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And then you can’t even say shit about bc people start trying to put you in a jacket and shit. Like omg it’s so strict???

sigunnlafeyson

pray for Merlin

wovi

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joy sullivan

stumbled back into aftg fics yesterday and perhaps….everything that matters will get an update

#first and last time i post an unfinished fic

dontwaitfortuesday

on life and hope Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934/ Cueva de las Manos, Argentina/ Neil Hilborn, Numbered Days/ Unknown

max-worm

oblivious neil/jealous andrew but it's not just andrew who gets jealous. all the foxes see some guy flirting with neil, and every single one of them immediately starts to intervene because hey wtf you can't do that! that's neil! neil is andrew's! this cannot happen it is preposterous get away from him!!???

therottingbones-sys

dehumanization as horror is great and all but what about humanization as horror. Being forced into a role that was not made for you. Being forced to fulfill expectations that you can never achieve. Being made to exist in a society that so cruelly expects you to act in a way that is against your nature.

romanceyourdemons

guy currently hurtling toward a migraine at a rate that would impress most astrophysicists: i wonder wgat is happening in my beautiful telephone

enjoying my canadiana travel day of flying to another province to drive back into my original province and then get on a boat to reach the final destination. and all of this is still faster than driving

lefresne

if she’s your girl why am I wearing her favour at the tournament

starsworth

i honestly think if mary was presumed dead but showed up post-foxes beating the ravens game that neil would have a fucking heart attack and freak out if she so much as Looked at andrew. she would turn up and neil would immediately be possessed by his entire life worth of mommy issues and as such would seem to be acting So Weird to the other foxes but andrew who Knows The Most about neil's mommy issues is reaching for his knives like Sigh, Here We Go Again, Miss Neil's Mother I Need You To Drive Me Somewhere and mary is like Abram Who Is This Young Knife-Wielding Man and neil is frothing at the mouth like No One He Is Most Absolutely Definitely No One Important At All while vibrating at the speed of light. and ofc in this scenario mary is obviously going to try to get neil to leave with her and neil is like No Im Gonna Stay and mary is immediately like. i see. which one is it. then surveys all the girls like this 😐 until she swiftly decides allison is a no, dan is a maybe, and renee is the most likely option for the girl who has Bewitched Her Son. while neil is like Mom Stop Embarrassing Me Also No Don't Kill Her It's Not Her and then andreil do something weird in front of her and she pauses and stares and is like. wait. boys? and neil is like. well....A Boy. just One Boy. and mary is like 😐 and it just happens to be the One Boy with knives. so you have learned nothing from my mistakes. and neil experiences for the very first time what it's like to be so humiliated by a parent that he considers death as a swift and valid form of escape from the situation.

pontmercii

I'm rewatching BBC Merlin after 84 years and god, I actually forgot how much they just loved eachother. Like, it was not fun and games it was real. They Loved eachother. For real. From the very beginning. It was visceral and deep and violent and as easy as breathing for them. There's something about you Merlin, I can't quite put my finger on it. He may be an idiot but he's a brave one. Is it my imagination or are you beginning to enjoy yourself? The half cannot truly hate what makes it whole. I want you to swear to me that what you're telling me is true - I believe you. You can trust me. If I don't get the antidote, what happens to him? I can save him. Please Father. He saved my life. I can't stand by and watch him die. You can't stop me. Leave them Arthur, go, save yourself. Follow the light. Just make sure the antidote gets to him, I'm begging you. Someone knew I was in trouble and sent a light to guide the way. Arthur, thank you. I'm going to be sick actually what the fuck.