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thinking about kevin sitting alone in his bed watching trojan games (because he obviously watches every single one) and seeing how healthy jean looks and how smooth his movements are and the way he smiles at teammates and doesnt check too hard and still does raven maneuvers but in his own special way and how he’s clearly not playing in pain and how tan and strong he’s gotten and just feeling his chest tighten because. there are so many feelings there. of course he’s happy for him. of course he is. but there’s a wretched swirl of jealousy there too. parts of his insides feel rotten because he has no right to this jealousy, he has no claim to jean anymore. he has no right to wish he healed even a fraction of how much jean seems to have healed. he sent him to the trojans so that he COULD heal, he has no RIGHT to be upset that its happening. but that doesnt stop the conflicting feelings of relief and longing

pansyfemme

yes im addicted to attention and orgasms and food and shiny jewlery and 7$ Iced Lattes. does that really not sound like an awesome lifestyle to you

#I like colourful jewellery and thick hoodies and fat books!!!!!#and sweet fruit and dark chocolate and hot drinks!!!!!#and overpriced coffee and laughing too loud and staying up too late!!!!!!!!

whimsical-dreamgirl

Had to remake this bc they tagged as a maturity thing idk it’s bs… ANYWAY, I love Neil so much it’s crazy he’s so awesome and lowk unhinged it’s iconic

snakebites-and-ink

Former living weapon absolutely dominating at laser tag

#1000% murderbot

ast-popil

—You're late today...

— But I'm back. Right?

—Yes.♥️

kiisaes

everyone eat more vegetables NOW!!! and mention the last vegetable you ate in the tags so we're all on the buddy system. I'll start: bok choy

#fried tomatoes my beloved <3

specialagentartemis

Thinking about it, and I’d like to forward the idea that prejudice against single people (aromantics, asexuals, and also just… anyone who does not have a romantic partner) follows dynamics less like anti-queer bigotry and more akin to anti-fat bigotry.

Fatness, like singlehood, is seen at large as a state of failure. Everybody is supposed to want to be [thin / partnered], and if you are not, that is a personal failure on your part, and you are pathetic and mock-worthy. The popular idea is that of course everybody wants to be [thin / partnered], and everybody is striving towards the goal, and anybody who is not [thin / partnered] is either temporarily inconvenienced on their way to correctness, or has something fundamentally wrong with them. And because [fatness / singlehood] is something that is treated as fixable, if you have not fixed it, then there is something wrong with you—and thus discriminating against you is acceptable, because your [fatness / singlehood] is based on your own bad choices.

The world is, in some cases quite literally, not built for fat or single people. If you are fat or single, the world is much more difficult or expensive to live in, because it is structurally designed for the assumption that you are thin or that you have a partner. The normative Person, after all, is thin and romantically partnered. If you are not thin or not romantically partnered, there is something fundamentally less human about you.

[Fatness / singlehood] is something embarrassing, something worth mocking others over, something that reflects your fundamental unworthiness. Every fictional hero is thin, every fictional happy ending ends with romance. Everyone in your life is either quietly or not-so-quietly worried about you.

And all this is fine and acceptable. Because in the general perception, [fatness / singlehood] is not a real axis of bigotry. It’s a choice! You could just become a different person and stop being [fat / single]! You deserve the mockery, the derision, the attempts to fix you, the world not accommodating you, because you could just become a better person and stop being [fat / single] at any point. So it’s your own fault people treat you badly, really.

#OOF YEAH #I am fat queer and single #and I have always been all of those things #and I've only been made to feel broken because of two of them

devi-lishly

Okay but have we considered Neil who has insomnia that leads to hallucinations. I'm talking hearing footsteps, seeing people and things move right out of the corner of his eye but when he turns there's no one there, feeling people touch him or gently run their fingers along him. And of course the hallucinations make sleep about 10x harder, so it's a never ending cycle until Andrew finds a way to put Neil to sleep (once it was laying in bed with him and talking softly, another time it was just standing guard while Neil slept, and another time it was Andrew laying partially on top of Neil like a human weighted blanket)

piwonplaylist

may i present kevjean yuri

betterluck

sadist!jean hating and denying himself because he thinks that his desires make him like riko. masochist!neil feeling disgusted with himself because he’s been through so much how can he possibly want to be hurt. both of them being completely unable to communicate their needs because how do you ask that of someone you love when you’ve lived the lives they have?

rosaceaeart

Bus ride

(Photo credit to Nikki)

schnuspi

Dont look at me like that. I am not your answer and you sure as fuck aren’t mine.

liache

i love that we and cats share pareidolia (seeing patterns where they dont exist), but instead of seeing faces in everyday objects like us, they see snakes

that computer cord? snake. string? small snake. cucumber? short fat straight snake

yiffmaster

snake pareidolia is one of the strongest things in human minds too! people report freezing mid-stride before being consciously aware of a snake in front of them, and the same happens with coiled rope, etc. in humans and other primates. it’s even been proposed that the need to detect snakes was a factor in the development of primates’ insanely good color eyesight

ehlbee

It’s because snakes are wonderful and we must stop and admire them at any cost

#......huh #Ireland is one of the only countries in the world with no native snake species #so coming across a real actual snake outside on the ground is wild to me #like I've never experienced this because it would never occur to me that coming across a snake is a thing that actually happens

wisjncz2

yuumei-art

This is basically how my huskies see themselves when they try to hunt deer in the forest behind our house. And they would have succeeded too if it wasn't for that meddling fence! The full hours long art videos, HD image and PSD files will be DMed on my Patreon on Dec 5th :)