studying: books and brains

mickie | they + she | english and psychology undergrad | hEDs + bipolar

[a-fox-studies]

October 29, 2025 • Wednesday

PRODUCTIVITY COLLAB BONANZA — [Day 15/15]

-> Iris: 6h 15min 👑 -> AJ: 2h @winryrockbellwannabe -> Jade: 30min @jadeplantstudio -> Jake: 0h @jakeedu -> Nyx: 2h 50min @nyxscave -> STS: 2h @biochemiststry -> Scotis: 1h 25min @scotisfr-productivityblr -> Skylar: 3h @autisticandferal

AND WE'RE DONEEEEEEEEE!! 15 days of productivity with my studyblr buddies :3 congrats everyone :)))

Today was a really weird /pos day for me, because I spent the whole day hating my disability and being depressed and still studying bc I had shit to do. But then at the end of the day I was told by @moose-mousse that im making noticeable improvements which is????????? So validating!! Had a chat with codeblr buddies about stuff and i felt a little better about myself which is good :3

Here's to more productivity in the future as exam week approaches-

🎧 GO! — Cortis

[sapphicacademic]

me when i'm literally told that someone (STS) has been sexually harassing people for months and i decide i'm chill with it bc i like their vibe

me when i pick a side against the victims because i miss my cozy community.

me when i willingly side with the perpetrator.

all of you know exactly the type of people you are. have fun living with that information.

[sapphicacademic]

hey not to vague post on main but saying "i believe victims" then doing a productivity challenge with someone you've gotten proof of sexually harassing people is WILD.

you're all fake as fuck.

if anyone wants to know who to avoid in studyblr, shoot me a DM. i'd have half a mind to tag people, but I'm being nice 🩷

[sapphicacademic]

i guess believing victims doesn't matter when you like the person doing the harassing??? wild.

[sapphicacademic]

hey not to vague post on main but saying "i believe victims" then doing a productivity challenge with someone you've gotten proof of sexually harassing people is WILD.

you're all fake as fuck.

if anyone wants to know who to avoid in studyblr, shoot me a DM. i'd have half a mind to tag people, but I'm being nice 🩷

[sapphicacademic]

to-do list: october 18

everyone's favourite bipolar studyblr got sad again.

psychopathology readings

set up for neuropsych project

follow up email for critical race theory

paint nails so i feel like my life is together

shower I DID THIS ONE!

refill meds

make bed

[awakefor48hours]

I need you folks who are going back to school to understand this, sleep deprivation is not something to be proud of. You are being fed capitalist propaganda to make you believe that working yourself to the bone is a good and smart business model from a young age. If all you do is “get 3 hours of sleep” because you’re studying, you’re just gonna burn out quicker, forget the information you’re trying to cram, and cause your brain to cannibalize itself.

Do not compete by making unhealthy habits. This will only fuck you up in the long run.

[ecogothics-deactivated20251125]

October 5th & October 6th, 2025

this weekend i’m focusing on relaxing because i need it. yesterday, i watched they live on film at the movies, and i loved it. some more nice things to do:

im watching the new astérix et obélix show on netflix in french. it’s super nostalgic, fun, and perfect for practicing my listening comprehension

read jane eyre in bed, read at the park, read on the sofa, read everywhere

write a few journal entries

continue reading the female grotesque by mary russo because it’s so interesting

walk our family dog and pet the cat

listen to kate bush. i love her so much <3

lots of coffee and good food

enjoy the fresh air and the smells of fall

think about my paper topics and work on them a little without stressing over them

so yeah. taking it slow :)

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

Defend disabled people who aren't only making the healthiest possible choices forever. We need to stop holding the people with the least resources to the highest standards of health. We need to stop pointing fingers at disabled people who aren't even doing anything your average abled person isn't also doing.

[whencartoonsruletheworld]

i got a fucking. advertisement on youtube. from google ai. saying. without sarcasm and with complete sincerity. "if shakespeare is too hard for you, you can always have our ai explain it to you." im gonna throw up. im gonna throw a molotov cocktail. if i see that ad again im reporting it for hate speech. how fucking dare you. i will kill you with my bare hands. with my exit pursued by a bear hands. i will tear google headquarters down brick by brick. im going to start biting people.

[mothmantis]

What’s in my bag mood 💕📚

[sapphicacademic]

midterm season + bipolar disorder + disability

i have literally no energy.

i slept through another tutorial. i promised myself this year would be different but i can feel myself losing interest. i've been up for 2hrs and can't motivate myself to do anything. i almost want the hypomania back because that's the most productive i ever i am.

be kind to each other as academia gets more intense. you never know what your peers are wrestling with.

mickie

[sapphicacademic]

low spoons day, so i look like a bit of a rat. BUT it's my first day with my new glasses, and my headaches are much better. feeling hopeful!

(midterms are abt to kick my ass but we persist)

[sapphicacademic]

update!! today was my first day since the accident of being able to tolerate my full 5hrs of wednesday lectures!

feeling VERY good abt this

[sapphicacademic]

low spoons day, so i look like a bit of a rat. BUT it's my first day with my new glasses, and my headaches are much better. feeling hopeful!

(midterms are abt to kick my ass but we persist)

[sapphicacademic]

nice to see someone else on studyblr with bipolar disorder! sending strength to stay on top of everything, even when you’re not manic; i know how hard it can be

thank you!

i haven't been fully manic since that bad episode in 1st year, but I still have hypo swings. it's hard because I feel like I'm at my best during them, but also they're overall not good for me. it gets difficult to not yearn for those highs.

sending the best to you also!!

[sapphicacademic]

enjoying the slow ease in before midterm season hits and i go batshit insane 🤍🪽

🎧 : the last one (maisie peters)

[sapphicacademic]

one week until classes

august 25. 2025

i'd be lying if I said my motivation was back. I'm sat on the kitchen at my summer camp job, trying to work up the energy to open my class pages online. my head HURTS. my friends are both engaged in working on things and i'm on tumblr.

trying to get my notion set up.

trying.

[sapphicacademic]

hi.

my names mickie. a lot of you already know that.

i started this blog as an abled bodied student in my senior year of high school. i had struggled with my mental health in the past, but i thought that was behind me. i was wrong. i was diagnosed with ehlers-danlos syndrome halfway through my second year. my mental health plummeted during my third. it felt like blow after blow.

i'm open on here about the fact that i deal with bipolar disorder. my "most productive" part of this blog documents the hypomanic episode that consumed the second half of my first year of uni. for the longest time, i was striving to meet that standard again. meet a level of productivity and "success" that left me barely functional for the month after uni ended.

let that sink in.

my "most productive" was a fucking hypomanic episode. that's when i externally looked like i was at my best.

recently, i was in a car wreck and suffered a concussion. it killed my motivation for school. my short term memory's damaged, and it's going to take time to recover from that.

so, i'm coming back to this blog to document my 4th year. concussion rehab, mental health appointments, trying to be gentle with myself and accepting that school looks different for me now.

hope y'all stick around.

mickie.

[sapphicacademic]

the angle i pose things for posts vs what's actually happening at my workstation