Monette

23 Queer

[saudade-sorrows]

I’m grasping at straws of affection with my hands tied behind my back and a blindfold over my eyes.

- M.D

[saudade-sorrows]

I want nothing and everything

All at once

I want to be wanted

But don't want to beg for attention

Is that too much to ask for?

[saudade-sorrows]

I don't want to be loved by everyone

I don't even want to be loved by someone

Unless that someone is Me,

But even I give myself unrequited feelings

[saudade-sorrows]

If we were in full control of our breaths, we would never be breathing

If we were in control of our heartbeats, our hearts would never beat again

If I was in control of myself, I would never shed another tear

But I control nothing but my legs, and even then they wander through streets I'm barely aware of without my permission

In the end I am not my own master, and we are masters of nothing that is our own

[saudade-sorrows]

I remember the feeling of hands against my skin

I remember kisses on my forehead and cheek as she lays half awake

I remember the sleepy smile she wore after saying my name

And I remember her tears after I said we were over

And I remember the feeling of heartbreak

[saudade-sorrows]

She set me on fire with every word she had ever spoken,

but I didn't know until the end

that the flames she created were to burn me alive.

I always believe they were to keep me warm,

But instead I was left charred and my heart gaping open

[saudade-sorrows]

She was like broken shards of a mirror

Every piece of her jagged and rough

One wrong move and I'd be cut

Left to bleed while she continues slicing

But she was breath taking all the same

She reflected everything beautiful with every last shard

The moon

The mountains

The blades of grass that were slightly too long

The flowers that weren't quite dead

The sea and all its rage

The desert and all its humidless hate

Everything was beautiful in her presence

Even I was beautiful as I lay bleeding from her touch

But I could bleed forever if it meant seeing the world in her eyes

And I will forever be content feeling the sun on my dulling skin with every smile she aims my way

[whitepeopletwitter]

[siriusf12]

have you ever stayed up late with someone texting or chatting and known as the hours ticked by that you’d be ridiculously tired in the morning but it didnt matter because it was really fun and totally worth losing sleep over just to laugh with someone and enjoy their company maybe and then the next day you keep tiredly recalling how much fun it was

[saudade-sorrows]

I just want to dance in the rain with my future wife as we listen to Girl in Red

[really-sleep-deprived-nerd]

Yes yes I KNOW I lost my Soulmate AU rights but hear me out:

Zukka Soulmate’s AU

Just think about the possibilities:

If its one of those au’s where you can immediately tell when someone is your soulmate, imagine them meeting on the south pole, both of them freezing for a second.

Sokka feeling numb, having this horrible realization that he found his soulmate but he is not only an evil fire nation soldier, he is the one sent to destroy the only hope the world has left and also the person leading the attack on his home.

Zuko realizing he is never actually going to be able to just be with his soulmate, realizing that his father would never ever allow it and would probably kill his soulmate if he ever found out who he was, and that no matter what happened or what he did this was only going to end in heartbreak.

And after that second is over, they just:

“I’m sorry” Says Zuko, not being exactly sure about what he is apologizing for, if for attacking his village, for meeting this way or for the inevitable heartbreak.

“You don´t have to do this.”

“I…”Zuko hesitates for a second, before shaking his head with a pained look on his eyes and continuing, “You don’t understand, I have to. I just want to go home. I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry too.”

And then shit goes down mostly as in canon, except that Zuko is trying very hard to like, not ACTUALLY hurt either his soulmate or his soulmate’s sister and everytime they fight eachother they are like:

Zuko, using his swords so he doesn’t accidentally burn any of them: So, how have you been?

Sokka, dodging and swinging at Zuko with his club: Not great, Katara and Aang have been INSUFFERABLE with their sappy soulmate shit lately.

Zuko, jumping out of the way: Oh, yeah, that sucks.

Katara, sending Zuko flying with her water: You do know I can hear you, right?

And then he actually turns joins the gaang on Ba Sing Se and Sokka has never been happier.

Or think about one where they don’t realize immediately. Maybe they have matching marks that are in a place where the clothes usually hide them or if you can tell from the mark which nation your soulmate is from then maybe Sokka was told to cover it so other people wouldn’t judge him for it and Zuko was forced to hide it or dear old dad would burn that too.

It doesn’t matter why, but they don’t realize that they are soulmates until AFTER Zuko finally joins the gaang. 

There are different ways we could play with the big reveal, maybe they are on the beach on ember island and when wearing nothing more than their swimming trunks they can finally see that their mark matches or maybe it happened in the Boiling Rock, where Zuko ended up wearing that top without sleeves or maybe after Zuko decides that his dad can Get Fucked he just stops covering his soulmark and Sokka sees it and is about to have a heart attack because What The Fuck Zuko Is My Soulmate.

It really doesn’t matter how we do it, but the Reveal Happens and they just talk.

“I’m sorry.” Zuko says, because of course he thinks this is somehow his fault.

“It’s fine, I know you’re good now and you’ve already apologized for-”Sokka starts but Zuko interrupts him.

“No,” Zuko says softly, “I’m sorry that you are stuck with me. You deserve better than a disgraced prince that has made way too many mistakes and probably doesn’t deserve the chance he’s been given to redeem himself.”

And Sokka maybe just wants to cry a little bit because How Is Zuko Real and just hugs him tight and reassures him that it’s fine, more than fine really. 

But no matter how we do it, one thing stays constant: When Sokka finds out exactly HOW Zuko got his scar he doesn’t freak out or anything, no, no, everything is fine, it’s just that now Aang doesn’t have to worry about killing the Fire Lord because Sokka is going to do it himself-

Sokka, its fine-

It is absolutely NOT fine and I am going to kill your father-

Sokka no-

[saudade-sorrows]

PROPER ATLA SHIPS

Zuko x Sokka

Katara x Aang

Mai x Suki

Tylee x Azula

Toph x Haru (I just think this would be cute)

[saudade-sorrows]

I need a highschool Au where Sokka and Zuko are both gay af but refuse to admit it until Katara is done with their shit.

But I'm talking Sokka is like a varsity soccer player and we know Zuko's dramatic gay ass has to be in drama club.

Like just imagine how fucking good that would be.

[saudade-sorrows]

I am going to marry her.

[reallyreallife]

[cataradical]

it wa

was a graveyar

graveyard smash

[saudade-sorrows]

Saddest part about this is that I did that.

[homemadehonies]

i love women like i love warm pizza and hot cocoa and rain and fog and indie coffee shops. i want to be home to each other, but not feel homeless without each other because women aren’t warm pizza and hot cocoa and rain and fog and indie coffee shops. they’re people. i’m a person. i deserve time and space and also love and companionship.

[luidilovins]

Twilight series remake but the Cullen kids look like this

[cumarunaegii]

from the era they were in and the way their fucking characters are they would

[luidilovins]

that's my point its historically accurate

[cumarunaegii]

IM OBLITERATED 2000s TWILIGHT FANS WERE JUST SCENE KIDS OP YOUVE DONE IT. THE HOTTEST TWILIGHT TAKE

[saudade-sorrows]

I SAW JORDAN SWEETO AND JOHNNIE GUILBERT AT WARPED TOUR DURING MAY TWILIGHT PHASE