Sarn Cobin

|| love is a scary place ||

[sarncobin]

Dear R,

I still love you. Why? I’m not quite sure. You will forever be my first love, and that’s something I can’t seem to shake. I say that I hope you’re happy with her, the girl you were with when we were still together. I really don’t mean it though. I hope you realize what you did. I have a lot of questions though, like did you tuck her hair behind her ear like you did with me? Did you tell her that story of how you got sick? Oh and do you remind her everyday that she’s your “queen”, a name you use to call me? I hate you, but I love you. I hate the way you listen to rap and know the lyrics to every song. I hate how you laugh when you make a joke. I hate that smile you get when you are with your friends. I hate the way you held me in your arms as we fell asleep. I hate the way you kept every momentum from our time together. I hate it all. But everything I hate about you, I also love.

[sarncobin]

“Love me for who I am, not who you want me to be.”

dear future lover

[sarncobin]

“I say I will forgive, but not forget. But I can’t do that because I still haven’t forgiven him.”

it’s been 6 months

[sarncobin]

“If you told me you love me one more time, I’d probably believe you. And that’s the worst thing I could do to myself.”

please don’t tell me you love me

[sarncobin]

“I didn’t leave him because I fell out of love. I left him because we never fell in love.”

i don’t love him

[sarncobin]

“To infinity and beyond is how I’d describe my love for him. Not to the moon and back though because that implies that my love for him can be quantified.”

I love him

[sarncobin]

You are my sunshine. My one and only sunshine. So please, just shine a little longer because I’m just a sunflower who still needs to grow.

to my keeper

[sarncobin]

“He told me that I was cute and I believed him. I believed every single word that came from his mouth. And I still do. Why? Because I know that I can’t handle the truth. And the truth is. He doesn’t like me. He never did.”

— Sarn

[melony0925-blog]

UGHGHGFGGFGGGFGGGGGGGGHHHHH

[sarncobin]

that’s my mood 24/7 🙃

[sarncobin]

He knew that I trusted him with all my heart and he also knew not to break the most basic rule in a relationship because I am not one to give second chances. Yet, he cheated anyways. And all I can say, I hope karma serves you well.

[sarncobin]

I’m Sorry / Update // Where I’be Been

Hey everyone, long time no see! So I’ve been in the hospital for awhile and I got out a little over a month ago and I’m still trying to adjust. I had zero access to the internet since I was in the hospital for my depression and anxiety, while I was there, I was diagnosed with PTSD. But, life is good so far and I am in a relationship with a really good guy. I will try to post at least once a day! Feel free to msg me if you want to talk or have any questions! I hope everything is going well for all of you!

[sarncobin]

I don’t think I’ve ever been in love. But, whatever I’m feeling is pretty damn close. He makes my heart skip two beats. He makes me long for his kiss. Now, maybe long distance isn’t easy, but it is worth it.

[sarncobin]

Please tell me what made you think you were the center of my universe. Please tell me what made you think that I wouldn’t be able to move on after you. Please tell me why you thought I’d still love you after everything you did. All I can say is I am glad it’s over. But no, I’m not over you.

[sarncobin]

Darling, I'll never stop loving you.

Even though you stopped loving me.

[sarncobin]

Maybe be with you is worse than being alone.

something i'll never tell you

[sarncobin]

I loved you.

I loved you so damn much.

But, all you ever saw me as was another pretty face to look at.

So, I'm sorry that I am no longer a pretty face to look at.

[sarncobin]

Some people said you had blue eyes. But when I looked at your eyes, I saw the heavens merging with the oceans. I saw specks of gold drifting through the air. I saw a boy whose heart was big enough to love anyone. However, my eyesight wasn’t 20/20. So, what was really there was just a boy with blue eyes, whose heart was too small to love anyone like me.

s.c. (via sarncobin)

[sarncobin]

Some say pain is what makes us human. But what they forget to mention is that the cause of pain is also human.

s.c.