Dark Thoughts

[s0m3p3rs0n]

If you're going to break up a friendship over lies and manipulation why do you make it public? Why can you talk to everyone but me about how supposedly horrible I am. I just don't get it. If you're going to stab me in the back after everything I did for you, atleast don't go running around like you're so happy to have dropped me. I hate feeling like I've wasted my time on people. I'm shedding tears for people that aren't worth it at the end of the day but I guess it's just how the cookie crumbles.

Maybe one day I'll learn that being nice to people just means being taken advantage of. I'm stuck in this place of mourning and depression but I don't want this sadness over you because it's not worth it.

I just hope you can live the rest of your life in peace even though I was supposedly too important to you to lose and yet I've been kicked to the curb. I hope you can find satisfaction in these life choices you choose since you get to live with them.

I just don't get how I'm supposed to trust anyone when this kind of shit keeps happening to me. Everytime I finally fully open up to someone and feel almost fully comfortable with them, something like this happens and my trust is shattered again.

I'm done with people. Atleast I can be the bigger person and wish you the best in life. I just hope to never have to interact with you again. Maybe next time you won't be so fake but I think we all know how that goes.

[s0m3p3rs0n]

I was too young to understand

Too young to have known better

And too young for any of it

You used my age against me

You used my innocence for your pleasure

You used me for you

A child should never experience those things

A child should be loved but not in those ways

A child should be protected, never exposed

You see these actions will haunt the child

These moments will forever pain them

Nowhere to escape and stuck reliving the past

Although you’ve buried these moments

They always grasp you and pull you back in

You wonder how a childhood could be stolen from you

You ponder as to why it was you

Maybe it was because I wouldn’t understand

Maybe it was because I was naive 

Maybe it was just because it was me

I never deserved such suffering

I never deserved to be forced to grow up so quickly

I deserved to be a child

I deserved to stay innocent

I deserved to feel safe

I was only a child

Too young for any of it

[s0m3p3rs0n]

You can't expect me not to drown if you throw me into the deep end and I can't swim

You can't expect me to fly if you throw me off a cliff when I don't have wings

Don't say you see potential when you show you don't see it.

I'm doing the best I can with what I have and I can't breathe so give me some fucking air already.

You aren't here to see me drowning

You aren't here to see me falling to my demise so why act like you are?

[nocountryforlesbians]

head not empty, many abstract uncommunicatable thoughts

[sisterofiris]

Hey students, here’s a pro tip: do not write an email to your prof while you’re seriously sick.

Signed, a person who somehow came up with “dear hello, I am sick and not sure if I’ll be alive to come tomorrow and I’m sorry, best slutantions, [name]”.

[yay855]

I mean, if someone wrote that to me, I’d probably believe they were sick.

[rox-and-prose]

“Slutantions” has me crying laughing

[watermite]

i once emailed my professor with a migraine. a mistake.

“I amsick will not to choir because i have a heache. i Hope its very and i am so sorry

love,

blue”

the subject line was “OW”

[xakumi]

THE SUBJECT LINE IS THE BEST PART JSJFJSJDJS JUST IMAGINE GETTING AN EMAIL WITH NO CONTEXT OTHER THAN “OW”

[themodernsouthernpolytheist]

As someone who has taught college, please send those emails because 1) We WILL believe that; no one would write that on purpose and 2) we need a laugh sometimes.

[asortoflight]

On the other side of this, once after getting taken to the ER by ambulance, I got an email from the professor whose class I’d passed out in, and the message had no text, just the subject line “you good?”

[whisky-gerblin]

Reblogging for the last addition

[badgraph1csghost]

Claritin makes me weird, but I have allergies so there’s about a month and a half block of time where I’m taking Claritin and am just weird most of the time.

Anyway, my last year of college, I got the flu or something in late March and was also taking Mucinex. I told my professor I couldn’t come to class one day by email except I couldnt think of what to say, so my medicated ass decided to make a Fry meme. I think it said something like “Not sure if I can go to class with a head the size of Texas, bottom text.” I didn’t think until the next day that it probably wasn’t socially-acceptable to tell your philosophy professor you weren’t coming to class via Tumblr style memes. When i got back to class, i found that she’d printed it out and taped it to the classroom bulletin board.

[badgraph1csghost]

Oh shit you guys i turned on my WinXP laptop that I used to use back then.

IT WAS ON THE DESKTOP. THIS IS WHAT I SENT.

It’s even worse than i remember it

[moon-gh0st]

Thank you, @ blimpeh on Twitter for this warning! ZERO TOLERANCE FOR TERFs and transphobes. Also don’t exclude male and non-binary witches! That’s not the witch way.

[lunerbean]

I will always reblog warnings about this book. I've seen way too many people post pics of this book because it's "aesthetically pleasing" or whatever. Lister is a fucking terf and doesn't deserve the revenue from people buying her book.

Instead, consider checking out this website for a list of lgbtq+ positive/inclusive works. Here's a sneak preview of a few of the books mentioned above.

[blood-bones-bitchcraft]

I know I recently reblogged the original post about Witch, but these resources were too great to pass up

[patchuolli]

I’m not even trans but I bought that book thinking it was gonna give me some cool insight , just to open it and read about fucking pussy powers and I -

[witches-ofcolor]

^^ This! Witchcraft in general has heavily gendered language, mostly IDing with femininity, wombs, and so on that I've always found disturbing and alienating.

[breelandwalker]

Yeah, y’all remember what I was saying the other day? About how we still need to weed this “Only Cis-Women Can Be Witches” bullshit out of the pagan community? Because it’s still a thing that some people are trying to insist upon?

-expansive Ta-Da gesture- There you have it.

Thanks for the queer-friendly book recommendations!

[shywitchiness]

✨🔮 witchy playlists 🔮✨

//playlists for each of the witches, playlists that, for me, hold their essence\ 

green witch 🌿🦌✨

urban witch 🏙🕯

tech witch 👾🕹

love witch 💖🥀🌸

moon witch 🌙🔮

sun witch ☀️🌻

cosmic witch 🛸💫🚀

sea witch 🐚🌊🧜‍♀️

[s0m3p3rs0n]

Toxic parents suck.

As a 23 year old I should not be treated like a child.

As a parent who has done nothing for me but add to my trauma, no you don't need to always know where I am. You don't deserve that knowledge.

As an adult I can do as I please and should not have to be questioned on it.

You don't care about me until you see I'm not home and then it somehow matters? I think not.

Why is it that it's okay for you to not include me im anything but yet I have to tell you absolutely everything.

Fuck off.

[s0m3p3rs0n]

I hate getting super close to people because then I have to explain the not so good in my life.

Realizing who I am and what I need to do to get past things is never easy but it's time I finally accept the wrong and move forward.

It will never be easy but it's the only thing to keep me from pushing away and hopefully they understand and don't treat me differently.

[inmynature]

Is it safe to say that someone in Lilos family was a bruja? Where did she get that book from? How she know what a sour jar is?

[s0m3p3rs0n]

Sometimes I wonder why the way I am

I'm impulsive and sometimes make bad decisions

But thats me

Although maybe this time I messed up big and im petrified to find out if I really did

[s0m3p3rs0n]

Why did you have to tell me that you love me?

Why couldn't we be just friends?

You fucked me up

[s0m3p3rs0n]

Imma share it here because there's nowhere else I feel like I can but I'm super happy I finally am slowly losing weight. It may not be alot but it's a huge difference. Even if no else appreciates it I still know im doing amazing 😌

[s0m3p3rs0n]

I just dont get why my depression can just spark as if someone hit a light switch. The smallest thing can set it off.

[s0m3p3rs0n]

Im falling for someone I didn't want to fall for.

Im falling for someone im afraid I'll end up hurting.

He's so sweet and kind.

He's someone im not used to.

And for once he's someone who respects me and is truly a gentleman.

Im scared because im so broken and hurt that I feel I'll just end up pushing him away.

I don't want to hurt him...

And I can't take being hurt again myself.

[s0m3p3rs0n]

So let's start this post off with a back story. I absolutely love animal crossing and I was dying for the game to get released on switch. When I found out they had a special edition switch I tried to get it and couldn't. For months I waited for a chance to get one and eventually gave up on the hope that I'd ever get one.

And then my mom found one and bought one. I thought she'd gift it to me for christmas with knowing how much I wanted one. But no, instead of using my old switch for the family she bought it for "family" use because my old switch apparently would be no good.

So while I got absolute shit and was really hoping to have this gift and watching my sister get everything she wanted really hurts.

So instead of being happy and spending time with my family I get to cry alone in my room and know that I dont mean shit to them.

Maybe this sounds silly but watching your sister get absolutely everything she wants and your mother basically hyping up something she knows you really want to then just say fuck you really really hurts.

Fuck Christmas and fuck my family

[s0m3p3rs0n]

Okay so picture this

Your significant other comes home to you with a cute build a bear in a tux holding a bunch of roses and a note

So you open the note and its all the reasons why they love you and then at the bottom it tells you to squeeze the paw

When you squeeze the paw the bear says something along the lines of I love you so much and want to spend the rest of my life with you

Now they tell you to squeeze the other paw and it says will you marry me

If you say yes then you get a matching bear that says how you want to spend the rest of your life with them too and then a yes

If im not proposed to like this i might be disappointed lol