people commenting. whenever she saw eyes go to that area, or people pointing it out, she got cross. “if i hear one more person compare me to dumbo, or a monkey, i’m going to drop kick them.”

[rvbobo]

“hey,” boyoung grumbled, a pout already forming on her face. “do you really think so little of me? i would never say something like that.” it had been a while since she’d last seen sunjoo. boyoung had rejectz and her stylist duties and sunjoo had trainee life; even with how much time boyoung spent with sunyi, their schedules didn’t often intersect. “i was looking at your hair. have you dyed it since i last saw you?” 

[srvnyi]

“so … hypothetically,” sunyi started, looking over at her other members with a little-too-wide of a smile on her face as if that wouldn’t raise any suspicion to the rabbit now sitting in its own cage in her room, “if i got a bunny and kept him in our dorm, that’d be okay right?”

@rvsookie​ @rvbobo​

[rvbobo]

boyoung didn’t want to step on sangsuk’s toes -- she was, after all, rejectz’s leader and probably got seniority when it came to making decisions such as these -- but she couldn’t hold back her excitement. “am i allowed to make outfits for this hypothetical bunny?”

[rvbobo]

rvsolhee·:

never choose schools because of a boy. never move because of a boy. they were things that wise adults told teens and young adults all the time. and while boyoung wasn’t a boy, it was still applicable. their relationship had been fun, and solhee had really cared for bobo, but what was she supposed to have done? given up her entire career– the thing that she had been groomed to do since she was a baby– for a relationship? a secret relationship, that had only been going on for a few months? solhee had been happy, but she realistically didn’t know if it would have gone anywhere serious. and her debut? that was serious. that was her dream. it was a hard choice to have to make, but you couldn’t ever convince solhee that she’d made the wrong one. “i’d watch your hostility with me,” solhee finally said with a deep breath. “you might give your members the wrong idea. if you’re still so mad that you got cut, what does that say about how you feel about your current group?” it wasn’t a barb. it was a genuine comment. solhee was trying to move on. maybe boyoung should too.

just when she’d thought they were going to have an actual conversation again, solhee had to open her mouth and ruin it. “are you serious right now?” she asked, incredulity evident in her tone. she scoffed, counted to three in her head to keep from blowing up in solhee’s face, and continued with as much dignity and respect as she could muster. “you really think i’m upset because i didn’t get to debut with iris?” late at night, when boyoung couldn’t sleep and she was contemplating every mistake she’d ever made, she sometimes wondered how her life would have turned out if she’d debuted with iris. but no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t imagine herself singing those songs or embodying that concept. she really was meant to be a part of rejectz. she shook her head. “i couldn’t give a fuck less about that now. rejectz is my home. those girls know that i love them with my whole heart and that i’d rather die than be signed to spotlight.” was she really so blind to boyoung’s true feelings, or was solhee looking for her to verbalize why she was in pain? “even after all this time, you still don’t understand, do you?” 

[femaleidols]

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rvsolhee·:

solhee raised her chin defiantly, almost daring bobo to say more. the situation wasn’t nearly as black and white as boyoung tried to make it. what had happened to her when she’d been outed was terrible, and solhee felt for her. but outing herself too would have been ridiculous. not only would it have gotten her dropped from iris, but she would have been outed in a homophobic country and climate. she would have risked being outed to homophobic parents. she had been groomed to be an idol from birth, too– how would they react to her failing at the last minute? this all would have surely impacted her mental health greatly. as much as she had cared for bobo, there was more to take into consideration. “i have integrity. i also have a sense of self-preservation. it’s something you should look into adopting for yourself,” she answered tersely.

boyoung could feel the facade of bravado and resentment that she typically maintained around solhee giving way to the underlying pain of the whole thing. the longer she spent with the other girl, the more difficult it became to act like everything was fine, that solhee’s rejection hadn’t broken her heart. and it had been a rejection, hadn’t it? maybe it wasn’t a fair choice, but she’d been given one: spotlight or boyoung. and boyoung knew all too well that she lost that particular fight. her company, her career, her group, her future, and her girlfriend -- she’d had them all when she’d woken up that morning and none when she went to sleep. and yet, a part of her almost understood. she shrugged a shoulder, considering her response. she almost wished she could come up with something petty and sarcastic, but she was tired all of a sudden. “touché.” 

[rvroxie]

“i know it’s been months, but i’m still mad our stylist wouldn’t let me keep that yellow checkered outfit from the fancy music video,” ripley said with a little whine. “it was so gorgeous. i’ve literally never looked cooler.”

[rvbobo]

it had been a few months since rejectz had had a full-blown comeback, so boyoung had more time on her hands than she knew what to do with these days. “i could remake it for you if you wanted.” she shrugged a shoulder.