Samy's Temple

Chiara, from Italy. Gay. Married to the most sweet and beautiful girl. The love of my life. This is mostly a Glee-related blog. I reblog a little lot of Kurtofsky, so if you don't like them this blog isn't for you. You can also find other stuff here, basically because Glee sucks, and I need some better things in my life. Not a Klaine/Blaine friendly blog.

[samarakurtofsky]

My Glee Fics

KURTOFSKY

Fixing Destinies - WIP (here)

2025. Kurt and Dave meet again in New York after 10 years of going separate ways. Will destiny bring them back to each other? Undoubtedly! But with a little unexpected help. Slight AU because Finn is alive.

I'll Bring You Home (here)

Dave finds himself saying very unexpected words. Mostly just shameless Kurtofsky fluff.

Miles Away (here)

The story takes a different path after Dave gets outed for kissing Kurt. He is sent to a place of despair, pain, and sorrow, too similar to Hell. The memory of Kurt and a friendship born between those infernal walls help him survive and start a journey that leads to love and healing.

The Devil's Seed (here)

In an apocalyctic world full of death and blood, Kurt and Dave find comfort in each other's love. Something is watching them in the dark, ready to ask what they are willing to do for a glimpse of happiness.

Waiting For Happily Ever After (here)

During the 2020's world pandemic, Kurt and Dave, happily married with two children, realize what is important, and that miracles happen even during the most difficult time.

Forever (here)

Kurt grew up with his imaginary friend, who helped him getting through his mother's death. As an adult, Kurt seems to have the perfect life - a beautiful apartment, a famous soon-to-be husband that everyone adore. Kurt should be happy, but he isn't. In a moment of need, someone from his past comes back to help him once more.

Their Song (here)

Kurt offers Dave the dance they couldn't have in front of everyone, and that changes everything.

Rewriting Memories (here)

During a thunderstorm, Kurt decides to overwrite his sad memories by taking a big step with the person he loves.

The Flower Of Memory (here)

Dave is guided by the ghost of Kurt to a path that will make him remember the abuse they both suffered in the past.

Be With Me (here)

Kurt and Dave find the courage to face their past, learn from their present, and walk toward their future together.

Tales as Old as Time (here)

Kurt and Blaine decide to watch the live action of Beauty and the Beast. At the cinema, they meet Dave and his sister. Kurt didn't realize how the story of the movie and his own with Dave are similar.

Under the Falling Snow (here)

On an afternoon of snow-falling and searching for the right Christmas presents, Kurt and Dave finally accept their love for each other.

OTHER FICS

Free Kurt - Beiste Style (here)

Kurt knows he is about to be proposed by Blaine, but something doesn't feel right. After a conversation with Coach Beiste at the Lima Bean, Kurt's life takes a different turn.

Free Kurt - Sam Style (here)

After Santana's rant in the hallway, Kurt feels lost and desperate. Sam is there for him, to support him and rebuild their frienship.

Free Kurt for Christmas - Kurt Style (here)

Burt brings Blaine to New York as Kurt's Christmas present. Kurt is having none of it.

The Right Way To Love - Kurtbastian (here)

After Kurt finds out Blaine cheated on him again, he calls off the wedding and finds support and understanding from a very unexpected person.

Loving You - Brittana (here)

Santana and Brittany are enjoying a beautiful summer day, surrounded by nature and beauty.

Sleeping Beauty - Faberry (here)

Quinn Fabray is sleeping, in a place between life and death, only waiting for her princess to wake her up.

Drink and Forget (here)

In the midst of the frustration and unhappiness, Dave and Santana decide to forget their problems with drinking. Crazy stuff happens.

[meontix]

>trade with this cool person 👉👉👉👉 @tekahikaaa

[tekahikaaa]

this drawing was made a month ago... i drew it based on a fanfiction i read but i don't know if i can find it now aaaand yes it's obviously a fanfiction about david and kurt (sorry)

[nicholastitties]

They're like tiny versions of FirstPrince omfg

[happy-xy]

YOUNG HEARTS (2024) Directed by Anthony Schatteman

[kolaicendionysos]

young hearts (2024) dir. Anthony Schatteman

[silkoodles]

I combined AU kiss and Unexpected kiss from the daily kiss challenge with my Glee AU Kurt. The beginning of the end for Kurt, it was just as unexpected for him

[granulesofsand]

Reasons people underestimate the prevalence of RAMCOA:

Untraumatized people don’t think about trauma nearly as much as survivors

People don’t know what the signs are. Trainings are shitty when given, attendees don’t think they’ll need to use the information, and trainings offered are usually online and easy to walk away from

Mandatory reporters don’t usually follow through their contracts. This is sometimes a good thing, but it can leave room in the wrong places for endangered children

People who know the signs will ignore them. They think it unlikely, that they’re overreacting, or they just don’t notice

Survivors are quiet. Speaking up puts us in danger, and more people think of us as media material than peers

The police don’t do jack shit for us. Some stations train officers to overlook our cases, and it’s difficult to take to court if a survivor wants to. In larger cases, government works with organized criminal groups that perpetrate or do so themselves for research

We’re a test question. The only time we are brought up in psychology classrooms is if they want to nod to a DID diagnosis. Few therapists are educated and willing to take us on as clients

Abusers know how to make connections with local authority. In high control groups, members may be taught how to abuse and evade interception

All of this makes it hard to report anywhere how many survivors exist free, and the low numbers in turn make us less believable when we do report

RAMCOA includes severe religious abuse, manipulative coercion, programming, cults, trafficking rings, criminal gangs, and more. Survivors are your coworkers, neighbors, cashiers, librarians.

Signs to look for:

Ritual Abuse

History of self-harm, substance use, sui/homicidality, especially with prescribed patterns

Unusual phobias (red or brown foods, kinds of houses, churches, hospitals, fear of the dark or being alone in adults)

Aversion to or obsession with the occult/witchcraft or other faith traditions

Patterns of nightmares, aversions or obsessions with common or nondescript themes (gore, needles, bugs, rodents, monsters, babies, men or women)

Sudden or irresistible urge to relocate, recontact abusers, participate in abusive ceremonies

High pain tolerance

Repeated phrases with violent, aggressive or religious themes

Mind Control and Coercion

Unquestioning obedience of a person or doctrine

Defers to another, speaks as though scripted, frequently accompanied by another or has to ask permission inappropriate for their age

Sudden or dramatic change in behavior, hobbies, or long-standing habits

Refusal to consume media unless approved by another/without further explanation

Anxious or idealized descriptions of childhood home and family, unable to recall these things

No memory of childhood or missing years

Multiple self-states, especially in high quantities

Organized Abuse and Trafficking

Disconnection from peers, family and friends

Does not attend community events or faith services or is perpetually preoccupied with a single group

Repeated unexplained absences from work or school

Disoriented, confused or dissociated for long periods of time or without explanation

Fearful or self-persecutory behavior, especially with allusions to another person or group

Bruises, broken skin or other wounds in various stages of healing

Minors engaging in commercial sex (including CSEM or survival sex)

Timid, skittish, fearful or submissive behaviors (including when this is the norm)

Malnourished, dehydrated, exhausted or with untreated ails

Without belongings or suitable living space

Many indicators of abuses flow together, as do the events themselves. It’s common that RA and OA perps use MC to keep victims in line, and techniques are often implemented by default in abusive environments. A group using RA or MC also qualifies as OA. This is why the community acronym includes all three.

There are more discreet examples for each. It’s possible to find many symptoms of RAMCOA and have none of those maltreatments as the cause. It’s possible to have none and still be abused.

Noticing indicators in children should be followed up by alerting any available reliable authority. Children sometimes disclose using metaphors or slang words they have been taught, so keep this in mind if you work with them.

[castlesdump]

i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA believe in the existence of child marriage, a form of RA that demonstrably exists. maybe they do believe it, but think it 'doesn't happen here [read: western countries]', or that because they associate RA with satanism that all RA must be SRA.

i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA (even though it's been 4 decades since satanic panic started) understand what a copycat criminal is. my therapist and i are fully like 'yeah they made an auction look like a satanic ritual to scare the kids into not talking out of fear of not being believed'. if this hadn't happened after satanic panic they wouldn't have done it like that.

i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA know that they're basically telling abuse groups that they will take their side over a child's, as long as the abuse (as described by a child) sounds 'satanic panic' enough to cross that threshold between 'normal' sexual/physical/religious abuse and RA.

i wonder if people who 'don't believe' in RA think that what happened to me didn't exist, or just that i should shut up about it.

[samarakurtofsky]

I find it horrible that they would rather stand with perpetrators instead of survivors. And for what? Because it makes them feel comfortable to pretend these things don't happen.

I'm not a survivor of RAMCOA, and even I was triggered by how people are dismissing the victims... using even the FMS, a syndrome that in fact doesn't exist and was made up by a bunch of pedos to get away with it.

Remember there are also a lot of people, like myself, who believe survivors, who are not afraid to talk about RAMCOA, and who are sure that once we all open our eyes, the evil won't have anywhere to hide.

I'm so sorry for what happened to you. You didn't deserve any of it.

[elledelajoie]

Five Years of Glee

Well, it's been five years since I posted my first Glee fanfic. I've met a lot of really lovely people since joining this fandom and enjoyed being a part of something, even if it was long after the fact. Over the last several months, I've been back through all of my fics and read them from beginning to end. I found the pesky double words, the accidental "the" instead of "they" (the lingering evidence that the Y key was stiffer on my old laptop), and I've cleaned up any pesky grammar mistakes I could find. And in a few cases, I added a bit of information that seemed to be needed. With the precariousness of everything with that bill looming in Congress, I'd encourage anyone who has enjoyed my fics to download them and save them. That's what I'll be doing this next week—downloading my bookmarked fics. Hopefully, it won't pass, but with everything else going on, I'm not holding my breath.

[elledelajoie]

How to Save Fics from FF.net

Using Firefox, open the fic. Click on the Reader View icon in the URL box.

The fic will open in a clean white page that can be copied and pasted.

[furiousgoldfish]

I finished reading "Becoming Yourself: Overcoming Mind Control and Ritual Abuse" by Alison Miller, and it was filled with incredibly useful information for those who struggle with a dissociative identity disorder. It was also filled with descriptions of some of the most extreme and atrocious kinds of abuse, so to anyone wanting to read it, there's a trigger warning for cult abuse, rituals, childhood sexual abuse, satanic rituals, child trafficking, child murder, brainwashing, mind control, and every form of religion used against the mind of a child.

I was reading this book to figure out if I had gone thru any kind of abuse of the sort, and I didn't, one of my abusers was utilizing religion against me and had done enough of brainwashing to construct several brainwashed and controlled parts, who were still under the influence, but that was it. The book is extremely clear and it will not confuse you about what happened to you, it tells you the intention behind every type of abuse, and often, how to resolve the results. The books also notes that the word 'alter' is triggering to those who went thru ritual abuse and developed a dissociative identity disorder, for similarity with the word 'altar', which is used in rituals, so they prefer to use the terms 'insiders' and 'parts', which I found to enjoy as well.

One of the repeating points in the first half of the book was on insiders who pretend to be something else, for instance, insiders who pretend to be your abusers, pretend to be demons, pretend to be gods or powerful entities, who believe it's their job to hurt you, or to control you, who are made to bring out consequences if you attempt to act against your abusers. I had something like that in my head, but I had refused to believed it was an insider, because it looked just like a case of 'internalized abusive voice', and I had fought against it viciously and focused on shutting that voice down and keeping it scared, often via imagined torture if it was making me feel anxious. Reading about these other scary entities, who would, when asked, admit to just being an insider pretending, I became curious enough to engage with the abusive voice and ask it, 'are you just an alter pretending'? The voice laughed at me and admitted to being found out, and then promptly stopped pretending and showed themselves as a child part. It took me several weeks to admit to myself that this was real, because it was mortifying. I had fallen for the trick, and even tortured a child part for doing their assigned job – this part now believed their only function was to be tortured. I feel responsible for that. But there was no way for me to know. Insiders are good at keeping up a pretense.

You can sometimes recognize that an entity in your head that is scaring you, claiming to be able to control you or triggering you on purpose, or pretending to be evil, demonic, terrifying, animalistic, powerful, magical, godly, is actually a child part, just because they often act the version of that thing that a child would believe is real. If your entity is often repeating the same lines, only knows 1 way of behaviour and has predictive responses, believes to be your abuser or something similar to it, doesn't follow any real-life logic and seems to belong to another world that a child would think is accurate, then it's likely a child part, for some reason programmed or brainwashed to believe they're what they're pretending to be. I should note that when children think of these scary entities, they're often very creative, and put their whole heart in it, so it's going to be an entity that is engaging, feels powerful, doesn't back down easily. Parts who pretend to be evil or demonic will sometimes cling to what they think they are very dearly and will not allow themselves to think of themselves as humans or children, this is for their own emotional protection. All they had in their childhood was being tough. They cannot let that go.

Another incredibly useful information I got from the book was on how to process trauma if you are a multiple. I had never seen instructions on how to do this before, and I'm going to share them in another post that should be posted right after this one, and I'll put a link to it here.

[callmebrycelee]

I would like to thank @mdverse for this exquisite drawing of Dave and Kurt in their late-20′s. This drawing will serve as the cover to my latest fanfic Only You which you can read here.

[starpawedart]

I did the cover art for the HIBERNATION @promkingzine digital zine-- it's out now, so go grab your free copy of it! It's 100+ pages of fic and art by many talented creators 🐻

I also did a short Berryofsky comic for it, which you can read below!

[starpawedart]

If you ever lose them at a party, they're by the snack table.

Happy Valentine's Day! 🍫💕

[cristalknife]

Kadam Week 2023

Welcome to another year and edition of the Kadam week

while the “official” week to post is in the first complete one of May, running from Sunday 7 to Saturday 13 please feel free to be inspired and use any of the following prompts at any time.

Continua a leggere

[yamujiburo]

Thinking about the angsty Team Rocket Radio Show segment the VAs did where they killed off Jessie?? For some reason???