i am so fucking happy i can control my thoughts and am not 19 anymore you have no idea
i burned a lot of bridges when i was young by losing my fucking mind and hurting myself over perceived rejections. it hit me how little i care abt people texting me back now and a rush of joy flew thru me
its like, i couldn't grow up for so long. i was kept ignorant of myself. i was abused and i couldn't have long friendships, i was shuttled around so many different schools where i was isolated and beaten, i had one good friend but he died of disease. i entered my teens as a confused and attention starved puppy, i was selfish and unstable and i am so happy to finally be fucking GROWING UP
u can still call me puppy, but im gonna be a full grown dog soon


















