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waking up from a violent nightmare and realising i never felt consistency safe as a child. ok
Proteomics International soared 24pc to 75c on news its PromarkerEndo test could successfully diagnose all stages of endometriosis, which af
This is fucking excellent news. Researchers in Australia have managed to achieve near perfect results for a blood test that can detect endometriosis.
Until now endometriosis has only been diagnosable through invasive abdominal surgery.
This is an amazing game changer.
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i followed my taper scedule and took my last dosage of duloxetin about 2 weeks ago and uhhh have been doing pretty bad since then :( what theyre describing here as PAWS has hit me hard. physical feelings of irritabilty, intense anxiety, inabilty to focus on anything, no joy left in me, i'm not interested in anything i'm shaking having hotflashes, out of breath & close to tears all the time.
i hope this goes away soon? the anxiety feels familiar. there were definitely times in my life where that was just my normal state of being so i'm worried this aspect will stay with me
my og dose wasnt high (only 45mg when usually its betwen 60-120mg) but i was on it for almost 4 years...... i have to take better care of myself atm to help with these symtoms but it all feels so overwhelming
so i dont remember exactly how long it took after this post but after some more weeks eventually i felt better. the physical symptoms lasted for only a bit longer after this (maybe 2 more weeks?) and the mental effects slowly evened out over the rest of the summer. by fall i felt normal again.
i am fine now. but it was brutal. i will not be trying duloxetin ever again.
my cat recently got diagnosed with a pretty serious illness so now i have to emotionally deal with coming to terms with his mortality and also the fact that i literally don't have the money for his treatment
for the past week straight I have been so nauseous i genuinely don't know what to do
i have some money saved up but it's not gonna last till the end of the year. I'm slowly bleeding my savings account dry and then. and then nothing. i feel like I'm gonna throw up
Working on home health will make you quickly realize that there are so, so, so many profoundly disabled people that general society doesn’t see, how much support they need to live at all—like baseline living, not even talking about quality of life—and how extremely fragile that support system is.
happy holidays to all the bedbound people, whether it’s your first year spending the holidays in bed or your tenth, whether you’re in pain or having an easier day, whether people come to visit you in bed or not, whether you’re feeling up or down, or angry or alienated. there are people out there just like you and people who understand.
being sick & miserable objectively sucks, but it has become significantly easier to cope with since learning that “sickness behavior” is a well documented part of the body’s immune response
feeling not only physically but also emotionally like fucking garbage is unfortunately an extremely effective way to force your body to prioritize fighting infection & keeping you alive. i don’t have to like it, but knowing why i get weepy & pathetic when sick does help at least a little
hello! i just saw your post on bc and first of all i'm happy you found a medication that works for you!! but seeing your post was also kind of funny bc just yesterday i was contemplating writing my own post on bc (mabe we both saw the same tradwife post that inspired us? maybe you have different reasons) but ultimatly decided against it. this paragraph of yours really spoke to me
I have noticed a dramatic increase in criticism about hormonal contraceptives and I think we should keep in mind our current political climate and who such messages may be benefiting.
and it's true! i wanted to make a post talking about my own personal negative experiences but for the exact reason you mention here decided that maybe i shouldn't post what i have to say publically. i don't want to risk my personal experience to be misconstrued to serve some conservative agenda.
idk you don't have to publish this, the risk of attracting discourse (and people with ill intend) is simply too high. i just wanted to vent that blankly painting this medication as "evil" doesn't just hurt those who benifit from it. it also hurts those of us for whom it isn't the right choice. who had severe/adverse side effects. because now theres no place for me to talk about it without attracting esoteric misogynists, no place for me to talk about it without alarming, frightning, potentially hurting and upsetting those for whom it did work, because usually the only people who have anything negative to say on hormonal medication are those who are trying to ban it (and never even in my wildest nightmares would i desire to take medication away from those who benifit from it) no place to seek out genuine medical information on alternatives - again here i am swamped with esoteric misogynistic garbage.
idk what the solution is here and i dont expect you to know either, i just wanted to let you know that i agree with our post, even from the other side. thank you for reading.
I've been thinking a lot about this. My intention was to make people think critically about what they are seeing these days about birth control. I did not make this with the intent of having anyone stop from talking about their personal experience. I have noticed a significant increase in criticism of hormonal contraceptives which I do not beleive to be coincidental to the time and climate we are in. I have not seen other people talking about that or criticizing this trend.
A lot of it is not specific but vague statements like "being on that stuff is so bad for you" "you shouldn't be on that very long" "x person was so different on birth control" Etc etc. And age old false claims like "birth control harms your fertility later" coming back in full.
These messages at first were troubling but I could ignore them coming from conservative spaces. However more and more I'm seeing them pretty main stream with very blasé matter of fact statements like "if you're on bc you should seriously get off and see how much better you feel" and such. This is from people who I wouldn't expect to, for lack of a better word "fall for it" when it comes to anti birth control messaging.
If someone is on birth control and having no problems why would they "feel so much better" off it? My guess is this stems from some grain of truth that an individual who was actually suffering from side effects of birth control decided to stop taking it, only to find they hadn't realized just how bad the effects were until they were off completely. That type of story gets twisted in to these sweeping statements about how "bad" birth control is.
A hell of a lot of people take birth control compared to most other medications. There are then bound to be a lot of people who have unfortunately experienced the worst side effects and risks of it. It is not a crime to be one of those people or to share that experience.
There has also got to be a lot of people like me who mostly don't think about their birth control since it's such a non issue. And like many things we aren't that likely to talk about something that's working just fine.
So for my part I want to say I love hormonal contraceptives. My birth control changed my life for the better. It has dealt with the pain of my probable endo. I'm free because of birth control. I'm sorry for people who have had negative experiences and I hope their health provider has suggested alternatives for birth control for them that will work.
Hormonal birth control is not the devil. There is more than one type of Hormonal contraceptive, so if side effects of one make it not worth taking, trying another may work for you if you are interested.
Birth control, like nearly any medication does come with side effects and risks. Speaking with your doctor about it is the only way to make your own decision about if you want to use it.
I personally have been on hormonal contraception for over a decade and personally notice no negative side effects. This is certainly luck in part for me, but I know many people for whom the pill is totally fine with limited or no side effects.
Risk vs benefits have to be weighed personally. It is worth noting that the risks of hormonal contraception are all less than the risks of pregnancy (which is why this medication is approved for use).
I have noticed a dramatic increase in criticism about hormonal contraceptives and I think we should keep in mind our current political climate and who such messages may be benefiting.
Your personal experience with hormonal birth control may be negative, and I am sorry if this is the case. I am even more sorry if your doctor failed to properly educate you on the potential risks and side effects of these medications before you took them. It just needs to be understood that this is not a universal experience.
Please remember when watching or reading anything positive or negative about hormonal contraception that you fact check with a reliable source to see if it is accurate. There are many articles that are plainly false or which take bits of truth and mix it in with made up information. Talk to your health provider about what is right for you.
Hormonal birth control got me my life back when I was in extreme pain every period. I am eternally grateful for it. I am also grateful for the birth control function now that I am in a relationship and we are not yet ready for children.
An international research team has determined the first high-resolution structures of the herpes simplex virus origin-binding protein (OBP),
An international research team has determined the first high-resolution structures of the herpes simplex virus origin-binding protein (OBP), a critical component of viral DNA replication that has eluded structural characterization for four decades. The findings, published in Nucleic Acids Research, reveal unexpected mechanisms for how the virus initiates DNA replication and identify multiple promising targets for next-generation antiviral drugs.
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Sending love to everyone who has health issues or chronic pain in parts of your body that aren’t usually socially acceptable to talk about. It’s frustrating to feel like you can never explain your pain to someone because it’s TMI and to feel like you have to hide it. Your pain is nothing to be ashamed of. I see you, and I’m sending you support and strength.
i need to talk to my doctor about anxiety meds, this cannot be my life
Ok breaking containment for this one because I need everyone who will listen to hear this.
Women who suffer bad cramps are told cramps shouldn't affect school/work/etc, but no one ever investigates further because no one can possibly know if what someone experiences is just typical pain or something much worse.
Well after 15 years of stage 4 treatment-resistant endometriosis that came with pain as bad as, if not worse than, actual labor contractions every month, all the while being told I was 'typical' and 'just had bad cramps', I've finally been healed (another post for another time). I have had what everyone describes as the elusive 'normal period pain' for several months now, and I am begging you to look me in the eyes and listen because I need everyone who can hear this to hear this.
I have been on both sides of this. I have the hard-earned knowledge of what a period 'should' feel like.
If you have to put in any effort to hide your cramps, you need to get help.
Even during of the PEAK OF CRAMPING (i.e., as bad as your cramps possibly get), you should still be able to stand, speak, walk, eat, work, and sleep with no problems. These tasks should require very-little-to-no extra effort beyond what you would normally do when you aren't on your period. When you do these things, you should feel grumpy and a little bit icky and maybe a twinge of nerves and NOTHING MORE.
If you have to sit in the corner and hope no one approaches you because you can't speak or stand without showing pain, even slightly, you need to get help. If your pain is showing on your face, you need to get help. And most importantly, IF YOUR PAIN DOES NOT RESPOND TO 1-2 TYLENOL OR IBUPROFEN, YOU NEED TO GET HELP.
Your period cramps should make you grumpy. Your period cramps should make you feel a little icky and tired. Your period cramps should make you feel your insides existing/moving a bit and a twinge of nerves that makes you groan slightly then the "pain" should stop there, NOTHING MORE.
If your cramps put you on the floor but you make believe you're the captain of a ship who has just been stabbed and has to hide it to fight on, and you force yourself to power through the day, please understand: you are not okay, that does not make you okay. Just because you can power through the pain doesn't mean you aren't sick. If you have to force yourself through any basic task beyond the effort it takes you to do when you aren't on your period, and I am holding your face and looking you in the eye as I say this because I need you to hear me: You aren't normal. You don't 'just have bad cramps'. You are sick and you need to get help.
Now most people will tell you if your cramps are beyond a 3 out of 10 on the pain scale, you should see a doctor. While this is usually true, you have to consider chronic pain CAN AND WILL BREAK YOUR PAIN SCALE. Most people will only compare pain they currently feel to pain they may experience one day but probably never will. "Sure these cramps feel bad now, but if I had a leg amputated with no anesthesia, that would hurt WAY worse, so this pain can't be that bad-" No. Your pain is what it is, objectively, full stop. My cramps were at a 10 out of 10 every. Single. Time. And nobody told me claiming they were a 6-8 because I thought to myself 'what if I lose a limb one day?' was completely wrong. 10 pain is 10 pain. And if there's something that hurts worse than that, guess what. The thing you are experiencing right now is still a 10 out of 10 on the pain scale. Just because you experience it every month doesn't mean it's magically not as bad is it is. And if your pain is worse than a 3 out of 10, you need to get help.
Now when I say get help, I mean find the root cause of your pain. You can't just throw drugs and hormones at it without knowing what it causing your pain. Endometriosis, fibroids, pcos, cancer, adenomyosis, polyps, thyroid issues, there is always a cause. And if you leave it untreated, it will grow and get worse to the point where it resists treatment and the drugs and hormones you've been throwing at it for years don't work anymore. You have to find a doctor that will investigate. If your doctor tells you you 'just have bad cramps' get a new doctor. I know you've been told that but please hear me: no one ever just has bad cramps. A healthy human body doesn't spontaneously cause itself pain so bad you can't stand up; there is ALWAYS a cause.
I was sick for more than 15 years. My entire life was put on hold and now I'm in my late 20s trying desperately to play catch up for everything I missed. I want to pick up 12yo me, spin her around, and tell her she doesn't have to die before she finally stops hurting. I don't want anyone to suffer the same fate I did simply because everyone told them they were normal. A little twinge of pain here and there is normal, suffering is not. I promise you your pain is real, it is not normal, and dear heavenly day I am begging you you need to get help now.
TL;DR: There is no such thing as 'just bad cramps.' If you feel anything more than grumpy, icky, and pain greater than a 3 out of 10, you need to find out what's wrong with you before it gets worse.
it remains really surprising and weird to me that americans have their medication in a bottle
but "a little bit every day" doesn't feel rewarding :(
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