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[selsthings]

bruise

from all the colors

of the paintings you’ve made of me

swirl the memories

hang the silence out to dry,

muse

- ‘bruise/muse’ 2025

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i love you too much to be friends

i miss you too much to be strangers

- ‘the paradox’ 2025

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I have only ever known you

as a fixture of that empty apartment—

the one you’d moved out of

two weeks ago.

did you take pause

when you packed up your things?

to think about the secrets

we shared by your bedroom.

sitting on the floorboards

that you’d just cleaned

for the next couple

moving in.

your fridge hums

as you clear it out forever.

it had heard us laugh.

it had been the witness

to whatever we had.

did you stop to remember,

as you pile your boxes

into neat little stacks,

how cinderella’s moon

lit the path behind the garden?

as we walked

in the circles

of our own conversations.

are you trying to forget?

the moving truck pulls up.

the sidewalk

orange from moth stricken streetlights

where we’d parted ways.

you looked back at me

one last time.

you arrive

somewhere empty

somewhere new.

there’s no trace of me.

you clean the floor for company

watch cinderella’s moon

peak in the sky again.

- ‘cinderella’s moon’ 2025

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i had a dream about you.

the letter I never sent

sits on your dining room table.

touched once

—maybe—

with enough interest

to see the name

that sits on the top left corner.

but never unfolded,

lost in the sea of bills.

buried under more pressing matters.

a paper bomb.

an afterthought.

- ‘paper bomb’ 2025

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Ash Like Snow (Gundam 00) English Cover

Lyrics by geekyfandubs Instrumental by fobia Song originally by the brilliant green cover image by Bonnie Tsui

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IN THE ORIGINAL KEY ??? 

Y’all, Soul Eater came out 14 years ago. *immediately crumbles into dust* 

Just a little throwback for us old folks, I've been feeling nostalgic recently. Perhaps the start of a bunch of throwback anime songs on this channel! Thanks for listening!

Also available on YouTube:

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Winter's Story (Fuyu no Hanashi 冬のはなし) English Cover

Song: Winter's Story (Fuyu no Hanashi 冬のはなし) From: GIVEN Vocals, Mixing, Instrumental: Selina Piano Sheet Music, Bridge Instrumental: www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5Fs6NSDWMk Lyrics: Anna

NOTE FROM THE LYRICIST: Hi!! I just wanted to add a quick disclaimer that I don’t speak Japanese at all, so what I wrote is purely transliteration based on the official English lyrics of the song and trying to rework them to fit the original style and melody. I tried my best to keep the spirit of the lyrics as close as possible, based on Mafuyu’s story in the series and a little bit of my own experiences. This was a very personal passion project that I never expected to see the light of day until my lovely friend asked if she could use the lyrics!!! So any lyrical mistakes or misrepresentations are all mine, but she absolutely knocked me out with this one folks, so good luck!!! Thank you for listening!!

Check out the lyric video here: 

LYRICS (please credit ‘Anna’ if using)

It’s like the snow that falls in shade and stays for days Despite the sun, it still won’t melt away It lingers like my heart lingers on you Hey, how does my heart let go of you Please tell me the words to say to close this door on you

Now everything you are to me Dissolves into a memory I’m wandering the dark alone I’m lost, I don’t know where to go You said you’d stay here by my side But didn’t even say goodbye You took that from me

It’s like you cast a spell that still has yet to break These thoughts of you, a curse I can’t erase I see you every time I close my eyes Hey, what kind of future can I see This town’s still haunted by your memory

These tears are trapped behind my eyes They’re always there, they’ve turned to ice They just keep you on my mind They don't release what’s trapped inside Your hand was always held in mine A love story for our whole life And now we’re just another tragedy

As everything you were to me Resolves into a memory You’ll live inside my heart, I know I think I see my way back home Although we never said goodbye I know you loved me which is why You’ll always be with me

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「Till I」 English Cover - SawanoHiroyuki[nZk]:優里 (Yuuri)

Watch the lyric video here:

LYRICS (please credit if using)

Memories are

Piercing my heart

All the moments bring me to the star

I want to know if truth is painful or not

When I ask, I feel so frail

 You can’t see the tears I cry

In traces where they once dried

Trail blazed across my messy mind

Where does the road go?

 'Cause I’m meant to be your peace until I die

No one wants to be alone

I'll leave my soul by your side

Though we fall apart between the hell's divide

I would seek you all along

For you I will stay the same

 The sound of your name

It still sounds the same

Disappearing back to where it came

I try to forget

The pain, I realize a lot

I can’t take your tender lies

 I was wrong to leave behind

The one I need to hold to

Cries

Swallowed down but you don’t mind

I did it all for you

 Don't let me be your wound

Wash off all you've been through

You’re safe now by my side

Lay down and close your eyes

 'Cause I’m meant to be your peace until I die

No one wants to be alone

I'll leave my soul by your side

Though we fall apart between the hell's divide

I would seek you all along

Your light that shines stays the same

 Till I die

By your side

Till I die

By your side

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YUURI - Dry Flower - ENGLISH Cover 【優里 /ドライフラワー】

Song: Dry Flower /ドライフラワー

Originally by: Yuuri / 優里

Instrumental: EdKara

Translation help: Kelana

Image credit

Lyrics, vocals, mixing: Selina

Check out the lyric video here:

LYRICS (please credit if using)

[Verse 1]

Well I guess it’s obvious I’m not the one for you

We could barely understand the other point of view

And even now I start a fight when we were on the mend

Sorry again…

 And I didn’t want to say what I was thinking then

But we might be better off we could just be friends

Every conversation felt like talking to a wall

You disagree but in the end I have to make the call

 [Pre-Chorus 1]

If we meet again, somewhere beyond this point in time

Will it be funny then? Leaving the misery behind

I never told you why, I lay awake on all those nights

I had to wait for you to fall asleep, so you don’t see me cry

 [Chorus 1]

You’re the voice, you’re the face, of a choice I can’t erase

All of you, all of you, there was nothing I would change

So I dry these flowers on the wall

Counting the memories made

With you with you with you with you

And watch as they fade

 [Verse 2]

Well I guess it’s obvious you’re not the one for me

I can’t imagine going back to that reality

When we would fight about the way someone said a word

Or who had it worse

 It was over and I thought I was gonna die

But every wound will close if you give it time

Now I see you moving on without me in your life

God I hope whoever comes around will treat you right

 [Pre-Chorus 2]

I don’t want to know how you are doing on your own

I don’t want to see who you’ve become in spite of me

Why are you such a pain, we’re on the phone like nothing changed

I had the chance to walk away from this, and yet I can’t resist

 [Chorus 2]

You’re the voice, you’re the face, of a choice I can’t erase

Even then, even now, there is nothing I would change

So I dry these flowers on the wall

Wishing how I could’ve stayed

With you with you with you with you

And watch as we fade

 [Bridge]

All my demons like to linger in the moonlight

Yeah I know that there’s a part of me that ain’t right

In the dark I see the colors of the daylight

 A heartbeat canvas colors my entire world blue

It will shine as I keep calling out for you

Love is sweet when you’re a flower out in full bloom

 [Chorus 3]

You’re the voice, you’re the face, of a choice I can’t replace

All of you, all of you, there was nothing I could do

So I dye these flowers as they fall

Every color and shade

In you in you in you in you

I won’t let them fade

Ah ah ah ah

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DAY6 - Colors [English Cover] (remastered)

Song: Colors 

Originally by: DAY6 

Instrumental: Kingmaan Lau 

Lyrics, vocals, mixing: Selina

Check out the lyric video here:

LYRICS (please credit if using)

I, I find myself alone again

Drowning in the darkness as this tunnel reaches its end

I walk blindly down this road

And where it leads nobody knows

I can’t see a single thing

And I can’t feel anything

 Pictures of my life flash in black and white

And the world I thought I knew no longer holds its light

Let me close my eyes close my eyes

It’s just easier if I don’t try

 Oh won’t you lead me home (won’t you?)

The colors of your soul

You’re the only thing I know that keeps the pieces of me left inside from letting go

 I reach out for you  

No matter how

Close I’m now

You get farther away

 I reach out for you  

Between the shades of day and night

Color me in light

So I don’t lose my way

 Colors, colors

 Breathless

Running to the water’s edge to hide

Wishing on those moments

Falling stars and oceans collide

 I still wander through these empty lands

Forever holding out my hand

Touch me like a midnight summer rain

And let it wash away the pain

 Oh won’t you lead me home (won’t you?)

The colors of your soul

The only thing

My everything

If you could save me

 I reach out for you  

No matter how

Close I’m now

You get farther away

 I reach out for you  

Between the shades of day and night

Color me in light

So I don’t lose my way

 Colors, colors

 A world of broken lines

Where empty pages lie

 Colors

Oh colors

Colors

 And if you take my hand

You’ll bring the missing colors back again

 I reach out for you  

No matter how

Close I’m now

You get farther away

 I reach out for you  

Between the shades of day and night

Color me in light

So I don’t lose my way

 I try to reach you

I try to reach you

So I don’t lose my way

 Colors, colors

Colors

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DAY6 - Afraid - ENGLISH COVER

I will not rest until I've covered every triple-knife-emoji DAY6 ballad.

As always, this is not a direct translation of the Korean lyrics, but more of a rewrite that hopes to capture the essence of the song. Thanks for your support! Love you all :)

Check out the lyric video here:

LYRICS (please credit if using!)

When I feel your heart beat beside me

I think of the selfish ways I have let you down

You used to look for the blue skies above me

Now you look at the ground under our feet

Now you look just like me

 You are like the moon lighting up the night sky

I am your darker side

These shadows in my mind

Creep in to dim out your light

little by little...

But even in the dark you look at me and smile

Even though you only known me for a while

I can’t bring back the days that you remember so well

I’m so afraid

I’m so afraid

That you’re turning into me

Should I hold on? Should I let you go free?

 You are like the moon lighting up the night sky

I am your darker side

These shadows in my mind

Creep in to dim out your light

little by little...

 But even in the dark you look at me and smile

Even though you only known me for a while

I can’t bring back the days that you remember so well

I’m so afraid

I’m so afraid

That you’re turning into me

Should I hold on? Should I let you go free?

 What should I do

All I do is hurt you baby

What should I do

But if you leave where would you leave me?

 I’m so afraid

I’m so afraid

 But even in the dark you look at me and smile

Even though you only known me for a while

I can’t bring back the days that you remember so well

I’m so afraid

I’m so afraid

That you’re turning into me

Should I hold on? Should I let you go free?

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An earlier draft of my English cover of NO SEPARATION / WU BIE 无别 from Heaven Official’s Blessing / Tian Guan Ci Fu / 天官赐福 with the show’s opening art. I can’t upload it to YouTube (thanks copyright system), but I always thought it was meant to be seen with the video for the full effect. 

As you may be able to tell, this version is not the recording you’ll hear on my YouTube / Soundcloud. It’s an earlier take, less “clean”, but I like it too! Sometimes those first takes are more raw and emotional, but mine are always filled with mic puffs and timing issues, hah. 

Thank you, as always, for listening to my work! Lyrics below the cut. :)

LYRICS (please credit if using!)

Delicate threads of my heartstrings in your bed

Cut away, leave the moon to dim my shame

Silver wings fly over fields of your goodbyes

I don’t cry tears of days that pass me by

Flowers turn to snow

Cities fill with ghosts

The light of love still burning in the cold

On a timeless face

Wears the change from white to gray

To meet again, defy our place in fate

When you walk away

All the flowers start to fade

In a glance, blooms the chance for happiness

When you say goodbye

I still chase after the high

Don’t let go, bittersweet will be my heart

Walk this road til we’re no longer apart

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Ah yes, the MXTX pain train continues. Today I bring you the first opening to TGCF/Heaven Official's Blessing. Basically the most gorgeous TV opening you've ever seen, right? I always knew I wanted to try to write some English lyrics to this song and here we are! As always, this is not a direct translation of the original Chinese lyrics, but more of a re-write. I focused more on invoking the same imagery and emotions. Thank you for your support! Oh, and you should absolutely watch TGCF if you haven't already. Well worth your time!

Check out the lyric video here: 

LYRICS (please credit if using!)

Delicate threads of my heartstrings in your bed

Cut away, leave the moon to dim my shame

Silver wings fly over fields of your goodbyes

I don’t cry tears of days that pass me by

 Flowers turn to snow

Cities fill with ghosts

The light of love still burning in the cold

On a timeless face

Wears the change from white to gray

To meet again, defy our place in fate

 When you walk away

All the flowers start to fade

In a glance, blooms the chance for happiness

When you say goodbye

I still chase after the high

 Don’t let go, bittersweet will be my heart

Walk this road til we’re no longer apart

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DAY6 - Like a flowing wind – [ENGLISH COVER] 

(A remastered version of an older cover. I’m spending this summer tweaking some old projects of mine. Very happy with how it came out!)

'Like a flowing wind' makes me FEEL THINGS. This idea of love as wind is just too beautiful to NOT write some English lyrics for. The instrumentation of this song is so freeing, like wind, yet so bittersweet (my favorite DAY6 flavor!) at the same time. Anyway, I love this song and I hope you enjoyed this cover. As always, please note this is not a direct translation of the Korean lyrics, more of an interpretation that strives to capture the imagery and emotions. Thank you for watching and listening!

Check out the lyric video here:

LYRICS (please credit if using)

I said I miss you

You said good night

You act like nothing happened

I pretend that I’m alright

 But now I'm alone and

The cracks have finally shown

I let myself break down

 Maybe why it hurts so much to feel

Is 'cause the love we had was real

I gave you everything I am

Trying to find what we lost on my own

I guess I should've known

 Love is like a flowing wind between my hands

Just passing through

I chase it forever

But I'll never catch you

 It’s the same wind that’ll touch you once

Then never again

You've thrown it your caution

And you've been swept away

Away

 You don't say you miss me

You don't have the time

And when you change the subject

I pretend that this is fine

 I could've swallowed my pride and tried

To do it over again

But I know that we've reached the end

 Maybe why this feels so hard to do

Is 'cause I tried my best for you

The hardest part is yet to come

Trying to quietly let your love go

I guess I should've known

 Love is like a flowing wind between my hands

Just passing through

I chase it forever

But I'll never catch you

 It’s the same wind that’ll touch you once

Then never again

You've thrown it your caution

And you've been swept away

 Away

Far away (far away)

Just like that you've gone

Away

 Love is like a flowing wind between my hands

Just passing through

I chase it forever

But I'll never catch you

 It’s the same wind that’ll touch you once

Then never again

You've thrown it your caution

And you've been swept away

 Away

Far Away

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I've been preparing my whole life for this moment!!!!

One day I said to myself, "hey it's pretty cool that Taylor Swift and BTS both have beautiful songs called Epiphany, maybe someone should do something with that". I just started singing Taylor's epiphany over Jin's instrumental and I was like... Oh my god this actually kind of fits??? And here we are! 

(Essentially I did just make a rock ballad version of 'epiphany', yes.)

Check out the Lyric Video here:

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Ah yes, Edelgard’s sad gay lament but I made it sadder and gayer. This was recorded last summer, but I’ve been hanging onto it for about 9 months! Not sure why—guess I just didn’t feel ready to release it out into the world. But here it is! This song slaps. It deserved a slowed down, lullaby-esque version so here I am, doing it myself.

Check out the lyric video here: 

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WU JI - The Untamed - English Cover

((Note: this is a repost, I’m moving all of my music to this account. Feel free to follow!))

After I finished watching The Untamed, I knew I had to write an English version of this magical song. I focused more on evoking the emotions and imagery of the original Chinese lyrics than providing a direct translation. I hope you like what I’ve done! ^^

Check out the lyric video here: 

LYRICS (please credit if using!)

Lonely the flute does sing Long are the nights it brings Paths made from right and wrong When I wake, our dreams are all but gone

To the world, you wear your sins upon your sleeve Bloodied blades grant your reprieve Mountains and seas Can you hear me? The echoes of our song will never leave

And as we pass through life in joy and in pain Watch the same moon wax and wane Though the wind carries your wings far and wide We sing under the same sky

Travel a thousand roads End with the lives you’ve owed Paths walked in right and wrong In my dreams, where memories belong

To the world, you wear your sins upon your sleeve Bloodied blades grant your reprieve Mountains and seas Do you hear me? The echoes of your smile will never leave

So raise a glass to life and its joy and pain Watch the moonlight wax and wane Let us brave the storm with hope by our side Singing our song to the sky

So raise a glass to life and its joy and pain Let the moonlight pave the way Won’t you walk the storm with your hand in mine? Singing our song to the sky