serena

to sirei, lucas and jonas—my lovely dogs, you will be missed forever.

[sereignity]

months happened, still feel like idk where im headed

am i surrounded by the wrong people?? am i actually okay tho?? i feel soo disappointed at myself for feeling like im stuck n rottinv the hell out of myself. i feel as though im not growing to my fullest potential and i know i can change for the better but my mindset—i just lost hope or for a lack of a better word, i feel utterly numb and just accepted whatever it is and i hate to feel like that. I DON'T WANNA SETTLE FOR LESS but i just—im just done. atp, idec what happens to me, i, can't even care for anyone bc im numb, apathetic and i feel everything and nothing at the same time. i just wanna observe, be nonexistent to everyone or maybe a hard reset??? yeah ok maybe i just want friends bc life keeps fucking me giving me nothing but friends, or problems ive dealt ever since who knows when and i feel useless, ugly, like really ugly and unworthy. i thought im done with these feeling esp those physical insecurities i can't get rid of. it's always been there and tbh idc abt my looks but God knows i will always crave to be seen as pretty and feel it, am i sooo sensitive that im craving for basic human decency or smth just missing in my life and idk what's the point of everything i just wanna end this and reincarnate or be nothing bye

[sereignity]

emails unsent (dear bangtan)

you know, how hardcore i was being your fan. i saw you that day being announced as someone who defeated famous artists at the billboard awards back in 2017, i thought “that can’t be, impossible really.” then i transferred schools, high school happened. everyone i befriended with loves u all, i remember saying i hate the likes of you. and then out of the blue, randomly thought “maybe i should give it a try” i wanted to surprise them that i knew your songs. my first clip of you was the blood, sweat and tears practice video and i remember mistaking jimin as jungkook. that was august of 2017. that night, i watched countless videos of yours. i was put in a place of safety, belonging and comfort. you’ve become my safe haven. everyone hates your success but look how far you’ve come. thinking back, so much memories, merchandise i had in those peak years of my teens. i’ve met wonderful people, friends that i have ‘till now. oh, how much i loved those years. but then my busy schedule got me and sadly, day by day, i don’t have time for you anymore. i don’t know how it happened but i was focused on my studies and the growing responsibilities i have after i turned 18, confusing career paths that i needed to decide—few of my friends have left while i watched my surroundings become more open to all of you. i was there, i remember it all too well how much loved you are by your fans and your countless awards that y’all deserve. it was like watching your favorite show being accepted by society. fast forward, life happened and im 19 now. it was an adventure i will cherish forever.

i will always treasure u for changing my life, you have made an impact on me no matter how many kpop groups i like. i may not be your fan anymore but i’ll forever support you on the sidelines—and i won’t forget my promise to myself years ago that even if i leave, i’ll attend to your concert because i want to fulfill the dream i had when i was 13. you healed me when i was at my lowest and so if there will be a time when the world forgets and doubts u, i will be there just like you did years ago.

[sereignity]

unis !! 🤍🎀🎧🩷

heyyaaa ! i discovered a new kpop girl group and i wanted to share it with y’all bcs their songs are too good to gatekeep it. please give it a listen 🫶🏻

if u want an anime-like rock song try this 👇🏻

give this a listen if u want some romance anime feels 👇🏻

[sereignity]

sharing my newly created playlist that i feel proud of 🩷🤍🎧~

[k2ils]

﹙★﹚ we fell in love in october that's whყ i love fall. ౨ৎ

𝟮 ┈ ⟡ i just wanna see ყou 🥂 shine cause i know ყou are a stargirl

🍨 𝒥 : oh cool, okaყ, oh cool !!

ᶻ𝘇𐰁 i watch the moon , 🍦 let it run my mood. ♡ ͡

ᜑ alwaყs the fool with the - - - 𓇼 slowest heart 💳

[masteraqua]

i flipping hate ao3's layout there's too many goddamn words

[masteraqua]

you know what i deserve this

[mikehellrs]

This is equivalent to Emperor Joseph II telling Mozart that his music had "too many notes".

[aroseforcaulfield]

Everytime I read Frankenstein, the same line makes me put the book down and stare at the wall. It’s my favorite line in the book; it has its own highlighter color in my annotations. The first time I read it, I literally detoured after my last class just to tell my lit teacher how much I liked the line because I couldn’t wait until second period the next day. Here’s the line:

“Life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it.”

This is said by the creature. He wanted to live. He wanted to live life so badly even though he had had such a difficult one. He still loved the song of the birds and the smell of the flowers and the joy in the world even if he never got to truly experience that joy. I just. AHHHH.

He wanted to fight for a life he never got to live.

[siesffuts]

A person who extolled such virtuous and admirable qualities born…well no not born but brought into a world with about as many hardships as one can expect. Sheesh Mary Shelly what an author.

[thoughtcascades]

I’m sorry if i seem weird it's because I literally am

[toastbutteregg]

[hoshingi]

[sereignity]

pigang-piga na'ko ng college teh, tipong nonchalant na ako sa kahit anong bagay, idk how to undo this, help !

[uchihaculture]

is THE best ship dynamic

[metriawaves]

packaged team, do not separate

[metriawaves]

feral look

[lucyheartfiliqx]

One of the best brotps, I don’t make the rules

[sereignity]

i have never thought this would be possible but fortunately, coincidence or not, you will never knew what's coming because the guy that i had liked, really really liked during my middle school, is now at the same school as mine after 8 years of not meeting him. and that guy, whom i've dedicated a song many times on repeat just for him, because that song conveyed the feelings i had for him back then—and now, ironically, the band that would be having a concert in our school will be the one that wrote that song that i have ever wanted for him to hear for years. it was like the moment where in those seamless crowd, you will know that he's there and i feel my heart sighing and the years of unrequited feelings of mine to rest peacefully as they ever play that one song that i know he'll be hearing it. even though it was in the past and i barely even care now, there's a deep subconscious part of me that can't still fully let go those feelings and memories of him. my missed opportunity of not confessing to him because it terrified me. all those years im pining for him, those countless love letters, those visits of him in our house—all those jealousy that i can't express when my bff and him became a couple. no one knew my feelings for him. he was a bully but he has a heart. i truly liked him, i believe there's also a thin line of me falling in love with him. all those build ups for this day to come, that this song will be my missed confession that i've alway regretted not saying. in a way a closure, a chapter closed of my middle school.

to that guy, i liked you so much i never thought i can feel that way for a person. you were my first love even if it's unrequited—i hated you, i hate how you always tease me. i don't know how it came to this—me liking you that started with hate. i was so jealous of my bestfriend, that you became a couple and how you express those lovely things for her that i can only wish for me. that time was so difficult for me because i can't express my feelings and it hurts so much suppressing it. you were my first love and my first heartbreak. you taught me what it feels like to like someone. i had dreamt of you for years even if we already separated ways. that's how hard for me to move on from you. you're such a bittersweet memory that i can't help to remember. this will be the last time that i'll remember those feelings again, i want to fully let you go. that concert will be the closure of my feelings, and i hope someday—the first unrequited love of mine would be reciprocated by someone.

this is the song btw:)

[buffysummers]

Maybe we should just stay here, Harry. Grow old.