won’t outrun it if you don’t hit back

call me murder 🍉 || she/they || ao3 - scottishgremlin

[scottishgremlin]

#murder rambles = my posts

#murder’s fics = my fic (also on ao3)

#murder’s red string = my web weaves

follow @fencesummernationals for updates on the fandom event i’m running this summer!

tired writer/web weaver/media analysis enthusiast. i enjoy making my favourite characters suffer. open to fence drabble/web weave requests and general asks (inbox)!

mostly fence (comic, 2017) but also whatever book/tv/film/music i happen to be enamoured with at a given point in time.

[l to r, top to bottom: seiji katayama, sara eriksson, alice law, coriolanus snow, lady macbeth, izzy hands, august horn of årnäs, aiden kane]

[charseraph]

[not drawing voice] I miss my character.

[coldgoldlazarus]

[not writing voice] I miss my character.

[will-gr4ham]

Geeked vs locked in

[ilovebylerandstonathan]

All the credit to @corpsephrog

[zurin]

[goofybears]

How I feel turning every song I listen to about yearning into Aiden and Harvard

[flowerbleedme]

My incredibly bleak philosophy of compassion is that we should all pity each other horribly and practice an according amount of kindness.

[flowerbleedme]

I asked for a pastry at the coffee shop. When I raised my card up to pay, he simply said "you're good." and waved it away. I wondered why. I wondered what made him think I deserved to have my order be free. Sparing me those two dollars.

Sitting down at the table, I remembered the scars on my arm. The universal signifier of "This Kid Needs Help." Maybe his kindness was only out of pity. He saw those and assumed there was some great misery and wanted to offer me some relief. It's generally good to be kind to people who are hurting. But I wasn't hurting that bad.

The thing is, there is some great misery. People generally aren't doing that great. There is a great misery within me and within him and within everyone, and some people notice the pain, some people express it, others don't. But we all suffer from something.

It doesn't matter if someone seems to deserve some relief. Everyone needs it. Everyone is suffering constantly. Some more than others, but still. This Kid Needs Help applies to everyone.

Thirty minutes later, I went to get a second pastry, intending to pay and leave a tip this time. It was the same cashier. As he reached to grab it for me, I saw scars on his arm.

But it doesn't really matter. He'd deserve a tip anyway. Because it's never just us hurting.

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[aidashakur]

You literally just have to get really good at continuing.

[guiigemar]

never met a sentence i couldn't make incredibly long

[doitbuckley]

[bluedalahorse]

happy pride? 🌈

@coruscantrhapsody: *shows up in my room* @coruscantrhapsody: can I show you my new sticker? I think it really describes me the sticker: says “Gay Trash” on it me: oh. me: I’m Gay Recycling.

[scottishgremlin]

happy pride i love being queer i love being trans i hate terfs i hate amatonormativity send tumblr post

[stormbreaker101]

I LOVE COLLABORATIVE SOTRYTELLING I LOVE CREATING THINGS TOGETHER I LOVE "YES AND"ING WITH OTHERS I LOVE "NO BUT WHAT ABOUT-"S I LOVE HEARIJG MY FRIENDS' IDEAS I LOVE BOUNDING OFF OF THEM I LOVE ART I LOVE STORIES I LOVE ALL THE DIFFERENT PASSIONS AND SKILLS REQUIRED I LOVE ALL THE DIFFERENT MEDIA IT TAKES I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE

[isabelopaque]

Im tired of not speaking my truth to stay uncouth. We simply must torture The Character in perverse and cruel ways for my enjoyment and pleasure. Guards begin

[nondelphic]

writing is just sitting in front of a computer and making up problems for imaginary people while ignoring your own. fun and casual hobby.

[queerphil]

essentially

[diphowell]

And it's me and you That's all we'll have when the world is through