the musings of a paranoid man

Jasper | 29 | agender (he/they) | main: cosmic-vulture | i try to tag things but if i miss any let me know!

[koiagain]

i forgot Most people are not always in the state of cowering in the corner like a scared dog. y’all just be doing stuff

[kosmogrl]

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

hi

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

actually i want to be alone rn

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

no i dont... hi

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

i think i might need to be on my own rn

[artbylittlebug]

[ceruleanheaven]

i am always one wrong word away from being shot by all the people who find me tolerable

[apollosunn-moved-deactivated202]

anyone else relate

[midnightclover]

[aidaughter]

t shirt that says I PUT A NORMAL AMOUNT OF THOUGHT INTO STUFF

[psychotic-psypport]

The whole "it gets better" thing always used to feel disingenuous and unrealistic to me growing up as a delusional paranoid terrified psychotic kid with a self harm problem and a non-specific eating disorder but like

I was all of those things and I still got better, and that means I know what I'm saying when I say it gets better even for someone who is all of those things because it does. And it did.

If its hard to trust that it really does get better because its coming from people who dont know what youre up against, I promise there's people coming from the same place with the same hurts that can tell you it does.

I was so deeply unhappy as a kid and it was so hard to see a way out. I'm grown now and I'm so full of hope that little me would never believe it. It really does get better, I mean it.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

The intersection between 1) people diagnosed with schizophrenia facing the worst parts of the psych system at higher rates than most other psychiatrized people and frequently experiencing horrible psychiatric abuse, and 2) most people assuming that anyone diagnosed with schizophrenia is so insane that any supposed concerns or complaints they have about their treatment can be inherently dismissed as irrational and not worth seriously engaging with is the most dehumanizing thing to navigate like no wonder we're paranoid...

[grates]

petition for things to stop

[kosmogrl]

sorry I can’t hang out tonight. yeah I’m busy freaking out over things that might not even happen. yeah it’s gonna take a while

[forestdeity]

everything is divine punishment if youre delusional enough

[pinkhasivna]

[aboutoriginality]

[haleyincarnate]

Anaïs Nin, from Nearer the Moon: The Previously Unpublished Unexpurgated Diary, 1937-1939

[uncertainlys]

i hope everything works out in the end because i am so so scared

[angels-all-sin]

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