.living the fujoshi life

if you're following eorzeanmoths and are getting messages and likes from this loser, it's because that is a side blog. this is my main. we are one. moth // 23 // ♌ // ♀ fanartist // roleplayer // chronic shipper ♥♥♥

[shikipyon]

im tired.

so y’all probably noticed that i haven’t posted here in… pretty much years. here, or my ffxiv tumblr, or my art tumblr, or… anywhere, really. i think it’s about time i explain why.

tl;dr: ghosting.

i had good friends. really good friends. i loved them to bits, i’d do anything in my power to help them in any way i can. idk if it’s because of past associations or maybe i was too enthusiastic with my care that it became too much, but we ended up distancing. a lot. i don’t blame them in the least– if anything, i blame myself. i ended up falling into a deep depression after that, and while i won’t go into the details, let’s just say it ended with me being in more than one abusive friendship/relationship and i ended up at a point of becoming suicidal.

thankfully, i’ve never acted on such thoughts, but i still had those thoughts. every time i looked at a knife or my mom’s medication, i wondered, ‘…what if…?’. the only thing that kept me from buying a gun was the price. it scared me. it still scares me that i had those thoughts and i couldn’t do anything to fix it because, y’know, getting help costs money. money we can’t afford to throw away. so i suffered in silence. and when i was done with that, i slowly learned and matured, doing my best to pick myself up, piece by piece.

and i think it worked.

i’m happier now. i don’t have many friends, but the few i do confide in are precious to me. i have a girlfriend who i’ve been with for almost a year now, and i love her more than anything. i’m slowly paying off my debts– one will be completely paid off next month. i have a steady, well-paying job, i’ve been going to the gym to lose weight (bc i ended up putting on like 40-50 pounds due to my depression, go figure), i’ve just been working hard to become a me that i can be proud of.

so why the title?

because, in a way, i’m still attached to this tumblr. to my ffxiv tumblr. to my art tumblr. to everything that only gives me bittersweet memories and leaves me in tears at night. and i’m tired. i don’t WANT to cry anymore. i don’t WANT to think of my previous friends and only feel betrayal and self hate. i only want to think of the good times, even if they were forced on their end. so i’m abandoning this tumblr. the ffxiv one. the art one. i’m starting anew.

if y’all are interested, i’ll be over at mothisms. it’s empty now, but i’ll be utilizing it as a catch all, like this tumblr was meant to be. i’ll be using it to post my interests, my artwork, my adventures in ffxiv, my day-to-day life– maybe not so much the last one, i have a twitter for that. you don’t have to come here with me, but if you do, i just have one rule: just be you. just be yourself, like i’m trying to be.

and if you don’t want to follow, that’s perfectly okay. i wish you all the best and that only happiness comes your way. and maybe, one day, our paths will cross again. ‘til then, keep on keeping on.

- Moth

[shikipyon]

sorry for the reblog. i had originally intended for the username above to be the name of my new tumblr, but since it was the name of my old art blog, tumblr wasn’t having it for a day.

but now it was available and i changed it appropriately. please follow mothisms if you wanna continue following me.

[shikipyon]

im tired.

so y’all probably noticed that i haven’t posted here in... pretty much years. here, or my ffxiv tumblr, or my art tumblr, or... anywhere, really. i think it’s about time i explain why.

tl;dr: ghosting.

i had good friends. really good friends. i loved them to bits, i’d do anything in my power to help them in any way i can. idk if it’s because of past associations or maybe i was too enthusiastic with my care that it became too much, but we ended up distancing. a lot. i don’t blame them in the least-- if anything, i blame myself. i ended up falling into a deep depression after that, and while i won’t go into the details, let’s just say it ended with me being in more than one abusive friendship/relationship and i ended up at a point of becoming suicidal.

thankfully, i’ve never acted on such thoughts, but i still had those thoughts. every time i looked at a knife or my mom’s medication, i wondered, ‘...what if...?’. the only thing that kept me from buying a gun was the price. it scared me. it still scares me that i had those thoughts and i couldn’t do anything to fix it because, y’know, getting help costs money. money we can’t afford to throw away. so i suffered in silence. and when i was done with that, i slowly learned and matured, doing my best to pick myself up, piece by piece.

and i think it worked.

i’m happier now. i don’t have many friends, but the few i do confide in are precious to me. i have a girlfriend who i’ve been with for almost a year now, and i love her more than anything. i’m slowly paying off my debts-- one will be completely paid off next month. i have a steady, well-paying job, i’ve been going to the gym to lose weight (bc i ended up putting on like 40-50 pounds due to my depression, go figure), i’ve just been working hard to become a me that i can be proud of.

so why the title?

because, in a way, i’m still attached to this tumblr. to my ffxiv tumblr. to my art tumblr. to everything that only gives me bittersweet memories and leaves me in tears at night. and i’m tired. i don’t WANT to cry anymore. i don’t WANT to think of my previous friends and only feel betrayal and self hate. i only want to think of the good times, even if they were forced on their end. so i’m abandoning this tumblr. the ffxiv one. the art one. i’m starting anew.

if y’all are interested, i’ll be over at mothisms. it’s empty now, but i’ll be utilizing it as a catch all, like this tumblr was meant to be. i’ll be using it to post my interests, my artwork, my adventures in ffxiv, my day-to-day life-- maybe not so much the last one, i have a twitter for that. you don’t have to come here with me, but if you do, i just have one rule: just be you. just be yourself, like i’m trying to be.

and if you don’t want to follow, that’s perfectly okay. i wish you all the best and that only happiness comes your way. and maybe, one day, our paths will cross again. ‘til then, keep on keeping on.

- Moth

[tuftananke-deactivated20221219]

When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy. Then, send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously. You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity!

(Omg THERE ARE THREE OF THEM.)

♪ - Figure skating. I just moved up to the competitive figure skating world and I practice too much and I have off-ice conditioning and on-ice practice 5-7 days a week and I LOVE IT. It’s going to kill me, but it’s so worth it.

♪ - Art and drawing. I like to doodle, I like draw, I’m still working on improving and finding styles and all that, but I like the experience. I’m failing my 10 pieces in March plan because I’m waiting for a new graphics card to draw on a real computer, but I still am doing the do.

♪ - Reading. Real live bibliophile, cannot survive without books. I read a little bit before bed every night (unless I am exceptionally tired) and I only missed book club by 12 Oaks because I was on the ice.

♪ - My dog. I have a great big Greater Swiss Mountain Dog, and he’s a chatty dork that loves to cuddle and by cuddle I mean smother me.

♪ - Most important of all, my roleplaying friends. I value their friendship SO MUCH, I value their time, I value their creativity and storylines. I value their characters, I value their backstories, I love them to bits and pieces

Keep reading

[shikipyon]

TUFT WHAT THE FUCK YOURE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY AT WORK (sup dis leelee)

[silverskins]

when you wanna talk about one of your fav nsfw headcanons but you can’t handle people knowing the level of your sin

[as-warm-as-choco]

Why haven’t I seen this Amazon Japan commercial yet ? Nefeli, explain. It’s been 10 days since its release and has a dog in it.  >_<

[cutiebum]

AHHH

[hexensaber]

[weloveshortvideos]

This dog sucks at fetch

[cachorritx]

“WHO FUCKING THREW THIS.”

[blindbee]

[avodaco]

me when i get my student loan

[g8dtier]

this is the money cat. reblog in 30 seconds and you will find yourself with more wealth

[strikercorbie]

#this is the only money cat i will reblog because it’s actually doing the manekineko pose151,646 notes (via lolwhutninja)

OMG YOU’RE RIGHT

[nonespark-blog]

and it has its right paw up! the correct paw for this. and from the markings on its ears, it looks like it might be a calico cat. which is the luckiest kind!

[carrionbeast]

extremely lucky cat

[ladynorbert]

I don’t even care if it actually works, I’m mostly reblogging because it’s freaking adorable.

[sweet-cherry-fairy-deactivated2]

cute cat and need money, good post, 10/10

[allthenamesilikearetaken]

in case anyones interested in the other versions

http://www.namaii.com/manekineko/maneki-neko-types.html

[mmusclechan]

Y’know I reblogged this a bit ago and was saved from financial probation and getting kicked out of school because of it, just mere months from graduation. Got a call from the financial aid advisor telling me that they made a mistake with filing my account (or some other sort of clerical error) and said that, basically, they owe me money. Welp.

[winjennster]

Last time I reblogged the money cat, I won two $100 gift cards at work.

[peachymints]

I play a very dangerous game

it’s not my fault people have the gall to make attractive OCs

[girugin]

@vine-the-healer

Oh look it Us.

[thewormwood]

@silverruby

[silverruby]

Oh. LOOOOOOOOOOOL well… YOU GOT DIBS??!! 8′D

[the-dead-witch-blog]

@dantinmikannes ⚈ ̫ ⚈

[naihtan-deactivated20161019]

……… Thats me

[tetenuko-deactivated20250618]

I’m doing a tiny little giveaway for those on BALMUNG,  much larger giveaways will happen later on for everyone as I catch up to my 1500 follower milestone. But for now simply reblog or like to enter for a chance to win a primal minion of your choice.

Winner will be selected at random on April 8th.

[linalexandra-ffxiv-deactivated2]

Sounds fun!

[butch-king-frankenstein]

Petition to sit down all the people who make coma theories about Adventure Time and tell them “listen, this fucking show is about the last human living in a post-apocalyptic world where deadly magic has been reawakened following a global thermonuclear war that wiped out the rest of the human species, how much fucking darker do you want it to be”

[ubercream]

Even though I thought my first Creative Writing professor was kind of a douche, he made a good point about this. One of our first assignments was to write in this eerie, otherworldly style (we were mimicking a specific author whose name escapes me), so we had to write about eerie otherworldly things happening. It’s no exaggeration to say that more than half the class had a “big reveal” where we find out that the story’s strange events and themes are all in the mind of some person in an insane asylum, or someone having a drug trip.

My professor said something like, “you just successfully wrote a world that feels separate from our own, but got frightened last minute and shoe-horned in normalcy. You showed that you were afraid to commit to something different and interesting.” Though I’m typically a contrarian and a piece of garbage, I am inclined to agree with my professor. I feel like people who write coma theories and the like are afraid to accept that the world of the story is separate from our own. They like everything wrapped up in this crazy little realism box where nothing out of the ordinary happens in fiction.

[butch-king-frankenstein]

you win the Best Addition to a Post prize

[ubercream]

Thank you :)

[athenaltena]

This pretty well hits the nail on the head as to why I generally hate coma/dream theories and people who think they’re so fucking deep for coming up with it. In my book it’s LAZY, plain and simple.

[floatinggoathead]

[floatinggoathead]

look at this dipshit

[youaremyeverlovin]

she fetched the WHOLE TREE!! !!!

[vetroci]

Sailor Moon Crystall Season 3 - All New Transformations

An intern at Toei must’ve tripped and knocked some money off the Precure stack into the Sailor Moon Crystal box.

[thewinterotter]

Posted by Steven Payne to Facebook group British Medieval History:

People in the Middle Ages valued sweet smelling breath and bodies, seeing them as desirable, so there is a great deal of evidence from the period of tooth pastes, powders and deodorants. Contrary to the typical Hollywood depiction of medieval peasants with blackened and rotting teeth, the average person had teeth which were in fairly good condition, mainly due to the rarity of sugar in the diet. Most medieval people could not afford sugar and those who could used it sparingly. Archaeological data shows that only 20% of teeth had signs of decay, as opposed to 90% in the early twentieth century. The main dental problem for medieval people was not decay but wear, due to a high content of grit in the main staple, bread. For deodorants, soap was available for the wealthy, but a variety of herbs and other preparations were also used. Soapwort is a plant native to Europe and Asia which, when soaked in water, produces an effective liquid soap. Mint, cloves and thyme were also extensively used by simply rubbing into the skin, and alum (hydrated potassium aluminium sulphate) was an effective deodorant. I am trying to keep to 14th century technology on my pilgrimage to Canterbury, which gives me various options when looking at hygiene. In the middle ages people generally cleaned their teeth by rubbing them and their gums with a rough linen cloth, or the chewed end of a stick. There are various recipes for pastes and powders that could be put on the cloth to help clean the teeth, but I have chosen simple salt to whiten them and to aid fresh breath. I will also be using the stick method, and will be taking along a supply of liquorice root sticks for that purpose. I also have a few blocks of alum, which when rubbed into wet skin has a deodorising effect. Alum, like beeswax, was used extensively in the middle ages for a variety of purposes, also being useful: * in the purification of drinking water as a flocculant * as a styptic to stop bleeding from minor cuts * as a pickling agent to help keep pickles crisp * as a flame retardant * as an ingredient in modelling clay * as an ingredient in cosmetics and skin whiteners * as an ingredient in some brands of toothpaste The photograph shows my wash kit including home made olive oil soap, salt for the teeth, a block of deodorising alum, cloves, a boxwood comb made for me by Peter Crossman of Crossman Crafts and some liquorice root sticks, all on a woollen ‘towel’. Note that the cloves are kept in a ventilated box….this is because insects hate the smell of cloves and so a perforated box will keep them out of my kit and food bag when I am sleeping rough. TIP: If you steep some cloves to obtain the oil and put the liquid around the doors and windows of your house, it keeps spiders and insects out.

[rosslynpaladin]

Pay attention medieval-ish fantasy authors-  filthy people without any cleaning or self care is Not Historical.

[torn-by-dreams]

Fantasize about your dashing medieval man with confidence! Lo, how he does not smell like a bag of dead hamsters!

[equalistmako]

a ship is a pairing you look at and go “wow cute! this is hecka rad~”, but an otp is a pairing you see one day and suddenly your entire world crumbles around you and all the blood leaves your face and eventually you’re left lying in the rubble that was once your life and wondering what you did to deserve this hell

[staff]

Holy moly, replies are back

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[shikipyon]

well these were the last things i expected to see at customer service today

[paxamericana]

[thatsthat24]

I knew Bernie Sanders was secretly Mary Poppins