Saphira To The Other Side

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Beauty

Beauty is joy in color.

Beauty is love & pleasure.

Beauty is us wondering about each other.

In the intimacy of secrecy.

Beauty is the way music & movement synchronises 

as I breathe & walk my life.

Order. Flow. Continuous soft air holding me so I won’t fall.

Life’s too good for crumbling.

Beauty is the knowing of brighter days, change.

It’s all there is to expect, religiously.

Beauty is a new face, a new voice that has found us.

Welcoming for no other reason than intuition.

Beauty is you & me kissing. Softly. Truly.

No comedy show. No Hollywood acting.

Cheap longing. Lollipop candid fucking.

Beauty is real & transcending. All into wisdom.

Pain & Joy. All into acceptance. It is what it is.

And don’t you think that through this particular angle.

Life is just beautiful.

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Girl Is Too Tired To Dance

A night where all goes awry

The guitar hisses or growls like a lost kitty

The wine gets u too drunk & lazy

People are puppets of joy, annoyingly ecstatic

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I’m real melancholia - street to nowhere

Amidst continuous artistic decor

Girl is too tired to dance

Even wandering off (to grace lands)

Seems exhausting 

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A dreamer needs to dream

Cheap yet fantastical way of existing

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Soho Dinners

I breathe Love 

Dance of particles through my legs 

Walk that walk

Embrace the tree branches and rose gardens

Safe in the sky's mesmerising voice

It's you that I hear 

Amidst the noise of the city 

It's you that I claim

To come and save me

Let's go to dinner

Play husband & wife

Decorate Soho with our undying desire

The feeling of immortality is common between lovers 

Eternal childlike attitude towards solving problems

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Useless Love

I'm an addict

If I quit the booze I'll overdose on your body

Make of our love a never ending ride

Movie loop on crack

Comical yet spooky

As I was born mad & thirsty

Don't treat me as if I was the usual

I forget how special I am

When you look at me

Ain't that sad 

I still can't grasp

Why is that?

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Turned To Ice

Outside is controlled shiny armour

Love is water turned to ice

I wish I was young & real & misbehaved

My new found God is less dramatic

Great feelings are not facing me

They turned to snow, beautiful & calm

I don't live on poems anymore, I just live

Holy future I still try to get to you as I don't know who I've become

Followed the currents now I'm here

Experiencing the world in its fullness, feeling like a dot on a map

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Bury Our Love

Watch me as I bury our love

My sick devotion, exhilaration turned to madness

All gone, buried miles under

May it rot among the dead corpses 

May it touch the core of the planet Earth and burn at the edge of the volcanos

May it vanish from the world of the spirits too

No trace to be found

Not even in memory

May you and me be erased as if we had never been

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A Poem About Love

Love doesn’t have to hurt

It can soothe you

Lure you in decadent paradise

For hours or days

Sleepless among daisies, Prosecco high

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Love doesn’t have to betray you

It can hold your hand while you’re unsure

Wait for the rose to uncover every petal

As the light awakens its aliveness

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Love doesn’t have to highlight your mortality

Make you stumble at every misunderstanding

While you try to hold it together 

The pieces shatter from your bare hands

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Love doesn’t have to be the enemy

Make you lose control of your identity

Every gesture manufactured

By tameless longing and ungoverned desire 

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Love can be true, pure and gentle

A friend that listens, surrenders

To the grace of two souls that met

Only to dance while they heal

Side by side

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Lost Star

I feel like a lost star

Ancient spirit

Colorful bowl of energy

I haven’t been human for thousands of years

My soul is often discontent 

With the reality of the body I carry

I see the face and skin

The cage I’m in

Made of flesh & bones

I feel this longing 

Too grand craving for escaping it

I wanna be a star again

An eternal lightweight shimmering pure entity

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Who Will Hold My Heart?

Who will hold my heart 

For just a second

So I can breathe, taking shelter in reality

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Who will touch my soul

And stand by me

Caress my wounds with sensuality

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I’m not afraid of feeling

Why is it that I pick the ones who are

Terrified of the vulnerable blossoms of the heart

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Bright New Start

Feathers are floating 

Here and there

White as angel wings

Multifaceted with butterflies

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I’ve entered a realm I don’t remember how

It feels like an eternal life

Magic symbols, symptoms of madness

I’ve never seen it as something bad

But rather as empowerment

As sheer reality

Freedom

Free from the boxes or the walls

Of human language

That can’t explain it all 

With definitions

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I’ve entered a realm 

I don’t remember how

But I’ve recognised your face

As I’ve entered

As if you had been waiting 

There for me

To swing by the ocean

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We are pirates now

Captains of our golden

Psychedelic & mystic boat

We wander endlessly

With passion & sensuality

Don’t remember how

It feels to be on ground 

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So Dearly

I’ve been running away from my body

Now that I’m finally back in it

I find a haunted shell, bleeding rotting body, opened sacred wounds

You think you can do anything and drink your way to forget

But the body remembers what the mind can ignore

It comes back through unknown shivers and psychotic dreams of death

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I’ve decided to get on the train, challenge to trustful bliss and peaceful living

I thought it’d be easy to embrace the warmth of love and safety

But I was dead wrong, living happily is tough for the souls 

That long for shelter in the deepest abyss of the hollow

Where love is as flickering as high momentary lightning

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Now that I’m blessed with serenity my body is on seasonal anxiety

And I’m left complaining to God, will it ever be enough?

Why is it that even when I make the right decisions

Follow the pathway the universe has laid out for me

Why is it that I suffer? 

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The body remembers what the mind can ignore

Healing is deeper than just being with the right person 

In the right environment doing the right thing

It takes time for the body to release

Understand and truly embrace the grace of purity

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Joy and Love, I allow in 

To tame my mind and heal the body I abused 

So dearly

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Apples For Dinner

Since when have I assimilated love with pain?

I know I care for you when I get hit by it

When I let the fear of losing you

Submerge me while I slice up some apples for dinner

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What made me go astray for years to romanticise the ugly

And am I truly back on the land of the saint & the holy?

Or is this an episode of “ The Converted Housewife” series 

Broadcasting drug & art addicts turning into pleasing people

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Pleased by slicing up these pretty round apples for dinner

Am I becoming someone new or is this a fable, a distraction

Will I uncover hidden illusions, trickeries with wisdom

Or have I got clarity to land from a dream only to land on another

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Will I ever stop confusing heartbreaks for beauty

And is change something I am willing of?

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Through Magic & Serendipity

You come to me through magic & serendipity

Once when I was thinking of you

Of how I had met you in Soho

After a gig, all dolled up in a long red dress

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My eyes and your eyes met

For a long second

I lit up a cigarette and paused

I didn’t know what else to do

Last time I had seen you

You had told me to leave, aggressively

I cried my longing out for you

In the arms of strangers or angels

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Then you painted a wall size masterpiece

Your anger, our passion, my sadness, your remorse were depicted

This was the scar I was holding on to

As the memory of our last encounter

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And then in that peculiar street of Soho

Where I work and you hang out mostly

That same street that is like home to us

For our dear, common friend debauchery

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Our eyes met, but nothing else happened

And then, the next day, there

I was asking myself and the heavens

If you had really seen me

My self doubt has often the best of me

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That’s when I heard in the distance

This tune

By Fleetwood Mac

I heard you calling my name

Still wasn’t sure

My self doubt has often the best of me

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Until now

The song came back

And now your calling ain’t distant anymore

The lyrics are clear, close to my ears

Like a warm whisper, my name, repeated:

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“I’m the poet in your heart

I’ll never change

And I’ll never stop

Now it's gone

No it doesn't matter anymore

When I build my house

You’ll come by”

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Should I mention that months later

With your hands made in heaven

And your pure heart of a bohemian

You depicted that one scene :

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Long red dress, singing through the microphone

Angel lamp in the corner, my face of a wolf

And you passing by on Dean street

How amusing and completely bonkers - poetic

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Muse Of Light

Muse Of Light

Inspire me

Days of overwhelming joy

Soft electricity

Levitate with me through a whole Summer

Swim instead of walk

Sing instead of talk

Dance instead of run

Feels instead of thoughts

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In the new world of synchronistic calculations

And heart shaped everything

I’ve only followed the butterflies and feathers

That paved my path to you

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Will you take me anew

Will you grab me by who I am

Will you see the depth and the frivolity

Will you love a forever changing sea

Magical fucked up woman

Who’s not fighting anymore

No energy to be against anything

But embracing the world with opened arms

Still learning to trust the rising sun to rise ever again

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