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the fact that we only have “herculean task” and “sisyphean task” feels so limiting. so here’s a few more tasks for your repertoire
icarian task: when you have a task you know you’re going to fail at anyways, so why not have some fun with it before it all comes crashing down
cassandrean task: when you have to deal with people you KNOW won’t listen to you, despite having accurate information, and having to watch them fumble about when you told them the solution from the start (most often witnessed in customer service)
feel free to chime in i ran out of ideas much faster than i anticipated
I was stepdad to both my sons, starting when they were 5 and 7. I never pushed "call me dad" on them, because I knew their biodad did that to them and it made them feel caught in the middle of something. Shortly after their 18th birthdays, each of my boys asked me to adopt them. They changed their names, and made it clear to me that I was and always had been their dad. But I've been Wil to them for 27 years, so calling me "dad" is weird. But I've heard them refer to me as their dad when they talk to other people, and I've been introduced as their dad a few times. Each time, it feels like I'm mainlining pure joy and love. I was and would always be their dad, whether it was official or not, in every way that mattered. That they chose to ask me to adopt them and make it official is something I will cherish for the rest of my life.
I got such a huge lump in my throat when my step daughter introduced me as her mom. I cherish that memory too!!
Earthquake alerts are a thing! This was amazing. I was scrolling tumblr and an Earthquake alert popped up advising of an INCIPIENT Earthquake. One that hadn't YET happened. Map showed it centered up in Sacramento. And maybe 10 seconds later sure enough, my home begins to gently roll. Then the Earthquake alarm goes off, announcing that an earthquake has occurred. Just f'n astounding!!
What people don't understand about "no excess physical activity/exercise" is that everything is physical activity.
I told the people at orthopedic urgent care that I can't do physical therapy because my condition doesn't allow for exercise. They gave me a list of things I could do at home. They were exercises. I was frustrated at first, but it made me realize how able bodied people can't conceptualize "no exercise" at all.
Walking down two hallways to get to my college class is exercise. Cooking and baking are exercise. Getting something from downstairs is exercise. Even typing is exercise. Each one of those things chips away at my ability to do simple things, like sit upright or speak or even just stay awake. When someone says they can't exercise for medical reasons, that means they can't, and pushing them to do physical activity because it "doesn't take that much energy" is dangerous. Everything takes energy.
Agreed heartily.
They really really don't get it. Which might just be because they have no concept by which to understand it.
I remember being moderately healthy and no amount of sleeplessness mimics being unable to shower, even sitting down, because it's too much work. Or needing a smoothie or soft food because gnawing on tough stuff isn't happening today.
Or how No I will NOT "just go for a little walk" because I have clothes i have to wash today in order to be clean and not feel past my grottiness threshold. THAT is my "exercise". And it will cost me everything I've got today.
This is way worse if the Ablebodied person in question was raised to believe that exercise cures everything and you're so weak because you never make the effort. No, I am this weak because my body is wrecked on a cellular level and my cells do not make energy except what keeps me breathing and lets me stand sometimes. Everything after that is Exertion.
#counted spoons today and am celebrating that the neuropathy isn't making my skin crawl tonight.
#long covid
This meme made me think of this page, so I would be HONORED if you made a calligraphy piece with "The ocean does not respect a fool"
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submitted by @ghost-pepper-autism
okokay so like. I normally do NOT do requests that jump the queue and are sent in as a submission, since submissions are specifically for YOUR ART and pet pics and neat things to show me
but I NEEDED to get this done while that ocean fuckup was still relevant so here we go
And that epic matching quote; "safety just is pure waste"
Quote of the day "safety is just pure waste" Stockton Rush
Saigon, Vietnam. Credit to laphanblog (Instagram).
Vibe check on urban photo montage; Asia asia japan france.
Check credit; Saigon.
Ahhhh ; )
Second scroll thru reveals the tiny white 'Saigon' in the initial photo, but my eyesight is bad and I didn't get that clue the first time around : D
what i’m learning from practicing medieval paleography is that you gotta budget at least three minutes after you start on a new manuscript to succumb to despair. stare at the page and think “this is not language. this cannot possibly be intelligible writing.” and then after about three minutes of that you can start working.
This is true no matter what Era you are working in. And there is a very special place in heaven for census takers who wrote a fair hand and made complete entries. There is a corollary place in hell for those who wrote like a hen scratches, didn't listen to the reporter and used f'n nicknames!
Pay heed to Klaudia Amenábar's words! Don't let the executives weaponize fandoms. WGA Strong.
My guys it is starting to work, I've seen some people I know complaining about the writer's strike and turning against them because their favorite shows and/or movie got put on hold. Please do not be fooled like this, this is exactly what the corporations want. It can wait, I promise you will find other things to focus, but writers need this.
Reword every headline they put out. “Due to not wanting to give writers money, Marvel has shut down pre-production on…” You can end this strike any time you want to, pal.
"Marvel too cheap to pay writers, production shuts down"
"Disney too greedy to pay residuals, deletes shows/movies"
"Studios cut corners on safety, production values, writing, acting, etc. in order to make more money; won't share with anyone below CEO level"
This.
My family took a deep dive into unionism in the 1930s and never resurfaced. Four generations of staunch unionists. Solidly white collar middle class now, but no one in our family has ever EVER crossed a picket line. Grandpa George would rise from his grave and school anyone who dared. And if there is one thing I KNOW? NEVER ever ever ever believe that management is dealing in good faith. They literally never will. Whatever they are saying is 💯 self-serving, because they have nothing crucial on the line. They have nothing to lose. The pickets? They have bills to pay, kids to feed, gas to buy. They are self-serving as well, but with a huge difference. They have EVERYTHING to loose. Do not believe anything management says.
🗣️THIS IS WHAT INCLUSIVE, COMPASSIONATE DEMOCRACY LOOKS LIKE
Minnesota Dems enacted a raft of laws to make the state a trans refuge, and ensure people receiving trans care here can't be reached by far-right governments in places like Florida and Texas. (link)
Minnesota Dems ensured that everyone, including undocumented immigrants, can get drivers' licenses. (link)
They made public college free for the majority of Minnesota families. (link)
Minnesota Dems dropped a billion dollars into a bevy of affordable housing programs, including by creating a new state housing voucher program. (link)
Minnesota Dems massively increased funding for the state's perpetually-underfunded public defenders, which lets more public defenders be hired and existing public defenders get a salary increase. (link)
Dems raised Minnesota education spending by 10%, or about 2.3 billion. (link)
Minnesota Dems created an energy standard for 100% carbon-free electricity by 2040. (link)
Minnesota already has some of the strongest election infrastructure (and highest voter participation) in the country, but the legislature just made it stronger, with automatic registration, preregistration for minors, and easier access to absentee ballots. (link)
Minnesota Dems expanded the publicly subsidized health insurance program to undocumented immigrants. This one's interesting because it's the sort of things Dems often balk at. The governor opposed it! The legislature rolled over him and passed it anyway. (link)
Minnesota Dems expanded background checks and enacted red-flag laws, passing gun safety measures that the GOP has thwarted for years. (link)
Minnesota Dems gave the state AG the power to block the huge healthcare mergers that have slowly gobbled up the state's medical system. (link)
Minnesota Dems restored voting rights to convicted felons as soon as they leave prison. (link)
Minnesota Dems made prison phone calls free. (link)
Minnesota Dems passed new wage protection rules for the construction industry, against industry resistance. (link)
Minnesota Dems created a new sales tax to fund bus and train lines, an enormous victory for the sustainability and quality of public transit. Transit be more pleasant to ride, more frequent, and have better shelters, along more lines. (link)
They passed strict new regulations on PFAS ("forever chemicals"). (link)
Minnesota Dems passed the largest bonding bill in state history! Funding improvements to parks, colleges, water infrastructure, bridges, etc. etc. etc. (link)
They're going to build a passenger train from the Twin Cities to Duluth. (link)
I can't even find a news story about it but there's tens of millions in funding for new BRT lines, too. (link)
A wonky-but-important change: Minnesota Dems indexed the state gas tax to inflation, effectively increasing the gas tax. (link)
They actually indexed a bunch of stuff to inflation, including the state's education funding formula, which helps ensure that school spending doesn't decline over time. (link)
Minnesota Dems made hourly school workers (e.g., bus drivers and paraprofessionals) eligible for unemployment during summer break, when they're not working or getting paid. (link)
Minnesota Dems passed a bunch of labor protections for teachers, including requiring school districts to negotiate class sizes as part of union contracts. (Yet another @SydneyJordanMN special here. (link)
Minnesota Dems created a state board to govern labor standards at nursing homes. (link)
Minnesota Dems created a Prescription Drug Affordability Board, which would set price caps for high-cost pharmaceuticals. (link)
Minnesota Dems created new worker protections for Amazon warehouse workers and refinery workers. (link)
Minnesota Dems passed a digital fair repair law, which requires electronics manufacturers to make tools and parts available so that consumers can repair their electronics rather than purchase new items. (link)
Minnesota Dems made Juneteenth a state holiday. (link)
Minnesota Dems banned conversion therapy. (link)
They spent nearly a billion dollars on a variety of environmental programs, from heat pumps to reforestation. (link)
Minnesota Dems expanded protections for pregnant and nursing workers - already in place for larger employers - to almost everyone in the state. (link)
Minnesota Dems created a new child tax credit that will cut child poverty by about a quarter. (link)
Minnesota Democrats dropped a quick $50 million into homelessness prevention programs. (link)
And because the small stuff didn't get lost in the big stuff, they passed a law to prevent catalytic converter thefts. (link)
Minnesota Dems increased child care assistance. (link)
Minnesota Dems banned "captive audience meetings," where employers force employees to watch anti-union presentations. (link)
No news story yet, but Minnesota Dems forced signal priority changes to Twin Cities transit. Right now the trains have to wait at intersections for cars, which, I can say from experience, is terrible. Soon that will change.
Minnesota Dems provided the largest increase to nursing home funding in state history. (link)
They also bumped up salaries for home health workers, to help address the shortage of in-home nurses. (link)
Minnesota Dems legalized drug paraphernalia, which allows social service providers to conduct needle exchanges and address substance abuse with reduced fear of incurring legal action. (link)
Minnesota Dems banned white supremacists and extremists from police forces, capped probation at 5 years for most crimes, improved clemency, and mostly banned no-knock warrants. (link)
Minnesota Dems also laid the groundwork for a public health insurance option. (link)
I’m happy for the people of Minnesota, but as a Floridian living under Ron DeSantis & hateful Republicans, I’m also very envious tbh. We know that democracy can work, and this is a shining example of what government could be like in the hands of legislators who actually care about helping people in need, and not pursuing the GOP’s “culture wars” and suppressing the votes of BIPOC, and inflicting maximum harm on those who aren’t cis/het, white, wealthy, Christian males. BRAVO MINNESOTA. This is how you do it. 👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿👏🏿
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@thebibliosphere y'all are in Minnesota, right, or did I remember that wrong?
Yep! It's been staggering to watch what our Dems are pushing through at the moment. Staggering and hopeful.
Epic Legislative Energy
A hard zero for me.
One for me. AKA "Old fuck"
Fuck. just one.
Never have I EVER had an AOL account! That was just a sad move even back in the day. The cool kids were Hookers. And EarthLink.
Speaking of therapy, I say, as though we're old friends, and you're not a stranger trapped in this metaphorical elevator with me and you can hear the suspension wires starting to fray.
I've been doing a lot of work recently that's focused on imposter syndrome and the feeling that no matter how well or how much I do, I'm not good enough. That I'm somehow tricking everyone into thinking my work is actually good.
Some days it's a minor niggle in my head that I can gentle and soothe with logic and affirmations. Or smother, depending on the mood. Other times it's loud and all-consuming and the mental anguish it causes me is so real I can feel it twitching in my muscles. This desperate fight-or-flight instinct with nowhere to go and nothing to fight but myself.
Anyway, because I'm several types of Mentally Unwell™, I was switching between workshop sheets ahead of next week. Filling in different forms. (Trying to get a good grade in therapy) And I got my "recognize your harmful ADHD coping mechanisms" worksheet mixed in with the "you're not actually lying to people, you just feel like you are because your brain is full of weasels" worksheet, and seeing them side by side made something go topsy turvy in my head, and I just had to sit and breathe for a couple of minutes until the urge to scream passed. Because it clicked, it all suddenly clicked.
The reason the imposter syndrome workshops and therapy sessions aren't sticking was because I do routinely trick people into thinking I'm someone I'm not.
Because I'm masking my ADHD for their convenience.
I've always known there was something wrong with me. My neurotypical peers made it abundantly clear I didn't fit in or was failing in some way I couldn't see nor remedy, no matter how hard I tried.
So I compressed myself into a workaholic box of hyper-competence in the hopes they'd stop noticing the flaws and exploit like me instead. And then subsequently lived with the daily fear that if they looked too close, they'd realize I'm a monumental fuck up with enough personal baggage to block the Suez Canal.
If you ever need someone to burn themselves to ashes for your comfort and convenience, I'm your gal.
Or I used to. Until I had a bit of a breakdown, and the rubber band holding my brain together snapped and pinged off into the stratosphere, never to be seen again.
Unfortunately, the trauma of living like that didn't also fuck off and instead left a gaping maw where my personality ought to be, so now I get to deal with that aftermath.
And it's that aftermath that's affecting the imposter syndrome shit. Because yes, I am hyper-competent and good at what I do-- but it doesn't feel real because that is how I mask.
And the truly frustrating thing is I am good at what I do. I am not pretending. I worked hard to be good at this. It just feels like I'm dicking around because 90% of my personality turns out to be trauma masquerading as humor in a trenchcoat, and having people genuinely like something weird I'm doing is so foreign my brain has decided it's just another form of masking.
I'm pretending to be a good author so people will think I'm a good author, and my brain thinks we are in Danger of being found out. We are in Danger, and writing is Dangerous because then people will know I'm Weird and not whatever palatable version I've presented myself as for their NT sensibilities.
Like the neurotic vampire with a raging praise kink wasn't an obvious giveaway.
Anyway. I got nothing else. Thanks for listening.
I'm going to go be very normal in another room and not stare into the abyss of my own soul for a bit.
I brought this post up with my ADHD therapist today (who also has ADHD), and she got so still that I thought our Zoom call had frozen.
Turns out she just needed to stare into her soul for a bit and it looked like this:
My box of weasels and I applaud you.
Too many of you conceptualize trans men as having access to all the advantages of cis womanhood and cis manhood combined, when the reality is that most of us just see the disadvantages of failed manhood and failed womanhood combined
All trans people are Schroedinger's Gender. You are simultaneously both and also neither male and female, man and woman, depending on what they feel would hurt you most at the time. This can change day to day, hour to hour, even minute to minute.
Examples:
Trans woman who is told she can't change her gender marker on her ID, takes off her shirt in a parking lot to change and is arrested for public indecency for her female-presenting nipple exposure, and is currently housed in a men's prison. What gender is she? The gender that hurts her the most at the time. Both and yet neither. Because fuck you that's why.
Trans man who requests to compete in boys' wrestling, forced to compete with the girls instead. Punished for "flashing" his bottom growth while taking a shower in the locker room. School's parents want him kicked out of sports because he keeps winning by a *lot* when he wrestles the girls, saying it's not fair to make the girls compete in strength with his testosterone. During yet another meeting where he requests to wrestle the boys, he's yet again denied *despite this* because he's a girl. Eventually beaten up by the boys at school mad that he's thrashing their girlfriends. Boys justify it by saying it's okay to hit him because he's not "really" a girl. What gender is he? Whatever gender he can be punished with at the time. Both and yet neither. Because fuck you that's why.
I didn't pull these out of my head. They're real people, real transgender stories I've been told either through news or firsthand accounts.
It's the same toxic bs "you can choose to be not gay" because that implies you can choose to be gay. And honestly, who would ever choose something that just makes life unnecessarily hard? No one chooses to change their gender because "how cool would that be‽"
Wintertime Sunrise 0ver Niagara Falls
Headed there for the first time day after tomorrow!
favorite ship dynamics:
1) soft, sweet, basically married, just haven’t admitted to themselves or each other yet.
2) Person A is emotionally a skittish feral cat and person B has to gently “pst pst” them into a relationship
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For anyone looking to describe wind in fic! Beaufort Wind Scale. I found some of these descriptions amusing.
Update: Sorry this is so hard to read. I may type it out when I have a minute.
Further update: Source is The Complete Sailor by David Seidman which is really very helpful and well written!
First time I took himself sailing in our new Cal28 he mistook the gale force 1.5 for a gale force 7. Turned around and went back to the marina and she never left the dock again in the years we owned her. She was just a pied au Mer from then on. Wonder if he would do better now that the PTSD is treated and under some control...
