if we have talked on here or interacted in any way pls read this to see why i will never post again, or if you wouldn’t like to do that no hard feelings i understand and hope u know that i am grateful for u ❤️ tw:suicide
so i want to start off with that ive been planning this since November and suicidal thoughts has been something ive been dealing with since I was about 16. i have talked in various suicide forums to vent and get help so i don’t hurt myself and it worked for a while. i thought that maybe i could get better and not have to take this route but that is not the case. the fact is that i’ll be dead in a couple of hours and i wanted to tell everyone here so they don’t think i vanished out of thin air.
i appreciate everyone who talked to me and made me feel like i could do things with my life and i feel like i have let those people down. unfortunately there were a lot of things i looked forward to but now there’s nothing for me, i also don’t wanna live a life like this, it hurts, it hurts me.
thank you to everyone who spoke to me and made me feel like i mattered, i appreciate it. i know this is going to hurt several people but the one who will be affected the most by this is @bagebee so please send them love and try to be a friend, they have been my dear friend for years and deserve every kind message of support. thank you ❤️
im sorry if this has made anyone uncomfortable but i needed to share my thoughts before i end it. thank you all for listening to me, i love you
