chaos and mayhem

// Scorney //

[scornedethnographer]

links and whatnot

catch me on AO3 - ScornedEthnographer

Can I ask you a question? (Andreil - 1.2k)

It’s Simple Enough (Andreil - 17.5k)

Endless Discontent (Jerejean - 11.5k)

[amrv-5]

Does anyone know what to do about the temperature and also the prices

[scornedethnographer]

Don't mind me screaming into the void.

I have two groups of friends friends without kids and friends with kids. My friends with kids are literally having kids right now ie they have babies and lives and everything feels very heavy with them sometimes. I have a kid now, a wonderful amazing baby girl who is 5 months old. I breastfeed her so I can't go more than 2-3 hours away from her, and i just have this instinctual need to be close to her and with her. She is so sweet and is so go with the flow but motherhood is really difficult right now. The muscle pain, severe lack of sleep, isolation etc. Even when my baby sleeps i can't. I have anxiety or just want some peace and quiet where no one wants anything from me. I get up 1 or 2 times a night to feed her and sp multiple times a day I'm getting woken up by screaming every single day. My milk is made from my blood and if I don't eat properly I feel like all my nutrients are being sucked out of me and it's just another thing I have to do is feed myself and feed myself well. I'm so exhausted to being with and also I feel so ooooo isolated from my friends. I have friends that have reached out but I have no energy to be a person and no ability to be there for others. Its so complicated and I feel so alone socially and like I have no place to be vulnerable. My friends without kids literally don't understand how difficult it is and it's their right like how would they know but I asked my friend to come visit me 45 min bus ride away and she basically said it would be a waste of a night even though I spent years traveling 45 minutes on public transport to hang out with her. I feel like I've tried so hard to accommodate my friends and be there for them and they won't do the same for me and I've tried talking to this friend about it and even basically begged for her to be there for me when I was pregnant and was basically told it's just the way she is and so when I can't put in basically all the effort we're not close at all because I guess im not worth putting the effort in for. I'm simplifying it and im sure if you asked any of my friends they would have a laundry list of ways im not a good friend and times they've reached out and I've rejected them and I can think myself into.the ground around all these dynamics and things I've missed and ways I could have been a better friend but I guess I just want to be loved and taken care of by my friends even when i have nothing to offer. I want to be valued even when I don't want anyone to hold my baby bc everyone kisses her and I'm the one that's up with her at 2am when shes sick. I'm exhausted with being forgotten by my stoner friends who are avoidant and im just tired of not being as valued as I value my friends. I hate being easily forgotten and I hate that no one has fought for my friendship. The void lives on I need to let it go.

[cages-boxes-hunters-foxes]

taylorswift and killatrav: Your English teacher and your gym teacher are getting married 🧨 (x)

[chaoticgremelin]

Neil and Andrew seeing that Kevin covered his tattoo, getting ecstatic about it and then making out is for me the most Kandreil moment in canon

I swear, if Kevin wasnt drunk as hell, both Andrew and Neil would make out with him at that point

Like, those are quotes from the book:

-"Neil's whole body felt on fire, he couldn't remember the last time he was so excited about something"

And

-"Andrew smiled from beside Neil, it was the first time he smiled since coming off the drugs"

Hello?????? This is all towards Kevin and it is so fucking gay. They both looked like they were about to kiss Day right there, and I will die on this hill

[taylorswift]

You belong with me. 💚💛💜❤️🩵🖤

Letter on my site :)

[scornedethnographer]

get to know me tag

thank you @yourinsomnea for the tag! Im keeping your emojis cuz they're cute!

🎵 last song you played: Grand Theft Autumn by Fall Out Boy, immediately followed up by Like A Girl Does by Peach PRC. The duality of woman.

☕coffee or tea: TEA! omg all the tea. I had a rare cup of coffee today and lemme tell you it is Not Going Well!

🍿currently watching: Big Mouth and also The Handmaid Tale

📖currently reading: god I wish I were reading something. Anyone else feel like if you're not reading something soul sucking, life has no meaning? No? Just me? cool cool cool cool - I actually forgot I'm actually listening to the audiobook of The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown - does that count?

🌸favorite color: the color of the sky right when it hits night like a deep dark blue

🌊 currently craving: the ability to shut my brain off 🤗 🫶

np tagging: @poetic-ivy @perfectly-fuckingcivil @justadreamfox @millportisntreal

[poetic-ivy]

Welcome To The Neighborhood, Now Die

Nextdoor is the only social media Kevin Day uses. Nextdoor is the only social media Andrew Minyard uses just for fun. Nextdoor is the only known social media 'John Doe' uses — also just for fun?

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K. D. Palmetto Pointe Apartments • 6w ago RESIDENTS OF BUILDING 3… If Someone Bangs On The Wall… That Means Pipe The Fuck Down… NOT Get Louder! No One Wants To Hear Your Booty Call

Seth Gordon smh head so far up his ass he can’t enjoy a free show K. D. You Don’t Even Live Here Anymore. Cease Posting. A. Minyard counterpoint: if your phone alarm goes off, that means wake the fuck up and turn it off Seth Gordon o wait was it you? nvm quiet that shit down K. D. I Will Not Tolerate This Any Longer SETH GORDON. Serenity Cuts & Color by Renee Walker K. D. is right, homophobia will not be tolerated in our neighborhood. K. D. No SERENITY CUTS & COLOR BY RENEE WALKER He Doesn’t Even LIVE HERE.

T rating | Kandreil | No Exy AU | Social Media AU | Dog Trainer Kevin Day | 4.1k Words

Read the whole fic here on AO3

my @aftgexchange piece for @scornedethnographer is very late but very here at last!! i hope you enjoy it!!

[surairas]

pre-tfc , extra content :

the raven king, chapter eight :

the king's men, chapter ten :

the king's men, chapter seventeen :

kandrew [ w/ neil ] + the 2 year quest

[taviacoolcat]

say whatever you want about jeremy and neil's relationship, but they both have the unique experience of thinking the boy they like is more interested in renee walker

[thememedaddy]

[korakos]

>>> the perfect court the foxhole court the raven king the king's men the sunshine court the golden raven the broken cage >>> the queen's game

Reblog to let prev know their presence is wanted

[mooniism]

this is the most real thing ever (og post from @makmbethke on twitter!! <3)

[stillgotscars]

guilty as sin? - taylor swift

[scornedethnographer]

hey remember when Andrew and Neil did a shot and then made out in the kitchen of the cabin?

[luna-azzurra]

Vibes for Softly Tortured Characters

For the ones who make you want to wrap them in a blanket and also scream “JUST TALK TO SOMEONE.”

Always looks like they didn’t sleep (because they didn’t)

Talks like they’re about to say something else, but never does

Constantly touches their sleeves/jewelry/lip, like if they’re not holding something, they’ll fall apart

Laughs too easily, but it never quite reaches their eyes

Over-apologizes for things no one noticed

Craves affection but flinches when they get it

Body language = trying to take up as little space as possible

Flashes of unexpected rage, like pressure finally cracking glass

Always says “I’m fine” in a tone that screams “Please ask again”

Cries alone, then wipes their face like it’s a secret

Feels safest in chaos because stillness feels like waiting for pain

Thinks being loved means being a burden

Cannot remember the last time they were truly, fully relaxed

Keeps people at arm’s length, but is the first to drop everything if someone else needs help

Treats their own joy like it's a luxury they didn’t earn